Darius' Point of View


I listened intently to Demetri's story from the other side of the door. Carlisle and Edward stood just a few steps behind me, in utter silence. It felt like time was standing still for a moment. But suddenly I heard my mom raise her voice, it was the first time that I had ever heard her sound so angry. It was more shocking than terrifying. I could never fear my mom, but with her being a vampire now, I knew that her emotions may heightened.

I jumped in surprise as the door suddenly came flying open, revealing my mother, not looking like herself. Her face was twisted into a dark sneer as she marched straight past the three of us and went running out the door.

Carlisle stepped in front of Edward before he could take a step forward to follow after her. "She may not want to be followed, Edward."

"I can't let her go off on her own like that, what if Caius is near?" Edward's voice sounded off, as he was in pain.

Demetri cautiously walked out from the room next, his eyes darting between Edward and Carlisle. "I will follow her, it's the least I can do, for upsetting her like this."

"You've done enough." I glared in his direction, feeling tears sting in my eyes for a moment. "You made her leave!" For a second I worried that she wasn't going to come back.

Demetri looked at me, with guilt in his eyes. "I never intended for this to happen…" He turned back to see Avery move to his side.

Avery was quietly sobbing at his side, holding onto him. "Darius I'm so sorry, this is all my fault. I had no right to speak to her that way." Her puffy eyes went to me, filled to the brim with tears.

I sighed, turning my back from them both to look at Carlisle and Edward. I couldn't stand to look at either of them right now. I personally blamed the both of them for causing my mom to leave. And if she didn't come back… I would end them both.

Edward stepped forward, and placed a hand on my shoulder with a reproachful look. "Your mother is coming back. I don't think she would like to hear those kinds of thoughts coming from you."

He was right. I didn't want to be like Demetri. I didn't want to be the angry, aggressive fool that he was. Even though he is taking huge steps forward, making progress on fixing our relationship, I still couldn't forget the words he said to me in the past. How he would disown me, if I didn't kill Jada. The way he tried to make me into a monster… the same way that his father did to him.

I nodded slowly and gathered a huge breath. I would stay calm. And think rational thoughts. But I couldn't let myself turn back around. "Well, who is going out to get my mom?" I looked between Carlisle and Edward. "It's not safe out there alone."

Edward looked to Carlisle with a serious expression. "I'm going to find her." He glanced at me, measuring my face, before running out the door.

Alice passed him on the way out, which instantly brought relief to me. When Alice was around, she just made everything better. I didn't hesitate to walk over to her.

"It's been a hell of a night," She offered me a small smile, before pulling me in for a hug.

I relaxed further and hugged her back. "I'm glad you're here."

Alice felt so tiny in my arms. I was much taller than her now. I wasn't sure when I had noticed this fact, but right now it felt like she fit perfectly in my arms. There was a pull in my chest, it was a new feeling for me. I felt my cheeks getting warm, so I let my arms fall back down to my sides and took a couple steps back.

I cleared my throat, as I tried to hide my embarrassment. "Your vision was right as usual. It was a boy." I changed the subject and slowly turned my attention to the baby, that was now in Demetri's hands.

Alice beamed, moving away from me now to get a closer look. "He is so handsome, does he have a name yet?"

"I was thinking… Elijah. That was my father's name. He died when I was really young." Avery said with a slight smile coming to her face.

"Elijah, I like that." Demetri said with a huge smile coming to his face.

Alice nodded with a thoughtful look. "I still have a bunch of clothes from when Darius was a baby, I dropped it off at your house."

Avery sniffed, rubbing the remainder of her tears from her face. "Thank you so much Alice… I just... I'm having a hard time thinking of anything other than Bella. I really hurt her."

Alice shook her head slowly. "This really didn't have to do with you Avery. This had everything to do with Demetri." Her eyes flashed towards Demetri now with a coldness in her eyes.

Demetri sighed as he lightly stroked Elijah's cheek. "I didn't realize how badly I hurt Bella."

"Well… rape… abuse… plus you had an affair…" Alice turned away. "Even though Bella was in the process of leaving you… you two still were in a relationship. But that didn't stop you from raping Monica… then killing her, so Bella wouldn't find out."

Avery gasped the same time that I did.

I had know idea… that was the reason that he killed Monica. I assumed that he lost control over his temper and made a mistake. But no, he had calculated this. He was in control of himself to make that choice.

The room was quiet now. Demetri just stood there like a statue. His eyes appeared to be clouded. I've never seen him look like this… only once. When mom had taken his memories. He didn't move. Not even an inch. He didn't breathe.

"Avery, take Elijah." Carlisle instructed calmly.

Quickly Avery snatched the baby from him and took a couple steps back. "What's wrong with him?" She asked worriedly.

I looked in her direction with surprise. "Why do you still care about him? Why are you even worried about this asshole."

"Darius, I know this is hard for you to understand. But your father is going through something. He is changing. He is battling his inner demons… even as we speak." Avery said as her eyes went back to Demetri.

"Don't ever call him my father again." I muttered, turning my back from the both of them.

Alice danced to my side instantly, taking my hand. Again I felt an abrupt pull to my chest, bringing my attention completely to Alice. As our eyes met I felt myself relax.

"She is right Darius. I wish I could show you my vision. Demetri's future has several different paths now, before he was on one path. It would have been his demise. But now, there is hope and peace. He is changing." Alice gave my hand a squeeze.

"I'm sorry, but I'll believe it when I see it." I sighed.

"What should we do, we can't leave him like this?" Avery asked, looking to Carlisle.

Before Carlisle could open his mouth to speak the front doors came open, revealing my mother, Edward and someone else.

"He will be just fine. He is fighting to regain his memories." The small girl spoke as she stepped into the room. The way that she strode into the room, she was confident in herself. Her blonde hair looked to nearly reach her waist. She was absolutely beautiful. Her eyes met mine with mild curiosity.

Like before, with Alice, I felt a twisting and pulling in my chest. I found myself fascinated. "Who are you?" I felt the words tumbling from my mouth.

She didn't hesitate to walk right up to me, not afraid. "My name is Casey. I'm like you. Half vampire, half human."

I felt my eyes widen and a smile begin to creep on my face. "That's amazing… I… never met anyone else like me."

Casey's cool grey eyes danced with joy as she leaned in close. "This is my first time as well." Her voice was silky and light.

I felt a chill run down my spine in response. I took a step back, beginning to feel things I've never felt before. My body was responding to this girl in a way I wasn't used to. For a second I wanted to run. I wanted to hide away.

I heard my mother clear her throat, still standing behind Casey. She gave me a look, which just made my face turn even more red. I didn't understand why I was acting like this.

With a gulp I stuck my hand out to the girl. "I'm Darius, it's n-nice to meet you."

Casey let out a soft giggle, which made my heart leap at the sound. As she took my hand, I felt like I was about to lose my mind. Her skin was so soft.

"Nice to meet you too, I hope to be seeing you around." She offered me a brilliant smile, before turning back to my mother. "If you don't mind, I'd like to head over to Rose's house and get settled in."

I had the urge to let out a sigh of relief when she moved away from me. But I kept my mouth shut, I had embarrassed myself enough for one night.

Carlisle moved now to Casey with a warm smile. "I'll walk you over myself." He bowed his head to her with respect.

"Yeah, get some reason, we can start training in the morning." My mother spoke up with a smile.

I was glad to see that my mom calmed down. But I couldn't focus at the moment. All I could do was stare as the blonde beauty left with Carlisle at her side. I felt my eyes analyze every inch of the back of her, I admired her slim figure and the curve of her backside.

"What about Demetri?" Avery spoke up gently, bringing everyone's attention back to our current situation.

My mom didn't seem to make eye contact with her, she only shrugged her shoulders. "He will stay like that… until he processes whatever bad part of his past has popped up. And makes a choice to grow from it."

Avery raised a brow, looking worriedly between Demetri and her new son. "How long will that take? I mean… can we do anything to help him?"

"No, at this point we can only wait until he wakes up." Edward spoke up when my mother didn't respond. "I'll move him to your house. So you can return home with your son."

"I'll do it, I'll take him back to your house… you are going to need someone to stay with you and help with the baby anyway." Alice said, her tone sounding off.

I turned to look at her, confused by the gloomy look on her face. She didn't make eye contact with anyone. She just looked at her feet. I've seen that look on her face before, when Jasper had been killed. Maybe she was thinking of him again.

Avery was looking at Alice as well, probably noticing her sudden change in emotion. "Are you sure Alice, I don't want to burden you with all this."

"Of course," Alice said abruptly and picked up Demetri, as if he was as light as a feather. "Let's get going."

Avery nodded as her and Alice made their way out of the door. Avery paused in the doorway to look back at my mom, but my mom didn't look at her. She kept her eyes straight in front of her.

"I'm sorry Bella," Avery spoke quietly.

"You will be." Was all my mom said, before walking out of the room.

With that, the room was silent again. Everyone was gone. It was just me and Edward. I turned to look at him, unable to read his expression.

"Daris, we need to have a talk." Edward said with a serious expression on his face.

Now I was getting anxious.

"Am I in trouble?" I blurted out, as the anxiety twisted in the pit of my stomach.

Edward's expression softened slightly. "No, nothing like that." His voice sounded a bit more calm. "It's a conversation that is meant for a father and son to have… and with Demetri in the state that he is in…" He trailed off into silence as he read my expression.

"You are more of a father to me than my own… so go ahead… let's talk." I shrugged my shoulders.

I didn't want to admit it, but moments like this I felt like I actually had a father that cared for me. Not just me as a person, but as a son. I never got those feelings when I was around Demetri. He always wanted to treat me as if I was some kind of monster. I never had normal human conversations with him.

"Let's head outside for a second." Edward nodded, a slight smile on his face now.

I quickly followed him outside, feeling a rush of nervousness again. He clearly didn't want us to be in close earshot of my mom. Maybe he would want to talk about something embarrassing. I was beginning to dread agreeing to the conversation already.

When we were nearly to the edge of the woods Edward stopped to lean against a tree. I copied him, choosing a tree across from him. I folded my arms across my chest and tried to calm myself down.

The moon was full, hanging brightly above our heads and the cold winter air blew past us. I didn't mind the cold, but it brought a shiver down my spine.

"When you met Casey today, how did you feel?" Edward spoke lightly.

I was taken off guard by his question. I hadn't been expecting to come out here to talk about Casey.

"Well… she is really pretty and I guess… she makes me a little anxious." I admitted, feeling my cheeks warm.

Edward nodded casually. "How did it feel, when she touched your hand?"

I swallowed, as I imagined the brief moment of contact between her and I. Like before there was a pull in my chest. It felt like my face was boiling. Quickly I covered my cheeks.

"It was… nice… she was soft…" I spoke quietly in embarrassment.

Edward nodded. "You felt an attraction to her."

Attraction. It was a foriegn feeling to me. Nothing I've ever experienced. It felt like my body was no longer my own. My body acted on some kind of primal instincts.

"I am attracted to her." I repeated his words. "That's why my body is acting the way it is?"

"Yes, it's completely normal for a young man. Things will continue to change as you get older. You will find more women attractive and your body will respond to that." Edward said with a calculating look.

"So you find other women attractive too?" I said, feeling my eyes narrow.

"At some point in my life, yes. It's a part of being human. When I was turned into a vampire, a lot of those thoughts changed. I saw attraction differently. Your mother was the only woman that ever occurred to me as being attractive. Since I've become a vampire."

I sighed, running my hand through my hair. "So, since I'm human… I'll always feel this way?"

"It's a good possibility, but like I said… this is normal. This is what it means to be a human teenage boy. With age, these feelings may lessen, or they may not." Edward said, patting my shoulder.

"What does attraction mean… does it mean that I'm in love with Casey?" I asked quietly.

"No, being attracted to someone and loving someone is two different things. Attraction is something that your body wants. Love is something that your heart wants." He spoke with a smile.

""So… I want to sleep with her…" I peaked up at him, my cheeks burning even hotter.

"It doesn't have to go that far. You can always just appreciate an attractive woman from a distance. But it is your choice and Casey's choice, if you would like to become intimate."

"Well… what if I love her?" I muttered, glancing away from him.

Edward paused for a moment, long enough for me to make eye contact with him. He watched me for a while, I could see a war of debate going on in his eyes.

Finally he spoke. "To love someone, you must dedicate yourself to that other person… completely. Not just by staying faithful. But by putting forth all the effort you can into that relationship. When things get hard, you buckle down and work through it. You help each other grow from their flaws, help each other thrive in this world. True love is rare to find. A lot of people believe that they are in love… but after time… they learn that it was just attraction… or they find out that they truly didn't know the real person."

I sighed deeply. "That's what happened between my mom and Demetri right? They thought they were in love with each other. But once they spent more time getting to know each other…. My mom realized that he wasn't the guy she loved. At the beginning they were blind to each other's flaws. But over time, the masks slipped away. And they were left with the ugly truth."

Edward nodded slightly. "It takes time to really know someone Darius. If you jump into loving someone too fast, you might find out that the other person isn't what you expected."

"So, how did you know… that you and my mom were in love?" I wondered. "You two didn't really know each other that well when you started dating."

Again, Edward paused for a moment, a thoughtful look came to his face as he mulled over his thoughts. "It's hard to put into words. It was just a feeling. The moment I saw her… I didn't realize it at first… but deep down. I knew that I had found my soulmate. You will know the feeling, when it happens."

I nodded my head, one single bob. But I truly didn't know what he meant by it. He said that it was a feeling. I would just know. But how could he be certain?

But there was something else that was bothering me. It was something that I hadn't planned on talking with anyone about. But Edward brought me out here to have a serious conversation. And I couldn't talk with my mom about this.

"I do have… something happening to me… recently." I stuttered, making eye contact with Edward once more. "It's been happening at random times… and I can't make it stop."

Edward looked at me curiously. "What's been happening."

"W-well… It started one day that I was playing this new video game with uncle Emmett. It had a couple scenes in it… that was provocative… and it caused my penis to… grow…" I was barely able to force the words from my mouth.

This would go down as the most awkward night of my life. There was no doubt in my mind.

Edward didn't appear to be affected by my words, which brought me some relief. I was worried that he would laugh at me, or scold me.

"That is also a normal body reaction. This happens to men when they are attracted to someone and want to have sex with them." He said matter of factly, as if this was obvious knowledge.

I was relieved to know that something wasn't wrong with me, but I couldn't untense my body. I had been holding onto this worry for a long time. Honestly, I didn't know if I should be ashamed or accept the fact that my body was changing so rapidly.

"It's normal, this happens to all guys…" I said quietly.

Edward nodded, giving my shoulder a squeeze. "Of course, and… there are appropriate ways to… relieve yourself…" Now it seemed like Edward was finally getting uncomfortable with the conversation.

"Well… if you have any advice for me… I'd appreciate knowing what to do… if it happens again." I said, but part of me was afraid to hear what he was going to say next.

Edward cleared his throat, glancing away from me for the first time since we came all the way out here. "This is something that you must do in private. Keep in mind that the internet is full of different methods of… relief."

I didn't know what he meant by that, but I nodded, ushering him to continue.

"When you find yourself alone, and the mood strikes you, you could turn to masterbation." He continued.

"What's masterbation?" I raised my brow.

"It's something that men and women do… to relieve themselves of their sexual needs." Edward spoke with uneasiness.

"Is this something that… all guys do?"

"Well… most of the people I've come into contact with have experienced different forms of masterbation. It's a normal… healthy way to understand your body… and refrain from unsafe sex."

"Okay… well… how do you… do it?" This sounded like exactly what I needed. Something to combat my raging hormones.

Again Edward seemed to take his time responding. He appeared to be getting more and more uncomfortable. Just as he was about to open his mouth I heard a booming laugh from behind us.

I turned quickly to see uncle Emmett come strolling over to us.

"I didn't think I could watch this painfully awkward conversation any further. If I don't intervene now, I think Eddie's head is going to explode."

Edward threw Emmett a look of appreciation. "What are you doing out here?"

"I couldn't help but overhear the birds and the bees talk. I wanted to put my knowledge out there as well." Emmett said with a big goofy grin.

I didn't think I could get any more embarrassed than I already was.

"Look kid. What Ed is trying to say… is, when your dick gets hard, you need to take it in your hands and start jerking it off." Emmett grinned widely.

I swallowed hard. "Jerking it… off?"

Emmett bent down and gathered a stick. "I'll demonstrate for you." He chuckled, and began to move his hand up and down the stick, his enormous hands balled around the stick.

I watched him curiously. "What's that going to do?"

"It will make milk fly out your weiner and it will feel amazing. You'll probably become addicted to it." Emmett smiled as he tossed the stick aside.

Edward scowled at Emmett.

Now I was beginning to think that this was all just some joke. "You are telling me milk is going to fly out of my… weiner?"

"Don't listen to him. When you masterbate… a white substance will ejaculate from your penis… it is't milk. It's called semen." Edward said, swatting at Emmett.

"That doesn't sound like anything that I want to do…" I muttered.

"Trust me kid. You will love it. Once you start you won't want to stop." Emmett said, wagging his brows. "I do it all the time. It's fun."

I wasn't at all surprised how open and honest Emmett was. He never cared what others thought of him. Nothing bothered him. I truly admired that. I wish that I was a little more like him.

"So this… semen… what should I… do with it… when it comes out?" I said looking between Edward and Emmett.

"Well… the safe bet is to flush it… never put it into a woman… or you will become a father at a pretty young age." Emmett said with a serious look.

"So you are saying… if I let my semen fly into a woman… it will make her pregnant?" I felt my eyes widen.

Emmett bursted out laughing. His laughs were like booming thunder. Edward on the other hand only kept a slight smirk on his lips as he looked away from me.

Embarrassment pinched at me.

These two were complete jerks.

"Sorry, I know this isn't funny. This is serious. You have questions. We are going to do our best to help you understand. Okay?" Edward said, calmly. The smile was no longer on his face as he turned to me.

I nodded warily.

"Alright kid get comfortable, this may take a while." Emmett hooted at me with a grin.


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