Just a quick note in case it doesn't change but in chapter 76 where it says (3:12pm) should say (3:27pm).
(3:36pm) 9 minutes later…
Summer Bay – Caravan Park – Sally's House – Open Space Living Room and Kitchen
After finding the little plastic bag, Amanda had quickly finished what she was doing on the phone and then demanded that Johnny sit at the table while they talked.
"I don't even know why I went and scored." Johnny starts explaining "I guess it was all just getting too hard to deal with."
"Do you really think as a Cop might I add that taking drugs is going to make it easier?" Amanda asked "Johnny, people are relying on you right now, they need you to be strong."
"I'm trying but every day we go out there and every day we've got nothing to show for it. I'm just sick of feeling so useless."
"You're not useless, you just feel that way because your exhausted. You're not thinking straight."
"It's a cop out, it happens doesn't it. You fall back on bad habits all the time granted mine are prior to becoming a copper but still."
"Because that's the easy way out but trust me it's only going to make things worse in the long run." Amanda points out "Take it from someone who's learnt the hard way. It's taken me a long time to face up to a lot of bad decisions that I've made, to start to do the right thing and dig my way out."
"Where would I even start? You had a lot of cash to help you do the right thing. I'm just one guy with nothing more than being a cop to show for myself. I lost my wife to a psycho from my past and now I've lost Rocco for good."
"He can come back to you and when he does, he needs you to be strong not messed up on drugs. Plus, you can't forget about Cassie and the baby as they need you as well."
"He has Cassie and Sally all I've ever done is ruin his life."
"Johnny…" Amanda starts to say but gets stopped by Johnny.
"It's time to face it my life is stuffed and it's exactly what I deserve after everything that's happened lately." Johnny finally says as he thinks back on the last few weeks and everything that has happened because of him.
At the same time…
Summer Bay – Tony and Rachel's House – The Flat – Lucas's Bedroom
"Thank you." Lee says to Lucas "I owe you so much."
With that she takes off leaving both Lucas and Ric to talk.
Closing the door so no one else can hear them, Ric says: "If you don't come clean this is only going to get worse."
"You heard what she said, I can't back out now." Lucas reminds him.
"You just said that this was all a mess man. You've gotta come clean."
"Yeah and then what would happen?"
"Then Braeburn would get what's coming to him, and you would get your life back."
"And what about Lee." Lucas asks him "What if her parents kick her out?"
"I don't know, I feel sorry for her but what about you this is actually starting to have quite a big effect on your life mate."
"Na, I promised her Ric and I can't let her down." Lucas says.
Sighing, Ric says: "How do you think Mattie is feeling right about now? Because for this baby to have been yours it meant that you would have cheated on her before you both broke up."
Lucas doesn't reply as he thinks about what Ric had just said.
(3:42pm) 6 minutes later…
Summer Bay – Tony and Rachel's House – Living Room and Kitchen
Both April and Cassie were sat at the dinner table while Tony was sat in the armchair near the door, when Matilda wandered back into the room.
Walking past Tony, he stands up and says to her: "Hey, Mattie. Can I get you something?"
"No." Matilda replies as April and Cassie both stand up as well.
"I can rustle you up a sandwich."
"No, I said I was ok." Matilda says again.
Just then both Lucas and Ric enter the room which causes the other three to look at them.
"Em, we should probably go." Cassie says to April then to Mattie "I'll call you later?"
Matilda doesn't reply so Tony says: "I'll see you out."
Ric doesn't move as he wants to be there for his girlfriend, but Tony suggests that maybe he should come back later.
As they all leave Lucas walks over to Matilda: "Please don't be sad about this Mattie."
"I'm not sad. I'm angry, I'm hurt. You've been lying to me for not only weeks but since before we broke up clearly." Matilda points out "And I hate you for that."
"Look, there really is more going on here than you think."
"You said that a few days ago and you keep saying it, but it doesn't mean anything."
"You just have to trust me." Lucas said.
"Trust you? I don't know who you are anymore." Matilda tells him as she turns away from him and looks out the window into the back garden.
With that he leaves her alone knowing that there's nothing he can do or say that would make Mattie not hate him.
Once she was sure that he was gone, Matilda walks towards the fridge and opens the door. Pulling out the bowl of chocolate trifle, she places it on the bench and starts to eat it all.
(3:55pm) 13 minutes later…
Summer Bay – Caravan Park – Sally's House – Open Space Living Room and Kitchen
"All I'm saying Johnny is that there has to be something good in your life. There has to be." Amanda says as she quickly take a sip of coffee while Johnny rejoins her after putting the milk away.
"There was, Adrienne." Johnny points out "She was amazing, you know when you just click with someone. We were perfect for each other; I mean she was good for me and then that was all ruined by my past."
"Yeah I heard about what happened."
"She deserved better than me and then she would still be alive. I just wish there was something I could do to make up to her family as it was my fault."
"Well what's stopping you?"
"They won't answer my calls. So, I just stopped calling."
"Well, it sounds to me like you're taking the easy way out. If you were really wanting to apologise to her family, then you should just go and see them in person."
"And if they aren't there or they are there and refuse to talk to me, to give me a chance to explain?"
"Look, I never thought anybody here would give me a second chance either, but I did the right thing and they did. Granted it took a while, but they came around eventually. And I honestly think that Adrienne's family would too if you are genuine."
Johnny asks: "You really think it's possible?"
"Absolutely." Amanda smile.
