thanks for the reviews, I hope you enjoy this chapter just as you guys enjoy the others. This chapter involves quite a bit of Frankie, Rizzles will have moments too though, one I really think you guys will like. Also in the timeline it's almost the middle of May now (that's mainly a reminder for myself because I've been losing track of my timeline in days)
Jane and Frankie headed down to the cafeteria in silence after they got some food and sat at the table. Jane observed her brother, really looked at him and he looked exhausted like he had been losing sleep.
"So Ma has been talking shit about her not making it out of this pregnancy alive and it kind of scares me, you know a life without Ma, I'm not even sure I would know how to handle that," Jane asked, trying to start their conversation off somehow. "I know she can be overbearing sometimes, but I'd miss that, I know Maura will miss her, she's been like the only real mother to her."
"I don't like Ma talking about it either, but it makes sense. What doesn't is why she chose me to look after Korsak and Julian? I know I don't have a person in my life to love like you and Tommy, but I might want to have a life eventually having an old man and a baby living together with me isn't exactly the life I'd wish to have. I think Ma will be alright, this is all just a hypothetical situation. I still think Korsak will be better under your watch and care, I mean you guys have a whole guest house. I'm still trying to figure it all out," Frankie admits, and Jane was glad her brother was opening up to her with his concerns, maybe he did miss her after all.
Jane nodded, "I'm sure you'll get your life together eventually, there's more to life than being with someone."
Frankie laughed, "You sure about that? Everyone seems to do better when they're involved with someone. I know it's dumb especially with the luck I have with relationships but I want that with someone. I want to be happy."
Jane sipped at her apple juice and opened her Jell-O, "What about Crowe?"
"What about him?" Jane noticed her brother's face fell.
"I just thought he was your potential... I'll go with calling him your mate. That's the whole reason for us fighting, I didn't support your decision to do whatever you wanted, plus you look like you've lost sleep."
"He made me think that I cared so much about your opinion, called me out on it. I was avoiding you because I had things to think of. Things I wanted to get situated in my head... I don't like that Crowe came between me and your relationship. I guess my anger for that and that I made a stupid ass mistake of sleeping with Lydia is why I directed some anger on you as well. You know when I told her of Frank's return she's been kind of clinging to me just because I showed a little concern. I can't even talk to her, she gives me that longing look and I know you judge me a lot on my mistake, but no one judges me more than I do. I'm sorry for getting mad at you, I just... it was hard trying to figure out all my emotions. The thing I've missed most was being able to talk to you... there's only so much I can talk to Ma and Korsak about."
Jane looked at her brother and nodded, "I missed you too Frankie. I had to deem Tommy as my new favorite brother for a moment."
"Shouldn't Frost be deemed as your new favorite brother?" Frankie smirked.
Jane laughed, "Damn I've been going about it all the wrong way. Are you okay though, okay that Frost is happy? Even if it is with Tommy?"
Frankie shrugged, "We all know they broke up because Frost couldn't trust him. I think this means Tommy can be trusted. I trust Frost's judgment, plus Tommy has been really good with the twins. I know that would make Frost turn into putty, Tommy voluntarily wants to help out, no one even asked him to. That's the kind of man Frost deserves."
"You think it will last this time?"
Frankie nodded, "You haven't seen Frost at work, since you are usually in Maura's office. He seems so content, so at ease and he has like this permanent smile on his face."
"I know that smile when they are at home with the twins. I love the twins but if Camille knew what would happen maybe she would have let Frost and Tommy adopt the twins, they need good father figures in their lives. And we all know no one could ever replace Camille as their mother, everyone on God's green earth knows that."
"It's hard to imagine Tommy with kids, I think no matter what Camille would have always left you and Maura in charge of the kids. She made the best choice out there," he smiled, starting to eat his food.
"So we're good now then?" Jane asked, she just wanted to make sure.
"Yeah, trying to be my own man was bothering even me. I like getting my sister's opinion I don't find anything wrong with that, Crowe was an only child he doesn't understand and it's not like I let your opinions dictate my life. You know I just take it into consideration. Crowe obviously doesn't know what he's talking about."
"You can't help but like him. You must like him if his words bothered you so much, even had you consider kicking me out of my life."
"Jane you're like Ma, you would find a way to come back. There's no getting rid of you," he smiled.
"You say that like it's a bad thing. Anyways stop avoiding the conversation about Crowe, we should probably discuss it, help you think out your emotions. Despite him thinking he knows our relationship, why would you yourself consider Crowe a potential mate for you?"
Frankie shrugged, "You don't really know the whole thing Jane, I'm still trying to figure out if I even like him enough to bring him up in conversation. Having him over for dinner that one night was already odd enough, seeing him outside of work that would take some getting used to. He kissed me remember? Admitted he had feelings for me, I've been trying to figure it all out. I haven't even told him I slept with Lydia."
"Wait you haven't? Frankie if he likes you do you think hiding that is such a good thing. Nothing good comes out of hiding secrets, even if you made a mistake and he's showing interest in you he deserves to know. Honesty being the best policy and all that other shit. It'll bite you in the ass you know. I know you're still trying to figure it all out but if you do decide you want Crowe and he doesn't know... you could lose all chances to have that relationship. Does that make sense or else he'll feel like you were just dragging him along. Making him wait for what?" Jane sighed. "You'll even have him thinking that you have feelings for Lydia because you didn't tell him after it happened. I'm even speaking from experience here. Trust me those thoughts of you have feeling for Lydia will be in his mind the longer you hide it."
"Speaking from experience? Jane what are you going on about?"
Jane waved off his question, "I'd prefer not talk about that. Just trust me on this."
"Jane I trust you with my life you know. I just have to figure out a way to tell Crowe, you'd think he'd realize something with the way Lydia has been looking at me."
"Crowe isn't that good of a Detective if he can't figure that out, but maybe it's best he doesn't know, hasn't figured it out."
"Why are you so supportive of this now?"
Jane shrugged, "I just want you to have that happiness you've been longing for. Even if it is with Crowe that's for you to decide. My opinion shouldn't matter on who you date, unless you ever think of dating Lydia I'd slap you silly."
"I would never date that crazy, I'm just glad I was so drunk when I slept with Lydia that I don't remember the details."
"Are you even positive you slept with her then?"
Frankie nodded, "Trust me I know what the next day feels like after having sex. Anyways we should stop talking about that so I can at least finish my lunch without chucking it up."
Jane nodded her head in agreement, "Good idea, I need to bring up some Jell-O for Maura, remind me when we're done in case I forget."
"I thought she didn't like Jell-O, you know to tell you a secret, the last time she was here she wrote a complaint about how they made their Jell-O."
"Wait you're shitting me right?"
"I kid you not, she even had me deliver the damn thing. It was when you were in here last time, she had time to write it."
Jane shook her head, "I can't believe that woman sometimes."
"She had good intentions. It was cute seeing her all angry."
"She has the cutest little scowl, you seen it at dinner remember?"
"You know it's odd, you finding Maura cute when she's angry with you. I'm not sure Maura would think you take her seriously."
"Well can you blame me when sometimes I don't take her seriously? I do know when she's really mad and it's definitely at this hospital's Jell-O. She uses the 'bad words', as Kate would say."
"I like that you have a great gal like Maura in your life, I have to worry a lot less about your well-being."
"I didn't know that you cared so much," Jane placed her hand on her heart.
"I always care about you Jane, even if I'm acting like an ass towards you to avoid my actual problems."
"Well at least we're talking now, so you're stuck with me."
"And if anyone has a problem with it they can suck it, even if it's potential 'mate' as you put it," Frankie chuckled. "I should really talk to him though, shouldn't I?"
"I think it's best Frankie, trust me whatever happens just know he'd lose a great guy if he does anything to fuck it up again. I will kill him if I have to."
"I know you would, but I'd prefer you'd not, he might be my chance at true happiness."
"You know I never thought I would ever hear the words that Crowe might be anyone's happiness."
Frankie nodded, "I have those same doubts, I mean it's Crowe he used to give you so many problems."
"Well luckily I stopped letting it get to me. I guess if Tommy can change it's quite possible that Crowe can as well," Jane shrugged. "After all he did try to help save Maura's career, I guess I owe him one to give him a chance."
Frankie didn't say anything else before he finished up his lunch. His phone rang just as he was putting their stuff in the trash, "Rizzoli," he answered.
"Hey Frankie, I heard that Angela is in the hospital, how's she doing?" No one other than Crowe spoke on the other end.
"How did you even know about that?"
"Frost got called into work and when I asked where you were he told me what happened. I was worried."
"Oh well, she's not so good, she's worried about not making it, I think she's more worried about her not making it than Julian. They said he's doing fine, but of course there's a chance his survival rate could go down as well."
"How do you feel about all of this?"
"Well she says if she doesn't make it she wants me to look out for Korsak and Julian, Jane doesn't want to think about losing Ma, and frankly neither do I."
"Angela is a great mother, it would be weird not having her around. So I just wanted to see how things were, I should get back to work..." he paused his sentence as Frankie cut him off.
"Wait, before you go..." Frankie rubbed the back of his neck. "I... Can we talk later?"
"How about I come visit your mother at the hospital and we can talk there? I don't plan to be at work much longer today."
"Alright, yeah, just send me a text when you're on the way."
"Of course, and Frankie..."
"Yeah?"
"Thanks for wanting to talk to me, I know this week wasn't the best for you and I'm sorry if any of it had to do with me."
"We'll just talk when you get here, okay?"
"Yeah of course, I'll remember to text you when I'm coming. Bye Rizzoli."
"Bye Crowe," Frankie hung up his phone and sighed. At least he would talk to him in a sort of public place, and he'd have his family to fall back on if anything were to go wrong, he doesn't know why he was worried in the moment that everything was going to fall apart and not fall together. He still wasn't even sure what he wanted, but Crowe's reaction would be the deal breaker.
"Who was that on the phone?" Jane asked as Frankie came back to the table.
"It was Crowe, Frost mentioned Ma is in the hospital, told him when he went into work. Crowe and I are going to talk later, says he'll stop by here to see how Ma is. When he comes do you promise to behave?"
Jane shrugged, "I can only react to Crowe once he gets here, you know I can't make any promises."
"That's just something we all will need to get used to, if anything developes any further."
"And wait, did you say Frost went to work? He left Tommy alone with the twins, you need to drive me home," Jane unlatched her break and Frankie chuckled.
"Calm down Jane," he nodded behind her, she turned to see Kate rushing towards her. "I thought we were going to try and trust Tommy."
"Jane! How's Grandma?" Kate asked.
"Where's your brother and Uncle Tommy?"
"The bathroom, you don't think I came by myself did you? It's dangerous out there."
"Grandma is doing alright, she's going to rest here for a few days so she won't be over for a while. Has Uncle Tommy been behaving?"
Kate nodded, "Yeah, he even told me a secret..." she turned to Frankie. "I'm sorry you don't have Uncle Frost anymore, if it's okay I rather just tell Jane the secret."
Frankie nodded, "That's fine, I am going to check on grandma and Maura, make sure they aren't talking about Jane for too long before you guys come up," he patted Kate's head and left the cafeteria.
"So what's the secret Uncle Tommy told you?" Jane asked after Frankie left.
"It was after Uncle Frost left, it was a secret about him," Kate said in a softer voice. "Uncle Tommy told me he wants to marry Uncle Frost one day. I sorta asked because I was curious, plus I think Uncle Crowe likes Frankie."
"Oh he said that, did he? And you're very intuitive, you probably knew Crowe liked Frankie before I figured it out."
"I'm working on my Detective skills, I want to be one some day, Todd wants to work at a zoo. Anyways, I think Uncle Frost has been happier with Uncle Tommy."
Jane nodded, "I think so too. So, are you okay with this? I thought you were quite fond of Uncle Frankie with Frost."
Kate shrugged, and scrunched up her nose, "I changed my mind. Uncle Tommy has been around more, and family is important."
"That it is. Well those boys are taking a while to come back from the bathroom, did you want to go up and see grandpa and grandma?"
"Yeah, I noticed you're still in your chair, you can't walk yet, can you?"
"Doctor says it's best if I only take small walks, plus I like having an excuse to ride the elevator," Jane smiled, to show Kate that she was okay. They left the cafeteria and headed up to the level Angela was staying at. Tommy and Todd were already sitting next to Korsak. "I think I found our siblings."
"Don't tell Uncle Tommy I told you his secret."
Jane nodded, "Of course," they went over to the boys. "Hey Tommy, thanks for bringing the kids."
"It's not a problem, figured I couldn't handle two kids without Frost and Korsak insisted I come see Ma. I haven't been in yet. Didn't want to overwhelm Ma with guests."
"Yeah that's understandable, I'll go see if Ma wants to see you guys," Jane wheeled herself into her mother's room.
Maura looked up at Frankie. "Told you she wouldn't dare return with Jell-O."
"I got distracted, the twins and Tommy are here. Wasn't sure if Ma wanted more guests right now, I'm sure the doctor wouldn't want her overwhelmed with guests either."
"I always want to see my grandkids Jane," Angela smiled at her daughter.
"Alright, and I was thinking Maura, since it seems to be a full house here maybe we could go for ice cream and then come pick up the twins. I still had stuff to discuss with you," Jane reminded her wife of what they had planned to do. "Plus the kids might like if we returned with ice cream."
Maura stood up from the chair she was sitting in, "Angela, I hope it's okay if Jane and I leave for about an hour."
Angela nodded, "Of course, it was good to see you both and talk to you guys about those matters. Enjoy your ice cream date."
"We will Ma, and you stay safe," Jane directed before her and Maura left the room. The twins stood up from their chairs.
"Can we go see grandma now?"
Maura nodded, "Yes, she's excited to see you guys. Jane and I have errands to run and we'll come back to pick you both up. You behave for everyone alright? I would hate to not be able to bring you your surprise."
Both twins smiled their toothy grins, "Okay, we'll behave," they stated before running to Angela's room.
"Hey, you two don't run!" Jane shouted after them.
"Woah Jane, you sounded like Ma just then," Tommy laughed, and Korsak hit him in the back of the head. "Hey!"
"Thanks Korsak."
"Don't thank me. That was an insult to your mother, I didn't do it on your behalf," he smirked and Jane scowled at the both of them, causing Maura to laugh and grab Jane's wheelchair.
"Come on Jane."
"Why were you laughing?" Jane asked her wife as they made it to the elevator.
"You almost brought me up some Jell-O. I thought of that as an insult, plus you did sound like Angela," Maura shook her head in amusement as they got into the elevator.
After they diappeared Korsak turned back to Tommy, "So, you sure you have a good idea there Tommy? Sounds pretty serious, you sure Frost will be ready?"
"Can we just keep it between us for the time being, I still have to plan it perfectly, I don't want to scare the guy. I'm going to make sure he's absolutely ready before I even bring it up."
Korsak smiled, "I'm glad you guys have been able to make things work between you and Frost. I would have never thought that Tommy Rizzoli would want to settle down."
"Well Frost is very much worth it, plus you and Ma got married pretty quickly when you hardly dated."
"When you know, you just know. Nobody will have any idea, my lips are sealed."
"I think Frost and me have dated longer than you two. And I thank you for it. I don't want to make a big fuss of it just yet," Tommy leaned back.
"You've grown a lot within the past couple of weeks, it's a nice change, and I'm actually proud of you."
"Honestly Vince, I'm actually proud of myself as well and that almost never happens. I finally feel like a man."
Maura and Jane eventually made it to the Dairy Queen, they went inside and sat at a table, the server came to them. A smile on her face, "Good afternoon, have you ladies decided what you would like?"
Jane nodded, "I've been planning this visit for the last hour or so. I would enjoy a banana split, with extra chocolate sauce and sprinkles, and I'm sure my wife would probably enjoy a salad or something healthy."
Maura rolled her eyes, "Actually I would like to try your chicken tenders and fries basket, with a vanilla milkshake, extra whipped cream, and maybe two cherries," she told the girl who smiled.
"How long have you been married?"
"About three weeks, technically, seems much longer, but trust me when I say that that's a good thing," Jane responded, causing Maura to smile brightly at her.
"That's good to hear, I'll be right back with your order, would you like me to bring it all at once?"
Jane smiled, "That would be nice, thanks." The girl nodded and left heading back behind the counter.
"Your flattery was well appreciated Jane."
She shrugged nonchalantly, "I was just being honest, not trying to be flattering, it just came out like such."
"It's still nice hearing you talk to people of our relationship."
"Well I'm just that proud to have you and well, to brag about us. It's been quite delightful having you as a wife."
"Back at ya," Maura smirked. "So Frankie told me things are good between you and him again."
Jane nodded, "Yeah we had a nice talk, didn't realize just how much I've missed it until it happened. Almost felt like we were never in a rut to begin with."
"Well I'm glad to hear it. It wasn't nice seeing you two not communicating. Now he has to communicate things with Darren. I noticed him avoiding the poor guy at work."
"Yeah Frankie doesn't know what he's doing still or how he feels. I'm sure he'll figure it all out one day. Just like I want to discuss and figure out what's best for the future for us. Where do I see myself after I'm all healed up, things will be different, they have to be. I want to live a long life, preferably not back in a wheelchair." Jane rubbed at her hands. "You know Kate told me she wants to be a detective and Todd wants to work at the zoo. They even seem to have their lives together and they are four."
"I'm sure their feelings and dreams might change as they grow older. What else do you think you're good at?"
Jane shrugged, "I love helping out children, I want to be a better role model who doesn't always get herself into these dangerous situations. I want people to want to look up to me, as Frankie does. It makes me feel good, especially after talking to Frankie he looks up to me and I don't know I like that people want my input on things, helping them with life's direction."
Maura nodded, "I've learned a few things from you as well. You taught me how to use a gun to defend myself if needed. You do have a way of making me feel good about myself. Maybe you could be a guidance counselor of sorts. Helping people figure out their life goals. Oh! Or maybe you could become a life coach. A guidance counselor is usually for schooling purposes, you need to broaden your clientele and we would have to look into it, but that could make a good career for you. I tried dating a life coach once, he didn't give me much direction though. He told me how much he made and it's pretty suitable for our lifestyle, plus my salary is pretty huge so financial things shouldn't be a problem especially since we have two kids to look after for 14 more years of their life," Maura paused when she realized that she was rambling, and the look Jane was giving her caused her to stop talking as well. "What?"
"Nothing, you seem very excited about this topic trying to help me work out what I could be good at doing," Jane smiled. "Your enthusiasm is very well appreciated you know."
"You'd be great at anything you put your mind to Jane. I'm proud of you no matter what you want to do, but you doing anything that puts you out of harm's way does tend to bring a smile to my face. I wouldn't have to worry about will you make it home or not as much as I usually do. I know there's dangers in any job but you'd be more safe and that's what we both want right?" Maura asked reaching over to squeeze her hands and Jane nodded. The server came back with their food.
"You guys enjoy and if you need anything I'll be right behind the counter. It's usually one of our slow days," she told them before disappearing.
"I wonder how much grease are on these fries," Maura picked one up, dipping it in her milkshake like she's seen Jane do in the past.
"Diary Queens usually don't have really greasy foods. It's those damn McDonald's that you need to look out for."
"Yeah I remember that Super Size Me documentary thing you made me watch. I thought it was good that I don't tend to eat at those fast food places because that film left me feeling nauseous for about a week."
"I remember that, I never seen you look so pale for so long before and you never ate anything beside salad that week, like my little bunny rabbit."
"Yeah then we just so happened to have sex like rabbits the day after I felt better."
Jane smirked, "Yeah that was a good amount of exercise we did that day. Can't wait to get back to that. The good kind of exercise."
"I like running too. We can go for runs too, maybe go walk on some trails, take the kids with us. It could be an adventure we have yet to go out much with the twins."
"Family bonding that sounds nice," Jane frowned. "Not sure how you got your mind onto that."
Maura looked at Jane, "I had to change the subject."
"We're in a public place it's okay to discuss our rabbit activities."
"You know as much as I do that it'll lead to us wanting to partake in those activities to burn those calories I'm sure to gain after eating this. Anyways we should get back on topic, career choices and all that."
"Sure, we can look into that life coach thing, but I don't know that seems like more of something I'd do as a side job. I still want to do Detective things, Sargeant Detective Jane Rizzoli-Isles doesn't think she wants to go full civilian."
Maura nodded, "Yeah that would be quite a huge change and your happiness is important here too. Maybe you can train people who want to become a police officer or homicide Detective at some point in their career. I'm not exactly sure of what they are called though..."
"A police academy instructor, you mean."
"Yeah one of those, I mean you're more than qualified I have told you on more than one occasion and heard people compliment your detective skills. I'm sure you are more than qualified for that line of work, plus you can mold young minds and all that, plus you'd be a good teacher, maybe I'll join the police academy just to have you teach me more things." Maura smiled.
"You don't need to join anything to have me teach you things. It'd be quite interesting and sexy seeing you in a police uniform though. So do you really think I'd be qualified, those instructors scared me at first but then I really looked up to them and everything after the fear was gone."
"I think you'll be absolutely perfect for that job. Plus your plenty tough and such a bad ass."
Jane smirked, finishing up her banana split, "I recall how relieved Ma was when Korsak retired, I can only imagine her reaction hearing the potential idea of me being an instructor. She was already so thrilled about my other future plans... the one that I had in mind."
Maura sipped at her milkshake, "Other future plans? Care to share what you've been thinking of."
"I didn't even plan to tell her, it just sort of came out, but the more I thought about it, the more I began looking forward to it. The first one I told was Camille at her grave when I went after being released from the hospital. I didn't want to bring it up with you until I was fully healed, but it's part of the reason I've been thinking more about a career change. Part of the reason Ma ending up in the hospital during her pregnancy is more upsetting to me than I let on, because what if it ends up happening to me," she rubbed at the scars on her palms.
"Jane, what are you talking about?" Maura reached over to stop her hands from rubbing together, she did that a lot when she was anxious, just like when they met up with Paddy in Paris.
"What I'm trying to say is that, I want to be a mother, like a real mother, the longer we have the twins around the more I want to have a child of our own, the more I have a longing desire to want to do the whole thing. I'm not talking about adopting. I'm talking about getting pregnant, having a baby that is genetically ours. I've done some research on it and it can be quite expensive but it'll be worth it in the end. I know we discussed having kids in the future, but the future could start now. Well after I'm healed and everything. I asked the doctor today if I would be at risk he couldn't give me a real answer but he set up an appointment for me on Thursday next week at noon and well... would you go with me?" Jane ranted, looking at their hands almost the whole time at her confession. She felt Maura pull away her hands, Jane sighed, but Maura slid next to Jane on her side of the table, she put her hand underneath Jane's chin, lifting her wife's head so she could look at her.
Maura had tears in her eyes but she was smiling as she leaned over to kiss Jane for a moment, wrapping her arms around her neck. Jane melted into the kiss, her heart racing at their moment. Maura pulled back before the kiss lasted too long she nodded, wiping her eyes. "Jane I'd love more than anything to accompany you to the doctor's. I didn't realize this was something you were passionate about. I would love more than anything to have a baby with you, to take care of my pregnant wife. To have something that's ours. We can have our family Jane."
Jane nodded, "We should see what happens at the doctor's though before we get too excited or tell anyone else about it. We can't let Ma know that I told you though because then she'd want to tell everyone and there could be a chance that it would be bad news instead of good and I rather not go through that whole ordeal."
"I think that's a good idea Jane. I hope we can remain positive while we wait for that appointment though. I still can't believe you want to get pregnant, go through the whole nine months thing. You're much braver than me, I would prefer adopting over becoming pregnant."
"Why is that?"
"I'm a scientist and the whole process of birthing is not something I ever want to experience."
"Ah I see. So if I was a man you'd rather adopt?" she looked into Maura's eyes.
"If you were a man then things would be different, but that's not something we have to think about. I am glad this is something that you want to do, that you want to experience. I'll be by your side the whole time," she smiled, kissing her once more. "You already got that good mama bear thing going for you. So protective of your brothers, the twins, and Frost."
"And don't forget yourself."
"Well I think it works a little differently because I'm your wife and I'm nowhere near a child like anyone I have included in my list."
"Oh you think so huh?"
"Is that your argument Jane?"
"Hardly, come here," Jane leaned over kissing her wife again, only for a little bit. "So glad no matter what I have planned for my future that you'll always be present."
"And I'm not going anywhere," she rested her hand on Jane's stomach. "Do you think you could handle having a baby bump? Losing bladder control, having hormones, and not drinking any sort of alcohol for nine months, even longer with breast feeding and alcohol while trying to get pregnant could harm the whole process."
Jane rested her hand on top of Maura's, "Like I said I want to experience the whole thing, even the uncomfortable parts were included in that. It'll be totally worth it, every single moment."
"Well as long as you're sure," she looked lovingly at her wife, every moment with Jane was definitely worth it.
Jane and Maura eventually made it back to the hospital, both in good spirits talking more about their future together.
"Maura, just remember nothing gets said to anyone."
"Jane, I'm not going to forget you know. It won't even be brought up to discuss. Plus you'd just threaten to give me hospital Jell-O, and I still can't believe Frankie told you about my written complaint."
"I thought it was funny, I could totally picture you writing your note in anger. Did you use cute little frowny faces?"
"Oh shut up Jane," she shook her head as they made it back to the waiting room, she spotted Frankie and lightly smacked him on the back of his head. "That's for you telling Jane about my written complaint about the Jell-O."
"Jane, I told you that in confidence, it wasn't supposed to get back to her that I told you." Frankie whined.
"You're just mad Maura smacked your head. Where's Tommy?"
"He had to go into work. Korsak and the twins are with Ma, I'm just out here waiting for Crowe, he texted that he was on his way to have our little talk."
"Ah I see, did you want us to give you two a little privacy?"
Frankie shrugged, "You can be out here, I'll need witnesses just in case. But if you don't mind sitting a little bit further away then you are right now."
"Gotcha, we'll be out of your way, come on Maura, I'm sure the twins don't want to leave Ma yet. We'll just wait over there and give the kids their brownies later, I'm glad we decided against giving them ice cream it would've melted by now. Thanks for letting them try brownies since I know you'd rather not be in the vicinity of the things."
"I'm pretty sure they are called blondies."
"I had to tell you what they were called, you said they were white brownies," Jane countered as they went to go sit by the vending machines.
Frankie was very amused by their conversations sometimes, this was no exception. He did tense at hearing footsteps and Crowe speaking his name. "Hey Rizzoli." Jane raised her brows and Frankie rolled his eyes before turning to Crowe.
"Hey Crowe, the twins are with my mother right now, we can talk first. I think it's important."
"Do we have to talk with your sister so close?" Crowe asked, his hands automatically going in his pockets.
"I think it's best they stay nearby, if that bothers you we won't talk then."
"Fine but can we sit down at least?"
Frankie nodded, "Sure, you might want to sit down for what I have to say anyways." Crowe complied and sat down, Frankie sitting next to him. "I have a confession that I need to put out there, yes you may not like Jane being so involved in my life, but if I didn't talk to her I honestly didn't plan to tell you anything. The night when I left right after dinner, I was upset, angry and frankly drunk off my ass. I had a lot of conflicted emotions and I made a mistake, a huge mistake that I seem to be reminded of every single day."
Crowe nodded his head, "She told me what happened between you and her."
Frankie looked up in shock, "Wait, Lydia told you about..." Crowe nodded his head again.
"That's why I wanted to give you space to figure things out, I've noticed the way she's been glancing at you longer than necessary. But hearing you call it a mistake, having you bring it up is a good thing. I didn't want you to tell me before you were ready to. I'm glad you were able to want to tell me, even if Jane suggested it was a good idea to let me know."
"I was stupid and if I could go back I'd never even consider... Lydia means nothing to me, and I'm still trying to figure out what you mean to me. I want to give you a chance, but I need to be better aware of my feelings. Make sure that this..." he gestured between them, "that us is what I really want and not just that I want to fill a void of loneliness, but to make sure I want to be in this 100 percent. Can I be sure you'd give 100 percent as well, because let's face it, there's only so much heartbreak someone can take."
"The last thing I want to do is break your heart Frankie, you're so good and we need more people like you in the world. You're something special and I want to do anything to help you figure this out," he rested his hand on Frankie's knee, causing chills to run up Frankie's leg. Crowe was much bolder with public displays of his affection, something Frost seemed to struggle with, like he was afraid to do too much. Crowe was different, but Frankie really didn't want to compare him with Frost.
Frankie bit his bottom lip and rested his hand on Crowe's giving it a squeeze, both smiling at each other. "So you're not mad about me and Lydia?"
Crowe shrugged, "I was a little sad about it, but I knew you're still trying to figure things out. Maura says to take things slow."
Frankie chuckled, "When did Jane and Maura become such experts on love?" he squeezed Crowe's hand once more before letting go. "Come on," Frankie stood up, pulling Crowe up from his seat. "I think you can safely visit Angela now," he linked his arm with Crowe's, glancing over to Jane and Maura with a smile on his face before they disappeared into Angela's room.
Jane turned to Maura, "That was surprisingly not disturbing to me. I can't believe Crowe reacted so calmly, I was sure he'd freak out. I know I freaked out anytime I knew you slept with someone."
"Well that's something you don't have to worry about anymore," Maura grabbed Jane by the arm and leaned against her. "I'm glad you're slowly getting aboard on this Crowe dating your brother thing, I'm proud of you for being accepting."
"I have to be accepting, I don't want Frankie to go on living his miserable life, you know. He needs purpose in his life. We all need happiness or else this world will just tear us apart. Even if it's Crowe, seeing Frankie smile is worth it," Jane pressed a kiss against Maura's shoulder, before snuggling up to her.
I didn't expect this chapter to turn out longer than the last, lots of stuff being mentioned, Frankie and Jane are good again, Frankie and Crowe on working on their stuff. Tommy planning his future actually being a fuckin' adult for once in his life lol Then there's Rizzles and we all know they the shit :) I loved writing their talk about Jane's future career path and how she wants to be a pregnant mama bear. You guys are great, thanks for all your kind words.
