The news was passed on to everyone else, that she had reverted back to the state she was in the first time. Again women could only go into her room. Jellal, Gray, Mystogan they all tried to get in to see her. Wendy had to explain to them that it was no use for the time being. Plus they had to let her recover. Lucy took upon herself to offer the men her support and be the go between Amber and them. Erza wanted to help as well, but work was keeping her tie down. Until Amber was ready to speak to them herself. When it was visiting hours Gray would bring in Alex for her to breast feed him and cuddle with him till the time for him to go home. A nurse would bring him in if Lucy couldn't do it.

They were glad that she was recovering and healing well. It was her metal state that was concerning them. Jellal had ask Lucy to tell her that they would call Doctor Smith to come and see her. The answer was still no, Amber didn't want it. It drove Jellal mad that she refused physiological help. Smith did wonders in helping her before, and knowing the same thing can happen again.

It was the end of the second week of being in the hospital and looking out the hospital window from her bed and seeing scarecrows playing on the roof. They were feasting on a drop mince that one of them had picked up. Alex was almost done feeding and she would burp him. The interaction with him was still the same. Regardless of what was done to her, she still loves her son. The bond they have will never be lost.

Seeing her son and not having any contact with her brothers or Gray, she knows how much she is hurting them by doing this. The years she has worked on allowing men to get close to her, has been wipe clean. "If only I can claim it back." Thinking alone in the room with only Alex in her arms. Her future depended on her getting back on her feet. Yeah, she has Laxus to cover for her while she is on maternity leave. When the year is up, she will return, if so desire too.

Being here in this city had to many memories she wish could all disappeared. When Dan was in prison she stayed. Believing she would never see him again. How wrong she was, he was lurking behind her. Waiting to take his chance. Succeed he did with his pain, but Gray stop him from escaping.

Hearing the story from Lucy of what Jellal wanted to tell her. On some level she understands why he did it. To that fact, it still hurts she wasn't told. Then when it came to Gray, she gets why he was with her at the house. For her to accept their apology, she wasn't sure she could do it. Months they knew he was out, she was left not knowing. The whispering that went behind her back. When ask about something, they made something up. Maybe part of her didn't really want to know. Put blinds in front of her eyes to see what was really going on.

The incidents she didn't piece together at all, thought it was obsessive fan. That they were mixing reality with who Gray portray in there heads. "How naive was I. I was put in harms way on more then one occasion and did not see it." Gently putting Alex's head on her shoulder and rubbing his back. The wheels where turning in her head. Magnolia wasn't a place she could recover, not like before. Had to find a place of sanctuary and solitude. She will be the one to deem herself ready to come back. Heal from Dan, but also from her parents. From the time she was small they mistreated her along side her brothers. There was limit to how much she could take.

A knock at the door alerted her, that her visit with Alex was up. Lucy takes a peek inside first before opening the door all the way. Knowing how precious their time together is special. Amber waves her in and Lucy closes the door. Not wanting a big bang to upset the baby. "I can come back later?"

"No it's ok, you said that Gray is off today?"

"That is right, he is off. Waiting in the visitor lounge."

"Ohhh he came here?"

"Instead of me going to your place or him to pick up Alex. Gray has been here when you wanted to see him."

"Wait, what of work? Laxus told me there were a few things line up for him."

"Had to cancel them."

"Because of me and Alex."

"Don't look so down Amber."

"Lucy, I disrupted his life and that shouldn't have happen. I should be home with Alex, not here."

"You will be in a few days. I doubt Gray minds at all. He wants you out of here just as much as your brothers do."

"I want it to hurry it up. I hate being here this time. To much has happen."

"Don't rush it, do not allow set backs."

"Ha, should of seen me last night with the night nurse. They thought because I was sleeping it wouldn't have matter if "he" came in here. I threw my water jug at him and told him to leave."

"Amber you didn't it."

"You do not know what it is like Lucy. I keep thinking back to Dan. The savage hits he would lay on me. It was more harsher this time. I saw his hatred in his eyes, I knew he wanted to kill me."

"Calm down and relax. Do not make that little guy upset." Lucy was unsure of what to do. Her friend was in such a mess that whatever she said to her will probably not help. "I can go get Gray for you?" The one other person that has been the sole purpose in her life is him. If she allow him to come in, he would settle her down.

"No no...do not call him or my brothers. This isn't something they can fix Lucy." Tears where streaming down her face. The pain is so raw, that it could possibly take a lifetime to heal. If she were to get better, who's to say she would get close to her brothers, Gray or anyone else ever again.

"You are hurting inside Amber, let it out. Seek help from that doctor your brothers has mention. It's little step to recovering who you are."

"I can't got to Smith. The first time, she help me a great deal. I need to do something different. I realize as I am in this bed, I can't be here anymore."

"Yeah, in a few days you will be out of this room and back home."

"Not there either Lucy." The way she said that gave Lucy a uncertain feeling. If not home or her brothers, Gray's or even Lyon's. To return home would be to much for her, she could relieve those memories of being dragged out of her house. What place does she have in mind? The best way to know what she is thinking is to ask.

"What are you talking about?"

"I can't go back home or be in Magnolia. This is my home from birth, there is to much baggage Lucy. It hurts right here." Clinching at her nightgown at her chest, while holding Alex with her other arm. "I have a crack in my heart, that will never be filled."

"Do not say that. There are people out there that care for you, as I do. You are my friend and I love you, do not bring yourself down."

"The years I have dealt from the mental abuse from my parents trickled down to when I was a teen. I didn't see that in Dan, not until it was to late. I have been on a roller coaster of abuse. I can't get away from it. There is no tracks leading to the exit."

"Amber..."

"That is why, I am leaving."

"What? Leaving where?"

"Do not know. I have given this a lot of thought. It's best to get out of this city, away from everything that I have hold dear."

"You do not mean?"

"Yes, I do. Let them be free from me."

"I'll go tell Jellal and Gray right away." Lucy heads for the door. There was no way Amber should leave her home, friends, family. The support is all here for her. If she goes, no one will be her shelter.

"Don't you dare!"

"Amber they have to know."

Shaking her head and giving a kiss to Alex's head. "They don't have to know yet or ever. If you went to them now. I wouldn't want to see their faces. I have to do this Lucy. Not just for my sake, but for his." Holding Alex little more tightly in her arms and giving Lucy a pleading look. In all the times Lucy has spill news, this is most dire one. "I beg you to keep this to yourself."

"But Amber!"

"Lucy please. For once in our friendship keep your mouth closed. If you can't do that for me, I can't trust you."

"This is ridiculous. You have resources here, support. Can't let them be in the dark."

"How they keep me in the dark. Treated me with kids gloves."

"You were pregnant."

"I am human. I know what I can handle and can't. To go behind my back and try to protect me which didn't work. I ended up here, and almost died. I have him, that I need to be a mother for. I don't see my life getting better if I remain."

"I don't think is right."

"Then I can't trust you. Leave Lucy."

"Wait Amber."

"I'll get the nurse to bring Alex to Gray."

"Hold on for a moment."

"Lucy, my mind is set."

"Tell me where you will go?"

"No, you will tell them. I am not going to be stone walled."

"Fine! Let me take Alex back."

Giving her son one last kiss on his cheek before handing him over to Lucy's arms and watching the both of them walk out. This was a right decision to finally put her past behind her. Yes, she will be away from her love ones. Will miss her brothers, friends...Gray. He has stir things inside her that have been lost for so long. Putting those feelings back in her heart and to lock them away. Hoping by doing this, they will forgive her for running away.

Lucy walked into the visitor area and saw Gray by the window. Looking so tired and worn. Having Amber in the hospital and worrying over her, making him loose sleep. Not able to get close to her, hold her, hear her say his name. It was as if he was going through a horrible break up. Alex's car seat was on the floor by were he was and bend down a little to pick it up. "Visit is over."

"So soon?"

"Been more then hour Gray."

"Hadn't notice. How is she?"

"In good spirits." Lucy wanted so badly to tell Gray what she knows. That way he would go running down to her room to stop this. Keep her here, where she belongs. Then again she didn't want to loose her friendship with Amber. The times she blurted out something that was suppose to be kept quiet. Right now she felt like a rock, between two hard places. "Amber is looking forward in leaving here."

"Same with me. Can't wait for her to be home."

"Gray..."

"What is it Lucy?"

"Nothing, it was something totally random."

"Alright. Thanks again for helping."

"No trouble, really." Gave him a fake smile as Gray buckles Alex in his car seat. The little guy didn't like to be adjusted when being placed in there. Gray picked up the car seat and was ready to head back home. Ur had converted one of his bedrooms into a nursery for Alex. They could have stayed at Amber's like they have been, but Gray wanted him to get use to living at his house.

The last days of her being in the hospital Amber used her laptop that was brought from home. Wrote a list to Lucy to pick up somethings for her. Started searching the net for places that would be a good start for her. I clean start, with Alex. Leaving will be hard, but staying would be harder. There was one place that stood out. Didn't really think about until now. Rouge had talked about his home town a few times. It wasn't as big as Magnolia. It had mountains and farm land. The winters were crisp, and the summers were long. When he talked about Oak town it brought a smile to his face. Told her that there is a old castle that is still there but vacant. This could be were she goes. Maybe he can help her.

At night before she fell asleep, she would writes down in her journal. The one thing that she didn't really give up from her session with Dr. Smith. There were times she put it down and didn't need to write into it. When she did, a pen was right next to it in her nightstand table. It was a book to express her feelings, retelling of nightmares, and her pregnancy with Alex. Mix of everything in the last 10 months.

When she was finally release from the hospital Lucy drove her home. Alex was in the back seat. Amber looked along the streets, thinking back to all those days of driving Gray to his locations. How she is going to miss doing that. Laxus will take good care of him and make him shine to bigger stardom.

The part that set her back a little was entering into her house. Flashes of Dan pulling off his cap, seeing the snare smile. Taking a deep breath in and stepping one foot forwards she goes inside. When she found this house, she fell in love with it. It was cute, cozy, suite her needs perfectly. That will not be so now. After lifting Alex out of his car seat and walking down to his room to be placed in his crib. Then reemerging to go into the living room. Everything in here will soon be packed up. Not letting a single sole know.

"Did you fine a place?"

"I did Lucy."

"Where are you going?"

"Not saying."

"Amber, come on."

"Sorry, I can't trust you."

"Your not going to tell me when you leave or say goodbye?"

"No, I am not."

"I can't believe this."

"Lucy if you where in my shoes, with a child, you probably do the same thing. I need to go."

"I would have told people though."

"That is who you are. I have to kept my personal life closer to me then anything."

"What about Gray?"

"When I feel that my life is sensible, I'll let him know. He will still be Alex father, only farther apart. Can plan to visit with him."

"What of you and him? Gray will not take this lightly."

"We never got to any point of a relationship he wanted."

"You too were getting closer. I can see it, like everybody else."

"Lucy let it go. He will do so much better with someone else."

"That person is you. When it comes to you Amber, you are his world. Do not break his heart, from the one true thing he can have."

"Enough of this now. You have work, now go."

Amber knew what Lucy was trying to say. There have been moments of them being so close together, that he made her heart skip a beat. The way he brushed her hair behind the ear. Passionate kisses, that he insulated to cause her to be weak in the knees. All this time she put him at arms reach. Even when her own feelings were growing so strong.

"Goodbye Lucy."

"I'll call you later, bye."

This is the last time Amber would be seeing her. In a short few hours, the moving company will coming to pack up her house. By midnight tonight she will be gone. A Realtor has already been called to place her house on the market. There will be no traces of where she will go. It will be up to her when she let them know. It could span a few weeks, to months or even a year or two.

Waving at Lucy as she drove down the street. This part wasn't going to be easy. Waiting to leave, to flee from this house. Just like the other two times, from the house her and Dan share to her apartment. It cause her mental state to go out of control. Hold it in she did, not showing it to others around her.

Walking around her house to start putting things into the boxes. Wendy told her not to lift anything heavy, but this will keep her mind in the present, not to have flashbacks. If they never get better, she will phone Dr. Smith herself. For all purposes wanted to deal with this on her own. Battle it she sees fit. Her phone did ring a few times and let the answering machine get it. Both brothers called, Ur, and Lyon too. Checking on her to see if she is alright and if she needed anything. The last call she got before the moving company came was from Gray.

"Hello Amber? Lucy said she got you home safely. I wanted to see how you are doing? I know you don't want to see me or talk. I would love to hear your voice. If it was for a second or two. You are dealing with a lot right not, but know I am here for you. I'll call tomorrow. Bye sweetie." Almost picking up the phone at the last minute and halting herself from doing so. It was best not to answer. She would have broken down in tears. Ask him to come, and to hold her. Knowing him, he would drop everything to make that true. Her hand was still on the phone and she looks at the black receiver.

"I wish you a goodnight Gray."

The movers were all men, they walked around her house. Staking up boxes in their strong arms and places them into the truck. Careful not to get close to them and watch were there hands were going. It was second nature for her once more. It was Gray that broke her out of her shell to be touch. Did say for her to trust him more, and that he wasn't like Dan at all. Gray was far superior then him anyways. They were like night and day.

The last three boxes were in the truck. Once it was closed, they would be on their way to her new house. It was going to be a long drive, and no time to rest for it. This was all plan, the day before she left the hosptial. "Miss Fernandes we are ready."

"Thanks Mr. Gilbert. You can leave, you have my number?"

"Yes Ma'am."

"I am going to take one last look around."

"Want us to stay?" The mover recognized her from the news. They had a huge report on Gray's manger. He could tell she wasn't completely recovered yet. Her face was still bruised and there was a cast on her wrist. Her back story wasn't pretty and it was a miracle she survived. The reporters couldn't even get close to her in the hospital. Laxus did a good job at keeping them out. They were even asking about pictures of Alex. Some outlets would have been sued if any of them were printed. Thanks to Lyon and his legal team.

"It's all right I will catch up with you soon. There is that gas stop that we said we will meet at."

Bowing his head and walking out the front door. Told his men they were heading out. "This is it. Didn't live here for long, but it was a good home while it lasted." Going into each room with Alex, making sure the windows and all the lights were out. "I wanted you to grow up here Alex. To run and play in the backyard with Lilly and Carla." The two cats where in there crates in her car already. Lilly was up front, while Carla was in the back. They were not to sure what was going on, but they could tell it was serious. They were happy once she came in and they did feel her love when she picked them up. Shocked to see her black and blue face. That day when that man came and got her. Had them running for underneath her bed. Where they stayed until Gray came and got them out.

The rooms were checked off and the living room windows were locked. "That's the last of them." Standing in the middle of the living room and looking around her. Remembering the places that Gray had embrace her, kissed her. Saying sweet words that made her heart go all a flutter. Taking the last look and placing a book on a counter, it was easy enough to be spotted with nothing else there. It was the journal she was writing in. It still had many pages to be filled in. The last page she used, was from her heart. A letter to the one that will read it. "I hope you will understand."

Standing back up and with Alex she heads out the front door. Locking it behind her and putting the key underneath the mat. Jellal, Gray and Lyon had their own keys for her place. Who ever comes by first will see her gone. "All right lets go, little one."

Getting behind the wheel of her car and starting it up. There will be no looking back, her eyes were formerly facing forward. Her car was parked on the street. Putting it into gear and slowing moving onto the road. "Good bye Magnolia."

It wasn't something he was suppose to hear first thing in the morning or having a towel around his waist as the door bell didn't stop ringing. Having being told to get dressed quickly and pushed out the door. Speeding down the road to her house. Bewilder by it all and didn't make sense. Being in her house, seeing it empty. Left a knot in his throat.

"Where is she? Where is my son?"

"I am calling Gildarts."

"Jellal, lets try calling her again."

"Mystogan her phone is not serviced."

"Shit! What is going through her mind?"

Jellal went to check on his sister first thing this morning. It was two days ago that she sent home from the hospital. They called her place, but only got the answer machine. The phone was on the floor by the wall still plugged in. Why leave her phone here still working and leave? Jellal didn't want to talk to a answering machine no more or have a third person to rely messages too. Thought that communication between all them had to resume with facing each other.

"When did she do this?" There was nothing on her white walls, everything from her cupboards where gone. Even running down to her and Alex room finding nothing. Gray hits the door frame at not seeing the crib. "Why?" Walking back down the hallway as Jellal was yelling at Gildarts to come to the house quickly.

"Gildarts drop everything come here!"

"Jellal, I am tie up at work. I can't leave."

"She is gone Gildarts, Amber isn't here."

"I am sorry Jellal, but I am not the only one that can help you. You are the one that brought down Mest."

"He was on his way to the airport to go back home."

"Maybe by luck his flight is delayed."

"Fuck, I'll call him." With out saying goodbye he hangs up on Gildarts and quickly dials Mest number. Prays to a higher being that he will be able to get through and this man has not left for home yet. He stayed extra to make sure that the I's were dotted and the T's were crossed to make sure that Dan will never see the light of day again. The trail was set in about a months time. Mest needed to go home for a bit to arrange coverage for his job. The other ex cons where being monitor by other parole officer. When everything was taken care of in Cedar he will come back to witness Dan stand trail once more. For his crimes against Amber and Gray, and to seek justice for Rachel.

Reaching into his jacket pocket to answer his phone. Didn't get to say hello before the voice on the other end started blaring into his ear. "Wow, I don't think I have any hearing left Jellal. What gives?"

"Mest you got come back right now."

"I am in the process of getting on board. My flight has finally been called."

"Skip it."

"I can't, I have duties at home that need taken care of. I'll be back in the couple weeks."

"This can't wait for weeks. We need you now, it's important."

"Ok ok. I can tell by your voice this is serious what is up?"

"It's Amber."

"What about her?"

"She is missing. I came to her house this morning and there is no sign of her anywhere."

"Maybe she just went to the store. I know you guys are concern over her since she hasn't spoken to you. I doubt she will ignore you forever."

"You don't understand Mest. Amber took everything, her house is empty."

"What?"

"We are all here standing in her living room."

"Phone Gildarts."

"I did, he said to give you a call. He is busy, unable to help."

Moving along the lines as the people in front of him where handing over there tickets to airport personal. He had about four other people before him until he decides on what to do. It crushed the brothers and Gray to know she wouldn't speak to know one. That she was scared to get close to a other man. He, himself couldn't blame her. Saw the way she was after Dan did the number on her. Wish they got to her sooner, if only he didn't aim his gun at Dan's gun but shot him square in the head.

"Come on Mest, you are the first and last person I know I can trust with this. I don't want to call someone I don't know and explain to them our back ground. You are well aware of the situation."

"Do you have any leads."

"None."

The women was reaching for his ticket, when he pulled back his hand and walked out of line. Shaking his head and heading for the exit. "Just so you know I'll be charging you a arm and leg for this."

"I'll double your salary Mest."

"Triple. I am on my way."

Turning off his cell and looking at his brother and Gray. "He is coming." The same look on their faces was the same one he was showing. A look of worry, and concern. They never thought she would up and move. This was not in her character at all. The recent events had trigger this spontaneous move.

"We have to brain storm Jellal."

"Big time Mystogan. We need to start calling everyone she knows."

Given the importance of the time and how anxious Jellal was over the phone. Mest had to speed over to Amber's place. They had to figure out a time frame, ask people questions. Get inside her head to possible places where she can be. Mest meet her once a few months ago and they had to lie to her about who he was. It didn't set right with him that they did that, but it was to keep her safe. Now after Dan, Jellal told him how wrong he was for not saying anything to his sister. They should have handle this better. Sat her down properly and told her in a gentle way of his resurface. In the big brothers mind thought this was right option.

Parking on the street and getting out of the car, it still took a half hour to get here from the airport. By the looks of things there were more vehicles here then Jellal's or Mystogan's. Walking up to the front door and didn't even get a chance to knock before it was open and he was usher inside. In the foray alone, there was the twins, Gray, Lyon, Natsu and Laxus. It look more like a bachelor party and he was the guest of honour.

"You already got your gang here, Jellal?"

"Minority of them with more on their way."

"Any clues?"

"No, like I said everything is gone."

"Alright, let me take a look around. You guys start thinking on where she might have gone too."

Each room he went into, didn't reveal anything that could help in his search. As he walked around, one thing came centre into his mind. "She might not want to be found?" Taking this on is going to require him to think outside of his normal means. He has been dealing with criminals not regular people off the street. Her past is of a victims and to get where she is coming from can be tricky.

"Your right Jellal, clean out. Even garage had nothing."

"Where could she have gone to with my son? And why? We are here."

"Gray I know you are probably feeling all sorts of emotions right now. Seeing your baby not here. Rest assure I'll do everything I can to find her."

"We have to, Mest. No question of that."

"Good, does anyone have suggestion of where she might be? Let's start with you two, since you are kin."

"I honestly don't know as her big brother. Amber took very little vacation, when she was working with Gray. The times she did go away was for his locations." Jellal would get postcards from her stays in rural sets and worked hard there as she did at home. There where a lot of places over the years.

"Just like your past movie?"

"Yeah, Amber would work in the back on set or in her hotel room. Never went anywhere else I know of."

"When you were acting there was no place you can remember?"

"No, Amber is good manger. Look after my needs compare to hers."

"Did you always travel together?"

"For the most part yes. We took the same flight, but I was in first class while she was in coach. When the movie was close to being done she would go back home first."

"What of the places you were in. Did she mention anything interesting like, it would nice to have a house here or come back to visit."

"None, plus back then I was playboy. Thinking more of sleeping with women and where to do it."

"Self centre are you?"

"Amber never saw me as selfish."

"Anyways, we have to think on when she moved. When did she get out of the hospital, Mystogan?"

"Two days ago. I left a message on her answer machine."

"Did she not want to pick it up?"

"Amber hasn't said anything to us and she left machine behind."

"Did anyone of you playback the messages?"

"I have not, Brother?"

"No, Gray?"

"Same as you, did not think of doing it. I guess we can do it now." Making his way over to where the answering machine was on the floor. The front door opens to Lucy coming in and Natsu closing it behind her. Gray called her to come and luckily for her she was done with her radio interview. Erza has her booked for something later in the afternoon. Knowing that she left was still a shock. Part of her wishes she convince her more to stay. Now the truth will come out to them that she knew.

"Hey guys, What is going on?"

"Gray is checking the answering machine for clues. We are going to listen to them."

"Nothing so far Natsu?"

"No Mest just got here."

Her and the rest of the men walked into the empty living room to see Gray press the play button. They all stand around hearing the first person speak. It was Ur first, follow by Jellal. All the messages where short, but stated the same thing. Making sure she was alright. Lucy hears Gray's messages. Saying he wants to hear her voice. It crushed her a little knowing that this could have been stopped if she told someone. The last voice had everyone stand still. It was the realtor who was going to put a for sale sign on her front lawn in a couple days and wanted to speak to her about something. Mest quickly wrote down her number on his pad. That will be the next person to be question.

"She already had someone for the house."

"Seams that way brother."

"Jellal, where she go?"

"I don't know Mystogan. If only she would have talked to us."

"I'll be calling this women here soon guys. Maybe she knows where she went too. From the time she left the hospital, until now. It's been more then 48 hours. Who was the last person to speak to her?"

Lucy steps away from Natsu and goes over to the kitchen counters. Really did not want to be put on the spot. When they find out, how mad they will be. Biting her nails as she heard her name being called. This was it, her day just became trashed.

"Lucy was the one that took her home that day. Right Lucy?"

"Good memory Natsu."

"How was her mental state?"

"She was still feeling the after effects Mest. Even when she came inside the house she was a little hesitate."

"Where you here long? What did she say to you?"

Not wanting to look at anyone in the eyes, especially Gray. Grinding her teeth as she turn her head away from them. Gray could tell that something was up. Amber and her where very close to one other. Most women would tell each other everything. Lucy didn't have the best track record of keeping things hushed. His guess, she knew what Amber was doing.

"Spill Lucy. What did she say to you."

"I promise her I wouldn't say anything to anyone."

"Lucy!"

"Her trust in me was on the line. I didn't want to lose our friendship."

"Lucy! Tell me!"

"She left."

"Where?"

Gray walks closer to her and with his body language he makes her look at him in the eyes. Usually he would have women drooling out of his hand. This time it was different, he wanted to know she where she was. "Lucy, in all my life, I have been going from one women to the other. Having nothing but sex, not a real relationship. With Amber, I feel something special between us. I know I can be a proper man. I can't let go of her, not just because she has my son. It's because I am in love with her."

"I knew it."

"I want a complete life. I want her in my arms. Tell me where she went."

"I don't know. Amber never told me. Told me that she needed to leave."

"Why?"

"To recover, she couldn't do it here."

"I am here, her family."

"That is what I told her. Didn't want to listen. She was set on moving. I did not know when or where. I wanted to tell you that day in the hospital. So you could have gone to her room."

"You knew then."

"I am sorry, Amber was going to shut me out."

"Lucy, should have. Deal with that afterwards."

"She my friend, and with how much she was hurting. I did not want to add on to that."

Mest comes over and puts his hand on her shoulder. Could see her trouble expression and how hard it was for her tell Gray. At lest someone knew of her plans. Now it was time to figure out where in the world she is. "Thanks Lucy. I'll find her."

"You will."

"I have my work cut out for me. It's a challenge that I am sure I will win." With a smile he walks back over to Jellal and Mystogan. Lucy takes a step and puts her arms around Gray and gives him a hug.

"Gray, she does care for you."

"Leaving is not a way to show it." Pushing on her shoulders and going around her to the counter. Putting his elbows on top and putting his face into his palms. Right now he could just scream. The one women that has made his heart flip is to far from his reach. Natsu wanted to encourage his friend of finding her. Laxus stop him from going forward. Shaking his head in a no.

"Give him some time."

"Laxus we have to do something."

"We will, he will."

As others were mulling over what they have heard. Gray thought back to that day when she secretly went to the clinic to get pregnant and went home. Finding her there upside down on her couch and seeing the pregnancy tests in the bag. How mad he was at her for going behind his back. This time it was bigger then this. That wasn't going to stop him from getting her back. Lowering his hands on the counter and ready to take a step back. There he notices the book on the counter. "Why is this here?" Picking it up he begins to look through the pages. it describes what she was feeling at certain moments. Talking about Dan and her past with him. Being in the hospital after being shot. Talk of her brothers, and Alex. As he skimmed each page and reading her emotions. Trying to understand where she was coming from. Never really let it sink in. How much her life was turn around by one man.

Then when he got to the last page, he slowed down his reading. It was a page directed to him. A letter she wrote in her own words to him. Grasping at the book and re reading the letter once more.

"Dearest Gray...

I hope you are the one to find this first before my brothers. I am sorry I am not there. Please don't blame Lucy for knowing that I am gone. I pleaded with her not to say anything. There have been times over the course of theses months she has blurted something out she shouldn't have. This time I needed her to be silent.

I have gone through so much and never really dealt with it. After falling down the steps the first time by Dan. I went through counselling with Dr. Smith. A great doctor she was and help to a degree. I should say, how much I really allow her to help me. Now I am back at square one. I can't be in Magnolia any longer. I hurt far to much and the memories of being there clouds my thoughts. I can't be who I am, if I stay.

Now I have Alex, I want to be the best mother. I feel if continue to be there, I will not change. I will be stuck in the past. No one will ever get close to me. So partly that is why I am gone. To rejuvenate myself. I always saw fear in other men, even in my brothers. The ugly face that hunted me and yet he was in jail. I step back when someone got close, I scream when I got touched. I put barriers in front of me, to feel protected.

There was one person that broke through my shell. My wall gotten a little lower and I finally feel something again. He may be a big time star to the whole world, but to me he is my star. A star that has shine away my darkness. Gotten close to my heart. That has unlocked the cage that it surrounds. I have fallen for that star, to a point where I know I am in love.

Gray, my star. The one person that has ever gotten close to me. I dream of a day, where I am with you. Right now, I am back in that darkness. I want to be release from this torment. I have a lot to sort out. I am so so so sorry I left the way I did. But know you are always in my heart.

Love,

Amber."

Slamming the book down on the counter, had everyone turning to see what was wrong. Picking it up and walking over to Mest. Putting the journal right into his chest. Standing close to his side and saying right next to his ear. "You fine her, and you tell me. I be dam if I am letting her slip through my fingers."