Here is the next chapter. Please enjoy it and read and review love Hannah xxx

Neville went and sat in a quiet unused part of the library to think things through. He hadn't told Hannah how he was feeling as he hadn't wanted to worry her. He had been so wrapped up in his own feelings and failings that he hadn't even stopped to think of how others might have grown up. Learning about Severus' past had been harrowing and made him realise that unless you ever actually looked into the past of someone you had no right to judge others. He might miss Harry very much but Harry had often judged others whether he had the right to or not something Neville was very much wrestling with at present.

His mind made up he left the library in search of Ronald Weasley the one person he needed answers from. As it so happened Ron had only moments ago been released from Hospital and was on his way home. He was shocked when he was approached by a highly nervous and upset looking Neville.

"Ron, do you have a moment to talk please? I really need to speak with you about something important!" he said as Ron seemed shocked.

"Yes of course I have time now. Come here into this abandoned classroom. Look it even has armchairs. How convenient. To be honest I was poisoned recently and it's taking me a little while to get over it. Excuse me one moment. Madam Pomfrey says I need to eat soup to keep my strength up. Hogwarts house elf! Can I please have some soup and bread?" he asked the stunned elf who nodded before clicking her fingers as the soup, bread and an appropriate table appeared there with two settings so Neville could have some.

"Actually I missed lunch today by accident. Thanks Ron. I saw you coming from the hospital wing are you ok?" he asked as Ron exhaled really loudly.

"To be honest I am not. Hermione poisoned me by accident and I punched her for it while under the influence of the befuddlement draft. I think she was intending to spice up our relationship but the potion was stolen from her and replaced with this one which she obviously thought was the right one. I feel bad she was abused like that but she and I will be having words about her behaviour later on. I've not been myself lately and I think I had started to worry her. It was a case of good concept and terrible execution!" he said seriously.

Being with Hermione had certainly helped his speech out Neville noted. He now spoke with more eloquence and thought put into whatever it was he was saying. Clearly Hermione was good for him in that regard. Why had none of them ever attempted to try and understand Harry? This thought plagued Neville more than any other thoughts. Why had they all been so consumed with their own thoughts that they hadn't known to think of others? He'd need to speak to Blaise and Draco later on as well about this. They being Slytherins might have a different perspective and he'd need all the advice he could get.

"Ron I hope you get better soon. I need to talk to you about Harry. Look why did you say he had put his name in the goblet of fire when he told us he hadn't and do you understand why none of us believed him? I have been wracked with guilt about this ever since he died. I didn't understand him one bit because I was too busy wallowing in the pity of my own life to think about him and his life. I never once thought about what his life outside school was like. I never asked him about it and I didn't really care all that much to know about it. I feel so awful!" he said crying once more and stunning Ron who had most certainly not seen it coming. If anything he wasn't all that sure what Neville needed to talk to him about but this was nowhere on the list of possible things it could be.

"Well you know how wonderful Dumbledore is and how wonderful everyone says he is. Everyone had heard him clearly say he drew the age line around the cup himself something I reckon he was proud of. When Harry's name was called I figured if anyone could get past Dumbledore it would be the lone survivor of the killing curse we have in our society. He survived the damn killing curse for Merlin's sake. Is it really all that unbelievable that he'd be able to get past an age line set by Dumbledore?" he asked pausing to eat some more of his soup and bread before continuing.

"Whenever anything dramatic happened Harry was usually in the centre of it whether he wanted to be or not and by extension me. Look I come from a poor family in a provincial home. We'll never live in a manor and I can accept that truly but I was always irked because Harry had a lot of money yet when he'd get a rare gift he was never happy. Sometimes he'd get really rare stuff and nothing made him happy. Our own head of house got him a nimbus 2000 for Merlin's sake. That never happened with any of us and I resented that sincerely!" he explained as Neville gasped.

"She did what? Was I so out of it or so self-absorbed that I didn't even notice it?" Neville asked looking very confused. He had always assumed Harry had bought it and had it delivered in the great hall so he could show off.

"I guess so yeah. I asked her about it one day and she said it was done to give poor Mr Potter a break. What about the likes of me who grew up with everything they own belonging to someone else first? In Harry and Sirius' will they both commented on how ridiculous I always looked and it is my mums fault. I love her. Merlin knows I always will unconditionally but sometimes she just didn't think. Who keeps giving a red head a maroon sweater and thinking it will work out when said person has red hair? I told her over and over again not to do it but she never listened to me claiming I was lucky to be even getting a sweater in the first place. There are many spells which can change the colour of fabric she just refused to use them" he said as Neville nodded to show he was still listening while he continued to eat his own soup. He'd need to get the recipe for it because it was delicious.

"I know Harry had a tough life but those around him did the best they could and still he was never happy. Sure the Dursleys were a pile of dragon dung but his friends here tried all they could to make him happy and it never worked. He got special treatment from everyone and free stuff and even hated that. Who in their right mind hates that? I realise he missed his parents and won't get them back but he could at least attempt to be grateful. I always resented that he wasn't grateful while I was on the side-lines barely getting by. To be honest even you have more understanding then he ever did!" he said as Neville gasped.

"Ron! I know I didn't lose my parents the same way he did but they are as good as dead. To be honest my own home life was hellish and being paired with wrong wand made me forgetful to the point that I couldn't retain anything. Now that my core is fixed and I have a new wand I am better than ever and can fully retain information. It is a big step in the right direction. When I heard Harry had died with none other than Sirius Black I wondered what in the hell he'd been doing with him in the first place? Why the hell was he with a criminal? I wondered did he feel so bad that he felt he had no choice but to hang out with criminals!" he said as Ron gasped.

"I can't believe he never told you. Sirius Black was his godfather and innocent of his so called crimes. They were committed by Peter Pettigrew who is still alive. Hermione and I saw him so we know he's still alive. It's a long story but suffice it say he was innocent. We don't know why the death eaters killed them both though. I think it was probably because the lie that he was one of them was spread around by everyone. They probably thought we'll show him for claiming to be one of us and then killed him and Harry. I thought personally Harry could only be killed by Voldie anyway so wasn't all that surprised that he was killed. Hermione is furious he was so reckless and can't see past her anger, Neville, I don't know what to do!" he said crying himself as Neville looked up quickly from his soup with a small smile.

"Ron everyone grieves differently. Sometimes people mourn. Other times they celebrate and other times they get angry. Personally in my own life I've experienced all three of those and it is perfectly normal. Just grieve whichever way you want to and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. I would advise you to tell Hermione to keep her anger to herself and discuss it with just you or those closest to her. It would not look good if she expressed her anger publicly. She'd only gain more negative attention and she doesn't need any more of that!" he said seriously as Ron's face went red.

"Listen here Longbottom! It's not my fault that chick Astrid Black hates her so much. I don't know what happened there and I don't care to know. You tell Astrid I will defend Hermione no matter what! I hope you can learn to deal with your own grief well as I am trying to. I must go!" he said getting up so fast he almost knocked the table over as he ran from the room. What an interesting meeting..