Synchronized Heartbeats
Written By: TCOOKIES777
Chapter 46: The Maelstrom - Part 1
It was Sousuke who opened the door, greeting her with a towel draped around his shoulders. He still had on a pair of sweats but it seemed that he had just finished taking a hot shower with the way damp, ebony hair was plastered to his forehead. His turquoise eyes were lit up in surprise, even more so at her state of dress. "Gou?"
"Is... Is Onii-chan here?" Gou asked, keeping her eyes down so Sousuke wouldn't notice how red they were. It wasn't as easy to hide the bit of snot still dribbling down her nose, much to her embarrassment, but she was too exhausted to fix her current state.
Sousuke quickly took in the way she seemed to hunch into herself. How her drenched garnet hair clung to pale cheeks, dripping melted snow past her soaked pajamas and onto the hallway floor. He opened the door wider. "Gou? What happened to you?"
"I need to speak with Onii-chan," she said in a tired whisper.
"I-I'm sorry, you just missed him," Sousuke answered, brow furrowing apologetically. "Rin left for the airport half an hour ago."
Gou's knees suddenly went weak, ready to collapse at those words. "Oh."
Thirty minutes ago. She had missed her brother by thirty silly minutes. She hadn't expected him to leave so early but… there was nothing she could do about it now. It was all her fault. If only she hadn't been such a coward to chase after him. To tell him the truth, regardless of his response. If she had at least had the courage to say goodbye to him.
No, if only she wasn't so pathetic. Rin didn't deserve to be with such a pathetic person like her. Perhaps it was best this way. Perhaps they truly were not meant to be. He deserved the best—not someone who could do nothing but hold him back.
Her knees buckled, but before she could hit the ground, Sousuke grabbed her by the shoulders. She grasped the front of his shirt, leaning against him for support before straightening herself, mumbling an apology.
Onii-chan's… gone?
Alone… She was all alone again.
"Gou?" Sousuke touched her shoulder. Under the hood of her jacket, Gou slowly raised her face to meet her friend's concerned gaze.
"Sorry to disturb you." She tried to pivot around to go but a warm hand grasped her wrist. She hadn't realized just how ice-cold her body was.
"I can't just let you go like that," Sousuke said, keeping his fingers wrapped around where her pulse quickened. "Come inside and dry off."
"I don't want to impose," she muttered. I don't want to be a burden anymore.
"Good thing I'm inviting you in then," Sousuke chuckled quietly, and Gou felt the pressure in her chest loosen at the sound of his laughter. Accepting his offer, she allowed him to gently tug her into the room, forcing her numb legs to move.
Standing in the center of the dorm room, Gou took in her surroundings. On her left was her brother's space where his red bed covers were usually neatly tucked in. Emptied drawers and a wardrobe sat at the foot part. By the window, which was situated between the two sides of the room, were Sousuke and Rin's respective desks. While Sousuke still had papers and books stacked, Rin's desk had been cleared of nearly everything save for a cup of pencils and the lamp. Her brother had taken everything but the stuff that wasn't important enough to bring, leaving few behind… including Gou.
"Should we get you out of your clothes?" Sousuke said from behind.
She continued staring at Rin's side of the room.
It was empty. Just like her.
"Gou? Rin packed all of his clothes but you can use mine. If you don't mind…."
She slowly turned around to the sound of Sousuke's voice until her foot bumped into something hard on the floor. Flicking her gaze down, Gou observed the metal weight lying on the floor. It was the dumbbell she had purchased for Rin just last Christmas. So, he'd really been using it all along. Now, he'd be using it no longer.
"Here, you won't fit my pants but this sweater should be large enough." Gou finally looked over to check out the navy blue sweater Sousuke held up. It was perfect for his size but it would be extra-large on her.
But when Gou looked at it, all she could think of was the Samezuka jacket her brother had let her wear. It now hung in the back of her closet, shut away in the dark. Never again could she ever wear that jacket, no matter how lonely she felt.
"Is this okay?" he asked. Biting her lip, she nodded her answer before gingerly taking the clothing from his hands. Sousuke paused briefly, realizing what he needed to do, and he quickly turned around. "I'll step out. Let me know when you're done."
He started for the door and, just as he grabbed the handle to give her privacy, Sousuke felt a cold hand touch his arm. Delicate fingers, ice-cold at the tips, trembled atop of his muscle. Gou leaned her forehead against the strong back of her dear friend. The heat of his bare back was a sharp contrast to the cold, clammy skin of her face.
"I don't know what to do," Gou whispered. "I am nothing. I'm no one. I'm not… I'm not worthy of Onii-chan. I want to give him my love and support but that would only get in his way. It would be selfish of me to choose my happiness over his. Am I… selfish? Am I, Sousuke-kun?"
Sousuke placed a hand over where she held onto him. He turned around and pulled Gou to him, hugging her tightly as if he could chase away the coldness that had frozen her being and stiffened her bones. He spoke quietly, mouth pressed against the matted wet hair of her head. "You're human, Gou. It is not selfish to want to cherish someone and want to be cherished in return."
"I feel so empty." Gou's voice came out shaky but it was nothing in comparison to the fresh wave of tears spilling forth from her red-rimmed eyes. "I… I was going to have Onii-chan's baby. I could feel it growing in my belly every day. And, every day, I wondered how it would look. And if it looked like a monster, I still would have given birth to it. I still would have loved and cherished it… because that baby was mine and Rin's and-and it should have been impossible. My brother wasn't supposed to impregnate me… we knew that, Sousuke-kun-we knew the risks and consequences, but I still got pregnant anyway. So… so I thought it was actually meant to be, you know? That we were fated to be together after all. That I was destined to have my brother's baby because… because we loved each other. Onii-chan and I truly love each other and… what's so wrong with that? Why are we not allowed to love each other the way we want to?"
Why couldn't they be the family they wanted to be?
"... I don't know, Gou," Sousuke said quietly. "It's just the way things are."
"Even if it hurts? Even if it hurts no one but us?" Gou demanded. "I just wanted to love him! I was going to give birth to Onii-chan's baby and I was going to love it just as much as I love him! And I… I hated myself for considering aborting Onii-chan's baby. I hated how I was going to kill my brother's baby without even letting him know that I was pregnant at all. But I was so confused, Sousuke-kun! I didn't want to be Onii-chan's downfall! I love-I love him too much to bring him down and I was so scared…. I was scared that, if I gave birth to Onii-chan's baby, and he or other people found out about our incest-born child and it ruined Onii-chan for life-I was scared that he would hate me for it. I couldn't let my brother hate me like that. I couldn't let our baby grow up hated…."
Gou loved her brother too much to have him hate her and the baby she bore for him. But she couldn't bear to sacrifice their baby either; the symbol and labor of their forbidden love. So she decided to be her own enemy and be the one to hate herself for everything. And, in the deepest recesses of her mind, Gou also blamed whatever god was out there that had decided to make Gou and Rin as siblings.
"But it's not just that, Sousuke-kun… I was scared to give birth to a baby that would have a painful life. What if because it's an incest child that it'll have birth defects? What if I end up giving birth to a baby who will only know pain and judgment? A child that has no choice but to suffer for their entire life... All because I was too selfish, not wanting to be burdened with the guilt of ending the life I made… but also, I never even stopped to consider how my child would feel, or the consequences they would suffer as they grow up? I never thought of the life they might suffer through! All because I'm so stupid and so selfish!"
Gou had no one but herself to blame. She hated herself for ever daring to spread her legs for her brother, for practically seducing him to give into temptation and taste the forbidden fruit. She hated her body for eagerly welcoming her brother into its temple every time they made love. She hated her heart for its betrayal, every heartbeat demanding to sync with its sibling in the throes of their passion. And she hated her soul for housing in the wrong body, yearning for the soul housed in Rin's. And now she had to decide what was best for the life their love had created together.
"When I lost the baby… I hated myself so much." She admitted in a low whisper. "I still do. I felt so helpless, Sousuke-kun. I didn't want anyone to help me, and it only gave me more reason to not tell Onii-chan anything. I knew that if I did, he would've stayed for me. And after being with him, I know very well how precious time is. You can't bring back the hands of the clock. Every minute of your life spent is a minute lost forever and Onii-chan deserves better than to waste his time on a failure like me."
"You're not a failure, Gou."
"But I am! Look at me, Sousuke-kun. Look at me. Who am I? I'll always just be 'Matsuoka Rin's little sister' and that's it. Onii-chan and I live in two different worlds. Can you honestly tell me that if I stay with him that I won't hold him back from accomplishing great things?"
"I…" Hesitating, Sousuke eventually shook his head in defeat.
"Do you know why our father never continued to pursue his dream to be an Olympic swimmer? It wasn't because he lacked talent or skill. It's because he had a family. It's because he had us. Otou-san sacrificed his Olympic dream for us." Shaking her head, Gou whispered, "I can't let that happen to Onii-chan too. Onii-chan deserves to have what he wants in his life. I can't bring him down with me." She tried to steady her breath as well as her voice, but Gou could feel her eyes beginning to burn again. "I never wanted to feel like this…"
Sousuke held her tighter in response.
With trembling lips, she whispered into Sousuke's solid chest of how the emptiness within her ached so much that she felt it would swallow her into the void. How she wasn't sure she could keep on living like this if living on meant spending every waking moment in pain and every hour of sleep sinking through fitful nightmares. Nightmares involving her waking up in a bed of blood, cradling a faceless child in her arms. And, in the darkness, she could hear its cries echo, haunting her even as she awoke from the terror-only to face the horror of reality and know that her womb was now barren of the love she and her brother had seeded together.
"It hurts!" Gou sobbed quietly. Her tears ran down the flesh of Sousuke's chest, down the crack of his abs in tiny silver streams but he continued holding her within the comfort of his arms. "It hurts so much! I… I just want to die! Please!"
The scars on her arm began to itch and she pinched at them angrily, twisting the skin between her fingers until it was red and irritated.
If only she could die and disappear from Rin's life and maybe… reunite with the baby she'd lost. Her brother would move on in time and forget that he had ever loved his sister more than he was supposed to. Rin would find another woman; he'd be able to marry her and have a proper family without ever having to worry about the health of his children or be judged by society.
After all, Ami had been right; Gou would only hold Rin back.
Onii-chan is better off without me.
"I should have died in that accident!" She wept aloud. "I should've died with my baby! I wish I had!"
"You don't mean that, Gou," Sousuke said firmly, pulling back to look her in the eye. "You know you don't mean that."
"I do! I do!" But Gou cried even harder because she knew Sousuke was right. Much of her depression stemmed from the loss of her child now instead of just the loneliness she'd been feeling for so long. Deep down, somewhere in that empty void of darkness that threatened to consume her, there was that flickering desire to live and be happy. It had yet to be snuffed out but Gou wished it would, if only to keep from prolonging her agony. "I don't know what to do. Tell me, Sousuke-kun. Tell me what I need to do!"
"I can't tell you what to do, Gou," Sousuke gently dragged his fingers through the mess of her hair, detangling the wet knots. Her sobs seemed to quieten as he gingerly caressed her. "It's not my place to decide for you. But, whatever you decide, I'll support you no matter what. Just do what you think is best for yourself. Don't live your life for anyone else but you. You can do that, I know you can, and I'll help you every step of the way."
"I… Why?" Gou demanded, stepping away from him. "Why would you do all this for me? Why aren't you disgusted of me? Of what I've done?! Of what was inside me! It'd be… it'd be so much easier if you could just hate me. If you could just leave me alone like everyone else did…. Just like he did."
"Gou, you know Rin would never intentionally do that."
"... I know." She hugged her arms to herself, missing the warmth of Sousuke's hold already. Gou knew because it was she who had pushed Rin away in the first place. It's all my fault. "You still didn't answer my question. Why… why do this all for me?"
"Gou…" Sousuke lowered his eyes to the floor. His hand tightened into a fist before he murmured, "You should already know why."
She did know why. The hints had been there for quite some time already. She had never considered it as anything more than a friendly gesture-perhaps even of a brotherly nature. The signs had been so subtle, so how could she have noticed his feelings? Yet, they were present nonetheless and, right now, nothing was as obvious as the feelings of her childhood friend-the best friend of her brother.
"You've always been there for me even when Onii-chan was away."
He nodded. "But it's not just because you're my best friend's little sister. Rin is like a brother to me, but you… you're different."
"You… you love me," Gou answered in a soft voice, taking a step closer to him. She held his sweater tightly to her chest.
"I do," Sousuke whispered back, raising his eyes to meet her pained gaze. A beautiful turquoise blue, she had always told him since they were little. The color of his eyes reminded her of the Caribbean sea, untainted and full of mystery and wonders.
She had now solved one of those mysteries he held in that silent look of his: love. A quiet and gentle love for her.
"Since when?" she asked.
"Since always," Sousuke answered.
Gou took another step, closing the remaining gap between them until she was close enough to be embraced again. She raised her hands, and he closed his eyes as the icy tips of her fingers touched his warm cheeks, cupping his handsome face. Slowly standing on the tips of her toes, Gou brought her face forward and sucked in a sharp breath before gingerly pressing her lips to Sousuke's. He instantly responded back, mouth melding to hers carefully, but firmly.
The kiss was shy, and so warm that another tear slid down her wet cheek. And, as they held each other like that, Gou felt the aching void within her fill slightly.
There was a groan that sounded slightly restrained and Gou swore that the broad chest she was leaning into rumbled against her, almost like a purr.
"I shouldn't do this," Sousuke whispered into the corner of her mouth. His clear blue eyes darted across her face, observing her expression, wondering if the kiss was real or not.
"Why?" She asked, tightening her grip on the sweater she still held to her chest. "Is it because of Onii-chan? Or… is it because I was pregnant with Onii-chan's…."
"No," Sousuke replied after a momentary pause. He licked his lips as if to taste the remnants of their kiss. "It's because… I-I love you, Gou. And it's because I love you that I… I only want you to do this if you want me too."
Was this really what she wanted? To be honest, Gou was not entirely sure herself. How could she decide such a thing when she no longer knew what she wanted anymore. Even so, she grabbed Sousuke's fist and deliberately pried it open. She brought his hand to her face, pressing her cheek to his palm and savoring his warmth. "You said that, whatever I decide to do, you would support me wholly so long as I think it's what's best for me."
It didn't answer the silent question she had tasted on his lips but she hoped it was enough for him.
His throat bobbed, but Sousuke glanced at her lips once more. Once someone had a taste of something they liked, it was difficult to turn away.
Gou stood on her tippy toes again to meet Sousuke's mouth, him leaning down to meet her. He was a gentleman in every way; his good arm supported her and he didn't take her so hurriedly as her brother often did. Patience-and perhaps even hesitance-made Sousuke much too considerate and careful even though it was just a kiss.
Just a kiss...
The sweater dropped to the floor between them, discarded and forgotten. A minute later, they somehow found their way onto Sousuke's bed, kissing more urgently now.
She could feel something hard pressing against her belly. Just the slightest rub there had them shuddering together.
"Show me how much you love me," Gou broke away to say. She studied his dazed expression and how his eyes remained crystal clear and sharp. "Show me, Sousuke-kun."
He blinked, still processing what she was telling him. Then he swallowed hard. "Are—are you sure? Gou—"
She silenced him with another kiss, this time deeper. Her tongue slipped out to slide across his firm lips and he slowly opened to her. Gou allowed him a taste of what she had and, in return, she took a sip of the mysterious, hidden love he breathed into her mouth with a whisper of her name. While her brother tasted of a fiery, almost brutal passion, Sousuke was of a lonely and quiet strength that comforted Gou.
She grasped the hem of her sweatshirt and smoothly pulled it off. The air felt a bit chilly on Gou's bare breasts but, when Sousuke's eyes fell to her naked torso, she no longer felt the cold. Sousuke looked away, either out of respect or shyness, while she kicked off her sneakers and tugged her pants down, dropping it to the floor. In only her underwear, she sat and waited for her friend to say something—to reject her and throw her out of the room because she was a disgusting, worthless piece of—
"Let me just, uh, get a c-condom," Sousuke said, walking over to Rin's side of the room and shuffling through the drawers. He withdrew a box of condoms from Rin's bottom drawer and took one out. The familiar, shiny gold Trojan wrapper crinkled loudly in his tight grip while he returned to the bed, the mattress dipping sharply under his weight.
She never thought she'd see her brother's condoms again. He'd bought it so long ago, but Gou remembered the shiny gold glinting in the dimness of his room, and the way the condom wrapper crinkled aloud to the point that both siblings sometimes paused to check if it had somehow awoken their mom next door. And she could imagine Rin tearing the foil with his sharp teeth, his eyes glazed with lust and love, never leaving hers as she waited for her brother atop his bed with her legs spread open to welcome him.
Whatever expression Gou had on her face, Sousuke noticed it and mumbled, "Rin said he didn't need it anymore…."
There was a sharp sting in her heart when he said that but Gou chose to distract herself by cupping Sousuke's face once again to drag him in for another kiss. This time, he reciprocated by gently nibbling her bottom lip, but he didn't do any more than that. Gou was so used to her brother's tongue exploring her depths so eagerly that she found this act of innocence both surprising and endearing.
She leaned back, resting her head on Sousuke's pillow which held a trace of something citrusy like tangerines or lemons. It somehow soothed Gou down to her bones, calming her nerves and setting her heart at ease although it still thumped hard in her chest.
Sousuke followed her until his face loomed over hers, his muscular body eclipsing her small frame. She saw the way his chest rose up and down a bit too quickly, a telltale sign of how nervous he was. Yet, if she looked deep into his eyes, she could see the underlying fierce determination.
Gou craned her neck up to allow Sousuke to press a tender kiss to her throat, his lips soothing the hot skin. She wondered if he could feel how her pulse raced underneath his mouth. For some reason, she hoped he did.
A small sigh escaped from her as Sousuke kissed his way down her neck. When he reached her breasts, a moment of hesitance stopped him. Patiently, Gou guided his hands and placed them over her breasts, squeezing them in demonstration of what he should do, letting him know that it was okay to touch her.
Complying to her request, Sousuke kneaded her breasts carefully, his warm hands nearly enveloping them and stoking the dim fire at her core with every press and squeeze. Upon hearing Gou moan under his touch, he took it a step further and pinched her nipples, studying how the rosy tips peaked from his ministrations. He was so careful—too careful—and it left Gou struggling to keep herself from writhing impatiently beneath him.
It was too different from how Rin would touch her. How he'd hold her breasts and eagerly squeeze them with gratitude so that the plump flesh bulged between his fingers. How his mouth would hungrily latch onto Gou's tits and suck her nipples taut with such passion and vigor, gingerly nibbling the swollen tips if he couldn't help himself with his sharp teeth leaving flashes of pain mixed with pleasure. Her brother would leave her breasts aching and abused, her nipples tender, and Gou would smile at the hickeys left all over. At the evident proof of the love her brother branded her with.
"Is this okay?" Sousuke asked, fingers rolling her tightened nipples, pressing the tips in on themselves while his palms continued kneading her breasts, slowly and carefully. "They're… they're so much softer than I expected."
Funny… Her brother had said something similar once upon a time. She blinked the thought away, breathing shallowly as Sousuke squeezed her breasts experimentally.
Gou's panties darkened with juices as her body anticipated and prepared itself for what was to come. It was nearly embarrassing how her body, so dutifully trained by the brother, had easily gotten wet at the prospect of sex. That didn't stop Gou however.
"More, Sousuke-kun," she pleaded, rubbing her thighs together to hold back the building ache. She needed it. To feel something—anything! She needed it so badly! "Please… Please!"
His throat bobbed again as he swallowed hard, but then Sousuke leaned down and wrapped his mouth over a rosy tip and she cried out upon feeling that familiar wet suction on her flesh. One hand treated her other breast as Sousuke sucked and nipped at the pink bud. She tossed her head back onto the pillow, appreciating the sensation of his teeth grazing the hardened tip and then gently nibbling on it. A gentler version of Rin's treatment.
His other hand squeezed her breast and Gou's mouth dropped open in wanton need, she almost missed the sight of her breastmilk abruptly squirting out between his large fingers.
Sousuke peeled back to see what had happened, eyes focusing on the translucent liquid spilling down her rosy tip now.
"S-Sorry," But Gou could care less by now, "it happens sometimes. The doctor said my body still thinks I'm pregnant, so some symptoms might still—oh!" She gasped when Sousuke suddenly dove to capture her leaking tit in his mouth, brow furrowed in concentration as he tasted her. "S-Sousuke… kun!"
Something hot trickled out of Gou, seeping past the thin cotton of her yellow panties. The heady scent of her arousal eventually wafted between them and that's when Sousuke finally pulled away, traces of her milky fluid coating his lips.
"Your breastmilk tastes good…" He murmured, his tongue peeking out to lick the corner of his mouth. She blushed at that.
Together, their gaze drifted to the panties she had yet to take off.
Gou shifted her legs so that Sousuke would be cradled and kneeling between them. They looked back at each other.
"May I?" He asked in a low voice, hands sliding down the flat of her belly to grip the edge of her underwear.
With her heart thumping against its rib cage, Gou nodded her answer. Her breathing quickened as Sousuke dragged his hands down the length of her body, taking the offending piece of clothing along. She blushed in embarrassment when Sousuke glanced at the stickiness that glistened on the bridge of her underwear, but he simply tossed it to the floor.
Perhaps it was shyness but it took Gou a couple of breaths to steel herself while Sousuke waited patiently for her.
"D-Don't look at it too much, o-okay?" She stammered.
His cheeks reddened slightly, but Sousuke nodded.
For a moment, she flashed back to the time when she had first revealed herself to her brother during their consummation. Rin had taken his time burning the sight of her pussy into his mind, memorizing the beauty of the rosy flesh between her thighs, all while hungrily licking his lips in anticipation of finally tasting the richness of her body.
But that was her brother. This was Sousuke before her now.
And Sousuke had never hungered for her for so many years compared to her brother. Rin had been forced to hold back his desires, knowing for so long that it was wrong of him to touch his own little sister like a lover could. Depravity had been forced upon Rin while Sousuke had a choice.
Inch by inch, Gou gradually spread open her legs to him. It felt like forever until her legs were open all the way, presenting to Sousuke her most intimate place. For a moment, she flashed back to when she'd been propped before the doctor, legs spread and braced against the footrest as the doctor inserted the tube between her legs. And then the speculum had pushed in, opening her vagina wider so that the tube could fit through and reach into her womb to suck out the bloody remains of—
"Wow," Sousuke breathed, interrupting the nightmare Gou had found herself sinking into. She returned her focus to him, realizing he had spread her delicate folds aside to reveal the inner flesh of her channel. His eyes shone with a hunger that hadn't been there before. "Gou, you're… beautiful."
It was a cheesy thing to say but, somehow, Gou was surprised to find her cheeks heating up at the compliment, and then she found her whole face reddening upon sensing that more juice was trickling out, running down her flushed slit, knowing that Sousuke could see how he affected her body.
It wasn't the cool air reaching between her legs that made Gou shiver, but the way Sousuke stared. The first time her brother had seen it, a hungry and primal expression had overcome him as if he'd finally been presented with the meal of his life. With Sousuke, she couldn't tell exactly what he was thinking but it wasn't hard to miss the lust darkening his bright eyes.
"D-Don't stare!" Gou reminded him.
But Sousuke continued on, mumbling more to himself than to her, "I finally get to see it."
"E-Eh?"
She jolted slightly when he pressed a knuckle against her entrance, gingerly testing the way her hole let him slip in. "It's so soft and wet…" He dug his knuckle in further and she squirmed slightly from the delicious pressure, but Sousuke's mouth was beginning to tighten into a grim line. "Gou, your… um, it's really small..."
And her brother was big, but she'd still been able to take him in.
"S-Spread it open more," she squeaked out, horribly embarrassed as if it was her first time all over again.
She felt Sousuke's fingers press against her slick mound, tugging her entrance open as far as he dared and Gou shuddered at the cool air hitting more of her exposed flesh. Don't spread me open so much, she wanted to say, but a part of her was also aroused at being so intently seen like this. She felt gloriously dirty, legs splayed and the lips of her pussy stretched apart so promiscuously to reveal the silky, intimate flesh of her body.
No more hiding. No more shame. She just wanted to lay everything bare. To be seen.
"That's where I'll go in?" Sousuke asked, but Gou couldn't find the strength to give him the assurance he'd asked for.
She shuddered when his large fingers slid across her slick folds for a better grip, strong thumbs pressing and spreading her folds aside even farther.
Just as she was about to remind him not to stare so hard, Gou cried out upon feeling a finger suddenly slip past her folds and all the way in, scraping her walls with a delicious friction.
"S-Sorry!" Sousuke hurriedly pulled out his finger, now coated up to the knuckle with her arousal. "I just couldn't help myself—I'm sorry!"
"I-It's okay.. You can touch it, Sousuke-kun," Gou said, brushing a hand through his dark hair in encouragement. She hadn't expected him to act so quickly, much less be the one to initiate things. "Touch me. S-Slowly, okay?"
"Can I… Can I see it? Just one more time."
She bit her lip, but then nodded. It still embarrassed her, having someone look at her most intimate place. But if her own brother had been able to see it-and touch and taste it and ravage it with love—then it didn't matter if another man did the same. Right?
As long as it gave her something to feel.
After a few seconds of more hesitance, Sousuke leaned towards her pussy for a better look. Even though she was still incredibly shy about it, Gou allowed him to study how flushed and wet her folds were. How she looked so soft and pliable. And when Sousuke's hands gingerly spread open her entrance, tugging those wet folds apart, Gou knew he was wondering again how such a small hole would ever let him fit within her.
"I can't believe you were going to push a baby out through such a small place," Sousuke mumbled. "A woman's body… is amazing."
"That's why… you will fit," She reassured him, a bit embarrassed of how she knew this.
Sousuke's ears reddened and he kept silent, but he surprised Gou when she felt him sweep his thumb side to side across the swollen lips of her pussy.
"Ah!" She couldn't help but release a sharp cry when his thumb dug between her folds, slipping past the tight entrance of her body.
Sousuke quickly looked to her in panic but he saw how her eyes crinkled with pleasure instead of pain and he slowly pushed his thumb and index finger farther into her. Gou gripped his bicep but murmured words of encouragement as he continued to explore her, testing the waters and watching how her body reacted if he touched her here or like that.
"You're really tight..." He noted aloud, glancing up at her with a silent question laced with concern.
Gou blushed, remembering that Sousuke was still a virgin and probably knew only knew about as much as Rin did when Rin first took her. "I, um… my insides stretch when I'm p-penetrated …"
"Oh."
He rubbed his fingers against her walls as if to confirm that she was indeed as pliable within as she said.
"Do you… like being penetrated?" He asked suddenly, voice low almost to a hush.
"Ah! Y-Yes!"
She shuddered, feeling Sousuke caress her tightness from within, large fingers pushing and pressing her insides this way and that. A wet squelch echoed when his fingers made a scissoring motion and Gou quietly gasped, her insides tingling in response to the man experimenting with her body, prepping her for a primal ritual. Sousuke made no sign of stopping even as his finger movements continued forcing her body to make more lewd, wet sounds of arousal.
It'd been a while since she'd been touched like this. Since she had felt an intimate pleasure that could not be achieved on her lonesome. It didn't help that her body was still running high from the hormones of her pregnancy, in a state of confusion between depression and a high libido.
"It's… wow," Sousuke murmured. "You're so tight, Gou. You're clamping down and sucking my fingers in…"
"D-Don't—ah! Ahn!—don't say it like that!" She panted, craning her face forward to watch Sousuke finger her with such intent, "Not when you're—ah!—f-fingering me!"
In fact, his face had a look of wonder as he watched his fingers work Gou to arousal. As if he was taking note of every single detail and reveling in each new discovery while he fingered her. His gaze flicker between her face and where his fingers were buried as Sousuke observed Gou's expression, watching for even the slightest change as his fingers slid inside her.
Warmth pooled heavy in Gou's belly and she found her hips yawning wider for Sousuke, rolling with the motions of his fingering. Becoming more daring, he began sliding his fingers in deeper and deeper with every shove now, forcing out stronger whimpers from her. They both abruptly froze when his fingers reached deep inside her, brushing a particular spot.
Sousuke frowned. "There's… I feel something deep inside you. It's soft but feels like… like a…"
A sharp cry escaped Gou's lips when she felt his fingertip brush that particular spot, something electrifying zapping her core at just the slightest brush of his fingers. He continued to gingerly swirl his fingertip around the circumference of that spot, pressing his finger experimentally.
"My womb!" Gou cried out, legs trembling and toes twitching at the funny, but somewhat pleasurable sensation. "S-Sou-ah! W-Wait, that's my womb!"
His fingers stilled. "Your what?"
"Y-You're touching my cervix... the entrance of my womb."
"This is your cervix? This little bump?" She blushed at the silly description but nodded and Sousuke flicked his eyes back down to where she still had his long fingers swallowed in. His throat bobbed. "Did I hurt you?"
She shook her head. "The womb starts to descend when near the third trimester, s-so that's why…"
"Are you sure it's still okay to…" She nodded and he swallowed hard once more. "Then can I… Can I touch it? I promise I'll be gentle."
She hesitated, but then found that she didn't care anymore. With a small nod, Gou added in a shy voice, "I… I actually like my cervix being touched. It feels really good for me so you don't need to worry if I… react."
"Did Rin know?" He suddenly asked, venomous spite tainting the question.
"Y-Yes, he did," Gou glanced aside, cheeks blushing harder. It was how she'd found out her cervix was a pleasure spot, much to her surprise.
"Was he… aggressive with you?"
"Yes, but I… I liked it best when Onii-chan did it rough." She was embarrassed to admit, but it was impossible to lie when Sousuke looked at her like that.
Sousuke didn't say anything. He merely continued to rub her deep within, long fingers pushing and curling inside Gou and eliciting hard shudders and sharp gasps out of her.
"Does it hurt?" Sousuke asked suddenly and it took her a second to realize what he was asking.
"Not anymore," she said quietly, trying not to remember. It'd been weeks since the procedure. What little bleeding she'd suffered had already stopped. Yet the pain of feeling so empty and robbed had not quelled since the surgery.
"I'm sorry," Sousuke stopped fingering her to say. "I should have been there with you."
"It's not your fault," said Gou.
She knew it was entirely her fault. The only reason she had gotten pregnant, after all, was because she had offered herself to her brother—a man drunk in love with his sister just as she was with him. She had spread herself out for him, he who starved for the taste of her flesh, and opened her legs to let him into her forbidden gates, permitting him to break her sacred lock and enter. It was Gou who had encouraged her own brother to plant his love seed inside her, every time, seducing him to be as sinful as her. And it was her body that had nurtured his seed within, letting it grow in her womb. It was what she had always wanted but knew she couldn't have.
Every misfortunate thing that had happened since then was all her fault. Her stupidity and selfishness…
Love makes you do crazy things, she thought bitterly.
"I don't want to see you in pain anymore," Sousuke said, and he pressed a tender kiss to her flat stomach as if apologizing for all the hurt she'd endured.
Tears welled up in Gou's eyes once more, spilling over the corners to stain his pillow with her sorrow. 'Thank you for everything' she wanted to tell him, but the words had gotten stuck in her throat. Instead, all she managed to say was, "I need you, Sousuke-kun. Please."
Sousuke looked at her, brows furrowed to match her own sadness. His fingers pulled their way out of her and that aching emptiness in the pit of her belly returned once more. He then leaned forward to kiss each eyelid, and he brushed away the remains of her tears with a knuckle.
Grabbing the wrapper, he ripped it open at the seam. When he tugged out the condom, Gou finally stopped him with a shake of her head. "Actually, we don't need to use a condom."
"But-"
"It's ok, I'm… I still can't ovulate yet," she explained reluctantly.
She was thankful that Sousuke chose not to question the matter any further, nor did he stare too long at her belly which had once bulged with her brother's child not too long ago. By now, it was hardly noticeable that she'd once been pregnant. After all, it'd been her first pregnancy, so her uterus had only started to stretch for the first time too. Even so, Gou missed being able to admire the swell of her belly even if it had also given her anxiety as well.
"Are you.. Are you sure you're ready for this?" Sousuke asked her again for confirmation.
She answered by tilting her face up and kissing him eagerly on the mouth. He followed her lead, letting himself be pulled into her dance of passion and sorrow. While he was distracted, Gou deliberately reached between them and tugged on the waistband of his dark sweats. Sousuke breathed sharply but he didn't break away from her kiss, letting her tug his pants down to his knees. He blindly kicked them off and she guided his hands back to her breasts. With him occupied, Gou took the opportunity to gently touch the bulge of arousal hidden beneath Sousuke's boxers.
He hissed against her mouth and he looked down, eyeing the way she palmed him through the thin cotton material.
A familiar, solid heat filled her hand and Gou could feel it pulsing with need as if she was holding the beating heart of an ox instead of the swollen penis of-not a boy-but a man with a natural instinct to procreate. Gou didn't need to see to know that Sousuke was large like her brother. Feeling Sousuke's thickness, she swallowed and wondered if it was going to hurt for her again. Just as it did when Rin entered her for the first time. Why? Why did she keep comparing Sousuke to her brother? Why couldn't she forget about Rin?
Hands wandered down to Gou's hips and she returned her attention to Sousuke who was looking at her like a puppy eager for treats. "May I touch you first? I want to… I want to make you feel good."
He wants to ease me back into sex, Gou realized what he really meant. Was he concerned that her body would not be able to handle it if they went straight in? Touched, Gou nodded in approval.
Sousuke leaned forward, kissing the space between her breasts and Gou smiled slightly when his ebony hair tickled her nipples and belly. His hands gripped the underside of her thighs, hoisting them up over his shoulders and leaving Gou fully exposed to his sight.
But Sousuke wasn't looking at her pussy, he was leaned forward, bright turquoise eyes staring deeply into her garnet eyes. "Do you remember the day we met?"
"Eh?" The sudden and random question interrupted her focus on where his hands were and she stuttered out, "N-No, I don't—hyah!"
Two fingers sliding into her caught Gou off guard and she let out a sharp, abrupt moan at the intrusion.
Beginning to finger her, Sousuke continued on. "You were such a small little thing back then all those years ago. I think you wore a frilly dress with daisy prints all over… your hair was up in pigtails… heh, you were so adorable, hiding behind your brother and clinging to his shirt as you peeked over his shoulder at me."
"S-Sou!" Gou moaned, spurring his fingers to pump into her more urgently, her body rocking with each stroke. "Ah! Aaahn!"
Bright blue-green eyes gazed down at her so intently, heavy-lidded as Sousuke spoke, "I introduced myself and then asked for your name. You spoke so softly I almost missed it. I wanted to shake your hand, but you were so small and scared of me, barely reaching my chest. Rin understood and let you go off so we could start practice. But I noticed the way you watched us swim. I'd be running laps and glimpse your way and see your eyes shining so bright and beautiful. You'd always cheer your brother on, do you remember that?"
"N-No! Ah! Ahn, Sousuke!" Gou cried out when his fingers curled within her, grazing certain spots so deliciously. "More—yah! Ah..! Mmn! R-Right there! Touch me more!"
He pressed a thumb to her clit, watching Gou arch her back against the bed in response. She was panting aloud now, pleasure throbbing in her core with every stroke of Sousuke's fingers. His gaze remained steady on her face, but eyes just as lustful as hers. "After practice, I approached you when Rin was still in the locker room. You were clutching your skirt, too shy to look at me. But then I offered you a peanut butter chocolate bar and finally, fucking finally, you looked me in the eye with the biggest and cutest smile I'd ever seen. As if I had offered you the world."
She could only respond back to him with restrained moans and quiet mewls.
"I never forgot that face you made," he said, the bed beginning to creak slightly as he added another finger into Gou, rubbing and pressing as far as he could go. "Nothing had ever managed to steal my breath until then.. until you."
"S-Sousuke..!" Gou was hardly paying attention to him at this point. She could feel her body rapidly approaching the precipice of ecstasy, toes starting to curl with anticipation. "I—ah! I'm c-close!"
Sousuke glanced down where his fingers shoved in and out from between Gou's legs, making certain motions every now and then. She was horribly slick with her own juices and the raunchy sound of his fingers sliding into her let Sousuke know as well. It might've been her imagination, but she swore she saw Sousuke smirk right before he leaned in close to begin pressing light kisses all over her face as she continued crying out from beneath him.
"I watched you grow up from that shy little girl, Gou," Sousuke whispered in between kisses, his fingers moving deftly between her thighs. "I watched you grow up all these years."
"S-Sou! Hah! Ahn! Ah!" Gou reached over her head to grasp the bedsheets, her body beginning to stiffen in anticipation. "I… I'm gonna.. ahn! Mmn, I'm gonna… c-cum!"
"I want that again, Gou… that beautiful face you make… when I give you the whole world again…"
"S-Sou!"
"I've always loved you, Gou," Sousuke crooned into her ear, his deep voice low and quiet for only her to hear. Her back arched, breasts pressing against his broad chest, and Gou bit her bottom lip to stifle her moan as her orgasm hit. "Now I finally get to see you like this…"
Her walls clamped down on the three fingers he'd inserted in her and Gou couldn't help but open her mouth to let a moan escape.
The moment she did so, Sousuke crushed his mouth to hers, swallowing down her cry of pleasure as he kissed her.
Gou squeezed her eyes shut, unable to process anything as she rode through the peak of her orgasm. The fingers within her gingerly stroked her tight walls despite the pressure she bore down on them. She knew it was Sousuke's mouth pressing against hers, and although she enjoyed the sudden and rough kiss, at the back of her mind she couldn't help but think of Rin kissing her.
In her mind, all Gou could see was dark wine hair and deep garnet eyes staring back at her. A slight smirk spreading to reveal shark teeth. His tongue flicking out to lick the corner of his mouth clean of her juices.
Rin, she called to him in her mind.
The memory of her brother leaned in to capture her lips once more.
When they broke apart, it was Sousuke she was smiling dazedly at. Ebony black hair framing the sharp teal eyes. Slowly, Gou raised a hand to touch her bruised lips as Sousuke smiled back at her.
"D-Did I…?"
"You did," he nodded, still smiling. They both glanced down where his large hand still remained between her legs. The only thing hiding the physical answer to her question. "You are beautiful, Gou," Sousuke said, rubbing his thumb gently across her clit.
"Ah!" Still sensitive, Gou's legs twitched atop of Sousuke's shoulders as he touched her. "W-Wait, I'm—ahhn!"
"Finally… After all these years," He murmured, leaning in once more to her, "I finally have you."
As Gou was still in mid-moan, he captured her lips once more. The kiss was just as firm as the very first one they shared, but where there was hesitance, there was now confidence and even an eagerness.
She had to break the kiss apart to release a sharp mewl of protest upon feeling his fingers tug out of her body.
Sousuke straightened, turning his attention to the arousal coating his hand. Gou blushed at the sight of the evidence of her pleasure glistening all over his fingers and dripping down his wrist. She held her breath when Sousuke slipped those fingers into his mouth, watching his eyes flutter shut as he savored the flavor of her climax.
Sousuke paused with a look of surprise on his face. He licked his lips, curious but pleased. "You taste good. Sweet and musky."
Gou's face went hot at such a response. Funny. Her brother often said the same, but she'd always dismissed it as him just trying to compliment her or turn her on.
With his eyes still closed as if to imprint the memory in his mind, Sousuke groaned, "I've always wanted to know what you taste like. I've imagined you many times, and finally…."
The redness of her face deepened as Gou watched him continue to lick his whole hand clean of her juices. She felt lightheaded from the orgasm, having not had a proper one for months already. When he finished, Sousuke took a moment to slip her legs off his shoulders and kiss her inner thighs, prompting a giggle from her.
"You giggled like that when you accepted the candy bar from me," he whispered, stroking her belly with a ghost of a smile.
Gou said nothing, unable to recall the memory of when they first met all those years ago as little kids. She decided to focus on the hands wrapped around the apex of her hips, his fingers close to where she was soaked wet and aching for more. His hands were warm and calloused against her soft flesh, and Gou thought of the many times her brother had knelt between her legs like this, teasing her before they'd fully engage in their forbidden ritual.
"I want to put it in you…"
"Mmm…" Her belly was still pulsing warm with pleasure, but aching for more. Aching to be filled much deeper. Instinctively, she drew her legs back further, opening herself to him in answer.
"Gou, are you sure I'll fit?" Sousuke interrupted her thoughts. "You're… well, uh, you're pretty small."
The way both he and Rin eclipsed her curvy but petite figure was proof alone.
Gou nodded. "You'll fit."
And if he didn't… if he tore her apart… she didn't care. She was already broken anyway.
Sousuke still looked unsure. "I don't want to hurt you, Gou."
"I did it with my brother, Sousuke-kun. Onii-chan would… Wh-When he did it to me… When Onii-chan put himself inside of me, my body stretched to… accommodate his size."
"That sounds… painful."
"It'll feel good," she insisted. "You'll fit inside me, Sousuke-kun."
A bit of doubt mixed with fear trickled like dark ink in the back of her mind, but she forced herself clear of any thoughts and quickly pulled down Sousuke's boxers. One way or another, he would fit inside her, and Gou did not care anymore if it would hurt or not. She needed him to give her something to feel. After that orgasm just now, Gou found herself aching for more of that pleasure that had filled her entire body. That white-hot reprieve that had briefly filled the gaping hole in her heart.
"Did he hurt you?" Sousuke suddenly asked. His jaw was feathered with tension and, for a moment, Gou didn't understand what he meant. "When Rin took your virginity… did he hurt you?"
"I told you, Onii-chan didn't force me. He didn't rape me."
"But that doesn't mean he took things too far. Things you didn't like or want to do."
Gou swallowed before answering. "He… Onii-chan prepared my body first. And then he pressed his tip to my entrance… He kissed me as a distraction… and then he thrust all the way into me. He tore his way into me with a single, sharp stroke and I… I remember crying out from the pain… crying into Onii-chan's mouth as he continued kissing me. But he didn't kiss me to silence my voice; he did it to comfort me. So that he wasn't just giving me pain, but also pleasure."
"Pain?"
"Before that, I've never had anything bigger than a tampon. But even tampons are hard to put inside and I… I didn't know a man's penis could get so large. Onii-chan was big," She touched a hand to her lower belly, feeling the echoes of her brother moving in and out of her, the outline of his cock an evident bulge in her abdomen, "a-and he was pressing against my womb and there was just so much pressure inside. I could feel the sharp burn of my insides struggling to adjust to his intrusion. We were both inexperienced at the time. I had no idea how much a man could fill me up…" Gou met Sousuke's hardened gaze. "So, did it hurt when I gave Onii-chan my virginity? Yes, it hurt in a way I couldn't imagine... but I wouldn't have it any other way."
Sousuke's teal gaze was heated with emotion as he looked at her. "So you gave yourself to your brother…. And me? Are you giving yourself to me, Gou? Or am I taking from you?"
"Do you want to take me, Sousuke-kun?"
"What if I said that I do?" Ice blue eyes burned hot with lust. A familiar darkness in the blue that she had often seen in the surreptitious looks he'd give her. Looks that she'd ignored until now. "I told you, Gou, I'm not the good guy you think I am…"
"Then," Gou stroked his bulge, watching the conflict play out on his face every time she touched him, "what will you do?"
Sousuke's throat shifted and then he reached down between them. "I'm going to put it in you."
His erection bobbed free, nearly resting against his abs. It was already engorged to the max, the length of it blushing a red furious with need. Little bulging veins created ridges that ran down the sides. One thick vein throbbed on his underside. From the slit of his blunt tip leaked a steady stream of clear precum threatening to drip onto the sheets between them. He was indeed large like her brother and throbbing with a virginal but primal need to mate, and Gou was his partner... No, she'd forced him to be her partner, right?
At the sight of him, there was this fear that began welling up. She did not fear of Sousuke's size or the possible pain, or the sex at all. There was this indescribable fear of… something. She could not name it. It was almost ridiculous to think that seeing a man's penis would cause her to feel terrified for some reason. Not necessarily because of the dick itself or having sex but… maybe because of the emotions? Emotions that would remind Gou of all the times she'd had sex with her brother. The love, the desire, the need, and the happiness she had felt—everything she'd experienced when she and her brother were nobody but a man and woman consummating their love for each other between the sheets and everywhere else. Was she scared that she would not feel those emotions with Sousuke? Or that she would feel them? She didn't know.
And that fear made her spread legs tremble around Sousuke's hips.
"Hey," Sousuke slowly reached forward to cup her cheek, "where are you going? Stay with me."
It wasn't his words, but his gentle touch that soothed Gou and anchored her from drifting back into the darkness of the mind. The warmth of his hand was like a lifeline, pulling her away from the cursed past that haunted her.
"I want you, Sousuke-kun," Gou repeated softly. Keeping her legs open all the way, she slid a hand between her thighs and spread her folds apart for him, stretching her sloppy entrance open. 'Hurry', she wanted to say, because she wasn't sure just how much longer she could last before her dwindling courage ran out.
Sousuke scooted closer, nestled comfortably in the cradle of her legs. First, he paused, and Gou feared Sousuke was about ready to back out of it. Then he held her knees and leaned in, kissing lightly down the inside of her left thigh. A chaste kiss on her slit elicited a sharp gasp from Gou.
She watched as Sousuke continued to lightly kiss, suck, and lick her folds with such tenderness and care. Like he was having his last meal and wanted to savor each morsel.
Every time he flicked his tongue, she forgot about how empty she felt. At the same time, she wanted to cry because it reminded her of the way Rin had often done the exact same thing to her.
Instead of seeing Sousuke's ink-black hair, all she could see was ruby strands that often tickled her thighs as Rin would kiss her pussy so chastely like it was a temple, right before he would devour her like a starved beast. She could imagine her brother's sharp teeth grazing the wet folds teasingly, and sometimes she'd be so far into ecstasy that she would find herself almost about to beg him to just dig his teeth into her. To give into his more aggressive primal desires and tear into her body however way he pleased. Her brother would drink her juices, taste her flesh, and eat her whole of her sins and she would be all too happy to allow him.
"Stay with me," Sousuke murmured again, as if sensing her thoughts.
Gou tried to. She tried not to think of Rin. She fought off the phantom sensation of her brother's mouth on her pussy, his nose buried into the crevice of her panties, his hot breath against her slit as he'd whisper, 'I am yours, Gou, and you are mine', and then claim her in every way possible.
"S-Sousuke-kun!" Gou cried out, fisting her hands in his hair. When he raised his head, his chin glistening with her juices. Gou could have sworn his eyes had been a dark garnet instead of bright turquoise. "I... I need you now."
Now.
Before she'd lose her mind altogether and accidentally call for her brother to fuck her.
Hurry!
Sousuke silently studied Gou's eyes and she wondered if all he saw was desperation and darkness. Quietly, he asked her if she was wet enough for him and, when she nodded, he tore open the gold foil he'd set aside and began to roll it on. She began to shake her head and then he paused, remembering her words earlier. "Are… are you sure we don't need a condom?"
"I won't get pregnant this time," Gou couldn't bite back the cold tone of her words. "You don't have to worry."
"That's not what I—" But then he stopped and looked down at the opened condom—his eyes telling a truth that Gou knew she did not deserve.
Since he'd already opened it, the condom was no longer safe for use, so he tugged it off himself and flung it aside as well as the wrapper. Despite the dim lighting of the room, the gold foil shone in the darkness like a beacon to mock the both of them.
Gou gripped the corners of the pillow as Sousuke grabbed his swollen cock and aligned it to her entrance. Biting her lip, she watched as he rubbed his blunt tip up and down her slick folds, pushing slightly in once he neared the right spot. "Here?"
"A little lower.. there," Gou answered in a whisper, feeling hot pressure settle right at her entrance, prodding her with something sticky.
Sousuke caressed the apex of her thigh before dipping in to kiss her stomach again. A silent apology for all that she'd endured. Swallowing lightly, Gou waited until he began to push into her. Sousuke's groan was quiet and restrained, but still audible and made more pronounced once his bulbous head slipped past her folds to lie engulfed in her wet heat. Taking in a deep breath, Gou forced herself to relax and not think of anything else—only pleasure.
"Gou…"
She snapped her eyes to the man nestled between her legs, having thought that it was her brother's voice she'd heard, only to remember that Sousuke was the one before her, not Rin.
Sousuke's grip on her hips tightened slightly and he slowly began inching his way into her depths, gingerly splitting her open on his cock. Her whimpers grew louder as she felt his swollen tip slip through, and then—
"No!" Gou shouted without thought, hands flying to press against Sousuke's abs and keep him at bay.
He looked at her, teal eyes flitting across her face and searching for the truth that he had already known but that she had tried to hide: Gou did not want him.
Immediately, Sousuke pulled out of her, his gaze falling to between her legs and checking for any signs of injury or blood. Though his eyes were lowered, the disappointment was clear on his face.
Gou's mouth opened and then closed as she struggled to speak—to apologize—to beg for Sousuke's forgiveness. Tears spilled onto the pillow and Gou could only cover her face with her hands, sobbing into them and wishing her friend would turn a blind eye to her disgrace. Instead of doing just that, however, she found Sousuke wounding his arms around her nude form. Bare warm skin pressed against her cold self, ebony hair tickling her wet cheeks.
A moment passed as her sobs gradually died.
"I know," Sousuke murmured, hugging Gou in comfort as she took the time to calm down. "Sshh, it's all right, Gou. I know."
"No, it's my fault. I'm sorry, Sousuke-kun." Gou wiped her cheeks before finding the strength to return his hug. "I'm so—"
"I was rushing and forgot my—" Both Sousuke and Gou whipped their faces to the door that had busted open, revealing Rin who froze at the sight of his sister and best friend in bed together, both naked and embracing one another.
The keys Rin held hit the floor with a loud jangle.
Everything and everyone went silent and still as the door swung to a close.
Oh, no.
A/N: This chapter was originally 50 whopping Google Doc pages long because I had been working on it for 3 years. It was one of the first chapters I had planned out when I started this fanfic. It took me 2 years to finally get to here. I've been dying to publish this. Because 50 pages is way too long for any of us to read in one sitting, I had to break it down into smaller chapters, and this is the first part.
