"I stood still, vision blurring, and in that moment, I heard my heart break. It was a small, clean sound, like the snapping of a flower's stem."
Diana Gabaldon

Emily stood, leaned against the counter in their kitchen, observing JJ as she helped Henry with his juice package. They had just gotten home from their case about the murdered teens at a high school, both women were tired but eager to give Henry attention.

She felt at ease as she took JJ and Henry in, her body felt as relaxed as it had ever felt, and her heart was filled with love for JJ. Emily was shaken out of her thoughts by a soft hand on the small of her back, it was JJ, rubbing soft circles as they watched Henry dart around the room with the juice box in his hand.

''He looks so much like you'' smiled Emily as she turned to face JJ a little, she moved her hand to push some hair out of JJ's face when she noticed tears brimming in JJ's eyes. ''Jayje? What's wrong?'' Emily asked as worry crept up on her.

''It's nothing'' JJ chuckled before moving her hand up to her face to wipe away the tears on her cheeks, ''it's just… you look happy'' JJ added softly. Emily's heart jumped in her chest as she gently cupped JJ's face ''that's because I am'' Emily smiled.

''Not every day. I still have very bad days. But I now have good days too and I've never really experienced good days before and I have therapy…and you… to thank for that'' Emily nodded, before placing a gentle kiss on JJ's lips.

''If it wasn't for you I don't think I would've ever considered actually trying therapy because I never really knew why I would try it. But you've shown me what feeling good feels like and I want more of that feeling. And I know falling in love with you didn't magically cure what's going on inside my head, but it didn't hurt'' Emily continued, she was still struggling with wording her feelings, but it was getting better every day.

JJ's cheeks were wet with tears when Emily uttered her last word, their hands intertwined as they leaned against the kitchen counter. As content as they'd ever been together, because they were together.

''I've been happy, but I've never felt the happiness I feel when I'm with you Em'' JJ whispered as she placed her head on Emily's shoulder, their hands still tightly intertwined. ''I love you'' Emily whispered in JJ's ear, her lips caressing JJ's ear as she did. ''I love you too'' JJ chuckled softly, wiping the tears on her cheeks away with her free hand.

The two women made their way to the couch after that, keeping their eyes on Henry who was settled in the corner with some toys. Emily lifted her arm up slightly, allowing JJ to crawl into the open space. Both women yearning to be close together right there and now.

''Sometimes '' whispered Emily, '' I think about what would've happened if we didn't get together'' she continued as she made small circles on JJ's arm with her fingers. ''But then I realize I'm slipping into dangerous territory when I reach that thought process and I fight to stop. Thank you for giving me a reason to fight'' Emily said before nuzzling her face in JJ's blonde hair. Lavender scented shampoo immediately reached her senses, causing goose bumps to crawl up her skin.

''You did that yourself Em. You decided to fight and it's admirable that you did. I'm incredibly proud of you'' whispered JJ before placing a soft kiss on Emily's hand, which was resting on her lower arm.

''I'm proud of you too Jayje.. we haven't ever actually discussed it but you did leave your husband for me and that took so much courage too'' Emily said, '' it did, but it made it easier to know I had you to come home to. You've always been my home, I was just never really aware of it'' JJ whispered.

They sat in silence for a while after that, enjoying each other's company while occasionally listening to Henry talk about his toys. ''I don't want to leave your arms, but I need to go'' Emily whispered, after a while.

''Where do you need to go?'' JJ whined half asleep, ''I have therapy'' Emily whispered even though it was a complete lie. ''Okay, good excuse'' muttered JJ groggily, as she slowly stood up, ''can I get a kiss before you leave'' she asked with a pout.

Emily laughed as she tried to smoothen her hair a little, ''you don't even have to ask'' chuckled Emily before cupping JJ's cheeks and kissing her passionately, their lips yearning for more contact as they kissed.

''Really need to go angel'' smiled Emily as she let go of JJ, even though neither really wanted to. ''I'll grab dinner on my way back'' Emily said as she slowly made her way to the hallway, ruffling Henry's long blonde hair as she did.

''Thai please'' JJ said as Emily started unlocking the locks on her front door, ''Okay'' Emily yelled back before she closed her front door behind her. Her heart raced so she leaned her back against the front door to calm down a little.

She took another break in her car, her heart racing and her mind buzzing. But she was certain of what she had to do. She started the engine, before putting on some soft music, bopping her head lightly on the beat to try and soothe her worries.

This is right, it's what you want repeated Emily in her head as she drove past the office where she usually had therapy. She parked her car another ten minutes later, taking tentative steps once she got out.

Worry buzzed through her ears but the reassuring hand on her shoulder shook her out of her thoughts ''are you ready?'' they asked her, ''as ready as I'll ever be'' Emily sighed before following the man. ''Or at least I hope I am''.