Synchronized Heartbeats

Written By: TCOOKIES777

Chapter 48: The Last Farewell


"You always were a terrible liar, Gou."

Caught in the lie, all she could do was stare back at her brother who smiled knowingly at her.

"You're soaking wet, but I've cummed inside this pussy so many times that I know what it looks like after." His fingers spread her sopping folds further until the point of slight discomfort. "Like I said, sis, you would always look like an overstuffed cream puff after sex. Going to sleep, full of cum and leaking it… Your mouth may lie, but this mouth down here doesn't. You're wet… but clean."

Cold air and his hot breath hit her core. His thumbs pressed hard against the slick lips of her pussy.

"D-Don't spread me open!" Gou begged him, bracing Rin's shoulder in a useless attempt to keep him from looking too close. "No, stop it! You're my brother—you can't look there! Stop! Don't open me up!"

He's… He's looking in there!

Where…. Baby… Our baby… The metal clamp…. Fetus... Blood…

Her thoughts began to swirl together, discombobulated enough to leave Gou lightheaded for a moment.

"You're so wet down here…" Rin breathed as he peered at her. "All this nectar inside you… I can see your walls twitching deep within. So fucking naughty. You want cock, don't you, Gou? I know that look. You can lie all you want but I know you want me. I know you want my cock kissing the mouth of your womb. You want my cum stuffing you to the brim. You want to me to fuck you…. Isn't that right, sis?"

"I-I don't! You're my brother! I don't want it!"

"Do you remember, Gou? What you promised me?" Rin looked her in the eye first, gradually lowering his gaze down her body as he spoke. "Your lips belong to me, Gou. You promised me that no one besides me would kiss you… Your breasts belong to me. No one but me could touch them. And your pussy…" His throat bobbed sharply as his eyes landed to between her legs. Gou shuddered from the heat of her brother's lust. "Your pussy belongs to me, Gou. No man but me could touch you there… taste you... And your womb…"

"Stop." She whispered, closing her eyes as Rin leaned in to kiss her lower belly so gently.

Her brother sighed against her stomach, nuzzling it. "You said your womb is for me. That it's nobody else's but mine to fill with child. You promised. Your everything belongs to me as my everything belongs to you," he said in a wavering voice. "You promised, Gou. You are mine and I am yours. We promised."

She had promised him a future together. A family…. The family the two siblings had always desired. The family they'd been robbed of long ago.

"And didn't you promise me the same, Onii-chan?" She couldn't help but say, his words having sparked anger to flicker through her. "You broke your promise too. You promised you and your everything—you promised it all belonged to me and you broke it with that girl! How could you do that to me!"

"... I did." Rin's lips skimmed down Gou's belly, his breath shaky against the apex of her hip. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Gou."

"I don't want an apology!" She fought back the angry tears. "I want an explanation! Why did you betray me?!"

But her brother merely shook his head. "I can't. I don't know how to… But I never betrayed you—it's not like that! You have to trust me, Gou. Trust me when I say that I love you and want only you!"

"Then why can't you just tell me?! Tell me why you slept with her! Did you get bored of me?"

Somehow, the question only provoked him.

Without warning, Rin pressed his mouth against Gou's inner folds, slipping his tongue in as far as he could. She squealed, hands digging into his thick hair and pulling at it in ecstasy rather than rejection as his tongue swirled in her. She could feel him rubbing inside her, shark teeth lightly pressing against her soft folds as he tasted her depths.

"N-No! Please!" Head tossed back into the pillow, Gou couldn't help but roll her hips into her brother's mouth, creating the familiar motion of thrusting. His head bobbed, syncing with the roll of her hips as he tongue-fucked her just the way she loved it. Rin was merciless as he made love to her down there. He was like a starved man tearing into a meal, devouring everything he could reach—everything he could touch, and kiss, and nip at.

It was way more than enough to break Gou and have her moaning freely, "Nooo! Don't! Oh! Ohhh—Onii-chan! Onii… ah… ahh.. Yah!Don't s-suck it! N-No, not sommn.. h-hard! St.. stoooooop!"

The thick wetness prying her channel open slipped in and out of her, scraping Gou's inner walls clean of her arousal, only to draw out more. Her brother's tongue wrecked unbearable bliss upon her core, sharp teeth grazing Gou's swollen folds as a brief reprieve of the ache she suffered from. A sexual high ebbed at her body, charging the pit of her belly like an electrical shock.

Gou bit her lip upon sensing her body edge closer to oblivion. She forced her hands out of Rin's hair, bracing his shoulders in an attempt to push him away. "Stop, please! Ah! N-No more! Hah!Aaahn! I'm your l-lil sister—stop sucking o-on my pussy! Wait—not so hard! It's—yaaah!—no, it's making sounds! T-Too loud! Aahn! Aah… ah! No more, Onii—pleeeasse! S-Stop it!"

She was on the precipice of oblivion, mind going blank and body about to explode with ecstasy. Her hands scrambled across the sheets in search of purchase; anything to ground her to reality instead of face defeat and continue this fantasy. Fingers dug into the mattress for a hot second as Gou struggled to keep from wailing with approval. One hand flew up to grip the pillow's corner and her other hand returned to burrowing itself into Rin's thick locks.

"Ahn! Ahhaah! Aaaahn—Onii—no!" Gou shook her head in a panic, knowing she was fighting a battle that had been lost long ago. On the edge of oblivion, she whimpered for her brother to stop. To have mercy on the both of them. She whimpered out her pleas in a mix of moans and gasps. "I can't! Ohhh! Oh, I c-can't! Mmnn—Onii! Stop it—aaahhah!"

It's coming! It's coming! It's coming!

"N-no… please… I..! I..!" She could feel herself about to speak those three forbidden words. Three special words that would ruin them both. They simmered on the tip of Gou's tongue, ready to give away and reveal the truth of her heart. Gou bit her lip, tears burning her eyes as she fought her brother. "Nooo!"

Rin simply growled and continued his assault, holding her hips closer to his face. As if to punish Gou for trying to stop him, her brother took a moment to suck at her clit, drawing the swollen nub in between his teeth, tongue lavishing it and lips kissing.

He drew back briefly and Gou thought he was done until Rin buried his face against her once more. Her eyes widened upon feeling sharp teeth scrape along her sensitive flesh and then Gou gasped when Rin's pressed his teeth against the wet seam of her pussy, his mouth open as if he meant to bite her. She clamped a hand over her mouth to muffle the slight scream that escaped when Rin lightly bit her puffy folds, wicked teeth digging against her dewy softness. A sinful tongue began parting through her tight channel, worming its way inside.

His hand pressed down on her belly, holding Gou down as she bucked her hips and shuddered against the rollercoaster of pain and pleasure between her legs.

I'm… gonna… cum!

Rin's mouth scraped up, tongue sliding across her abused slit. She whimpered as he sucked on her clit, using what little strength she had left to fight off her orgasm. His teeth gingerly nipped at the swollen bud of nerves, lips tightly pressed around it, and Gou helplessly twitched and trembled beneath his mouth. Then her brother spread her folds wide apart and dragged his tongue hard across her exposed rosy walls, lapping deeply at her dewy flesh for another sloppy taste of her pussy.

Then that tongue dipped back inside her, sliding through the tight ring of muscles, accompanied by two of his long fingers.

That was way more than enough to push Gou off the edge and she arched her back, squealing her brother's name in sheer ecstasy.

Her vision went white upon orgasm and all Gou could hear was the sound of her heart thumping. With a violent shudder, she came hard in her brother's mouth, vaguely feeling his tongue lap eagerly at her spilled nectar and whatever leftover dew he could draw out of her body. He licked at her twitching folds and in between them, his hot tongue burning against her core. She didn't even have the strength to move her legs which were so vulgarly raised apart with Rin bracing her thighs so that her numb toes brushed against the headboard above her.

Loud slurping sounds filled the room, lewd and promiscuous, and it was Gou's only way of knowing what was happening. Just barely.

Ba-dum! Ba-dum! Ba-dum! Ba-dum! Ba-dum! Ba-dum! Ba-dum! Ba-dum! Ba-dum! Ba-dum!

For a second, Gou was able to forget that this handsome man eating her pussy out was her own brother. She could forget that she had been pregnant with his child, bearing a forbidden fruit in her womb. She could forget that Rin and Ami had sex and that she had been about to have sex with Sousuke herself. She could forget all those times she'd been jealous of the girls openly expressing their attraction to her brother.

In that blinding moment, Gou could forget everything. All she knew was that her soul had attained a bliss she could only achieve in moments like these, and that she loved this man between her legs quite dearly, and unconditionally.

I love you, she wanted to say so desperately to this man. To stop lying and admit the truth of her heart even if that was the selfish thing to do.

I love you!I love you!I love you!I love you!I love you!I love you!I love you!I love you!I love you!I love you!I love you!I love you!

Gou would have said it aloud had she had the breath to do so. Had she had the strength to take the man's handsome face and kiss him on the lips. But… although her heart sang for this man and her mind chanted countless 'I love you's' for him, something deep within her told Gou that she could not do so. That it was forbidden.

She felt warm lips kiss her sore pussy gently, lips melding to her tender folds, soft and deep like a lover's kiss and Gou sighed at that with closed eyes. She felt another kiss just as gentle as the first despite the grip on her butt holding her tightly, keeping her hips raised to her partner. Gou let out another pleased sigh, breath trembling when her moist folds were kissed again in worship. Hair tickled between Gou's thighs as the person moved their mouth against her down there, every one of her nerves alight with arousal and bliss despite how tender and sore the flesh was. She bit her lip, listening to the lewd, wet sounds of the kisses, feeling her inner walls twitching and fluttering with both pleasure and need. Her head was still fuzzy with pleasure, making it too difficult for Gou to think.

But why think when she can feel good?

After the fourth gentle kiss, a tongue stroked it's way between her folds until it reached the hood of her clit, lightly flicking the sensitive nub. Her breath hitched and hips jolted as the person repeated the stimulation, tongue languidly dragging along her tender slit and then flicking at her aching pearl of nerves. Gou didn't expect to be overtaken by a second orgasm but it hit her so suddenly that she didn't have the chance to hold back her cries. The bed creaked sharply as she arched her body, her core exploding with such intense ecstasy that, at some point, Gou was sure she was screaming. Hands clutched at the sheets, gripping for dear life as she unknowingly let her second orgasm gush out and drip onto the sheets. Gou's legs quickly gave out and she flopped back onto the bed, gasping for air and blinking away the spots in her vision.

Her head felt like it was stuffed with cotton, fuzzy and lightheaded while the rest of her body throbbed with pleasure.

"Mmnn…" She struggled to regain her bearings, trying to clear her mind of the haze of lust and post-coital drowsiness. She couldn't feel her legs still, and there was a faint ringing in her ears.

The sound of a belt unbuckling was what drew Gou back to reality and she had to blink a few more times to recover from the daze of the orgasm. She peered down at her brother undoing his pants, his piercing stare hot on her face. Glistening on his chin was her arousal which he didn't even bother to wipe. With her mind still hazy with sexual bliss, it took Gou a moment to process what he was about to do.

"You want doggy-style?" Rin asked, hands stiffly jerking his zipper down not out of impatience but out of fury. "I know you like getting fucked from behind like a bitch in heat."

Hate me, Onii-chan. Hate me more.

"That's right… I'm a slut." Gou panted, ignoring how her body throbbed wonderfully. Her limbs were so weak that she didn't have the strength to close her legs, keeping them splayed all the way open so that either knee rested on the mattress at her sides. The position made her pussy spread open slightly, the inner pink flesh twitching and glistening like a beacon for Rin. The shame of her flushed, abused pussy being so openly displayed before her brother had long since been thrown away. Even now, Gou could feel the walls of her insides flutter with anticipation as she glanced at Rin's bulge. Then she chuckled out, joyless and flat, "I'm a slut, and the only thing I enjoyed about our incestuous relationship was the sex."

That's what you think? Right? She wanted him to make him believe it. If only to let his hatred for her fester. To make their parting easier.

She slid a hand down and watched Rin's eyes somehow darken even more, his pupils blown wide with desire as she touched a finger to her slit, dipping that finger just an inch into herself, feeling just how embarrassingly wet she was. As Gou did so, a shudder ran through her body, knees trembling against the mattress as she lightly fingered herself before her brother, feeling how terribly sensitive she was post-orgasm, her aching pussy pulsating with sexual bliss. She dipped that finger in and out, feeling how soaking wet she was from Rin's mouth and her own double orgasms. "I touch myself… Ahh.. Mmmn! I finger myself all the time like this when I don't have a cock in me… Mmm—so go ahead, Onii-chan, call me a slut. That's right. Your—ah! Ohhh… your little sister is a slut. That's who I really am. Sorry to disappoint."

I'm a slut who just wanted to use you for sex.

She tried not to cry. Tried not believe in her own words but, in her heart, Gou felt the pain of what she spoke. Whore, her classmates and friends had called her in her nightmare. They had been right. I am a whore. A brotherfucking whore.

"Is that so?" Her brother did not look amused. "And you think that's enough to stop me from wanting you? Cut the bullshit already."

Gou stopped fingering herself, taken aback by Rin's stubborn determination to love her. Did he… Did he really still want her after all that was said and done? After seeing her with Sousuke? For a second, she felt her barriers breaking, her facade falling apart, and Gou started in a small and honest voice, "Y-You don't think I'm not—"

"You wanna know what I think? I think you're lying, Gou… I guess I'll fuck you from the front then," Rin growled, pulling his cock out. He was only partially hard as if aroused by her state of undress and scent of sex but still too angry to be fully erect. "At least I'll see your face when I make you cum!"

'I want to see your beautiful face when I make you cum, Gou.'

Rin's hands braced her thighs apart and, despite her pussy pulsing happily from the recent orgasm, Gou pushed him by the chest. "Stop it, I don't want this!"

She wanted Rin, yes, but if Gou was going to have him inside then she wanted to have him like before. Like a lover, because every time had always been out of love and want. This? This was out of need, and pain, and anger. The both of them were hurt. She didn't want to tarnish the good memories they had with what they were about to do now.

"Fucking liar! You do want this! It's written all over your face!"

"No, Rin, please! I-I'm your sister! You can't put it inside me! We have to stop! No more sex—I'm serious!" Gou begged her brother, trying to push him away. It was like trying to move a rock. A very stubborn, angry rock. "Please don't do this! I don't want it! Rin, no, I don't want it!"

Rin leaned in despite Gou bracing her hands against his chest in a futile struggle to keep him away. It was then that Gou realized just how much stronger and larger her brother was. How he eclipsed her petite body with his own. How his Adonis body wasn't just for show; his abs flexed with energy, corded arms taut with strength, and the contours of his back rippling with power.

All those times Rin had made love to her, held her tightly and thrusted so painfully hard and good to leave her breathless and aching for more. He had made his need for Gou obvious and clear like a lovesick puppy performing tricks for its master. She had forgotten that her brother could be a predator if he so wanted to. How he slinked across the bed and towards her like a shark slithering through water, muscular body caging Gou in.

"No, Onii-chan." A tear slid down Gou's cheek. "We need to stop this! All of this! It was a mistake to ever have this kind of relationship in the first place. I'm sorry for tempting you… for forcing you into this position, but now we really have to end this."

"A mistake?" He echoed quietly. "I never thought of it that way. To me, you were the best thing that ever happened…"

"I'm your sister… You can't. You can't put it in me. You can't!"

"You should have told me that before you gave me your virginity. And like you said," Rin sneered at her, "it's just a penis and a vagina. It's just good sex for you."

"No, I'm your little sister! Onii-chan, don't put it inside me! You're my big brother—we're not supposed to have sex! We're biological siblings—we can't have sex together! We can't!"

"Yes, we fucking can, Gou! I've already put my cock inside you countless times—bareback even—no protection separating our flesh. What difference does one more time make? In the end, before we're brother and sister, we're just man and woman."

"I… I-I'm not on birth control anymore! If you put it in me then I'll get pregnant! Rin, I'm serious, you're my brother—don't put it in me or you'll get me pregnant! Please, you can't!" Gou begged him as his sister. His little sister whom he'd do anything for, right? Right? "Y-You said it yourself, remember? Brothers don't get their sisters pregnant! That's what you said!"

Rin paused and something passed through his face. Sadness? Hesitance? Despair? He leaned in and kissed her cheek like a lover—gently and with such potent love. Then he murmured into Gou's ear, "Just ask. You wanted a baby, right? I don't care that you're my baby sister—just ask, and I'll give you a baby. I'll give you anything. I can be your brother, Gou, and I can also be the father of your children. Our children. I'll give you anything and be anything for you."

Once upon a time, Gou would have given anything to hear her brother say those words. She wanted nothing more than to be able to be with her brother like any other normal man and woman in love. They were family in so many ways they were not supposed to be. And that was a love she had dreamt to have as she laid in bed at night, living in an empty house. But she knew their love was not meant to be. It was toxic; an illness that had twisted their minds after twisting their hearts.

"Y-You wanted to make a baby before, didn't you?" Desperation gleamed in her brother's eyes. "Then we'll do that! We'll… we'll do whatever you want! We'll make our own family and run away where no one can find us—where no one will find out about our incest! Imagine it, Gou. You, me, our children. The perfect family we always wanted. I want that with you. A life with you, Gou, please."

He's doing this to keep me from leaving him, she realized. What about his Olympic dream? Of course she didn't want to leave him, but it was for Rin's own good.

I'm sorry, Onii-chan.

Gou shook her head. "N-No, we can't! We can't make babies together, Onii-chan! We're brother and sister—we can't make babies! We share the same blood! Wh-What will we tell Okaa-san?!"

"I told Pops the truth. That I love you as more than a sibling. That I don't care that you're my little sister. I want you to be my wife. I want you to bear my children. Be my family, Gou. We can… we can tell Mom the truth too!" He nodded, more to himself than to her. "And once she knows that you're pregnant with my child, she'll have no choice but to accept it—accept us! We'll take what we want and not even Mom can stop us."

Gou didn't recognize that dark look on Rin's handsome face. His garnet eyes seemed dull and tired and all too desperate, driven wild with emotions and pain. Nothing like that bright spark he'd always gazed the world and herself with.

"You'll get in trouble," she said.

There was no need to mention that he'd serve time in jail if he got caught. No need to warn him that he'd never be accepted into the Olympics if their love was found out. He knew, but Gou knew he wasn't in the right frame of mind to decide between which dream he wanted to pursue. Which future he'd choose to keep and which to lose.

"I've only ever wanted you to bear my children, Gou." He stared down at her, unblinking despite the dark circles beneath his eyes. "Only you. And, if not you, then no one else. I've only ever wanted a family with you."

"Is that what you told Ami when you screwed her behind my back?" Gou found herself hissing at him, that spike of anger flashing through her body.

"No. No other woman," Rin shook his head, stroking a bang away from Gou's cheek. "I don't want any other woman to bear my children but you. Only you, Gou. Only us. Our children."

"Are.. are you hearing yourself right now?! You're not thinking straight, Rin." Gou watched her brother and the way he seemed to be lost in his own world. "We're brother and sister. We're biological siblings. We're not supposed to be having sex together! We're not supposed to be making babies! We can't tell anyone what we've been doing together!"

Frustration flashed through Rin's face and he huffed. "Then we'll run away and raise our children together. Make our own team, huh? You, me, and our babies. We won't tell anyone that we're brother and sister—not even our own kids. Just ask me, Gou. Ask, please… All you have to do is ask."

I want it. I want it so bad, Onii-chan! And Gou was tempted to agree to his proposal. Her heart screamed to say yes to him. To admit that she truly wanted all of that and more. She wanted to be able to make love with her brother without worrying about protection or pregnancy. It wasn't the incest that made her fear pregnancy—it was the consequences that they and her children would have to pay because of society not accepting them. Gou just wanted to live a life where she could love her brother freely, kiss him and make love with him freely, marry him and give birth to his babies. Have a real family for once in her lonely life.

She had always felt so alone without Rin. Trapped in an empty house. A princess yearning for her prince from the shadows of her tower.

But… because she truly loved Rin, she could not allow this future for him. She could not bind him to herself like that.

"You just don't get it, do you?" It pained her to say this, but she had no other choice. She injected as much as venom into her words as she could. "I don't want you. I don't love you. I don't want to be with you. And the last thing I want on Earth is to have my brother impregnate me. The last thing I ever want is to carry a bunch of monsters in my belly—your monsters!"

"You're…. You're lying," Rin whispered, but his eyes were bright with terror and pain. "I know you, Gou. I know that you're lying! Wh-Why are you doing this to me? To yourself?!" When she didn't answer, he shook his head. "Lie all you want, but I won't. I won't lie about my love for you. I won't do that to us."

He pressed a warm kiss to her inner thigh, as if a show of forgiveness to the liar who spouted nothing but hurtful words at him. Her heart began to stir as she watched Rin kiss her other thigh, his hands spreading her legs apart as he did so.

So Gou said in a quiet sob, "No, Onii-chan, you're my brother… Please, we're siblings—we can't do this… You can't do this to me. Please, don't make this any more difficult than it has to be."

For your sake, Onii-chan. I would give up everything for your future. Everything including us.

Disappointment and pain shot through Rin's eyes. He leaned in to lick her tear away and then kissed the corner of her mouth, murmuring, "I'll make sure it feels really good. Just the way you love it, Gou."

No, it wasn't about the pleasure or having an orgasm; she wanted Rin regardless. She wanted to feel his bare skin rubbing deep inside her. Feel the familiar way he moved inside her and filled her to the brim with his heat. Feel him tear into her body and break her over and over. But Gou knew that, once it was over, he could not afford to stay and piece her back together. Not this time. This time, they would both be left more broken than they already are now.

"P-Please…" Gou tried to push him away, her strength feeble compared to his. Her brother didn't budge. "Onii-chan…? Onii-chan, wait, I'll really get pregnant if you do this! Please, you're my brother—you can't impregnate me! I can't let you! Onii… Onii-chan, stop, I'm serious! N-No, please, I don't want you to impregnate me! I don't want my brother's baby!"

Not like this!

Rin looked at her, face absent of all the white hot anger that'd been seething in him this entire time. And in those garnet eyes of his, Gou saw love behind that fiery anger still burning in his gaze. Love that he would always have for her. An urge to cup his handsome face had Gou tightening her hand into a fist, ignoring the desire to stroke his chiseled jaw and kiss the pain away.

"No," she said, quietly but firmly.

Rin's eyes flitted across her face, searching for any hope that his sister might be lying. Too blinded by pain and jealousy, Rin missed the truth in Gou's eyes. Missed the way she bit her lip to keep from kissing him and permitting him to take her. With a growl, he gripped her hips and aligned himself to her entrance. Gou tried to shuffle away, higher on the bed, but Rin tightened his grip on her hips and the mattress creaked when he dragged her closer to him. To his raised cock pointing eagerly at her pussy.

"Onii-chan..? Don't!" Her breath hitched when the weeping tip of his cock tapped against her entrance, ready to penetrate her body. Gou grunted as she struggled, wiggling her hips to keep him from pressing into her, but he forced her to remain still for him. The mushroom tip of his cock was so hot and solid against her entrance and she was so wet to receive every inch of him. She was sure that he would be able to slip all the way inside and bottom out within her with no resistance. All he had to do was snap his hips and they'd be physically united once more as brother and sister, man and woman.

"Your pussy is dripping all over my cock, Gou." Rin shushed her. "Make sure to swallow in every inch of me and every last drop of my cum, okay?"

Just hearing him say that was enough to make her core pulse with anticipation, her pussy aching for his touch. She was still peering down between them as Rin kissed her forehead quickly before following her gaze to between her legs. "Here we go…"

"RIN, NO!" She braced an arm against the bulk of his shoulder, pushing him with all her mind. "ST—!"

The familiar, enticing heat of her brother's swollen tip nudging its way past her sore folds was what forced Gou's hand.

SMACK!

Rin's wide eyes remained staring in shock at the wall by the bed, his face turned by the force of Gou's slap.

Even she was taken aback by the way the palm of her hand had cracked against her brother's handsome face.

One hand let go of her thigh to touch his cheek, fingers brushing the reddening skin where he'd been hit. Slowly, Rin turned his widened gaze to Gou.

"I said no." Gou swallowed back the tears. Swallowed down the apology she wanted to say. Swallowed the truth down to let it rot in her. Swallowed the pain and sorrow if only to give her enough time to muster a glare at her brother.

I will not be the one to chain you down.

Her brother's gaze fell to between her legs and then he looked back up at her with pure horror and disgust. Horror and disgust directed at himself upon realizing what he'd been about to do.

"What have I done…" Rin mumbled to himself, wiping his chin which was still wet with her orgasm. He blinked at the arousal now on his hand, rubbing at the film of stickiness.

From Rin's perspective, he had been raping his own sister. The very person he swore to protect and love. In his mind, he had failed her. He had failed the both of them.

Gou wished he didn't think like that. Wished he didn't blame and hate himself. But, if this is what it took to cut their ties together…. If this is what it took for Rin to let go of the one thing chaining him back…. Then Gou had no choice but to let it be this way.

This is for your own good, Onii-chan.

"You... don't love me?" Rin's voice broke. Something seemed to wilt in his eyes, dulling what spark he'd still been nurturing. What hope he'd been holding onto. All of it, dead by her hands.

With Rin still in the cradle of her thighs, Gou had no choice but to slide a hand down her belly to cover herself, ignoring how her brother eyed the movement. He laughed breathlessly and without joy, realizing that Gou was covering herself from him. He who had seen and touched all of her special, most intimate places countless times. He'd kissed the place between her legs so many times with love, his own hips pressing against hers to give her a more special kiss in that place deep within her body. And Gou was hiding it from him. She was hiding herself from him.

Rin whispered, voice thin and fragile, "You always did say it embarrassed you when I stared too much at it..."

Gou remained silent, keeping the hand between her thighs stiff like a barrier between him and her.

Rin's gaze flicked to Gou's hand between her legs and then to her face, back and forth, back and forth as if he couldn't accept what she was doing. He raised his own hands, palms open and shaking. "I… I'm sorry! Shit, I'm so sorry, Gou! I'll leave you alone! I won't touch you anymore—I promise! Just please… please, tell me you're lying! Tell me you still love me…"

She remained silent but, inside herself, she screamed the truth. He reached out to cup her cheek but Gou flinched away from his touch.

Rin's hand froze between them and he whispered, "Gou, it's me…? It's your Rin… I-I'm your big brother—you know I'd never hurt you. I was just.. I was just so angry and hurt. I only feel this way because I love you. I didn't mean to… Shit, I'm sorry, Gou, please… I'm so sorry! Please…"

I know, Onii-chan. But I love you too much...

She refused to meet those garnet eyes begging her. Instead, Gou swallowed hard and then said in a half-whisper, "I told you no… It's wrong, Rin. I'm your little sister but you put your mouth on my pu… and y-you kissed it and licked inside me…. It's so wrong! All of it. It doesn't matter if we had sex many times before. You're my brother and I told you I didn't want it. I told you not to put it in. You… you were going to impregnate me... I don't… I don't want it… Not you. Not my own brother… I don't want you."

"I would never…!" Rin's voice broke and he stared pleadingly at her, begging Gou for forgiveness. "I would never rape you, Gou! Not my little sister… I would never rape my little sister…"

In response, Gou only slid an arm across her bare breasts, hiding herself even more from him. The action did not go unnoticed by her brother.

"Oh, fuck!" He ran a shaking hand down his face in distress, horror and disgust shining in his eyes. "What have I done…"

Gou mustered as much hate and revulsion into her accusing glare.

"I love you, Gou!" Rin's lip trembled and he brushed a hand back through his maroon hair as if to keep himself together. "I'm sorry, I know it's wrong and—and disgusting, and I wish I could stop… I wish I could fucking stop these feelings I have for you, but I love you anyway! I'm sorry! Please, I'll do anything. Just tell me—"

"I don't love you." Gou echoed him. "I never loved you and I never want to bear your babies. It's disgusting! All of this is disgusting and so are you!"

He flinched as if she'd just slapped him again. "I… wh-what..?"

"I said… you're disgusting!" She grit her teeth. "I hate it! I hate you!"

Onii-chan, I love you too much to chain you down.

She saw the way Rin's eyes began to glisten with pain. Swallowing hard, her brother then nodded in defeat. Before any of his tears could fall, Rin was already moving away from her. She watched him zip his jeans back up, fingers fumbling with the button. Grabbing his shirt off the floor, her brother moved slowly and mechanically as if he had no energy left. The click of his belt buckle had Gou looking away and towards the closed door.

From the corner of her eye, she saw Rin finish fixing himself and then turn to stare at her. She ignored him, keeping her face as blank as possible.

Rin shuffled over to her and Gou forced her sight to remain on the door when she sensed him raising a hand to her face again but pause just an inch away as if to give time for Gou to reject him again. She kept still and then felt the back of his hand caress down her cheek, gently, full of love and tenderness and blatant passion. It took all of her willpower to not cave in and nuzzle into his touch.

"I'm so sorry, Gou." His touch was warm and featherlight. "I'm sorry for everything."

"You should hurry and leave." Gou made sure her tone was hard, almost harsh. "Or you'll be late for your flight."

The hand against her cheek froze and then drew away, leaving Gou to yearn for his warmth.

"... Yeah." Rin's voice cut through the silence like a blade, steeled and cold. He turned away and picked up his fallen keys. "From now on, I am no longer your brother."

The breath caught in her throat and Gou flicked her wide eyes to the man who had once been the love of her life in every way possible. As Rin opened the door, she reached a hand out towards him, ready to cry out his name and beg him to come back to her.

"This is goodbye, Gou…"

And then her brother was gone, the door closing shut behind him with a soft click. Gou could have sworn another piece of her heart broke at such a small sound as her arm dropped back to her side. Her hand still trembled with the urge to grab her brother back into her embrace.

A few moments later, Sousuke walked in with his left cheek swollen slightly and mottled red. He took in her nude state for a second, checking for any bruises or evidence of hits. His eyes lingered on Gou's left breast and she glanced down at the teeth marks where Rin had bit her. She raised a hand to cover it as Sousuke stepped towards her, slowly and cautiously so as to not frighten her.

The bed creaked under his weight and Gou looked at him, studying the weariness lining his face. "You heard?"

Hesitantly, Sousuke nodded. "Everything… The guys next door were curious about the, uh, scream… but they soon figured that a girl was… with Rin. I explained to them it was a lover's quarrel. Don't worry, they don't know it was you, although I'm pretty sure the neighbors next door are, uh, taking care of their own needs now."

Gou ducked her head out of shame. Sousuke had been standing outside this whole time, listening to Rin eat her out and Gou practically screaming her brother's name in orgasm. Sousuke knowing Rin and Gou had forbidden sex was one thing. Sousuke hearing the siblings actually do it was different and on a whole new level. Yet, she could not find the energy to feel embarrassment.

She wondered how disgusting he thought Gou was. How sick in the mind she had to be.

"Are you okay?" Sousuke asked instead. He grabbed the blanket and wrapped it around her shoulders, tugging it close to hide her nudity.

"I got your sheets dirty…" Gou said before realizing that perhaps that wasn't the most appropriate thing to say given what had just happened.

"I have to do laundry this weekend anyway." Sousuke smiled wryly although he remained sitting at the very edge of the bed.

"I'm sorry… I'm sorry you had to go through all of that, Sousuke-kun." Gou wrung her hands together, struggling to keep the nerves from breaking her down. "It's all my fault. You had nothing to do with this and I dragged you in."

"No, Gou." Sousuke pulled her in close to his warm body, arm secure around her shoulders. "It was my decision. My choice. I knew what I was getting into the moment I volunteered to come in with you for your prenatal appointment. I was the one who confronted you about your relationship with Rin and your pregnancy. It was my choice to become involved…. I could hear you when your brother was… when Rin was doing that to you… I could hear you and I was ready the whole time to barge in and take you away. But you never once called for help. You never called for me... Why?"

"... I wanted it." Gou looked up at her friend. That's why she had never called for Sousuke to come in. "I wanted it… I didn't want him to stop. I wanted him to keep going, b-but I had to make Onii-chan think he was raping me. I had to make him stop. And I knew that once Onii-chan thought he was raping me, he would stop. I knew he would stop and he did! … Because Onii-chan would never rape me… Because he loves me."

"But he almost did rape you!' Sousuke argued. "I could hear you begging him to stop and he… That wasn't our Rin."

"You're wrong, Sousuke-kun," Gou said. "That was our Rin. Because if he wasn't, then I wouldn't have been able to stop him…. If he wasn't our Rin, then nothing I could do would have stopped him from raping me."

Sousuke's jaw tightened at that, but he knew it was the truth. "Just saying… if Rin had really raped you, would it have changed your feelings towards him?"

"I've already told you, Sousuke-kun," she smiled at him. "It's impossible for Onii-chan to rape me."

"You want him that badly, huh..." Defeat resounded clear in his voice.

Teal eyes met garnet, drinking one another in and feeling together.

"I love him, Sousuke-kun," Gou broke down, grabbing Sousuke so that she could bury her face to his solid chest and weep. The tears came out fat and hot, racing down her cheeks to stain Sousuke's shirt. She spoke through trembling lips, "I love him and that's why I had to let him go! I had to let him go… I couldn't—I couldn't bear to be his downfall! And I knew.. I knew Onii-chan would've sacrificed his future for me… F-For our baby! He wouldn't have let me go s-so I had to be the one to do it! And he left! He left me, Sousuke-kun!"

She had told her brother to leave. To get out and go on without her. However, deep down, Gou knew the truth; it was she who had been the one to leave. She had left Rin.

"And if he had known about the baby…" Gou cried harder.

"I know." Sousuke held her close to him. "I know…"

And as it rained outside, Gou continued to cry over the loss of her love and the sacrifices that had come with it.


A/N: The 3rd and final act of this story starts in the next chapter! The next few chapters will vary in length, so please don't be surprised if some are extremely short :)

Also, despite the current state of the world, I hope you all have happy holidays!