The next morning Clarke woke up to an empty bed which was disappointing, but it wasn't unusual. She hated how defeated Lexa looked last night learning what her nightmares were about. Even though she was hurt by Lexa's plan she didn't want the girl to feel worse about it, what's done is done. They needed to move on and as much as she didn't want to she knew she needed to talk to Octavia. She understood the girl was hurting but that didn't make her words hurt less.

After washing up and changing clothes she went into the living room expecting to find at least Madi, but no one was there. She checked every room before going outside where she found Elena, Theo, Ali, Madi, Luna, Max, Alix, and Lexa. The kids were play fighting with wooden swords; Clarke noticed Elena teaching Madi some fight moves which made her smile.

"Clarke!" Madi smiled walking over to the girl,

"Hey little one, having fun?"

"Elena is teaching how to fight, and Lexa said she would teach me too!" Madi replied excitedly as Elena came to join them, "If that's ok with you."

"Of course, it is." Clarke smiled, leaning down to hug Elena. "How is she Elena?"

"She's a natural." Elena smiled, "I think she's my new best friend!"

"Really?" Madi asks with wide eyes and Clarke couldn't help but smile at the interaction. "I've never had a best friend."

"I'm glad you two are getting along, you better get back to training." Clarke watched the two girls fight for a bit noticing Octavia and a healthy Lincoln walking with her.

She watched as they hesitantly approached her instead of Lexa's and the others.

"Lincoln it's good to see you." Clarke smiled hugging the man,

"You too, Octavia told me you helped put me back together so thank you."

"Don't thank me." She smiles, "We're family." She notices Octavia's extremely quiet fidgeting with her nails,

"I'm going to go talk to the others." Lincoln says glancing at the two girls before walking away,

"Can we talk?" Octavia asks after a minute and to her surprise Clarke nods walking over to the waterfall waiting for her to follow,

They both stared at the water for a few minutes neither knowing if this would be a screaming match or a civil conversation.

"Clarke I know what I did was wrong and I'm sorry." Octavia sighed,

"You think I'm mad because of the plan?" Clarke looks at the girl, "I was mad about that initially but what hurt worse was hearing you say what I know everyone thinks. That I can't save anyone and I get people killed and then you said we weren't family and that was the cherry on top."

"I'm not going to use Lincoln as an excuse and even though I was worried about him, I shouldn't have hurt you." Clarke watched as tears ran down the girls face, "Before any of this I only had Bell, then I found Lincoln and he's my home without him I don't know… I wanted Ontari die and I let that cloud my judgement and said things I didn't mean and I'm sorry. No matter what you are my family and I know that, I know what you did to get us here and I will never hold that over you again. You've saved us all so many times and I'm grateful. I'm grateful that we got to become this, I'm grateful that I'm not alone anymore, so I'll be here whenever you're ready to forgive because I love you and I need you in my life."

Clarke looked over at the girl with tears running down her face, she was nothing like the Octavia she met when they landed on the ground. She wasn't something that equated to a broken law or the girl who hid in the floor she was her friend, her family someone she does need in her life. Someone that she's not ready to lose over an argument.

She grabbed the girls hand leaning on her shoulder still looking at the water a few feet from them.

"I love you too." Clarke says, "And I don't want to lose you."

"You won't."

"Good." Clarke smiled,

"How are you?" Octavia asks still holding the girls hand,

"Better, I'm happy to be home."

"What about things with you and Lexa?"

"We're good, we still need to have a deeper talk but right now we're good."

"She seems really good with Madi." Octavia motioned towards the two girl's play fighting. "How long are you guys keeping her?"

"We don't know yet."

Clarke smiled watching Lexa train the girl, she knew her and Lexa would get along because in some ways she thought they were similar. Not just because of their blood but because of their curiosity and bigger outlook of life, she hoped they would be good for Madi. That they could give her the love and parental affection she deserved from the beginning, she would just have to wait and see.

"I like her, we talked a little while she was with Raven. She's a good kid."

"She is." Clarke agreed,

"What now? Live peacefully?"

"We still have A.L.L.I.E to deal with, then we live peacefully."

"Shit I forgot about that, do we have a plan?"

"Nope, Raven wants to talk to Murphy for information though."

"Is she kidding?" Octavia asked, "He shouldn't even be alive after what he did to her."

"You sound like Lexa but that's not what Raven wants, she's nicer than us." Clarke smiles, "Lexa doesn't want her to see him alone so she's going with her."

"Good, even then do we really think the cockroach is going to give us anything useful?"

"Maybe if his freedom depended on it, Lexa basically begging for him to mess up so she can lock him a way." Clarke says, "Is it high hoping to think maybe he's changed?"

"I want to say no, but we all have." Octavia sighs,

"I guess time will tell."

"Yeah."

"Come on let's join the others." Clarke tries to get up from the ground but with her bump and swollen everything she's finding it difficult, "This baby is going to kill me."

O laughs bending down to help Clarke off of the ground, "Just a few more months."

"Thankfully." She says as they walk back over to the adults who were now watching Ali and Elena spar. Elena was dominating Ali blocking all of her hits and punches but Ali wasn't giving up.

"Clarke it's good to see you." Alix smiled hugging the girl, while Octavia walks over to Lincoln and Luna.

"You too, Elena looks great."

"She's one of the best in her class and she doesn't miss the opportunity to share that news." She laughs,

"Where's Theo?"

"I think he has a little crush." Alix smirks pointing to the boy and Madi sitting by some flowers talking and laughing, "He seems quite smitten."

"He's too young to be smitten." Lexa says joining the women, "Good morning."

"Good morning." Clarke smiles,

"You two are adorable, I just can't wait until that baby gets here. She going to be so beautiful." Alix exclaimed,

"Like her mom." Lexa smiles,

"Both of them." Clarke adds,

"Ugh, if you two are done being super cute I'd like to go talk with Murphy now." Raven interrupts from behind them.

"Hello to you too Raven."

"There's no time for pleasantries, we have a case to solve." Raven responds,

"That we do, lead the way to this Murphy." Lexa says, "I'll be back soon."

Clarke leaned in giving the girl a quick kiss before her and Raven disappeared into the forest.

"I'm glad Madi's getting along with everyone." Clarke says still talking to Alix,

"Lexa said she's a Natblida." Alix says warily,

"She is her parents hid her as well."

"She seems like a good kid but is it worth the risk?"

Clarke looked at Madi laughing a smiling something she hasn't done much of since they had met. Her life hasn't been the best and her blood is the reason.

"If it means she gets to be happy and safe then yes, it's worth the risk." She says finally,

"I hope you know what you're doing Clarke."

"Me too." Clarke murmured,

LEXA

They arrived at the house that Murphy was staying in with the other Skaikru members and asked to speak with him in private. Lexa wanted to take him the tower and properly interrogate him but Raven said no so she settled for outside of the house. At first he was hesitant to talk but he realized Lexa wasn't going to be giving him much choice.

"What is this about Raven?" Murphy asks obviously annoyed they wanted to talk to him,

"A.L.L.I.E." Raven says plainly,

"I already told Abby and Kane I wasn't with Jaha, we traveled together but he left me and I was trapped in some bunker for weeks."

"Bunker? Where at?"

"Past the dead zone, I'm pretty sure it was built by some scientist. There was recordings of some guy talking about the bombs." Murphy shrugged,

"How did you get out?" Raven asked, "You said you were trapped."

"One day the door just opened, when I ran outside Jaha was waiting. He seemed different he kept talking to someone who wasn't there, I'm pretty sure he's gone crazy."

Raven tried to make since of this information but the truth was none of this made since.

"What do you know about the chips he's handing out?" Lexa asks,

"Nothing, he claims it's the key to the city of light. Like I said he's gone completely crazy."

"You have to take us to the bunker." Raven says,

"Hell no, I'm not going back out there. Do you know how many people we left with and only me and Jaha returned? It's dangerous."

"I think it's funny that you thought I was asking." Raven says, "You are taking us there."

Lexa couldn't help but admire Ravens aggressiveness, she was almost proud.

"Jaha is dealing with some serious shit psycho AI's and imaginary friends who might not be so imaginary. Whatever he's planning we need to stop it; this bunker could hold the answers we need."

"I'll draw you a map I'm not going back out there." Murphy says,

"You will lead a team to the bunker or you'll join Jaha in a cell." Lexa orders, "I can give you a guide who will know how to avoid the land minds and any other dangers."

"See? Like I said we're not asking." Raven smiled,

"And if you try to run I'll make sure your death is very drawn out and painful." Lexa added,

"I bet a part of you wants him to run." Raven smiles at the girl,

"I wouldn't be mad if he did." Lexa shrugs,

"What the hell Raven?" Murphy says watching the two girls go back and forth.

"We leave tomorrow, get ready." Raven said walking away Lexa close behind her. "I could totally be the commander."

"You definitely could boss people around." Lexa smiled,

"All I need now is face paint and a sword."

"You could be my second if you would like." Lexa suggested,

"I can barely train with Luna I doubt I can do it with you."

"Being a second is about more than training but I can teach you to fight with your brace. I once trained with a broken leg."

"Why?"

"Titus wouldn't let me miss, I had a cast on and it hurt but I fought through it."

"Can I think about it?" Raven asked,

"Of course, in the meantime we should prepare for your trip."

"There's no way Clarke will let you go."

"I won't be joining you but I will send my most trusted guide and of course a few warriors. Let's go to the tower and we'll pick who you want with you."

"How have you been?" Clarke asked Luna who she hasn't seen in a couple of weeks mainly because she didn't want to leave her room.

"Good I guess, we're all still alive so that's good." Luna smiled, "How are you? I tried to see you when we came back from helping shadow valley recover from the attack."

"I'm sorry about that I just needed time to think and evaluate things."

"I get it, we didn't know about Lexa's plan either so when we saw the smoke signaling the conclave we freaked out."

"I'm sorry you had to find out that way." Clarke sighed,

"I'm just glad it's not true and that she's alive."

"Me too." Clarke said, "How is Ali adjusting?"

"Well I think, she mostly spends time with Elena and Theo if they're not training. I wish I could get her to not train so much but it's what she wants."

"The schools will open soon hopefully we can give them other things to want."

"Hopefully." Luna smiled, "How much longer?" she asked pointing to her stomach.

"Less than 12 weeks."

"I'm sure you're excited to for her to come out, I know I was with Ali. It didn't help that I had her during one of the hottest summers."

"Luckily for me it's starting to get cooler out, hopefully I'll have her before the first snow."

"Thankfully, this isn't Azgeda or we'd already be buried in snow. So what's the story with Madi?"

"Lexa didn't tell you?" Clarke asked,

"No."

"She lost her parents so she'll be staying with us for a while." Clarke decided the condensed version would have to do.

"That's nice of you." Luna acknowledged, "She is getting along with everyone great; Theo looks in love already."

"Alix thinks the same, I'm just glad she's making friends."

"Raven this is Ryder, he's a friend and my most trusted scout." Lexa introduced the two explaining where she needs Raven to be taken. Although is he apprehensive about going to the dead zone he agrees, not that he had much choice.

"Who will be joining us Heda?" Ryder asked,

"We are still forming a group; Raven is there anything particular you need?" Lexa asked the girl,

"I pretty much have Becca's journals seared into my brain, maybe one of those chips Jaha's handing out." Raven racked her brain for anything, "It might be helpful if Clarke goes to talk to Jaha before we leave. He seems to trust her and we need all the information we can get."

"I'll discuss it with her." Lexa nodded, "Ryder pick two of your most trusted men I'll choose the rest of the team."

"Sha Heda." Ryder bowed before leaving the room,

"Are you ok with Clarke going down there?" Raven asked,

"If she wants to then I trust her judgment, now I'm thinking you should take Octavia, Bellamy, Echo, Max and two other Trikru warriors."

"Whatever you think is best commander."

"No snarky comment?"

"I used them all up on Murphy." Raven shrugged,

"You handled him well, I was very impressed with your strength."

"I'm going to need all strength I can find to spend who knows how many days with him." She sighed,

"We can find another way Raven."

"No, this is about more than me. We could all be in danger right now; we have no clue what A.L.L.I.E's up to right now."

"Ok, well you should spend time with Tara before you leave then." Lexa said making the shift uncomfortably,

"We aren't together anymore, but it's ok so don't ask me if I'm ok."

"I won't." Lexa looked at the girl trying to figure out if she's really ok,

"Stop looking at me I'm fine!" Raven declared,

"I didn't say anything!" Lexa tried to hide her smile,

"I know you were thinking I wasn't fine."

"I feel like your trying to tell me that you're not fine because you keep mentioning that you are fine."

"Ok fine!" Raven yelled, "I'm not that fine but it's not because we broke up I just…. I feel like no one can love me like this." Raven motioned to her brace,

"Raven-."

"Don't give me some bullshit about finding the right one either." She interrupted,

"After I lost Costia I thought the same thing." Lexa sighed, "Except my brace is being Commander, I thought it would be too hard for someone else to handle but when I wasn't even looking I found Clarke. If someone can't except your brace then they don't deserve you."

Raven smiled taking in everything Lexa said, she hadn't realized it before but they were kind of close. Never in a million years did she think they would be friends yet here they were.

"Is it ok if I just spend time with you and Clarke before I leave."

"Of course it is." Lexa replied, "Come on."

After chatting with everyone for a little while longer they went home leaving just Clarke and Madi. The fall was starting to settle and winter would be here soon but today it was still warm outside. Clarke wasn't ready for the winter, she hoped it would stay warm for longer and so far she's getting that wish.

"We should swim in the lake." Clarke suggested to a tired Madi, she had been playing with the kids all morning but Clarke thought this would be a good way for them to cool off.

"I don't know how to swim." Madi said sadly,

"I'll help you." Clarke smiled, she took her clothes off leaving her bra and shorts. No one comes around this side of the river so they should be fine. She helped Madi take her boots off leaving her in her shorts and shirt. "Ready?"

Madi nodded grabbing Clarkes hand as they slowly walked into the warm water.

"We can just float today, lay all the way back." Clarke instructed, "Don't worry I'll hold you."

Madi hesitantly laid back in the water while Clarkes arms held her up, after laying for a few seconds Clarke moved her hands letting the girl float.

"Clarke, I'm doing it!" Madi cheered excitedly, "I'm floating!"

"All by yourself too." Clarke smiled holding up her hands,

"Float with me Clarke!" Clarke laid back beside the girl letting the water carry her, it was relaxing.

Clarke started to teach the basics of swimming and she was really good at it, she was noticing Madi was a fast learner at pretty much anything.

"Good job Madi!" Clarke watched as the girl swam towards her,

"This is just adorable." Raven grinned,

Clarke turned around finding Raven and Lexa watching as they swam, she made sure Madi was in the shallow end before walking over to them.

"How'd it go?" Clarke asked,

"We'll talk about it later, right now we relax." Lexa replied, "Oh and I'm supposed to tell you that Raven is no longer with Tara and before you ask yes she is fine!"

"You were supposed to say that when I'm not around dumbass." Raven shook her head,

"Right." Lexa remembered, "And do not call me that."

"No questions please, I'm fine." Raven demanded,

"Fine." Clarke couldn't help but smile at Lexa and Raven's dynamic, it was a total 360 from how they used to be. She loved it, "Both of you come swim with us."

"I don't swim." Raven said,

"You will today, Madi wants you two to join." Clarke said, "Right Madi?" Madi nodded before going back to finding shells in the water.

"Using the kid to lure me in?" Raven rolled her eyes, "Really?"

"Come on Raven."

"I can't get my brace wet."

"Take it off." Clarke said plainly,

"Then I won't be able to stand."

"I'll help you." Lexa volunteered,

"Can you just take no for an answer?" Raven huffed,

"No." Clarke smiled,

"Fine, maybe I'll drown so you can have that on your conscious." Raven said taking her shirt and brace off,

"We would just save you." Lexa smiled taking off her clothes as well.

When they got in the water Clarke watched as Madi showed Lexa her swimming who applauded her every time she swam a far distance. She couldn't wait for a lifetime of this, teaching Madi things and their own daughter and maybe more kids who knows. Lexa was amazing with Madi even when the girl was hesitant with her, over the last couple days they bonded a lot. It made her realize she couldn't imagine not having her here but she didn't know if Lexa only wanted this to be temporary. She added that to the long list of things they needed to talk about.

"Aren't you glad you got in?" Clarke asks Raven as she sat beside her in the water.

"It does feel nice I guess." She replied watching Madi and Lexa swim in the water, "I think me and Lexa are friends, like actual close friends."

"Are you ok with that?" Clarke smiled,

"I am, do you think he would be?" Raven turned to Clarke,

"Do yo think he would be ok with you and I being friends?"

"Yes."

"She may have ordered it but I killed him." Clarke sighed, "So if you can forgive me I think it's ok to forgive her."

"I do." Raven nodded, "Forgive both of you."

"Thank you." Clarke smiled; she didn't know she needed her forgiveness until now. "It means a lot."

"As a real thank you, you can name your daughter after me." Raven smiled, "Raven the second has a nice ring to it."

"I'll definitely add it to the list." Clarke smiled, "We have no clue what to name her."

"You'll know when she gets here, maybe she'll want to help me build fireworks since Madi's a goody two shoes."

"Stop trying to corrupt my kids."

"Kids?"

"I mean, if Madi wants to stay I don't plan on letting her go." Clarke shrugged,

"I don't think your wife will either." Raven pointed to the cutest scene ever of Lexa swimming with Madi on her back. They both had huge smiles on their faces as they talked about something, it was a side of Lexa not even Clarke got to see that often and she loved it. "She's a natural at this."

"She is." Clarke smiled as she remembered Lexa's worries about being a good mom, clearly she was a natural with kids and their daughter is going to be very lucky.