Suha's POV

We went on a small vacation because the Gems thought that me and Steven were messed up over going to Homeworld and meeting the Diamonds. Though that wasn't why Steven was feeling upset or anxious, it was because Connie wasn't texting him back and it had been weeks. Pearl was also trying to explain something important to Steven, that I had a theory as to what it was, but she must've been forced not to say anything because her hand kept covering her mouth which was disturbing to say the least.

I had been dealing with the conversation or argument / accusation with my relatives the Diamonds and about my current form. I knew I wasn't human, more of a Gem that wanted to pretend to be a human or liked doing human things like Amethyst. I knew that I made myself age up from being a 'baby' because I lived in the orphanage and never heard any mean things about me not growing up. So I knew I or rather Black Diamond was aware of the human concept of aging.

I knew that Black Diamond, myself, was the leader and creator of the Off-Colors, I had a bad relationship with Blue and Yellow because of my 'Off-Colorness', I had a Pearl who I was close to, Black Diamond escaped to Earth once Pink was shattered, she spent her days amongst the humans and for some reason she forgot her memory and made me/her think that we were a Hybrid Gem like Steven.

Thinking of myself as Black Diamond was still confusing, not to mention only Steven knew about me being Black Diamond and everything. I couldn't seem to figure out how to tell the Gems, especially since I didn't have all the answers myself. The more I thought of it, the more I made my head hurt. Groaned as I heard the Cookie Cat alarm clock buzz, waking up Steven. I turned my back to him as he did his morning routine. Until I heard a familiar high pitched sound come from the Temple Gate. I looked over and saw Amethyst, Pumpkin barked excitedly and ran towards her.

After exchanging pleasantries, Amethyst and Steven dragged Peridot out of the bathroom. Which she had been in for about two weeks. "Hey we're heading to the Kindergarten, you wanna come?" Amethyst asked.

"Yeah, just tell Steven to text me when you guys arrive, I'm guessing your taking the train right?"

"How did you-" Steven asked and then his eyes lit up.

"I stowed onto the train before when I escaped my former orphanage." I told him, suddenly feeling old, or older since by human years I was ancient.

"I forgot that you followed us after we left the train." Amethyst said.

"I still don't get it, aren't you a Gem? Why were you pretending to be like Steven all this time?" Peridot asked and I groaned.

"Don't even ask me. I still can't remember everything." I told her. "Most days I have more questions than answers."

After sometime they left and once it was the evening I received a text from Steven and warped my way to the Kindergarten. "Good ol' Kindergarten! Just the way I left it! Aww, some things never change. Gah- Actually, everything's different now! Man, I-I used to think this place was full of empty holes, but now it's like, it's empty with holes which were once full! All those Amethysts I met in space, they were all here! While I was right there in the ground. But now, I can finally start putting some faces to holes! Hohohoh, let's see... Hup!" Amethyst proceeded to hop from hole to hole. "This must've been 8XJ! Ooh! 8XK! 8XL!"

"Actually, the order goes from top to bottom. That's 8XJ." Peridot said.

"Really?'

"Yes. Curly hair, right?" She asked.

"Yeah! How'd you know?"

"You can tell from the iron deposits in the formation there. And that's 8XL down below." She explained and Amethyst hopped down to expect the hole.

"Whoa, that's pretty amazing, Dot." Amethyst said and Peridot blushed and smiled from the complement, but then turned gloomy.

"This used to make sense to me. I thought life was generated in a Kindergarten. Formless, aimless energy channeled into new, useful Gems. But life doesn't start in a Kindergarten. It ends here. I've gotten used to plants everywhere. Bugs and breeze and sunshine... All of that has been sucked out of this place. It's with the Amethysts that were produced here, and now, this place is nothing but a miserable husk. All of the Amethysts are gone."

"Hey!" Amethyst yelled.

"Oh, all the well-made Amethysts are gone." Peridot said.

"Yo, not better."

"If it makes you feel any better, the other Kindergarten's are much worse then this one." I told her and they looked over at me. "When some of the first Kindergartens were made, they completely destroyed the planets. Era 1 was quite a mess."

"How would you know that?" Peridot said and Amethyst had a confused look on her face.

"Yeah, you were found on Earth! How do you know that?!"

"I'm older than I look." I told them and jumped down from the warp pad. "Just cause I was found on Earth, doesn't mean I'm one of Pink's Gems." I looked over towards Amethyst's hole and noticed a flower. "What's a flower doing here?"

"Wait1' Amethyst jumped down and observed the flower. " Oh! I've never seen anything growing here, and I've been hanging around this joint for 5,000 years. Man, it looks healthy, too."

"Wow! That's Earth for you: Always bouncing back." Steven said.

"I don't know. I'd have to run some tests to see if this is not an anomaly." Peridot said.

"You want to try planting stuff here? You know how to farm!" Steven asked Peridot happily.

"Yeah, that could be fun!" Amethyst joined in.

"It could be an interesting experiment." Peridot said.

"Isn't it too damaged?" I asked and Steven motioned for me not to say anything.

"Yeah! Let's re-garden the Kindergarten!" Steven said before Peridot noticed anything.

We warp back to the Kindergarten, bringing along gardening tool, some sunflowers and Peridot's tractor, and a montage begins. Rocks are moved to make way for the tractor to plow and cultivate the soil. Holes are dug in the soil and the sunflowers are planted into them, after fertilizers are added. Steven and Amethyst begins watering the sunflowers by blasting them with water guns. Peridot calls it off, suggesting they sprinkle the water from above instead, using Amethyst as a helicopter. Lastly, Amethyst puts a plastic flamingo next to the sunflower field, and the trio celebrates. Though I had a feeling that it might not work.

I go back with them on the train the next day with a sinking feeling in my stomach. As we arrive to the Kindergarten. There were dead sunflowers on the ground. Peridot picks one up, and it disintegrates with the wind. We look on nervously to see what Peridot does next.

"Well, I don't know why I'm surprised. I should've known not to have hope." Peridot said angrily.

"But maybe if we try again-" Steven said.

"It's not going to work! It's never going to work, okay?!" She yelled.

"Hey, don't be a jerk! We were just trying to cheer you up." Amethyst shot back.

"And good job with that! I feel just great now that I know that nothing's ever going to get better! Everything is just ruined forever! We can't get any of it back! Not my home! Not Lapis! And not this crummy planet, either! We might as well just throw it all in the garbage and toss ourselves in after, because it's all just hopeless trash!"

"Peridot, maybe the sunflowers didn't work, but we know something can grow here." Steven said calmly and he points to the flower. Peridot walked toward it.

"This clod's just like us! Too dumb to get with the program!" She stomped on the flower and I wince feeling back for the flower. Suddenly the ground starts to rumble. The ground around the flower cracked and a monster popped out of the ground and roared at us. The Flower Monster was a large plant-like corrupted Gem whose body resembles a giant turnip with the top of her body tapering into a leafy stem with a five-petaled flower on top. She lacked a defined head or face, having only a cavernous, fanged maw at the front of her teardrop-shaped body. Her tongue resembled a humanoid arm in shape and function, which is used for pulling victims into her mouth. She walks on four root-like, three-toed legs. "Oh, of course!"

The Flower Monster tried to grab Peridot and I push myself in front of her as it's hand-like tongue grabbed me and I found myself in darkness. "Gross." I said and felt my gem glow. The gem moved around tossing me around in her body and I made myself concentrate, there was heart building on my arms and I felt the body I was in heat up until there was a large poof. I felt myself fall in the air and felt a small hand grab mine and I opened my eyes and saw Peridot with tears in her eyes.

Smoky Quartz grabbed us in the sky and we land onto the ground. They place us down and I felt Peirdot pull me into a hug and I returned it as she apologized. There was a bright light.

Unknown POV

I opened my eyes and saw Steven and Amethyst looking at me in complete and happiness. "What?" I asked annoyed and froze. "Wait- wait- W-w-w-wait!" I said quickly and hooped up and ran around in a circle. "W-W-Who?! OMG! What have I done! This is! But I! I thought I was going to fuse with Lapis first!" I felt myself blush. "N-N-No I didn't mean that! I mean I did but…" I placed my hands on my head.

"You're so cute!" Steven yelled and I noticed I was taller than both of them by a head.

"I'm taller! I'm tall! Fear me!" I said happily and Steven pulled out his phone, he looked like he was glowing. In front of me was a girl with messy, teal green hair that went down to above her neck and had matching big teal green eyes. She head tick eyebrows, a small nose and a round face. She didn't have any curves around her chest, but from the waist down she had full tights and long legs. She had medium green shorts bra and an oversized teal green shirt that went down to her upper thigh and dark purple shorts and dark green leggings with green and black high heel boots.

"We really did fuse!" I said happily only to freeze as I felt gloom hit me as I looked around at the damaged and felt guilt hit me. There was another bright light.

Suha's POV

"I was a fool to think we could reinstitute life there." I heard Peridot say as we got onto the train.

"Tell me about it." Steven said with a sigh.

"All right. I will. I was pretty much using this as a distraction from losing Lapis, losing the barn, and just a general sense of complete hopelessness I tend to deal with on a day-to-day basis. But it really only confirmed to me that once you mess something up, it's ruined for good and nothing will ever be able to grow again."

"Yeah, we got the subtext." Amethyst said.

"... Oh, wow." Steven said and we looked at a vast field of sunflowers. "What about all this?"

"Now that's some plants." Amethyst said.

"Huh. Guess the countryside out here is pretty beautiful. But who cares? I wanted to have this for the Kindergarten!" Peridot said and looked over at me and looked away.

"Even if there was nothing we can do for that one patch of land, there's still a whole Earth blooming all around us." Steven said.

"Yeah! Why don't we try gardening in literally any other place? It'll be easier than trying to plant in the Kindergarten. That dirt doesn't care how green your thumb is." Amethyst said, Steven made a joke and eventually Peridot agreed.

"Oh and Suha… sorry I didn't mean to make you almost get yourself eaten by a giant Gem Flower Monster." She apologized.
"No harm no foul." I told her and smiled. "Plus we got a cool fusion out of it."

"Let's see what's a good name for her.." Peridot asked.

"Well she's a Quartz… So how about…" I said.

"Mtorolite!" We said together and smiled.

"I like it." Steven said.

"Maybe we should fuse next, I wonder what she'll look like." Amethyst said.

"What is this? A fusion game with Suha?" I asked and they laughed. We have a group hug and things felt normal.