thanks for the reviews, here's some more story, it's quite a doozy and a little short but just build up for what's next.
Cavanaugh was still by Jane's bedside as he waited for Maura to come back, the doctor came in checking on Jane, he smiled at her. "Hey Mrs. Rizzoli, we're going to be able to check if you can breathe without the mask now, I know how uncomfortable it might feel. If you feel any pain at all that's normal, if at any point you want the mask back on just let me know. Can you do that for me?" Jane nodded, more than ready to breathe on her own, she was already in pain anyways, she moved slightly to try and sit up more, the pain in her back was already so unbearable, if she wasn't on painkillers it would feel one hundred times worse. The doctor removed the mask helping her to breathe she took a short breath of air, her chest felt like it was tightening. "How does that feel?"
"Like hell," she muttered. "Is it time for more painkillers?"
"Not yet, in about two hours we'll give you some more, have some water though," he handed her a plastic cup he had brought in with water. Jane took a sip and groaned, closing her eyes feeling the cold water go down her dry and scratchy throat.
"I never appreciated water more than I do right now," she shifted again. "I will be able to get up and piss on my own at some point today right?"
The doctor looked at Cavanaugh who smirked. "Yes, I'm afraid that's how she is."
"Well I think Mrs. Rizzoli that you are going to be fine, and yes we'll also take that out."
Jane grimaced, "Please call me Sargeant Rizzoli-Isles, Mrs. Rizzoli makes me feel like I'm my own mother." The doctor nodded his head.
"Alright, if you need anything, just let me know," he patted Cavanaugh's shoulder. "Good luck with her, she seems like a handful," he spoke softly before leaving the room.
"You could have been a little nicer to the man," he gave his head a shake. "You know earlier he assumed I was your father, I had to tell him who I really was."
"No offense, but I'm glad you're not my father, even though Pop was a piece of work. Korsak has been proving to be a good replacement," Jane drank some more water, before she put it down and coughed. "Son of a bit-" she paused once she seen Maura and the twins enter the room, the twins stopped in the doorway frowning, the last time they were in the hospital it was because someone hurt their mother. "Hey, I'm okay," Jane leaned back against her pillows, trying to reassure the kids. "You guys can sit if you'd like," she patted the edge of her bed, the twins made no effort to move. Jane glanced over at Maura who had a frown on her face.
"Did you two want to sit outside with Angela?" Maura asked and they nodded. "I'll be right back," she looked at Cavanaugh. "Thanks for keeping an eye on Jane."
"It's not like I could go anywhere, I'm literally attached to the bed," she sighed before Maura went to go take the kids to Angela. She came back moments later.
"I guess my job here is done," Cavanaugh stood up from his chair. "Keep me updated with everything. Try and stay safe Jane," he rested his hand on her shoulder before leaving, closing the door behind him. Maura sat down in the vacated seat.
"Why are the twins here? I don't want them seeing me like this," Jane moved up in the bed, groaning at the tightness in her chest.
"They wanted to come, I didn't want them here either, but if I refused them it would make them feel worse than they already do."
"Well it looks like they feel worse seeing me in this damn place."
Maura rested her hand on Jane's, "Hey, I don't think it's good for you to get all worked up right now."
"And I'm not sure giving into the kids is such a good idea Maura, we need to set boundaries for them," she laid down and grumbled, taking a small breather. "I'm sorry, I just I hate this feeling. I hate that I'm physically hurting and I hate more than anything that I missed Camille's funeral, I missed being there for you and the kids."
"You are always there for us Jane, and it's not your fault you couldn't make it," she squeezed her fingers.
Jane squeezed her fingers in return, "Can we just not talk anymore right now? I just want to be in your presence, plus it's probably not good for my lungs to keep on talking."
"Of course Jane, anything you need, I'll be right here," she handed her the water cup, Jane accepted and finished the cup.
"I am glad that you got your job back, there would be hell to pay if you didn't."
Maura smiled, "I'm sure there would have been. You always have my back."
"That's why we make a good team," Jane spoke softly, closing her eyes, her fingers tightening around Maura's.
Cavanaugh walked into the waiting room and sat next to Angela, the kids were on the other side of her eating a snack she gave them, "How are you holding up?"
"My daughter ended up in the hospital yet again, how do you think I'm doing? I could have had more difficulties with my baby, I really can't deal with anymore strain," she spoke.
"How's Vince been?"
"He's been treating me with real love and care. If I didn't know he was married three times before me I wouldn't have noticed, he knows how to treat me. I take it you never met any nice women down in Florida?"
Cavanaugh shook his head, "No, but that's alright since I'm coming back to Boston. I still can't believe you're pregnant."
"Well you better believe it," Korsak approached. "Sean."
"Vince," he eyed the man, he looked like he lost some weight, a healthy amount of weight, Angela must have been treating him well.
"Would you two mind not doing this?" she eyed her husband.
"Do what?"
"You know what I'm talking about Vince," Angela scolded lightly.
"She only had nice things to say about you, before you get all upset," Cavanaugh spoke with authority.
"Then you won't mind scooting over so I can sit next to my wife."
The twins heads popped up at Korsak's words, "Don't you want to sit next to us? There's room over here."
Cavanaugh stood up from the chair he was sitting in, "I was actually just leaving, got a lot of things to do before I'm back permanently. It was nice meeting you both," he smiled at the twins and turned to Angela. "See you around Angela. Good day Vince," he gave him a nod before leaving, Korsak immediately sat down in the seat.
"That wasn't very polite of you Vince," Angela wasn't even the slightest bit amused by her husband.
"Just seeing him near you gives me a bad feeling, we both know he still has feelings for you, he just automatically wants to come back, doesn't that seem like he has ulterior motive planned in his head," he shrugged, causing Angela to stand up.
"I married you and not him Vince, he's not a threat and I don't know why you have to act like a child," she shook her head and went to Jane's room.
Todd and Kate looked up at the older man, "I think you made her mad," he spoke softly. "You should apologize," Todd stated matter-of-factly.
"I-I'll just let her cool off some first."
"Flowers might help," Kate suggested before continuing her snack.
Jane sat up quickly hearing the door opening, she frowned seeing her mother. "Are you trying to give me chest pain or something Ma? Couldn't you knock first?"
Angela frowned, "I'm sorry I just had to get away from Vince. I didn't mean to interrupt, I'm glad that you're able to talk again."
"Do I even want to know why you're mad at him?" Jane raised an eyebrow.
"It's not like it's my fault he has a problem with Sean," she sat on the opposite side of the bed than Maura. Maura shook her head, smiling softly at Jane rolling her eyes.
"You used to date him Ma, obviously Vince doesn't want you talking to him, and I can't blame him. I swear if Cavanaugh kept on talking about missing you and shit if I wasn't injured I was going to jump right out of this bed."
Angela looked at Maura in surprise then back to Jane, "Wait, he said that?"
Jane nodded, "Yeah, so don't get upset at Korsak for getting upset, he did it for good reason. Even the damn doctor thought he was my father until he set him straight. But I really don't have time for this really weird drama, I don't want to be a part of it, a part of anyone's drama. I'm exhausted," she scowled, and slowed down her breathing. "Now can I be alone with my wife? And please take the twins home."
She got up from the chair and nodded, "Alright," she kissed the top of Jane's head and gave Maura a nod before leaving the room. Jane laid back down against her pillows, groaning at the chest pain she felt. Maura looked at her wife in concern.
"Should I go get the doctor," she stood up from her chair. Jane nodded and Maura left the room to retrieve the doctor. She came back right away, doctor in tow.
"You weren't taking it easy, were you?" the doctor asked in concern and if looks could kill the doctor would be in trouble by the way Jane looked at him. "My apologies, would you like the mask back on?"
Jane nodded again, frowned as she had to get help breathing again. The doctor looked at Maura once he was done. "Is she going to be alright?" Maura asked and the doctor nodded.
"Yes, but I think she should be done with visitors for today, besides you of course, you can stay I know she would want you here," the doctor wrote down on Jane's chart before leaving the room, Maura resuming her seat next to Jane's bedside.
"I'm really worried about you Jane," she whispered as she pushed the hair out of the brunette's face. "I'll try my hardest to make this next 8 weeks as less stressful as possible." As Maura spoke Jane was thinking how stressful her family could tend to be and wished Maura all the luck in the world with that.
In the meantime back at the Rizzoli-Isles household, Frost and the two Rizzoli brothers were there keeping Cailin company. Frankie kept on looking at Tommy and Cailin in concern when they were drinking some pretty hard liquor. "Should we order food or something?"
"I vote for pizza," Tommy kicked up his feet.
"Pizza sounds good to me," Cailin sighed. "You guys really don't need to watch out for me though."
"It's not good to be alone at a time like this, mourning a loved one isn't the easiest thing to deal with," Frost reassured her.
"I guess I could be thankful for the company, three handsome men trying to protect a depressed female, it's every girl's dream," she rolled her eyes, putting down her bottle and getting up to get some water in the kitchen.
"Is it me or is she starting to sound a lot like Jane?" Frankie asked. Tommy frowned.
"God Frankie, please don't refer to her as being like Jane, that's disturbing," he grunted. "I'm going to see if she's alright, order the pizza," Tommy pushed himself off of the couch, heading to the kitchen. Cailin looked up as he approached.
"What? I'm fine," she held up her glass of water. "I'm even staying hydrated, moreso than you."
"I didn't even say anything. You mentioned being depressed and I was worried, that's all," he leaned against the counter.
"Why wouldn't I be depressed? I just had my recently ex girlfriend be buried. And you have no right to be worried about me, I heard you were drunk off your ass yesterday, real mature. You shouldn't be here watching me and don't act like you care about me. You agreed that we'd still be friends but as soon as you got done remodeling the bathroom you bolted. You're just here out of pity," she pushed passed him.
"Is that what you really think? Maybe I bolted because I can't stop thinking about you, I can't be near you without wanting you. I didn't think I could feel this strongly about anyone again after Frost, I'm just going to fail again and that scares the shit out of me. I'm here because I don't want you feeling alone and I don't want to be alone. I'm here because I care about you and that's not going to change," he looked into her eyes, "These feelings aren't going to go away."
"I don't want you having these feelings for me, I don't want you here. I don't even want to be here anymore. I lost my best friend, how the hell am I supposed to live without her?" she wiped the tears from her eyes. "It should have been me, she had kids and now they have to live without their mother, what kind of life is that for two four year olds. It isn't fuckin fair. I wish Maura never gave me her damn kidney, I wouldn't have to be going through this pain of losing a loved one. I want this to be all over dammit," she cried.
Tommy didn't know all this emotions Cailin was feeling, it made his problem seem unimportant. He didn't like hearing her talk like this, it really scared the hell out of him. He pulled her into his arms, "I'm sorry that you are feeling this way I wish I could do something to help you. I meant what I said."
Cailin nodded, "I know, I don't want to feel this way, but I do," she spoke after calming down a bit. "And then Jane almost died and I wouldn't even know how to cope with that shit. I can't even cope with Camille being gone. I'm a lost cause Tommy and I don't want you to have any feelings for me."
"You're not a lost cause Cailin, you're just feeling upset about everything going on and you aren't alone okay? Don't forget that," he kissed the top of her head.
"I don't know why Frost didn't want you, you're good at the comforting," she pulled away, wiping her eyes. "You're sweet when you want to be, you know that?"
"I don't hear that often."
"Well I mean it, sorry about my outburst, I just it's a lot of shit going on in my head. I didn't mean to take it out in you I just, it's overwhelming," she looked up at him, her hand resting on his cheek. "I don't think I should drink anymore. I do want you here it's just, I'm not stable right now. I'm so damn conflicted," she admits softly, pulling away. "We should get back to the living room. I'm sure they are worried about my outburst they pretended not to hear," she glanced over to Frankie and Frost eyes on the television. "They look cute together, in a way... I guess. I think you were better with Frost though, but that's just my opinion. I know you're still hurting from not being with him, and it kinda sucks watching you look at him knowing how you feel about him still."
"I don't still have feelings for Frost."
"Yeah, even that didn't sound convincing," Cailin shook her head. "You can still like him, it isn't a crime, you know."
"I know it's not a crime, but he chose Frankie and I can't do anything about it."
Cailin nodded at his reaction, "Yeah you're still in love with him, I can tell Tommy, even if you refuse it. Even if you want to use your feelings for me as an excuse to move on from him. Are you even positive what you feel for me is real?"
Tommy looked at Cailin and nodded, "Yeah I'm sure. I have feelings for you, strong feelings I can't control. I am willing to wait for you, no matter how long it takes, I can be patient with you, something I couldn't be with Frost, you know he was never completely open in our relationship, he was always holding back."
"He was just scared Tommy, trust me I know that feeling, I know it all too well, because I'm freightened as hell about these feelings I share for you, and I'm still so confused by them. Maybe if you were an asshole to me it would be easier not to like you."
"Well I don't think I could be an asshole to you."
"Always the fucking gentleman," she ran her hand down his arm, before pulling him close, kissing him, Tommy wasn't quite sure what was happening but he fell into the kiss with ease, pulling her close feeling all the tension from the room slip away. The kiss ended as quickly as it came, Cailin licked her lips and pulled away. "Um, I'm sorry," she shoved her hands in her pockets. "Did you want to go back into the living room now?"
Tommy nodded, "Yeah, the pizza should be here soon," he looked over to Frost and Frankie, he could see the expression on Frost's face. Tommy didn't exactly know what that look was for, he wasn't sure he seen it on Frost before. Tommy just assumed it was his imagination but it looked as though Frost was jealous. He couldn't read too much into it because it was gone as fast as it came. Tommy didn't notice that Cailin realized the look as well, and she didn't know how she felt but she knew Frost wasn't over Tommy. Angela and Korsak just entered the house with the twins, distracting them from their mutual thoughts.
Is Jane going to be alright? Will Korsak and Angela make amends, and is Frost actually jealous of what he seen from Tommy and Cailin. Find out in the following chapters. Thanks for the support this story has been a delight to write and there's no end in sight as of yet.
