It's not in this chapter, but the next has it. There are sexual references in here though. Also, two more chapters until the book is finished. I can't believe it.
Awkward was an understandment when we entered the twin's berthroom. Ratchet had just dropped the bomb that we needed to have sex to fix my predicament. The second kicker of this whole thing was we needed to bond which seemed to be a big thing to them. That's what worried me. I didn't know if I was good enough for them.
Yes, they both love me dearly but was it a good choice to do something that is a big deal to them? It bothered me, the thought of not being enough for them in the end. They would leave to find another to satisfy them since I wasn't good the one.
A gently touch to my shoulder snapped me out of my thoughts. My eyes wandered up to the golden bot with his concerned gaze on me. His optics were silently asking me if I was alright. Was I? Physically, by what Ratchet said, I was but mentally after all that has been put on me. I was uncertain how this would play out for the better or worse. "Yeah, I am. Just have a lot on my mind and I'm still glowing like a glow stick," I muttered and leaned in his touch.
Being in contact with him helped with the overwhelming heat wave going on inside of me. Then I realized that Sides had been extremely quiet and keeping his distance. It was the complete opposite of Sides that I know; what was going on with him? "Sides? What's wrong?"
There was something obvious up with him and it was definitely making me worry about him. His optics snapped to look at me and inside of them was guilt. "This is all my fault," he mumbled and picked at the paint on his arms. What?
I shook my head in disagreement. "It's not your fault," I retaliated and glanced up at Sunny to see what his features were displacing. Sorrow and understandment were in his optics. Why would he feel that way? Did I do something wrong?
Sides whimpered and slumped his shoulder down, looking defeated. "But it is. If I didn't put you in my spark chamber, you would never be in this situation in the first place," he explained his reasoning and couldn't lift his optics from the cracked concrete.
The poor mech blamed himself for my predicament. I peered up Sunny and we nodded in understandment of what I needed to do. "Sides, honey, come here." I motioned for him to come over to him. He shook his head to deny my command but my eyes narrowed and reluctantly followed through.
Sunstreaker lifted me up in his servo to be eye level with Sides, I silently thanked the mech. I softly gripped the plating of his cheeks and tugged him closer to me. Once his face was where I wanted, I rested my forehead against him, eyes closed. "Sides, this is none of your fault. You did what you believed was right. And I'm fine! Ratchet said so and I trust him. See this-" I pointed towards my glowing chest and arms- "as a good thing. Some higher being wanted us to be together."
No, I didn't believe in God, himself or herself. What I did believe in was a higher being though. Someone or being to ensure everything didn't all go to crap.
Underneath my hands, I felt the plating moving upward, meaning he was smiling. "Both of you got me to safety and that's all that matters. Or least to me. I don't know about you two," I finished my small speech and reopened my eyes to stare intently into the blue orbs of his.
His smile was still there, reassuring me what I had said had helped his ridiculous thoughts. "I like to see you smiling, means I'm doing something right," I joked and placed a quick kiss on the tip of what looked to be his nose.
The blue in his optics seemed to light up even more and the corners of his lips tilting up even more. Even though moments before this, I was scared Ratchet was going to tell me I was dying; as their girlfriend, I had a duty to ensure they were happy and content.
At least, I think that's what you're supposed to do. There have been only two boyfriends throughout my entire dating history. My mom had scarred me into being alone for the rest of my working life.
"You being with us is all that we ask for," Sunny joined in after a couple of moment of silence. I couldn't stop the corners of my mouth tilting up towards the sky if I tried.
Sides chuckled at his twin's words and stared passed me to him. "You know that was cliché, right?" I realized it was and laughed along with him. The dreadful and unwelcome moment had passed and in settled happiness.
Now it was time to face the elephant in the room. Or tomorrow we could do that. Tonight was plenty tiring to me. Without having to say a word to any of them, they knew how I was feeling and went back to their respected berths. It took a while for sleep to take me with my thoughts running all over the place. Nether the less, it came and took me away.
Day was here a few hours later and Lennox had been told by Optimus. Those three were the only ones outside of our group that knew what was happening… and boy was Will not anywhere pleased with the situation. He was scared about my health and it was understandable.
No one stopped him from giving the Terror Twins an earful though. When he was angry, it was best just let him to rant until his energy ran out. Luckily for me, it was mostly directed at the two. I did feel bad though. Said emotion was felt by the red frontliner and I received a cheeky smirk for some reason. In return, Will yelled at him for that.
A good twenty minutes of completely shouting passed until he had nothing else to say. His eyes were glued onto them with fire flickering in them. Can't wait for Anna gets a boyfriend or girlfriend or anyone in between and the two break up. Threats and yelling were going to be seen in a foreseeable future.
I rubbed at my ears as if I lost my hearing. "Welp, I can no longer hear," I teased the still pissed off major. Will turned to me slow and menacingly. "What do you got to say to me?" I'm just poking the bee's nest now.
He opened his mouth to say something but I beat him to the punch. "I'm fine. Ratchet says so and he'll keep an eye on me to ensure I stay that way. Will, I'm happy and content with where my life is right now and I'm not going to let you interfere with that."
A glare set at me as he internally decided to speak more or end the conversation right there. "Alright, I give, I give. But! If you hurt her in any shape or form, you won't be able to get away from my wrath. Nowhere in this universe will you be able to stay safe if she is injured," Will threatened before exiting the room angrily. We pissed him off beyond belief.
"That went better than expected," Ratchet broke the silent that hung over us after the major left. "Can't wait until he when learns of how to 'help' with your situation." Ah, yeah that. It was only the morning after the scare I gave the three mechs and that was still fresh in our minds. We hadn't spoke a word about it until he brought it up.
Ratchet noticed how quiet we were doing and looked at us annoyed. "Have you three not at least talked about interfacing? The longer you put this off could possible cause pain for you, Aubrey. It will put a strain on the connection," he said irritated with our actions, or for better terms, lack of action.
"Old friend, this is all new and completely different for all of them. They are unsure about approaching the situation and will take time to ease into it," Optimus came to our rescue and implied for the medic to back off of our back.
Said mech scoffed and rolled his optics. "It's going to happen one way or another. That's all I'm saying and they need to get it done as soon as possible," Ratchet gave an excuse.
Optimus chuckled at his friend's antic and led him out of the room after giving us a knowing look. I groaned and slid down in my seat until my back was flat against the seat. "That looks comfortable," Sunny retorted and crossed his arms.
"Ratchet's right, we don't know how we are going to, you know. And this isn't like your normal everyday intercourse. Because I don't know if you have before but I have never had to ever do something like this in my life. I never thought I would have to!" My frustration and hints of fear were evident in my voice.
I placed a hand on my face in irritation and closed my eyes to stop any tears from falling. "We're all in the same ship, Brey. We never done this before. It's a onetime thing. We'll get over this little bump in the road. But taking Hatchet's words to spark, we need to do this soon," Sides spoke up and sounded like he moved closer to me.
He was right. My fear was the one holding me back and probably them two. Like Ratchet said, it's going to happen one way or another. That's how fate works in her mysterious ways.
"I know, I know," I mumbled and finally got off of the chair, eyes peering up at the two. "Do you…-" can't believe what I was about to say- "do you want to try tonight?" I nervously offered and changed my gaze to the concrete floor. It was hard to get that off my chest.
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw smiles adorn their features. The two glanced at each other and nodded without saying a word to the other. "Yes, Brey. And we'll take it as slow as you want to," they agreed in unison. It was a little creepy hearing them say the same words at the same time. But never the less, it had its own uniqueness to it.
Now figuring that out with them, it was going to be on my mind for the rest of the day. It didn't help that I had to make my decision of joining the team tomorrow. Which I did have my decision already made but wanted to wait until the faithful day.
Throughout the day, the three of us hung around the base. I could feel the tension and unease between us. Just the thought of trying and possibly going through with it sent a shiver down my spine. My eyes instinctively glanced between the two of them and I bit a little nervously at my lip.
They must have felt my gaze on them and turned to me. Our gazes met for a quick second each but I stared back at the T.V. to act like nothing happened. The emotion on and color of my face told anyone else around me otherwise.
Smirk grew on their faces and the red on my face darkened even more in reaction. I felt a snap of cockiness go through me and immediately locked eyes with Sides. God, damnit. "Is someone feeling flustered?" Sides teased then leaned closer towards me.
My eyes widened to the size of dinner plates at his words. "Sides!" I whined and buried my face into my hands in embarrassment. Said mech chuckled at my antics nuzzled his nose into my side. A cold feeling washed over me the moment he made contact with me and helped with the heat staying steady inside of me.
Unintentionally, I groaned at the soothing feeling and leaned into his touch. His lips tilted up slightly at my actions. "If you keep that up, our plans for tonight might turn into now," he whispered against me.
Shock of his words embraced me as my mouth hung down yet I didn't move away from him. I turned to peer up at his brother. "Did you just hear what he said? Unbelievable," I muttered and shook my head.
Sunny laughed at my words gave my head two short pats in condolence. I gave him a pout and a look that said 'really?'All I got in return was a smirk with underlining meaning to it.
About ten minutes passed and Sides was still pressed up against my side, not a peep came from him. Then I realized the mech was asleep, his optics were off and the soft vents from him verify my suspicion. "He's asleep," I stated the obvious to the yellow frontliner.
"I don't blame him. Ever since we rescue you, he's been on edge and barely recharging which effects me as well. Then he learned of your situation and that's what broke him. He blames himself for what you're going through… He's scared that what his actions could possible do to you, especially the thought of it offlining you," Sunny explained and got off of the Cybertronian sized couch he was lounging on.
Carefully as to not wake his twin, he sat down next to Sides and leaned against the metal coffee table. Guilt rose inside of me again. Sides told me about feeling responsible for what happened to me. I didn't blame him though. Fate wanted to do her thing and made sure that I have this connection with him.
Then the thought about having a connection with Sunny came to mind. I felt bad that I just realized it was just one of them that I this with, not both. "What do you think about all of this? If you could, would you switch positions with him?" I questioned, nervous about his opinion.
"I'm content and happy at least one of us has a bond or whatever it is with you. It's better than none. Though, switching positions with him? I would be acting the same way after learning what after affects were," he answered but not the second completely.
"Do you think there is a way besides having sex to have a connection with you as well?" I wanted to know his thoughts about it. It's not like I want to not have sex with them, it was the fear of them seeing my scarred and ugly body.
His brows furrowed together in a silent question on why I was asking him that. "Ratchet says that is the way. I trust his word and wouldn't want to risk anything besides what he says on a 'I guess'." He did have a point but I did have an idea on avoiding sex. "You have an idea, I can tell."
I nodded my head to confirm his statement. "I do. It's simple and straightforward. Just copy what happened between Sides and me." His optics narrowed at my words and I knew he disagreed with my idea.
"Ratchet would have offered that idea if it was a possibility or safe. The first time of being in contact with Sides spark should have killed you. You heard that from Hatchet himself. Adding in mine could be the kicker of all of this."
"He also did say my body has accepted Sides' spark essence but it craves more. It feels like there's something missing and I think it's you," I countered and pointed out the small spot inside of me that feels empty.
"Brey, what you're asking from me is dangerous. I don't ever want to accidently hurt or injure you in anyway shape or form." I sighed and decided to drop the subject. I couldn't force him to do something he didn't want to do and that was finally.
Off to my right, Sides moved slightly in his slumber but didn't wake. Subconsciously, I rubbed the heel of my hand against my sternum. Then I noticed the glowing had started to act up again.
"Why are you trying to put off of us interfacing?" Sunny questioned out of the blue and sounded the slightly saddened.
"That's not my intention. I just want to maybe avoid it if possible." He gave me a look that questioned me. A sigh escaped my lips and I nervously played with my hands. "Even though I'm- was a Game Warden and was forced to stay in shape, I have never been comfortable in my own body, Sunny. Since I was young, I received scares that cover me from head to toe and ruin what my body could look like. Who wants to have a girlfriend whose body is scarred as if she was mauled?" I muttered, anger slowly appearing in my voice. "No one does. And I'm afraid you guys won't like what you see under my clothes."
There, the words had been said. The truth had been released for him and his sleeping brother. "Won't like what you look like? Scars show that you have survived every you have been through, that you're still alive to this day. To us, if we didn't ensure every weld we got was smooth, our frames would be in the same state." He kind of just said that they also don't want their scars to be shown as well.
He didn't seem to like the look on my face and grunted. "Lift up your shirt. Show me what you have," he ordered and moved closer to me. I could feel his vents brush up against my skin lightly. At first, I was completely against it but the look in his optics reassured to follow through.
A shaky sigh escaped my lips as a trembling hand slowly lifted up my shirt. The light from outside and inside the hangar kissed my skin as every inch was revealed to the mech. His brows did slightly raise at the sight of my tattered and scarred skin. Then anger immediately took over and a snarl made it's way to his features. "Who did this to you?"
Oh, he wasn't mad at me but who did this to me. "To be honest, I don't completely know. As a kid, I got into a bunch of fights. A few others were from my mother's ex-boyfriends. The last one is prison doing his time for killing her and nearly doing the same to me." My words surprised him but I gave him a look to not ask about it. "Yes, I have been through Hell and back, that's what these show… and I don't like them."
Timidly, Sunny pressed a digit against my stomach and lift my shirt even more. Thankfully, I was wearing a bra that covered the ones that adorn my breasts. Those were from the ex-boyfriends, she never knew how to choose good people.
The silent mech moved his helm closer until his lips met with the skin of my stomach. His sudden touch caused my body to quake. He smirked against my skin then stuck his tongue out. "Sunstreaker," I gasped at his actions and forgot that my back was pressed against his bothers cheek.
Said bot finally came back to the land of the living and straightened his back. I was quick to catch myself from falling by leaning on my arms. This gave Sunny full access to my stomach. He ran his tongue from my right side to the other, on the verge of tickling me.
A glare was sent his way from me but I did nothing to stop him. "I'm guessing I missed something big of some sorts," Sides spoke up to break the silence. He only received an expression from Sunny. "Alight then, I call being next in line to get a taste." What the-?
"Why are you two so interested with be in contact with me?" I questioned and gazed behind me at Sides, confusion evident on my face.
"You're so soft and squishy. Usually all we have been in contact with is other metal beings," the red mech answered. To emphasize his point, he poked at my side. In reaction of my sides being touched, I squirmed away from the both of them and put my shirt back down.
The golden bot's lubricant was all over my stomach and caused my shirt to stick to my front. Annoyed this shirt was wet from Sunny, I stood up and stretched out all of my sore limbs.
My eyes glanced out the slightly opened hangar door and noticed the sun was soon to set. The inevitable was close to starting and was best to get it over with. "If you don't want to try tonight, we don't have to, you know," Sides offered and tried to hide the sadness in his voice.
I shook my head in disagreement and faced them fully. "No, I might not be entirely comfortable with tonight but I don't think any amount of time would help that. All of us need to take it slow and test each other boundaries and have our fun while doing so."
Both of them relaxed at my words and smiled in return. "I think it's time to head back to our berthroom." This time it was Sunny wanting to proceed with this. That was a surprise.
Said mech scooped me off of the table and held me close to his humming spark. All three of us headed towards their berthroom for a night we'll never forget.
