I had my ideas for this chapter planned out, but trying to figure where I should start the chapter was a tough decision and had me stumped for a good bit of time. But then once I started it flowed out rather nicely. I'm glad you guys enjoy my chapters even if they come out pretty fast.


As soon as Korsak and Angela came over with the twins Frankie took notice of the tense looks on their faces, even as they sat apart from each other on the couch. He was already confused of what took place in the kitchen between Tommy and Cailin, there was definitely anger and hurt shared but when he seen Cailin kiss his brother he was confused by the whole thing. Frankie would bring it up later, but he didn't want to get into an argument with Tommy and his personal choices. He could even feel Frost tense beside him, he knew in that moment they both seen the kiss but why did Frost have that look on his face, Frankie couldn't tell what it was, but it didn't make him feel good about himself.

Frankie got up and answered the door when the pizza man arrived wanting to take a minute from everything going on. He paid the pizza man and he was on his way. The twins looked up and smiled, "You got pizza Uncle Frankie?" Todd got up from the couch.

"Yeah, it's good that we ordered enough just in case you guys came back. Did you two want to help out with getting plates?" he asked and they got up from the floor going with him in the kitchen.

"So how is Jane doing at the hospital?" Frost asked Angela.

"Honestly, I'm worried about her recovery, she didn't look too good. And neither did Maura, you know she told me she hasn't eaten in 24 hours. She's not taking care of herself, and all I can think of is what if Janie didn't make it, how would any of us make it through that. I want her to be better protected, both of them," she leaned back, resting her hands on her stomach.

"I know that can be pretty painful to think about, I couldn't imagine and I kind of don't want to imagine life without Jane. She has a huge impact on my life, more than anyone else I've ever met," Frost sighed. "You're taking care of yourself right?"

"Of course, well after the news that she ended up in the hospital anyways and I had to get everything checked out. Julian is a pretty tough baby, definitely takes after his sister in that aspect. Let's just hope when he's her age he stays out of trouble, but that's just wishful thinking," she moved to get up from the couch. "Did you want something to drink Frost?" Angela asked and he shook his head.

"Ang, shouldn't you be taking it easy?" Korsak asked and Angela frowned at him.

"I'm capable of doing simple tasks Vince, I really wish you would stop treating me like I can't do anything, plus it's not like they put me on bedrest," she went into the kitchen.

"What in the world was that about Korsak?" Frost eyed the older man.

"Don't ask," he sighed, running a hand through his hair.

The twins, Tommy and Cailin were already in the dining room eating their pizza, Frankie was in the kitchen getting himself a drink, he turned around to see his mother enter. "Hey Ma, would you like some pizza?"

"I just came in here to make myself a smoothie, would you like for me to make you one? You could use some vegetables, give you some energy for alone time with Frost."

"Ma! I don't need energy, it's none of your business but me and Frost don't do that stuff. I'm not even..." he paused to give his head a shake. "I've only been with girls, and I don't want to rush things. I'm new at this."

Angela rested a hand on her son's shoulder, "It's good to give things time, trust me, rushing things never turns out okay. Like it took Jane and Maura over three years to realize and accept their feelings for each other and they couldn't be more perfect for each other, they balance each other out in a lot of ways."

"What about you and Vince?" Frankie asked, noticing she didn't mention her husband.

"We don't have to talk about me and Vince," she turned away to get everything she needed for her smoothie. He went to stand beside her.

"Ma, what's going on with you two? I can tell that it's something, both of you seem tense and it's really awkward," Frankie looked over to Korsak on the couch. "I don't like knowing there's something wrong."

"It's fine Frankie, I'm just exhausted, physically and mentally," she started to put her ingredients into the blender. "You should go make sure you and Frost eat, don't worry about me and Vince."

Frankie sighed, "Fine, but I'm always going to worry, whatever it is that has you both acting odd, just fix it, please?"

"There's nothing to fix, but if it makes you feel better, fine, but I would like to make my smoothie first."

"Of course," he kissed the top of her head before going to grab Frost and joined the others in the dining room. Angela started the blender to mix her smoothie, constantly glancing over her shoulder to see Vince on the couch. She didn't even know what to say to him, but the silence was unbearable. She knew it was foolish but she wanted him to make the first move, it was the way he reacted which made her upset in the first place.

Once she finished making her smoothie and putting it into a glass she heard Korsak enter the kitchen. "Hey, we need to talk," he sighed and Angela frowned.

"You know that's what Frank said when he wanted to file for divorce, in that same tone too."

"Ang, that's not what this is, I swear, I just... we should talk outside, please?"

"Fine," she placed her glass down and headed outside. Korsak tucked his hands in his pockets.

"Well, first I'd like to set straight that I prefer not hearing you refer to our situations with ones you had with Frank. Hell, I'd like to not think about his existence at all," he admits.

"Alright, I can do that. What else is there that you wanted to talk about?"

"I want to put this whole damn Cavanaugh thing to rest, I'm sorry I got how I did at the hospital, it wasn't right of me. You were right you chose me, not him, but it just you didn't trust my instincts that Cavanaugh is up to something, you disregarded it as soon as I explained my dislikes about the situation. It just... it makes me wonder, if there's... well, if there's any unresolved feelings you have for him. You were worried about how he felt and didn't seem to understand my point of view on things."

Angela gasped at his words, "I can't believe you would think I have unresolved feelings for Sean, after all we been through."

"I have a list of reasons why my thoughts make sense, one big factor is the time I was dead for a bit in the hospital, you found comfort in Cavanaugh and you told me about sleeping with him, sure we weren't together at that time, but I never understood because you knew your feelings for me but you were willing to sleep with him. And you have yet to give me any reason to believe you don't have feelings for him, seems like you're getting defensive on his behalf."

"I'm getting defensive on my own behalf, it sounds like you don't trust me. I really don't need to hear this. I'm carrying your child and I've been through a lot already, we both have..."

"My ex wife went back to her ex, you don't think it scares me knowing Cavanaugh's back, what if he takes you away from me? What if you realize he's the better option and you take our son?" Korsak asked, a little loudly, startling Angela.

"Vince, I would never do that to you. Yes I'm sorry one of your ex wives left you for her ex, but not everyone is the same way. You should be able to trust me. I'm not going to leave you for Sean, I wish you could trust me," Angela frowned feeling defeated, she headed back inside the house, Korsak went after her.

"I'm sorry that it seems like I don't trust you, it's him that I don't trust, but you calling him Sean doesn't put my mind to ease one bit," he frowned.

"I'm done talking about this Vince," she drank some of her smoothie. "I think I'm going to stay here and help while Jane recoups."

"Ang, you aren't thinking about staying here for the whole eight weeks, are you? I'm sure Maura has a handle on things, plus Cailin will be here. Plus shouldn't you get Jane's approval, you don't want to seem overbearing, do you?"

Angela placed her cup on the counter, harder than she needed to, luckily it was a plastic cup. "Is that what you think I am, overbearing?"

"Angela, no, I just meant from her perspective, we know how she gets when it feels like you're smothering her," he groaned at his choice of words.

Frankie entered the kitchen, hearing their voices raise, "Hey, what the heck is going on in here? You're both getting the twins concerned."

"Oh nothing, just Vincent insulting the way I act about my kids."

"I swear, that's not what I'm trying to do here. Your mother is just taking things way out of proportion," he frowned, turning towards Frankie. "And I'm about to be late for work, maybe you can talk to her figure out where her head is at. I'm not sure that I know where my wife is right now. I'll see you later Ang," Korsak turned to leave the house.

"Ma, I thought I said to fix things, why do I get the feelings things just got worse?"

"Fixing things goes both ways Frankie," she took her smoothie and retired to the recliner. Frankie followed his mother and sat down on the couch.

"I don't like you both being mad at each other, I knew things weren't fine. I wish you could talk to me Ma, I can help, you know?"

Angela sighed, "I know, I just don't want you guys involved, any of you guys, and none of this gets mentioned to Jane alright? She has enough on her plate with this whole recovery thing she has to go through."

Frankie nodded his head in agreement, "Alright, but I really hope this thing with Korsak and you gets resolved sooner than later. I'm really worried."

"I'm really sorry to worry you, it's not my intention. I don't want any of you guys to worry."

"Ma, like it or not we can worry about you just as much as you get worried about all of your children. You don't have to be in this alone. I swear you don't realize how much you and Jane are alike," he got up from the couch, patting her leg. "Ma, Korsak is a good man, I hope that's something you still realize, he's always going to be, you guys just really need to work this out. Did you want to join the rest of us for pizza?"

Angela shook her head, "I'll just stay on the recliner, if you don't mind. I really am quite exhausted."

"Okay Ma," he kissed her cheek before retreating back to the dining room, sitting back down next to Frost.

"Are grandma and grandpa going to be okay?" Kate looked up with a frown.

Frankie nodded, "Yeah, adults get mad sometimes, but they are meant to be together so they can work things out."

"Like you and Frost?" she asked, hopefully.

"You think we're meant to be together?" Frost asked the younger girl who nodded with the brightest smile.

"I like you both together, don't you agree Todd?" she nudged her brother and he put his pizza down and shrugged.

"Love is overrated, just like Uncle Tommy said, right?" Todd looked up at Tommy who he deemed as favorite uncle a couple of months ago.

"Um... I was referring to love at your age."

"That's not what you said, did you forget?" Todd got up to lean in Tommy's ear, so he would be the only one to hear. "When I seen you upset over Frost and you told me it was overrated love that everyone deals with and not to get attached."

Tommy frowned at the boy's words, "You remember that?" he asked as Todd sat back down.

"I remember a lot of things," he smirked, leaning back in his chair as though he was proud of himself.

"I'm really going to be careful what I say to you from now on."

Cailin was really interested in what exactly Todd whispered to Tommy, and why they were even talking about love being overrated in the first place. "So, love is overrated, you say?" she asked.

"I said that weeks ago, things change though," Tommy reassured her.

"You don't have to defend yourself, I know it's pretty overrated," she shrugged and continued eating her pizza.

There was some silence until Frankie's phone went off, he answered it and frowned, he had a murder he had to investigate. "Well, work is calling for me, Frost luckily you aren't on call today, it's a triple," he mentioned and left after saying goodbye to his mother.

"What's a triple?" Todd asked.

"Um, you'd rather not know buddy," Frost didn't think discussing death was a good idea with a four year old, especially after today. Luckily the conversation was dropped, especially when the twins got done eating and dragged Cailin away because they wanted to do arts and crafts before they would take a nap, leaving Tommy and Frost alone in the dining room. "So, what was that all about?"

"The whole love being overrated thing? It is you know."

"I, no, not that. I know your feelings on love, especially after, you know. I meant what was that earlier in the kitchen between you and Cailin? Was she the person you said you were involved with when Frankie was trying to set you up with Lydia?" Frost asked, curiosity getting the best of him.

"Yeah, it might have been her, why?"

"I just, I was thinking that Jane would not react to it well, that's all. Plus she just lost Camille."

"Frost, you know Cailin and Camille weren't dating each other anymore for a week's time. We started a thing when she was feeling like a lost cause, the same feeling I got when me and you didn't work out. I relate a lot to Cailin you know, more than I could relate to you. Plus you have Frankie now, why do you seem jealous?"

Frost shook his head, "I'm not jealous, I'm just confused, and concerned."

"I never truly gave up hope on love, I was just upset at everything going on at the time. Are you happy with my brother?"

"Of course I'm happy with Frankie, why wouldn't I be? Best friends make good partners in romance, and you know if you do like Cailin all I ever wanted was your happiness, especially after we couldn't give that to each other."

"What me and Cailin have is complicated and non existent, she's still confused and she is feeling a lot of emotions, that kiss earlier was, I don't know what that was, especially when she mentioned how she was sort of rooting for me and you to work out," Tommy leaned back in his chair.

"She said that?"

"Yeah, but like I said you have Frankie, unless you're jealous and find yourself wanting me again, I am still available," Tommy shrugged, trying to get a good read on his facial expression.

"Tommy, come on don't do this. I'm involved with your brother, okay? You and I can't and shouldn't go through all of this again. You did get over me, didn't you?" Frost stood up and Tommy shrunk in his chair, thinking about what Cailin said about claiming he still had feelings for Frost, was that actually true and he didn't realize it, he tried his hardest to avoid Frost at all costs, afraid to realize if he still wanted him or not, he never even gave himself a chance to think about it. He didn't want to feel this way, it was actually the last thing he wanted to feel, he wanted to move on and find happiness again.

"Yes I did, but the real question is have you truly gotten over me?" he asked, standing up. "If you figure that out, you know where to find me. I need to get to work," Tommy looked at Frost's face, he couldn't resist but to reach up and rest his hand on Frost's cheek, his heart racing as he did so, if only for a second before he left the room.

Cailin looked up from the coffee table where the kids were coloring, "Are you leaving Tommy?" she asked and he nodded.

"Yeah, I need to get to work, especially if my boss is in a bad mood," he knew not to say Korsak's name with his mother right there, knowing they had an argument which seemed really serious.

"I'll walk you to your car," Cailin got up, patting the twins' heads before heading outside. Tommy shoved his hands into his pockets. "Did you talk to Frost?"

"I don't know, were you eavesdropping on our conversation?" he asked and she shook her head.

"Well I tried but you guys were talking too damn quiet, so was my hypothesis correct about you still having feelings for Frost."

"I have feelings for you Cailin," Tommy rested his hands on her arms, kissing her for a moment.

"I just want you to be sure before you waste all this time waiting for me to be ready. I'd hate to be ready and you be back with Frost," she kissed him back, resting her hand on his face.

Tommy slumped his shoulders, "Okay, I might not be completely positive if I have feelings for Frost still. I have time to figure all of this out though, you said yourself you wouldn't be ready for a while."

"True, glad you've been listening to what I say, that's good on your behalf," she kissed him again, wrapping her arms around Tommy's neck. She melted into the kiss, it lasted longer than the other ones.

"What was that for?" Tommy asked when she pulled away.

"Just in case we don't end up together in the end, figured you wouldn't mind."

"I don't mind one bit," he smirked. "I really should get to work, you should get back to arts and crafts, and please don't say anything to Frost about my very confusing feelings."

"I think it's safe to say your secret is safe with me," she pulled away completely. "Good night Tommy."

"Good night Cailin, and please take care of yourself, like all the time," Tommy kissed her cheek and she nodded before heading back inside, resuming her position at the table with the twins and their art creations.


Jane woke up from her nap, almost forgetting she was in the hospital, freaking out slightly. She had been controlling her breathing pretty well that the doctor took her mask off again, luckily she didn't wake up with that covering her mouth. She looked and noticed Maura resting her head on the bed, her wife looked peaceful she didn't want to wake her but she would have real bad neck pain if she stayed in that position for long. Jane shook her gently with her hand, Maura groaned, pressing her face deeper against the covers. "Come on Maur, wake up," she frowned when she didn't budge again. "Earth to Maura, are you alive down there?" she poked her with her finger this time. "Hey, I'm thirsty, Maura..." Jane sighed for a moment. "I'll just get up and get it myself," she smirked and shifted to move but Maura placed her hand on Jane's arm to stop her.

"You can't go anywhere Jane, remember?"

"I can finally piss on my own Maura, I say that's going somewhere."

"You still need assistance to do that too," Maura mumbled, sitting up, groaning at her stiff neck.

"You know, if you didn't sleep like that your neckular muscles wouldn't hurt so much," she eyed her wife and Maura looked at Jane with a raised brow.

"That's not even what it's called," she gave her head a shake, rubbing her muscles. "So what would you like to drink?"

Jane looked at her confused, "What are you talking about?"

"You said you were thirsty, right?"

"I was just trying to get you to wake up, I didn't know how long you were sleeping all broken like. I'd prefer it if we both didn't end up having back problems. It's bad enough my back pains might be long-lasting. It looks like lifting things will be frowned upon for me as well. Hope you're good at lifting me up."

"Jane I can lift things, even you, but you hardly let me do that."

"Well your wish came true."

"I never wished for you to become injured Jane," Maura frowned, playing with Jane's fingers. "I want to be as helpful as I can, no matter how stubborn I know you can be."

"Some things about me won't ever change, stubborn is definitely something I'll always be no matter what life throws at me," she smiled.

"I don't know why you find this stubbornness of yours as something to be proud of."

"If I wasn't stubborn Maura I wouldn't be me, and you love all of me right?"

"Of course I do Jane, every part of you," she lifted her hand up, kissing her knuckles.

"Even all the bad parts?"

"Yes because that's what makes you Jane Rizzoli. It might be a challenge sometimes, but you're worth it."

"You might have to keep on reminding me of that, just in case I seem to forget."

"Reassurance that you're worth something always seems to work for self esteem especially when you are going to need it the most," Maura smiled.

"You know what also helps, physical acts of reassurance. I wouldn't mind those every now and again," Jane winked.

"Well I'm always willing to offer some of that, but we should be careful of anything physical for your time of recovery."

Jane pouted, "I was afraid you'd say that."

Maura sighed, "It doesn't mean I will cut you off completely, that would be rude of me."

"Very rude," Jane nodded her head in agreement. Maura observed Jane before leaning up, pressing her lips against Jane's for a moment.

"Is that better?"

"Yeah, a little bit," she licked her lips. "Shame we finally have alone time and we can't do anything about it."

"I would prefer if you didn't start having breathing problems again, I know that would be the case if you got aroused."

"You want to know a secret Maura? When it comes to you I'm always aroused."

"That's not much of a secret," Maura shook her head in amusement.

"There's just something about you that keeps me going all the time. You sure we can't be at least a little more physical? I mean, no one will know."

"Jane, it's doctors orders. And it's for your well being, don't you want to heal faster? Delaying the healing process by doing things not recommended will just have you become more frustrated. We just need to practice patience, it is going to be hard for me to not perform physical activities as well."

"At least we'll go through it together, the emotional pain of not being able to express our love for each other."

"Jane, don't be so over dramatic."

"I'm being realistic miss smarty pants. Sexual release gives off endorphins and can help with depression and anxiety, something I'm bound to go through during the stages of recoup," Jane spouted off that little fact, causing Maura to smirk. "What?"

"Nothing, just amused by what words just came out of your mouth is all."

"You're not the only one who can spout off little facts. Plus I know you find it hot when I talk like that."

"I'm still not giving you any sort of sexual relief, no matter how hot you sound when you're using words like endorphins."

"Almost hotter than me speaking French?"

Maura squeezed her hand, "I think they have equal effects on me."

Jane leaned back and smiled, "I'll keep that in mind then, when it's approved for me to have sexual intercourse with my wife."

"This is going to be a long 8 weeks."

"You're telling me. I'm glad to know you'll miss pleasing me too. And at least I'm not paralyzed God can you imagine me not being able to get aroused or feel anything down there. That's not the kind of life I would want to live."

"Yeah that would be very difficult, but I wouldn't go anywhere, in sickness and in health right?"

"Exactly, and even in death we shall not part," Jane smiled as Maura got up to kiss the top of her head.

"Did you want something to eat or drink, I might go get something from the cafe and I promise I won't give you none of that Jell-O, I remember when I was here, it tasted like shit."

"How vulgar of you," Jane laughed. "That Jell-O really pissed you off, didn't it?"

"I just want the best for my wife and that stuff is not even close. I'll find something good for you. Don't miss me too much," she stroked Jane's cheek for a moment before leaving the room.

Jane sighed, full of content, she looked up at the ceiling, "I know I don't talk to you much God, but I am so grateful that you brought Maura into my life. And you and science saved me from death once again. I don't know what I did to deserve all this, but I don't want to do anything else to risk it. I'd be absolutely lost without that woman in my life. I don't want her or anyone to be put in harm's way, I know it's a lot to ask, but Camille wasn't saved and it kills me inside, I'm still mad about that, science and you didn't save her. I'm actually tired of seeing death and dealing with death. I need a sign of what's the best thing for me, for my family and my wife. I know danger lurks everywhere, but maybe there's more danger if I keep my current career. I don't know what path lies ahead of me but I do know I don't want anyone I care about to be put at risk. Danger seems to follow me more than it should. I'm always getting into these situations and I don't know how much more pain Maura could take, how much more I can take. Please in some way show me a sign of what's the right thing to do. I really need your guidance right now, now more than ever. Sorry if it sounds selfish but I need all the help I can get. You kinda owe me for taking Camille away way too damn soon. I guess I shouldn't use vulgarities with you, but I'm literally seeking you out for help. If not for me, for Maura, I know she doesn't believe in that kind of stuff, she believes in science, but you shouldn't judge those who don't believe I'm sure that you don't. Anyways I would really appreciate it if that sign could come within the eight weeks of my recovery, so you don't have to rush just consider it. Thanks for listening. Take care of Camille up there and let her know I miss her like crazy. Thank you for your time." She finished up with her spoken prayer just in time for Maura to come back with food.

"Jane, were you talking to yourself just now?" she eyed her wife suspiciously.

"No, why would I do that. So what did you bring for food?" she asked sitting up frowning. "Maura I don't want salad."

"That's for me, I know your dislike for salad."

"Yeah, like your dislike for hospital Jell-O," Jane smirked.

"You're not going to let that go, are you?" Maura asked handing Jane the sandwich she got for her.

"Not a chance."


What a chapter huh? So much drama and angst outside of our lovely Rizzles. It hurts to have Korsangela fighting and at odds but it's all part of the story (I do think Angela's more in the wrong here, what's your opinions?), at least our Rizzles is set with their emotions and they got some alone time. And Jane's seeking out God wasn't planned, it just sorta happened. I hoped you enjoyed this chapter.