All of my suppressants were finished. I couldn't stop the ragging burn inside my was full moon. A special day that a hunters blood becomes venom to vampires. And currently my blood was boiling, going through the change. I was only a little comfortable than when james bit i had suppressants to block the pain. But they were all how I survived all the full moons with pills were like painkillers to humans.

luckily edward and his family has gone hunting.I went to my closest and opened my secret locker. I was sure edward couldn't find them was where I hide all of my hunting looking at the locker I saw the bottles of blood of mine. our blood on full moon are venom to vampires,and that how we kill them. vampires thinks that they can be killed only by fire,but our venomed blood was the other way of killing them.

Every full moon we collect our blood to so we can our blood to coat our draggers,knifes,swords,bullets and various weapons wit them. I also collected them but not to hurt any of the cullens. but I couldn't be so sure because every vampire was not like them. still there were vampires who drink human blood and killed them like animals.

I again researched the locker to see if there was any suppressants. No..no.. was the last ones I had when I came from my old 's family. it's like I am hiding I can't get anything from them.I knew they are finding me. and then if they finds me they are going to find edward too. and I am sure I am not capable of protecting seven vampires from my family alone.

"bella..come down quickly" I heard charlie called. I quickly rushed down to downstairs. I saw charlie leaning on the table with hurt expression in his face.I looked at him confused.

"It's full moon today isn't it." he asked. I nodded understanding where this conversation was heading sighted"bella I know you don't have anymore have to make a choice today or..."

"No dad... don't I can get over this. It's nothing. there is nothing to do a choice" I cut him over at the middle of the sentence.

"BUT YOUR IN PAIN!Can't you understand that going to be in pain so much tonight when the moon rises.. and you just shut it up because you want to protect your DAMN BOYFRIEND..!" charlie yelled at me. I flinched back. he was right. the thing I was feeling now was nothing when the moon what can I do other than bearing it. I glanced at the clock it was 3:30 pm, edward would come home in another two hours.I felt tears filling my eyes.

"bella...please understand this. you can't do this have to go to your family or tell Edward."charlie soothes me.I leaned to him and started caresses my hair slowly.

"I can't dad...I can't. I don't know how can I tell if he leaves me again?" I cried.I felt charlie stiffen beneath is a word that defiantly he doesn't like to here.

the truth is charlie is not my real father and renee is not my real mother either. my father is Charlie's brother Daniel Swan. One of the most famous vampire hunter. But charlie was a real dad to me. he knew everything. but for some reasons charlie never inherited hunter's gene. charlie and renee never had any children so they treated me like their own. that I am grateful. and how talented he is ,he could escape edward's mind reading powers. He never thought about them or me with the truth around him.

"sweety... I understand..but I can't see when your in pain..."he tells me.I quickly sweep my tears and stand. I was determined to not to show any pain."It's ok dad...I am sure this not a big deal."

"so stubborn... I am staying tonight" charlie said annoyed."no don't is coming today. and I can't risk your thinking about me in a day like this."I say pleading.

charlie thinks for a while and then nodded.

tik...tok...tik...tok...tik...tok...tik...

Usually when edward is away the time seems to pass so slowly. But today it was rapidly passing.I looked at the clock, It was 5:00 pm. Edward would be here in another half and hour. I squeezed my hand. the pain was increasing. I was already sweating.I standed up and started pacing in the room. I was continuously running my hand through. what will happen now. will I scream? no I can't, can I act normal around edward.

suddenly there was a very sharp pain came from my toes to head.I yelped in pain clutching my body no this is going to be a lot there was the pain coming now from different parts of my body.

I ran to the bathroom quickly and searched for some tylenol.I quickly found a bottle. I knew this was not going to help me in anyway. but I had to try. My hand were trembling.I filled a glass quickly and spilled the whole bottle of pills to my hand. I knew drinking this much of pills would hurt a human but not me.I was even not sure this was going to affect my body a bit. But I was in pain.

I raised my hand to put the pills to my mouth but suddenly a cold hand caught my hand and stopped me. what the?I looked up to see Edward's furious was he doing here? why did he stopped me?Edward. I tried to shook his hand. I was in pain and the only thing I wanted was to drink that pills.

Edward grabbed my wrist hardly so it started hurting, what happened to him. He took the pills from my hand and threw them to the toilet. the next thing I knew was, I was standing in my room with Edwards tall figure standing in front of me.I must admit I was little surprised when the pain that was killing me a few moments ago was now nowhere to was early. He has seen me trying to drink the pills. and...and...then he thought.shit shit shit.he's thinking I am going to kill myself. Oh no. Why today?now what.

"Edward...what ar..are you doing here?"I mumbled finding that it was only five continued to glare at me.

I flinched back and looked down. he barely leave me and now he thinks I am going to kill myself. His expression was hurt. I knew that he wouldn't live if I died.

"bella look at me..."he said in a cold voice. what am I going to say to him."bella...I said look at me..."he said in a more cold voice.

Edward has never speak to me like this, except when I went to see jacob.I couldn't react because he suddenly lifted my chin with his hand. what...what..am I going to explain this to him.

"Edward..see. What you saw was not what your thinking. I was...just..I was not..I was trying to"I couldn't find a good lie to tell him.

"you was trying to do what bella...?huh you was trying to kill yourself...ARE YOU GONE CRAZY!"he yelled. Edward never yells at me , he never did. I looked at him shockingly.

"tell me bella. Alice saw a vision of you drinking a bottle of medicine pills and your saying it was not what I am thinking. What were you going to do other than killing yourself... do you even know how much It was killing me to see the vision?"he continued to yell at me while shooking my arms .And then again the pain started to come over me. this time from my stomach. great! time for it.

suddenly Emmett grabbed Edward and alice pulled me beside her. jasper was trying to calm Edward down.


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