Kaneki had planned on telling Hide about his readiness to take their relationship to the next step right when he got there, but when his boyfriend gave him that smile, his resolve completely melted. Okay. No big deal. He would do it later. Then he was offered coffee, then Hide told him all about his day at work, pretty soon the topic was pushed to the back of his mind.
Well it's been two hours, and right now the ghoul has cuddled against his human on the couch to watch a movie. Honestly, he would be happy to just do this, feeling his partner's heartbeat, warmth, and weight against him. He was grateful enough for the opportunity to be held, and didn't mind the fingers that played with his hair. The brunette was only half paying attention to the screen, some American comedy about cowboys, apparently Hide's professor is either pretty cool or has completely given up since she offers extra credit for every few English flicks they watch.
"Have you noticed your hair has white bits in it?"
The blonde asked, mind seeming to wander during a montage without subtitles.
"It does?"
"Yeah! There's like a blip of white half a centimeter from your scalp all around your head. Is that a ghoul thing?"
"It might be, Yomo has silver hair, and Yoshimura's is white, but I think that's just because he's old."
"One of the investigators said something about ghouls having weird hair colors, like Touka and Shuu." The boy mentions.
"That's natural?"
"I think so, I don't know, you've known them longer."
"I didn't know that was a thing, I don't usually find out about ghoul things until it's too late."
The blonde grins mischievously.
"Like this?" He touches the spot on Kaneki's back right above the kakuhou, and the half-ghoul flinches with a squeak.
"Hide!" He reprimands, face flushing. His boyfriend laughs, god, why does he have to be so cute when he's being a dumbass?
"Aww! You're so cute when you're embarrassed," he cooed, then planted a little kiss on his ear. The brunette knows he's being toyed with, but if Hide wants to play, then okay, he'll play. Ken grinds his ass back against his boyfriend's crotch, giggling mischievously when the human's jaw dropped in surprise.
"You bastard! I'm just trying to watch a movie and I am attacked by your horniness!"
"You started it!"
"And I'll finish it! Come here!" Both of them are cackling as the human pulls the other closer to kiss over his cheek, holding him in place as he struggles helplessly against the onslaught of affection. The half ghoul lurches forward at a ticklish peck on the back of his neck, but the couch is only so big, and the boy finds himself toppling to the floor, pulling his boyfriend down with him. He hits the ground with an "oof", but is somehow still giggling through it. The blonde rolls off of his back, trying to stop laughing long enough to check on him.
"Kaneki, bro-!" he barks more laughter. "Are you okay."
"I'm fine," he smiles. "Dumbass." He sits up to cup Hide's chin, his eyes lingering on the unblemished cheeks, the little strands of hair that are in his face, and those lips slightly parted to show dull human teeth. The boy puts his own lips to his, beginning with an innocent touch, only to deepen when he presses his tongue into the blonde's mouth. When they came apart, the feeling in the room had shifted, the movie and banter forgotten as their gazes met, something communicated in the act of seeking intimacy. The ghoul felt a hand on his thigh, squeezing lightly over the denim of his jeans.
"Oh?" Hide teases as he slides the hand up to his hip.
"Do you want to…?" Kaneki begins. Should he tell him right now how far he's ready to go? Should he wait to see if he's into it? Before he can think too much, he's answered pretty quickly.
"Of course! Same as last time? More? Less?" Hide asks, even when eager, considerate as always. The brunette tenses up, excited as well, but not expecting things to go this smoothly. Well, here goes nothing.
"Can I suck your dick?"
The human is stunned, dumbfounded at the request.
"Uh-"
"Sorry! I don't need to, that's just an idea-" Ken quickly apologized, before being reassured by his now blushing partner.
"No not at all! I just didn't expect that, damn dude, you're like this cute,. shy bookworm and then every once and awhile you say something so hot that it puts me in a coma!" He raves.
"And holy shit, if you're down to then yeah! But just checking, are you doing this because you think I expect it or because you want to?"
"Because I want to, I want to do more with you," the half-ghoul can not believe what is coming out of his mouth right now, but horny brain is stronger than anxious brain at the moment.
"Alright then, I've got condoms in my room, I'll be right back," hide starts to get up, but is grabbed by the wrist before he can stand up all the way. Kaneki avoids his eyes.
"I've got some in my bag," he informs. His partner gasps dramatically.
"You dirty boy, you were planning this!"
"I was planning to tell you when I got here but then you were so adorable I felt bad about bringing up," he gestures vaguely, still looking away in embarrassment. "Sex stuff."
"Ken Kaneki, any time you ever have a sexy idea, you can tell me. 99% of the time I am thinking about railing you, the other 1% is when I'm asleep and unfortunately, not dreaming about railing you."
Ken looks sheepishly back up at him.
"Does that mean you'd be okay… doing more?"
"Oh my god yes"
He hesitates.
"I also brought the lube."
The next three seconds of quiet are nothing short of crushing. Had he not been clear enough? Had he been too clear?
"Ken?" Hide asked calmly.
"Yes?" The ghoul quavered. His boyfriend took his hands in his own, on his face a look of clear excitement.
"Are we doing this?"
Kaneki nods, and the blonde immediately kisses him. The two topple backwards once more, tongues curling together, Ken's hands in his partner's hair as the other felt up his sides. The half ghoul shivers in anticipation, this is it! He's about to lose his virginity to the boy he's loved since he was a kid, he's about to live out a fantasy he'd imagined so many times when alone in his room.
He was ready to be the prey of his prey, so lovingly devoured.
Suddenly, the blonde sat up.
"Hide?"
"Let's go to the bedroom, I love you way too much to take your virginity on the floor with 100 Ways to Die in the West playing in the background."
Hearing that after how anxious he'd been, Ken snorted, cracking up once again along with his boyfriend as took the hand offered to help him to his feet. Tension dissipated with laughter, it fizzled away as the human held him, kissed his forehead, and led him to his bedroom, backpack in hand.
"It's a little messy so gimme a sec," Hide warned him as they entered. Kaneki looked around, he always felt comfortable in here, even on his worse days, and even with the expanse of photos and newspaper clippings that his boyfriend called his "conspiracy bitch wall", it felt like safety. A few articles of clothing are tossed off of the bed, and the sheets are smoothed over before the human dramatically presented it.
"There! Clean! So, ya still horny or has the mysteries of the conspiracy bitch wall enraptured you?"
"I can't believe I'm in love with such an idiot," the half-ghoul sighs.
"I can't believe I'm about to fuck you!"
There Kaneki goes, red as a tomato once again. Hide sits on the mattress, and pats the spot next to him for his partner to join him, which he quickly obliged.
"So um…" Man's embarrassment returns as he realizes that he doesn't know how this will go, and as far as he knows, Hide's only been with girls.
"How is this going to work?"
"That depends, you're okay being the bottom right?"
He looks off to the side and nods.
"Nice, I'd way rather be the top so that works out perfectly!"
"Whenever I imagined… this, I wanted you on top."
"Which I love," Hide fawns as he leans to kiss his partner. As the two embrace, the human grips the backs of Ken's thighs just above the knees, pulling them up. Without any time to brace for the motion, the brunette fell back with a tiny yelp, head hitting the pillow. He felt his partner's thighs against his own as he was repositioned so the blonde could kneel between his open legs, the same way he had been on that night a week ago. Hide shifts his weight to his legs as he takes his shirt at the base, making a show of pulling it up, and over his head. The half-ghoul drinks in the expanse of pale chest, noticing his boyfriend's hard-on in his pants as his front was on display, as well as his own arousal at the sight. The shirtless boy smirks at the sight of the flustered creature looking up at him, then leans down, so close to Kaneki's ear. The ghoul shivers as he feels a hot breath on his ear.
"I love you Ken.
"I love you too…" he whispered, Tentative arms wrap around the unscarred man above him.
"Please… Fuck me Hide."
He didn't need much urging, in a second he kissed the brunette passionately, teeth clicking together before their tongues could intertwine. Kaneki moaned into his mouth when his boyfriend pressed a hand into his kakuhou, arching away on instinct but is stopped by the body holding him down, unable to escape the galvanizing sensation. He whined at the loss of contact when the hand moved upwards, the blonde pulling away from the kiss and wasted no time getting to the point.
"Can I take off your clothes?"
"Please," Ken happily agreed, the human yanked his shirt off, his boyfriend lifting his arms to make it easier for him to remove it completely and toss it on the floor beside his own. His self consciousness finally kicks in at the realization that he was half naked. Sure, they've changed in the same room in the time since they'd started dating, but he never felt as examined. The blonde was indeed looking over the exposed flesh, tracing down his chest ever so lightly with his fingertips, ending just below his belly button, beside the scar on his hip.
Hideyoshi seemed to understand his partner's concerns, and reassured him accordingly.
"You're so pretty, fuck you got built," he emphasizes as he brings his hand up to squeeze a peck. Ken sucked in a breath, and his boyfriend put his lips to his jawline, kissing his chin before moving down.
The brunette is forced to thrown his head back as teeth nipped gently at his throat. Even with skin impenetrable by iron and steel, marks would remain, and the trail of sucks and bites would soon grow dark against a porcelain canvas. Kaneki was struggling to keep quiet as it was, but Hide just had to push him, biting down hard beneath his collar bone and rutting his clothed cock against his. The ghoul gasped, and took a hand off of his partner's back to cover his mouth.
The hands moved down his body, ghosting over ribs and sliding down his hips, thumbs caressing the V line until they hit his belt. Hide laps at the bite he left and glances up to Kaneki's eyes, half lidded and unfocused. The stormy colors of white and grey alongside the predatory caution of black and red gazed back at him with lust and longing, the unspoken question between them answered with a small nod from the ghoul. Hideyoshi unbuckles the belt and in a single motion, yanks his boyfriend's pants and underwear down to his knees, freeing his cock. The human gave another tug at the clothing, but it wouldn't come off as easily.
"Y-yeah, they're pretty tight, let me help you with those." Kaneki sits up a bit to take over the action, wriggling out of his pants and placing them on the floor as the blonde took that opportunity to do the same. Now they were both naked, bodies laid bare for one another to see and clearly aroused. The heterochromatic boy was reminded just how big Hide was, and pretty soon it would be inside of him.
He shifted in place.
The human reaches over the edge of the bed to pick up the backpack, then unzips it to search for the items his partner brought.
"It's in the small pocket," the brunette directs.
"Alright-y, one second," Hideyoshi does as he's instructed, soon tossing a condom and the bottle on the bed. Seeing them, along with being entirely exposed, reignited Ken's nerves.
"How we feeling buddy?" The human checked in.
"I'm good, I'm good," the ghoul rushes.
"You sure? We don't have to do this-"
"I want to! I really want to…. I'm just scared." He admits.
"That's okay, how can I make it less scary?"
"Keep talking to me."
"Can do, so you know what the next part is?"
"You um, you've gotta prep me."
"Oh good, that would've been awkward to explain," he chuckles, ken smiles.
"Are you ready?"
"Hide if we wait any longer I will literally implode."
"Damn really? The CCG is wasting its time developing weapons when all they have to do is make ghouls horny and wait."
"On second thought? Stop talking, preferably forever," Kaneki gripes, the two giggle at their own absurdity during an otherwise nerve wracking moment. Hide resumed his place between the brunettes legs, capturing him by his hips as he lapped at his chest, earning a choked sound from the submissive boy. The noise only served to urge him on, licking his tongue over his nipple and kissing down his abs. The blonde paused a moment at the surgical scar on his boyfriend's hip that cut through the V to his cock, and left a tender kiss on the damaged flesh. The tenderness shown to the mark that Ken had only ever associated with tragedy added to the swirl of emotion. On one hand, he was about to let himself be defiled, risk pain and judgement. On the other hand, this was something he wanted, the sensations of sex, the intimacy of vulnerability, the boy who he had loved. He didn't need to fear judgement from him, clearly he had made up his mind about him, he was loved. So deeply loved that the damage of his body, changes to his biology, and trauma of the last few months together wasn't enough to wipe that stupid, sexy smile off of Hide's stupid, sexy face.
And in an instant, that tongue was on his cock, and Kaneki saw stars. Electricity coursed through his veins, and he was unable to bite back a keen as he was licked from base from tip, which was soon taken in past his partner's lips. Ken gripped at the sheets, groaning as Hideyoshi took him inch by inch into his mouth. One hand came away from his hip and caressed his thigh, moving up to squeeze his ass and rub his back, adding the sensation from his kakuhou. As the bobs his head up and down on the cock, he brings his fingers from the soft spot of the kakuhou back to Ken's ass, experimentally prodding at the hole. The ghoul digs his fingers into the bed to restrain himself of grabbing at his boyfriend, fearing his monstrous strength.
The fingers came away, and Hideyoshi lifted his head with a wet sound as Kaneki's hard-on came out of his mouth. The half ghoul was given just a moment to try to catch his breath and steady himself as the blonde reached for the bottle of lube beside him on the bed. He flicked up the cap, and squeezed a line of the clear gel onto a finger, rubbing it against another to spread it around before looking back to his ghoul who was flushed to his shoulders.
"Are you ready?"
"I am."
Hide teased at Kaneki's entrance with the tip of his middle finger, then carefully pushed it in, stopping the first knuckle. The brunette sucks a breath in through his teeth, not so much from the intrusion, but the act itself. There was a fucking finger in him, a finger that isn't his and feels weird and oh god this is so dirty.
"Does it hurt?"
"No… no keep going," he whimpers. "Kiss me."
The human obliges, sliding his tongue into his mouth, and Kaneki swears he can taste himself. The finger in his ass moves slowly to ease the rest of the way inside him, only thrusting in and out when the ring of muscle relaxes enough to do so comfortably. He tried to focus on the kiss, Hide's saliva like ambrosia to the ghoul part of his mind, his scent filling his lungs like sage smoke. After about a minute, the blonde continues on.
"I'm putting another in," he warns. Ken takes a deep breath as a second digit pushes past the entrance to join the other. Now he was starting to feel more pressure, it wasn't bad, not good, but not bad. It just felt foreign, especially when the fingers started scissoring him open. Whimpering, the brunette kitten licks his partner's lips prompting him to open them and allow his tongue in. He'd read that this part was tough during one's first time, and he just had to get through it until it started feeling good. Until then, he'd keep himself occupied on absorbing every detail of his partner, lacing fingers through his hair and tracing his dull teeth with his tongue.
Ken was taken off guard when the fingers curled upwards, striking at a spot that made his legs quake. He cried out and squeezed his legs against his partner as the sudden pleasure jolted through him.
"There it is," Hide commented, and massaged one digit over the firm spot, eliciting another lewd sound from the boy under him.
"A-Ah, Hide that's-!" Kaneki struggles, cutting himself off with a shuddering sigh.
"One more finger, can you take it?"
The ghoul bit his lip and nodded, allowing himself to be penetrated by a third. Here it hurt, even with plenty of lube and a slow pace, the stretch made his insides burn. A low groan ripped from his throat when the pain pulsated through his lower half. His boyfriend, recognizing the look of discomfort, wrapped his free hand around Ken's cock, giving it a few careful strokes to distract from the sting.
"You're doing so well babe," Hide cooed as he pushed his digits in further, prodding and curling at his prostate. By the time he finally drags his fingers out of him, Kaneki is a quivering mess, head flung back against the pillow and tears pricking at his eyes as he swallows lascivious sounds. The ghoul's hazy eyes pleaded, for touch, for assurance, for that indescribable more. Hideyoshi sat up on his knees, grabbing next to him for the little foil square. As he ripped the edge, careful not to tear the latex ring inside, he talked him through it.
"I think you're stretched enough, this'll hurt at first, but I'll be gentle," he explained. The boy under him gave a small nod, acknowledging what was to come and tensing as he watched the blonde roll the condom down his lengthy cock, then spread more lube over it. He considered for a moment asking him to prep him longer, no matter how certain he was Hide would go slow, he was still intimidated by the size of him. Ken swallows as his partner places the tip of his cock against his hole, and wraps his arms around the blonde as he steels himself.
The half-ghoul was sickeningly nervous and overexposed, but he wanted this more than anything.
"Go slow, you're… really big," he pleaded. Hideyoshi smiled.
"You're so damn adorable," the human admired. "Are you ready?"
"Yeah."
Hide presses in, sighing in relief at the sensation. Kaneki on the other hand hissed in pain, whimpering pitifully as he was penetrated. Every slow motion burned, the speed irrelevant in alleviating pressure since he was just so big. The tears in his eyes threatened to spill as he felt torn open, but he held his partner tight until he filled him all the way, inch by agonizing inch. Once fully sheathed inside of him, the human kissed his cheek, and put the hand not supporting his weight to Ken's cheek, brushing a lock of hair out of his face and wiping the beginning of a tear away from his eye.
"Sorry, I know it hurts, I'm not gonna move until you're ready," he assures the trembling, gasping man, before going back to kiss him. The pair embraced like that for a few minutes, Hideyoshi staying very still as his partner squirmed and writhed on his cock, adjusting to the intrusion and steadily feeling the pain ebb away. After a while, once the need for relief outgrew the burn, Ken did his best to relax his thighs and open them further.
"I think… you can move," he informed with a shaky breath.
"You sure?"
"No, but please… fuck me, touch me," he took one of Hide's hands, twining their fingers together.
"I need you."
This time it was the blonde who shivered.
"I love you ken," he growled into his ear.
"I love you t- Ah!" His words cut short with a Yelp as his boyfriend pushed their interlocked hands back against the mattress and pulled out of his ass a few inches, thrusting back in a moment later. Their pace started slowly, carefully, each stroke inside of him rubbing over his sweet spot. Teeth attacked his neck, biting and sucking at his throat. The ghoul mewled as thrusts quickened, his hips moving with the force of being fucked. He squeezed his thighs against Hideyoshi's sides with a keen when the human hooked one of his legs over his shoulder, the new angle shoving directly into his prostate.
"Hide! Right there…. it feels so good," he begged. The other took full advantage of it, savoring the way his boyfriend moaned through his teeth and closed his eyes as he ravished him. Kaneki felt heat pooling in his belly, his cock ached as his ass was pounded into, and even with it untouched he could feel his orgasm coming. The pain of being stretched blended with the pleasure that galvanized him, with a particularly deep thrust, he felt a new stinging spark, but forgot about it with a bite on his shoulder.
All of a sudden, those monstrous instincts that Ken thought had no place here awakened. His back was over sensitive as kagune threatened to break through the skin, and his animal mind wouldn't quite itself. Fuck, claw, bite, bite. Keep going, feel more, BITE HIM. It was all he could do to keep his kakuhou closed and not tear his lover apart, he couldn't focus on stopping the moans that poured forth from his salivating mouth.
"Hide, oh fuck- Hide I'm close!" He cried.
"So am I…. fucking hell Ken I love you so much," the human growled as he shoved his cock as deep as he could into the ghoul's ass. Kaneki felt the overwhelming sensation like electricity through his veins, entire body tensing as his climax built. He whipped his head to the side and bit the pillow, crying out into the fabric as the coil in his belly unraveled, coming untouched over his stomach. The brunette gasped and shuddered, squeezing Hide's hand as his body was wracked with ecstasy. His partner fucked him through it, the motions growing sloppy and far too quick until he buried himself to the base, finishing inside of him with a sigh. The pair stayed like that for a few seconds, coming down from their highs with heaving breaths. The human soon reaches down to the base of his cock to keep the condom from spilling, and pulled out of his boyfriend who made a choked sound as he was left empty.
That was... amazing!" Hideyoshi started excitedly.
"How do you feel?"
"I...," he struggled, eyes finally refocusing to gaze up at his boyfriend.
"I feel good, really good…. oh my god we had sex!"
The blonde chuckled at the ghoul who just a moment ago was an obscene, lustful sight, covering his face in embarrassment as he came back down to earth. Hide took off the condom and tied it, then tossed it into the trash in the corner of his room before laying down beside his boyfriend. He clears his throat, then mimics a professional, airline pilot voice.
"We know that you have a choice in losing your virginity, thank you for choosing Hideyoshi!"
That shocks Kaneki out of his embarrassment, the boy snorts, and fails to hold back laughter at his partner's absurdity.
"It's only right that I thank you, you know, after I took you for a ride," the blonde teased, only prolonging the ghoul's laughter. The brunette stopped however after his own cackling made his insides sting. Hide looked down at his thighs to see the smallest smear of blood against the skin.
"Oh shit."
"What? What's wrong?" The heterochromatic boy asked as he collected himself.
"You're uh, bleeding a little."
"I'm- oh," he sat up a bit to try to see, and winced.
"...It doesn't look too bad, I didn't even notice it."
"Sorry man, I should've used more lube, you wait right there I'm gonna get something to clean you with."
"It's alright! It felt really good, and you can't help how… big you are."
Hideyoshi smiles at how cute it is that he's returning to his bashful self so soon.
"I'm a little surprised that it's possible, you being a ghoul and all, but it makes sense that you aren't as armored on the inside." The human struggles not to crack up as he continues to tease him.
"That or I've got a quinque dick-!"
Kaneki throws his pillow into his boyfriend's face, blushing brightly and unable to pretend he isn't happy.
"I can't believe I'm in love with such a dumbass"
