Disappointment From Beyond
Disclaimer: Because it irks me that Clark basically shit on not only Alicia, but Kyla too in that barn scene with Lana around the beginning of season 5.
Summary: Once all is said and done with those Belle Reve escapees and his first time with Lana, Clark's ready for some much needed sleep. Unfortunately for him, a peaceful sleep isn't about to happen.
"Okay… Not exactly the kind of dream I was expecting to have after I fell asleep." Muttered Clark to himself as he looked at the two Tombstones in front of him.
Tombstones that had the names of Kyla Willowbrook and Alicia Baker respectively on them. "That's because this isn't exactly a dream, Clark." Came a voice that made him freeze up.
A voice that belonged to someone he hadn't even thought about in some time. "K-Alicia!?" He asked in shock as he turned around and saw not only Kyla, but Alicia standing alongside her.
And neither appeared too happy in his view of things either as both nodded at him. "Like Kyla said, this isn't a dream exactly. But more of a combination of us being allowed to reach out to you from the Other Side and Sarah Conroy's gifts being used so that things aren't murky like dreams can be sometimes."
Either I'm having the weirdest dream imaginable… Or Jor-El is up to something.
The unpleasant feeling of getting slapped hard in the back of his head made him stumble and was unable to see who or what had hit him. "We can hear your thoughts in this place, Clark. What is happening is neither of those things." Kyla told him.
"Okay… If this isn't the weirdest dream I've had yet or Jor-El trying to mess with me, then why are we here?"
For he was desperately trying to ignore the heavily buried guilt where these two girls were concerned and wanted to be feeling something where Lana was concerned. Along with the fact he still has no powers and how much joy that gave him and as well as being with Lana. The unhappy looks from the two only seemed to get more prominent as both scowled at him. "Clark… We're here because of what you told Lana in your Loft before you were both attacked. That she's the only girl you've ever loved and making it like neither of us ever actually mattered to you." Alicia told him.
"That's, that's not true!"
Both girls raised their eyebrows at him and Kyla spoke up. "Given you refuse to think about me as much as possible or even visit my grave, I would say it is true. Not to mention how you basically ignore my Grandfather unless its convenient for you." The Wolf Girl told him in a displeased manner.
Clark flinched at the truths of her words. "And let's not forget how you basically started to force what you felt over my death away from the fore front of your mind. An action that could cause you to make the same mistake again in some way."
"I… WHAT GOOD DOES IT DO TO KEEP EITHER OF YOU IN MY THOUGHTS ALL THAT MUCH!? IT ONLY MAKES ME FEEL THE GUILT! AND THINK OF THE WHAT IFS!" Roared out an unhappy Clark.
"We are not saying you need to keep us constantly in your thoughts, but that you should keep us in mind to a certain point so that you aren't making the same mistakes again."
"Or that it makes you look like an uncaring asshole." Threw in Alicia and got scowled at by him.
Not that she cared too much. "Your desire for Lana is your ultimate failing, Naman. You turned your back on Destiny and aiding those with your gifts just to be with her."
"Because all I've ever wanted to be is normal and I finally am! And how I was supposed to know I'd lose my powers if I didn't follow through on my end of things where Jor-El is concerned!?"
Alicia sighed heavily. "You're lucky that's all that happened, Clark. Because it could have been a lot worse." She told him and Kyla nodded in agreement.
"Well, it wasn't and its pointless to even think about that. Him taking away my powers is the best thing he's ever done for me!"
"Its heartbreaking how selfish you really are, Naman."
"The name is Clark, not Naman, not Kal-El. Clark. And I think I have a right to be selfish after everything I've been through. ESPECIALLY what I was put through by Jor-El!" Yelled Clark.
His face reddening as his anger grew thanks to the two in front of him. "Some of which is your own fault, Naman. You played with Forces you should have known better than to play with. Resulting in the loss of a child and ran away instead of facing up to your mistakes. There is much more going on than you realize but the more you run from it, the worse things will get." Warned Kyla as Alicia nodded in agreement as Clark flinched and anger grew even more in him over the reminders of certain actions of his.
"Is that right? Then why don't you tell me all about it so I know what to do and won't ever be bothered by any of it again!"
"We can't do that, Clark. There are rules we have to abide by." Alicia told him.
"Then… GET OUT OF MY HEAD AND LEAVE ME ALONE! GET OUT!"
"You doom the world with your selfishness and we will never be able to achieve true peace in the Afterlife with your lack of honor towards us. I hope its worth it." Kyla told him sadly and with that, Clark found himself shooting up in his head.
Lana completely unaware thanks to how deeply asleep she was from their first time together. "Its only a dream. That's all it has to be, a dream. None of that was real." Muttered Clark to himself as he breathed heavily.
Laying back down and trying to calm himself, he pulled Lana close to him and held her tightly to his body. Gaining soft, contented murmurs from her in the process as he did what he could to squash that dream into the very back of his mind. Its only a dream. It has to be.
Author's Notes: And given what I view as him being a selfish dumbass who apparently learned nothing thanks to Crisis, I kinda feel this is how he would respond to things.
