Hound POV
No one wanted to sleep after what happened in the last twenty-four hours. We had a hard time convincing Cade to go to bed. Though we're going to have a problem if Bumblebee, Crosshairs, Drift, and I don't sleep for days.
Crosshairs comes in and tells me he's already checked on Jamie and J.R.
"She won't be asleep for long," I sighed, looking at Jayce, "she's been asleep for three hours."
The room is quiet for ten minutes, enough time for Crosshairs to get a syringe, before Jayce wakes up.
Damn it, another severe panic attack.
She fought me as I tried to get her to lie down.
"I think laying down scares her when she's gasping for air, but that also helps her," Crosshairs guesses before taking over, getting her to lie down. We both worked to calm her down.
"J.R.-"
"She's ok, I just checked in her. Both J.R. and Jamie are asleep," Crosshairs assures her.
Interestingly, she's ok with Bee or me with her until she has an anxiety or panic attack.
Regardless of who's trying to help her, Jayce is having a hard time calming down, and she's getting scared the longer she's having a hard time getting air. Crosshairs sits her up, hoping that'll help.
"Shh, you're ok, you need to calm down," Crosshairs tells her.
"I.. can't..breath," Jayce struggled to say, tears rolling down her face.
"I know, you need to calm down," Crosshairs hugs her. He looks disgusted by what he's feeling, "she's shaking, and her heart is racing. I don't know if moving her is a good idea."
Crosshairs tries to get Jayce to control her breathing. Ten minutes of this, I worry she's going to faint. Drift walks in and goes right towards Crosshairs to try to help. My spark hurts watching this, but when Jayce said to give up and let her die, even though she's said this several times, it still hurts hearing her say that.
Another twenty minutes pass before Jayce is calm and relaxed. Crosshairs takes her for a drive.
"These are getting worse and scaring her add the nightmares that scare her," I tell Drift.
"I know," he says in a sad tone.
Crosshairs comes back two hours later, carrying Jayce, who is asleep. He tells me he's staying with her. Drift has been when J.R.
Drift POV
I tried to get some sleep even on the floor in J.R.'s room, but my mind kept replaying what Jayce went through and what she said until I hear J.R.
"Jayce!" She screamed before getting out of bed. I stopped her before she could run out of the room. I was expecting Jayce to dream about J.R. being dead after what she tried. Either way, I hate how terrified they are.
"Let me go!" She begs. I can hear concern and fear in her voice.
"Stop, they're both ok," I say as I hug her.
"No, Jayce..she-."
"Listen to me; it was just a nightmare. She's sleeping.
J.R. said nothing more; she leaned on me as I hugged her.
I waited fifteen minutes before laying on the bed with her. I figured she'd fall asleep, just in time for Crosshairs to text me.
Crosshairs: Jayce woke up again. Another severe panic attack.
Drift: J.R. woke up from a nightmare about Jayce. She just fell asleep.
Crosshairs: so, what's the plan today?
Drift: we can try to take them out today. Let's try dinner. That way, Jayce can take a nap and won't be too tired.
Crosshairs: ok
"Bumblebee, you could have laid on the bed," I say, seeing Bee sitting at the desk as I walk into Jamie's room.
"I thought you'd be mad..or Jamie would be. Not sure if we can say she was just scared after seeing J.R., but now that I.R. is ok, she doesn't have nightmares."
"I don't know," I say in a sad tone as I lay close to Jamie. The door closes as I get comfortable. I didn't wait long before moving Jamie onto me.
I hope Bumblebee is right, and you won't have nightmares. I hope his idea works. I don't want to have the conversation with you and the others, to watch how upset you'll be.
Two hours later
Bumblebee POV
Jayce is awake but still exhausted. I tried to get her to eat food, but all she'd take was the nutrition drink.
"What the hell!" I hear Cade yell ten minutes after I stepped away from Jayce. I left her on the couch. I turned around and saw she was slumped over and asleep.
"She's exhausted and fell asleep," I tell him, "I tried to get her to go back to sleep, but she insisted on getting up."
"She didn't want to go back to sleep, shit." Cade picks her up and takes her back to her room. I follow him upstairs and head towards J.R.'s room.
Once I told Crosshairs what happened, he left to tell Drift. I suspect they're going to talk about what to do about Jayce.
Please let her recover. We don't want to have the dreaded conversation.
I know J.R. is struggling, but I think she needs to see Jayce is recovering to start recovering herself.
Ten minutes pass before Crosshairs sends Cade, Hound, and me a text;
Crosshairs: the current plan is Drift, and I will take the three girls for dinner, hoping Jayce won't be exhausted by then.
Cade: you sure you two can handle the three of them if she's still tired?
Drift: you guys can come, but if Jayce is still exhausted, we're not going anywhere.
Crosshairs: we'll see how she is come late afternoon.
We all agreed; crosshairs then texts me that he's going to watch Jayce. I think everyone but Hound has watched the three girls for some time overnight. The day is likely going to be uneventful.
Cade POV
The day was eventful, and we'd have a problem if Jamie didn't spend the day in her room, recording. Jayce has her usual shit sleep schedule and routine. We told her the plan and asked her if she was up for it. She said yes, but she's still exhausted.
"She will not last long even if we're just going to get dinner," Hound observes.
"I'm giving her sleep aid when we get back. I'm tired of watching her deal with this," Drift tells us. We agree she needs help with sleep.
Jayce is asleep as we get ready to leave. Crosshairs carried her to his alt mode to allow her to sleep on the way to the restaurant. Good thing she thought to get dressed before going back to sleep. Now she can sleep an hour longer.
Please let her recover mentally.
Crosshairs POV
It would be great if there is a long way to our destination. Though I'm not sure if a little more sleep would help Jayce. She'd refuse to leave early, no matter how exhausted she is.
Well, Jayce, I tried to give you more time. Even getting stuck in traffic didn't give you much additional time.
"Jayce, wake up."
She wakes up, not in a pissed off mood but still tired.
"Oh yeah, she will not last long," Drift observes as we're waiting to be seated, "good thing we have a plan for if she has to go back to the base early."
I can hear the sadness in Drift's voice.
I know this isn't how we'd like things to go, but hopefully, Jayce will get better.
Jayce is quiet the whole time, but she lasted longer than I thought though I can tell she hated how exhausted she is, and I know she feels like she's ruining everyone's time out. By the time we got to my alt mode, she was ready to cry. I say on the passenger side, holding her.
"I got this; you can't stay here with Jamie," I tell Drift, who came to my alt mode to help me. He went back to his alt mode and drove off with the others.
I didn't even say anything before Jayce started crying.
"Shhhh, it's ok. We'll go back to base, and you can go to bed."
I know she's not crying over how exhausted she is, but I'm trying to quickly calm her down.
Jayce takes five minutes to stop crying before I can move to the driver's side and head back to the base.
:: Is she ok?:: Drift comms me.
:: She's quiet and will be asleep by the time we get back.::
:: I'll have the sleep aide ready::
Drift is waiting in the garage when I get back.
He got her bed ready before waiting for us in the garage. Jayce wakes up as I lay her in bed and cover her with the blankets.
"You're ok; we're back at the base. We're going to give you something to help you sleep."
Drift injects the drug as I laid next to Jayce. She'll be asleep soon, but I'm still staying with her.
"Alright, now you'll get some good sleep, good night," Drift says before leaving.
Jayce moved to her side to look at me.
"You want me to stay here?" She grabbed my hand, "I'll take that as a yes."
Jayce fell asleep ten minutes later. I noticed Bee texted me, telling me J.R. is asleep, and he'll stay with her.
Drift comes back an hour later. He tells me Jamie is watching T.V. in her room.
"She's afraid to sleep alone even though she knows the sleep aide will keep her asleep all night."
"Damn it; you know what that means," Drift sighed.
Silence filled the air until Hound came in and insisted Drift and I go for a drive.
We did as he wanted though he must know we'll be talking about the girls.
Drift POV
We went to the lake and sat on the hood of my alt mode. We both know we have to talk about the girls but hate half of the topics we need to discuss.
"You know we have to talk about what we're going to do," Crosshairs says, but I can tell he does not like what we have to talk about either.
"There's not much we can do. All there is to decide is how long we will keep trying to help Jayce and when we will have that dreaded conversation," I don't bother hiding my sadness.
"I think we should give Jayce sleep aide. I know we risk her becoming dependent on the drug, but a week should be ok. She won't be exhausted, and we can plan longer outings."
I nodded in agreement, "hopefully she'll start to recover mentally and won't wake up from a nightmare every two hours. Doubt she'll stop having nightmares and panic attacks, but it would be progress in the right direction. She and J.R. still need to be watched to make sure they don't try anything. J.R. seems to have nightmares, but she's calm when a nightmare wakes her up."
"It would be great if we could get Jayce to eat food. You watched how I forced her a few days ago. I hate doing that."
"We all do, even Cade though he told us it's not good to force her to eat. Glad J.R. will eat again."
After talking about the girls, we felt we had to get back to the base.
