Hey, everyone, it's Augustus and today, I'm gonna recount for you the single scariest day we've had in our second chapter so far, I'm remembering, so my voice sounds a little different today.

We were in our bedroom asleep and suddenly, I heard the worst gasping sound I'd ever heard. I quickly turned over and saw Hazel Grace grabbing her chest. My heart dropped, and after calling to have my mom come watch the babies who were now around 8 months, I drove to the hospital. I didn't want to ask Hazel to talk because if she couldn't breathe, odds are she probably couldn't tell me what she was feeling. I carried her in and explained to the doctors what I could see. As they rolled her into a room, she grabbed my hand.

"I'm here, Hazel Grace. I'm here," I said, squeezing her hand. "Do you want me to call your mom?"

Hazel Grace shook her head, and then after a minute, she'd passed out. I wasn't too concerned as that can happen when you aren't able to breathe as well. I mean, don't get me wrong. Of course I was concerned, but I kind of expected it. The doctor gave me a grim look as she put the tube in Hazel Grace's side.

'What?" I asked. "What's that look?"

"I'll explain it to both of you again when she wakes, but... Hazel's going to need a lung transplant. Actually, she'll need 2. Her lungs have a lot of scar tissue which is making it harder for them to expand. I'll call UNOS and put her on the list."

"Thank you, Doctor," I said before she left to make the call. There was more I wanted to say, but I was kind of in shock. We'd been through so much already. She'd beaten cancer and so had I, so we both figured our health scares might be over. How naive we'd been, apparently. Hazel Grace was breathing easier as the tube was now draining, but she was still asleep, so I took her hand.

"Hazel Grace, I'm not sure if you can hear me, but this reminds me of the time when you were in the ICU before we went to Amsterdam. They wouldn't let me in, so I snuck in. I held your hands just like this and I let myself imagine what the world would look like without us. I hated what I saw. My life is so much better with you and the girls in it, Hazel Grace. You showed me how life didn't have to be about how many people knew you, but how about how you spend your time. Please, Hazel Grace, I need you to come back to us."