I have never seen Edward so wild. Does my death scare him that much? Jasper was concentrating so hard on him. Alice was in front of me protectively. I am sure she was surprised too.

Emmett was pushing Edward backward. the pain in my body was going and coming. I whimpered slightly. Edward was trying to calm himself down now. he was looking at me pained.

He tried to free himself from Emmet's grip. He looked at jasper and he nodded. then he released Edward. I looked at his eyes. the golden-brown eyes that I loved came back. it hurt me so much to see him hurt because of looked at Edward's warning and moved away.

He slowly walked towards me. I couldn't concentrate on any of them because the pain was starting to increase. I repeated Edward's name over and over in my head. It was helping a bit for me not to scream in the middle of them. he steps cautiously near me and touched my face.

"Bella...love.I am so sorry for acting like that" he said in the most pained voice.

It breaks my heart to hear him. He stroked my face lightly with his fingers and the pain was nowhere again. I touched his hand with mine."Edward.."

"Bella..why did you try to do that.." he asked lifting my face to look at him. What should I say to him? that I did that to get rid of my pain and those pills can't hurt me that easily. I looked around the room to see the others were also looking for an answer. I gulped.

"Edward...trust me...I didn't try to kill believe me..."I said in a weak voice.

his eyes were hard again. he doesn't believe me."Edward..." Alice warned. Edward stepped back. I looked at him. he was looking at Alice. they were having a private conversation. Emmett was looking at me worriedly and jasper curiously. he must have sensed my coming and going pain.

"Bella...we're taking you to our place. we must meet Carlisle."Edward suddenly said. no... no way I am staying there today. they will see me .they will know...and then...I lied..I. was stared eyes widen.

"Bella...what's wrong with you...why are you panicking," Jasper said worriedly and sending me calm waves. Edward held my face in his hands and bend down.

" Bella...don't be scared. we're just going to get Carlisle to check you." he said. I saw Alice talking on the phone. no charlie please don't.

"Thanks, Charlie...thank you thank you so much..ok don't worry...no no..ok I'll take care of her..ok bye."Alice ended the call. I looked at them horrified.

"Why did you...Why did you do that...Ugh... I am not coming.."I said shocking them. I have never refused to come to their house.

"I don't care if you're coming or not you're not well. you're coming with us" Edward said in a determined voice." are you calling me crazy Edward?" I yelled at him. his eyes went wide.

What...no..bella..I am telling you that your not well .your skin is burning and jasper feels the pain in your body. No matter what you're coming with. Emmett ."Edward called. I can't believe him . in a blinking second, we were in Emmett's jeep, me in the backside between Emmett and jasper. Alice and Edward were in the front seat talking so fast I couldn't understand. Jasper was continuously sending me calm waves.

"what were you going to do yourself huh," Emmett said shaking his head. I glared at him .but the pain was suddenly increasing. I gripped the jaspers' arm hardly. he must also feel it.

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"ah...hhhh"I screamed. stop...stop this, please. Edward was driving the car so fast. But he looked at me while driving.

"What's happening to her jasper..." Edward shouted.

He was trying so hard to get to the Cullens' house so soon. It was already dark. I am sure the moon has risen.

"I don't know...But she's feeling a lot of pain...It's like burning...Edward" Jasper was gasping. Now I was completely exhausted. I was breathing so hard. I bit my lip to stop yelling. I could feel the blood under my skin was boiling.

"Her scent... it's becomes so strong Edward..." Emmett said.

"Shit..."I heard Edward curse. a sudden pain rushed through me. this time I grabbed both Jaspers' and Emmett's hand."I can't...Please..uh"I was sweating.

"Bella...wait for a moment. we're going to our house in a few moments please." Edward pleaded. now I was oh god...please help me to pass this...

I felt the jeep eyes were a blur because of the crying. I was half unconscious. someone scooped me in their arms, I could tell that was Edward because of the honey lilac scent.

"we're here you'll be fine," he said. It was like I am dreaming. I felt like I am then...all was black.

I always knew I was not perfect I couldn't even make my parents proud. What do you think? do I even deserve to be loved by Edward? never in my life, I felt so complete.

When I met him I knew that he was the other half of was the reason I broke every rule of my family. the day he took me to his meadow I knew he would be my whole world .in In my past, I was never allowed to have friends or a from my father, once that I hate that then. But I think I am a bit grateful because now Edward was my first love.

Flashback***

"Father...I killed him"

I said in an emotionless even didn't bother to look up from what was he doing.

"good".that was what he said. I sighed. I knew that was the answer he was going to give me anyway."

"I heard Jen saying we're leaving again?"I asked.

Jennifer my sister-in-law. The closest one from my vampire family .and anyway we only stayed in a place for a small were all home sixteen years I already knew everything to I was tired of this. killing, chasing, hunting, moving, this called a now again we're leaving.

He looked up at me with this eagle eyes. the dark chocolate brown eyes he was looking at. I have never seen his eyes looking at me like a father.

I was always a Hunter to him. He was the leader of our Evans my dad's best friend and his daughter Rita is also in our clan. I wanted to think of this as a family, but it never brothers Ryan and Kyle, at least I can call them brother without Ryan's wife Jennifer Dawn and Kyle's girlfriend Stephanie Smith, they were like sisters to me. But their way of hunting and killing isn't a thing I like a lot.

Being the youngest in the family I only have love from my brothers. I have never seen my mother. I have heard that she was also a vampire told me that she died in a fight. But I have never seen father talk about her. Sometimes I wonder that if it makes him this cold heart man.

"yes..we're leaving. We have some cases .there have been some killings near London. we're going to move from the country." he said. killing, killing, and killing. what else in this life.

I thought this was the best time to tell my reason to him.

"Father...I have to tell you something.." I hesitated for a raised an eyebrow. I didn't know how he's going to this. but My decision was final. I am no longer his puppet. "well... I am not coming." I said not looking at his eyes.

"you are not coming..." when he repeated it I was shocked by the calm voice. He was not shouting or telling anything.

"yes, I am not coming with you," I said seriously this time. he couldn't think I was joking about this.

"I knew it. So what are you going to do? I am not keeping this house. you have to stay alone then." he said. Really ? is that the best a father could say when their daughter is leaving.

"It's ok. I have found a place to stay." not exactly true. I thought. "And father I am going to find something. So don't follow me." I said. He scoffed.

"don't worry... I won't...But if you're going to find the gold eyes vampires..you should kill them" he said. I stared at him, did he? He chuckled darkly.

"Isabella. did you think that I won't find out that you sneaked into my room and stealing the vampire researches of mine?" I stared at him surprised.

"And what did you find out? there is nothing but the truth I have always told you. Red eyes or gold eyes, every vampire are a cruel creature. They only live with blood. Humans are nothing other than food to them. And we are here to protect humans from the bloodsuckers Bella. Don't forget your job no matter what. And don't hesitate to kill them the moment you see them."

Flashback****