Chapter 12

Disclaimer: I don't own glee or the songs used in this chapter

When Kurt got home he went Straight to his room and cried because he didn't think it would be this hard.

He heard someone knocking at his door "come in." Just then he saw his foster mom Grace. "I'm sorry I didn't answer your call here's my phone." "Keep it I figured you wouldn't be able to talk but since we are here we got a question for you would you like us to adopt you so you don't get kicked out of the System when you turn eighteen you would never be kicked out." "What about Will and Emma they adopted me and Hannah too?" "Their Parental rights wore taken away because what Will did to you and Hannah I had to read your case I'm sorry." "It's ok." "I heard you crying why were you crying?" "I went to my old school to say good bye because I'm transferring to Dalton and I didn't know how hard it would be and I'm already a mess because I'm pregnant."

"I'm sorry to hear that Kurt it must be hard I know when I was your age and I was pregnant I was a crying mess but when I gave birth I couldn't believe that I was a mom to two beautiful children." "What happened to your babies? " "Well my son is married with two kids and a baby in heaven because his partner lost the baby and my daughter is a doctor at the hospital." "I had a friend lose a baby recently he's a police officer that was on call and he forgot he was pregnant." "You can't be talking about Cory right?" "Yes I am. Wait your Anthony's and Lila's mom?" "Yes I am I'm bisexual and I didn't meet Kelly until I was 29 and I instantly fell in love with her." "That's cute." "How long were you with the baby's other father?" "I wasn't with him I went after him because I got tired of him bullying me we were in the locker room and I thought he was going to hit me but then he kissed me we heard people coming but he wasn't done with me so we went into one of the shower and I tried to tell him that I had the love gene but he didn't listen and he raped me and since we were at school he didn't have a condom I got pregnant that was twice I was raped and then got pregnant." "When was the first time?" "I was thirteen it was a few months after I met Cory I didn't know I was pregnant because I was drugged and then he raped me because I was only thirteen and he was seventeen he was my old foster brother and I wonder if he hurt Carson the way he hurt me."

Just then they heard the door open and Alex call out "Momma I'm home did you go to the store like mom wanted you to." "Yes I did Alex the snacks are were they always are." "Ok where are you?" "Kurt's room because I was asking him about what me and mom talked to you and Brooke about." "Adopting him and Hannah." "Yeah" they heard Alex coming up the stairs and he was in his Dalton uniform but he undid the tie. "How did your last day go Kurt?"

That brought the tears back and he cried himself to sleep "I take it went bad. Should I go next door and get Brooke Hannah and Maya?" "That would be nice tell Blake and Addison grandma loves them." "I will." "Cory Anthony you here" "Alex guess what!" "What?" "I went potty on the potty and daddy and papa gave me a quarter! But daddy said that he lost the baby." "That's good Addison where's Brooke and Maya." "In the living room with um. What's her name?" "Hannah?" "Yeah that's it." "Brooke Maya Hannah time to go." "Aww we were getting ready to watch a movie with Blake can't we stay?" "No Brooke your grounded remember." "No I don't remember." "see you tomorrow Blake and Sam is bring Stacie for Cory's birthday." "Ok I'll go get maya and Hannah." "No you stay by the door I'll go get them girls time to go."

Just then Hannah rolled over and put her arms out "Carry me?" "Hannah I can't carry you. You need to be in your wheelchair and I think Maya is asleep too and she is younger than you," Hannah crossest her arms because she was always the youngest in the house.

Even though she was only three when they were in the orphanage because Kurt didn't want to be separated from her so she was in the big kids house instead of the kids under ten house and she liked it because she always got all the attention of the big kids. "Alex will you help me get in my chair then?" "Yeah I would do that."

He put Hannah in her chair then grabbed Maya and then met Brooke at the door but she was gone but he didn't trust Hannah to hold Maya for him so he took Hannah and Maya back to the house and then went to look for Brooke he found her upstairs in Blake's Room. "Didn't I tell you to stay where you were. Why didn't you listen to me?" "Your not my boss your only my big brother." "I asked momma if I could go get you guys because at the time she was talking to Kurt about adopting him and Hannah." "Why didn't she come after she got done talking with Kurt?" "Because he fell asleep and you know how she is. She doesn't like to leave when one of us are sleeping." "But isn't Kurt the same age as you?" "Yes but he gots a lot on his plate right now." "He isn't eating." "It's a figure of speech meaning he has a lot to deal with." "Why?" "He just dose for one he had to move and then switch schools and I don't know if he wants me to tell you but he has a secret." "What kind of secret?" "A special secret but you have to go home to find out."

When they got home Brooke ran into Kurt's room but couldn't find him anywhere just then his phone started to ring she looked at the caller ID and saw it said cookie. "What is that about? I like cookies maybe this person has cookies." Just then it went to voice mail

"hey Kurt I hope glee went better then school and I hope you are settling in and love your foster family but I love and miss you."

Just then she saw Kurt come back into his room "What are you doing in my room with my phone?" "Alex told me that you have a secret and I want to know. Who is Cookie?" Just then his phone started to ring again and he grabbed it from her

"Hello"

"Thank goodness you answered I have been trying to call you for the last five minutes"

"I was asleep then the baby made me good friends with the toilet I can't wait until the second trimester that way I can say good bye to this stupid morning sickness but for me it's anytime of the day"

"I'm sorry to hear Kurt"

"It's ok Blaine you would never believe this one of my foster sisters was in my room and she asked why your contact information is Cookie"

"Aww you have me as Cookie"

"Yeah you told me when I was thirteen and you were sixteen that was your favorite nickname that I called you"

"Why did you stop with the nicknames at least with me?"

"I don't know Blaine I'm sorry do you want me to call you Cookie agin."

"Yes. I have news"

"Good news or bad news?"

"Both."

"Good news first."

"It would Ruin the bad news."

"Ok then bad news first but tell me in person that way I can hold your hand."

"Speaking of I want to hold your hand what song are you going to sing."

"I'm not sure yet I want to do a duet with you."

"Um Christmas time is coming up how about baby it's cold outside white Christmas or let it snow"

"Baby it's cold outside because it's one of my favorite songs."

"Ok I'm on my way."

When Blaine got to the house, he could hear Hannah and Kurt trying to calm her down "Kurt it's Blaine let me in." "Ok I'm on my way."

Just then Kurt opened the door and stepped aside to let Blaine in. "What's wrong with her?" "I don't know we were watching paw patrol because that's her favorite and she just started crying." "Hannah what's wrong?" She just let out a big loud cry. "Hannah Bubby can't help you if you don't tell him what's wrong."

Just then they smelled something stinky it made Kurt throw up. "Hannah did you have an accident on purpose?" She shook her head. "Is your tummy hurting?"

She nodded. "Ok lets get you upstairs." "I want KK." "Let's get you showered and dressed because the smell made him throw up you don't want him to throw up more because the baby already dose that." She shook her head. "Ok lets get you showered and changed then we can go see Kurt."

Blaine and Hannah went up to the kid's bathroom and Blaine put Hannah on the toilet seat and "Where's your room Hannah?" "Next to Kurt's." "That's not helpful"

So he looked for his laptop phone and sowing machine when he found it he went into the room beside it and saw the dresser and opened it when he did, he grabbed Hannahs pjs and a goodnight just in case Hannah haves an accident again.

When he got back to the bathroom Hannah have already started to take off her clothes. "Blaine will you help me with my pants? I can't do it." "Yeah sure. Why didn't you tell Bubby that your tummy hurts?" "I don't know I orry." "It's ok just tell him your sorry to" "heyy Blaine?" "Yes Hannah?" "I know ou love Kurt would ou love the baby and me too?" "Of course Hannah you and the baby are Kurt's everything I can't not love him and not you two because you are a package deal I have to get three for one."

When they got done, they saw Kurt at his sowing machine working on the blanket for the baby he had chosen a pink and blue blanket and was Stitching music notes into it. "What do you think? I love it so far when I know the Gender of the baby, I'm going to stitch his or her name onto it I just hope nobody touches it because sometimes I forget to shut my door but I think the baby will like it. What about you guys?" "This blanket will be start of the baby's first taste of music."

Kurt then gave Blaine a death stare "Ok one of the ways" "sometime during pregnancy the baby will be able to hear my voice and hear me sing." "Does that mean the baby will hear me too?" "The baby will hear me more but yes when he or she is bigger. Aren't you baby? Yes, you are. Hey Blaine that reminds me. How the hell am I supposed to sing if I can't go three minutes without throwing up?" "Bubby aid a bad word and I orry I made ou throw up." "It's ok Hannah if I didn't, I don't think I would get into the mood to sow and get farther than I did last night." "Kurt Elijah Hummel did you not sleep last night?" "No because the baby wouldn't let me get comfortable."

He said pointing to his stomach. "I love him or her but I swear they don't love me. if he or she did he or she let me sleep. Witch reminds me what's the bad news?" Blaine sat down beside Kurt and put Hannah on his lap. "Ok promise me you would let me talk before you go Ballistic?" "I promise." "Ok I have a friend who dad works for the Lima police and he said that his parents were talking about some teacher that escaped and it was Will Kurt." "WHAT IF HE TRYS TO COME AFTER ME AND HANNAH AGAIN?!"

"After I overheard the conversation, I got a text from Cory saying that he got word from the Lima police station that Will escaped he ordered a restraining order against him if he try's and come after you agin he will be charged with more than one Child melestion." "At least we're safe but I'm still scared." "Don't be because you have me and Hannah and your foster family." "Blaine will you sing me a song?" "Yeah."

Life's too short to even care at all oh,

I'm losing my mind losing my mind losing control

These fishes in the sea they're staring at me oh, oh

A wet world aches for a beat of a drum

Oh, oh

If I could find a way to see this straight

I'd run away

To some fortune that I should have found by now

I'm waiting for this cough syrup to come down, come down

Life's too short to even care at all oh,

I'm coming up now coming up now out of the blue oh,

These zombies in the park they're looking for my heart

Oh , oh

A dark world aches for a splash of the sun oh, oh

If I could find a way to see this straight

I'd run away

To some fortune that I should have found by now

And so I run now to the things they said could restore me

Restore life the way it should be

I'm waiting for this cough syrup to come down

Life's too short to even care at all oh

I'm losing my mind losing my mind losing control oh,

If I could find a way to see this straight

I'd run away

To some fortune that I should have found by now

So I run now to the things they said could restore me

Restore life the way it should be

I'm waiting for this cough syrup to come down

One more spoon of cough syrup now, oh

One more spoon of cough syrup now, oh

"Thank you Blaine that was perfect." Kurt Blaine and Hannah all fell asleep. When Grace came in to see if they wanted dinner she saw that they were all asleep and didn't want to disturbed them she and Kelly would talk about it and see if it was appropriate because Kurt and Blaine are dating but Kurt is already pregnant and he wouldn't do anything with Hannah right there. But Kelly always see the bad in theses situations.

The next day it was time for Cory's party

"I don't know if I should take her Blaine she never been good with crowds and all." "Do you think Grace and Kelly will let you stay home?" "Blaine there going right next door I think we will be fine I'll ask though."

He walked down stairs and saw that both Kelly and Grace are right by the door. "Kelly Grace can I ask you something?" "Sure Kurt what is it." "Hannah never been really good with crowds because of her Autism and for her safety and the safety of other can we stay home? I try to take her crowed places before but she always finds away to be by herself or with one or two people but that's about it. Her old teacher could never get her to play with the other kids in the class. If she did the teacher and or Hannah would end up with starch and bite marks?"

"I don't know Kurt. How do I know it's not you just wanting to stay here and using Hannah as excuse?" "I would never do anything like that I know Hannah's disability is more important than that because I have been dealing with her for six years and I always knew there was something different about her." "Just do what your told." "Kelly this is going to be bad I know it." "Just grab Hannah and come on"

Back upstairs Blaine saw Kurt coming and he doesn't look happy. "What's wrong?" "She wouldn't listen to me I need you to come with me just in case she starts to kick I don't want her to kick my stomach." "Of course I will." "I just hope she doesn't get over stimulated fast because it would be a disaster and she think I'm using Hannah to stay home but she is wrong I would love to hangout with Cory but I know a party would be a bad idea."

Blaine grabbed Hannah while Kurt pack a bag with Hannah's favorite things like her blanket and baby dolls and some of her sensory toys "I think Hannah will be fine but if not screw what the doctor said I'll take care of you and we can leave this house."

When they arrived at the party everybody turned towards the door and when Hannah saw everybody looking at her she started to panic "Hannah it's alright Bubby is here he won't let anything hurt you."

She relaxed after that when Blaine put her down in the living room with the other kids she started to cry. "KK Blaine don't leave me. KK KK Kurt Blaine no." "Ok Hannah would you like to join us big kids and grown ups?" "Yeah Blaine upp."

When Hannah and Blaine came into the kitchen that was a mistake because it was loud and Hannah let out a big scream and started to cry. "Blaine take her into Blake or Addison room and get her calm down here her backpack it has her baby dolls blanket and her chewy." "Will you come with us just in case something happened?" "Yeah just make sure she doesn't kick me."

When they got into the room and sat down on the bed she started to calm down instantly and was just hiccuping "chewy" Kurt took the backpack off his shoulders and opened the front pocket and got the chewy out for his sister.

Just then they heard a knock on the door. "Come in." Just then Cory and Anthony came in "sorry we took this room but we need to get her calmed down if not it could have gone down from there." "It's ok Kurt we just wanted to make sure you guys were ok." "We are better I'm just glad she didn't hit anybody because she has done that before." "What was that about?" "Too much stimulation and she couldn't handle it I was surprised when we went to Chuck E. Cheese she did ok but then it was late at night and not really that many people and it wasn't as loud." "

Does she have autism?" "Yes she does and I tried to tell that to Kelly but she wouldn't listen I like living with Alex and Grace not really Kelly she thought I was making a excuse to not come to the party but that was wrong I wanted to hangout with you but I knew how Hannah got in situations like this. When she was four me and Blaine wanted to have a birthday party for her so we invited some of her classmates from daycare and their parents when everyone got there she couldn't handle it so she had a huge meltdown she was kicking screaming and hitting anything and everything in her path I ended up having to cancel the party and take her home because she was acting up so bad but I know now that she couldn't help it."

Downstairs

"What the hell was that about? I never in my 46 years seen something like that. And where did they go?" "Probably upstairs or in the living room with the other kids."

Grace and Kelly went into the living room and saw that only Cory's two and Brooke Maya and Stacie and Sam were in the living room watching Moana. "Are you kids in joying the movie?" "It's the best nana me Addie papa and dad watch it all the time." "Moana is my favorite Disney princess I hope I can be come a princess."

Back upstairs

"If you don't like living with her why don't you leave?" "I can't because I'm still seventeen." "How about a family member because you are talking to one?" "Do you have enough for the three of us?" "Well we have here the nursery and Hannah and Addison can share a room." "You wouldn't mind?" "Not at all you can go pack your stuff I'll DistractKelly and Grace." "Blaine I need your help to grab my sowing machine and mine and Hannahs clothes and my Barbies because some of them where my moms." "Ok."

They both looked back and saw that Hannah was asleep so they all left very quietly when Kurt and Blaine returned Alex saw Kurt and Hannahs stuff and he asked. "What are you doing with this stuff don't you like living with me and what happened earlier?" "it's not you or Grace it's more Kelly she didn't believe me when I said taking Hannah here is going to be a bad idea." "Kurt Kurt Bubby where are yyou Kurt?" "I got to go Alex but I'll see you in school and why don't you addition for the warblers that way if we don't have any classes together we can still see each other." "I want to. but what if I'm not good enough?" "Sing me something." "what?" "What's the first song that pops in your head?" "

Rockstar"

There's a girl in the backyard bangin' on her drum

Sittin' in a junk pile laughing at the sun

Singin' "ah ha ha, I just wanna be a rockstar"

There's a boy in the backseat singin' to the song

Playin' on the radio, knowing he's the one

Singin' "ah ha ha, I just wanna be a rockstar"

Yeah, yeah

Singin' "ah ha ha, I was born to be a rockstar!"

There's a girl in the tree top looking at the stars

Waiting for a touchdown comin' in from Mars

Thinkin' "is there anybody out there?" : Oooh)

There's a boy thinking of her playin' his guitar

Searching for the answer buried in his heart

Thinkin' "ah, ha ha, is there anybody out there?"

Ooh yeah!

Singin' "ah, ha ha, is there anybody out there"

If there's a meaning can you show me a sign

The more I look it just gets harder to find

The world is spinnin' and I wanna know why

And we're all getting older wishin' we were young

Hangin' on the memory of what we would become

Singin' "ah ha ha, I was born to be a rockstar" (I was born to be a rockstar)

Singin' "ah ha ha, I just wanna be a rockstar" (I just wanna be a rockstar)

Singin' "ah ha ha, (I was born to be a rockstar!")

If there's a meaning can you show me a sign

The more I look it just gets harder to find

The world is spinnin' and I wanna know why

And maybe we will never figure it out

I got a feelin' that's what life's all about

I'm learning anything is possible now

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

Take a ticket and get off the line

Take a ticket and get off the line

Take a ticket and get off the line

Take a ticket and get off the line

So take a ticket and get off the line

"ah ha ha, I just wanna be a rockstar")

Take a ticket and get off the line

So take a ticket and get off the line

ah ha ha, I just wanna be a rockstar")

So take a ticket and get off the line (I just wanna be a rockstar! Yeah!)

I was born to be a rockstar! ( Yeah! Woah!)

I was born to be a rockstar!

"You would be great I would love to audition with you if your scared." "You would?" "Yes." "Then ok. Hey Kurt was there anybody that you liked at your old school?" "No I always had a crush on Blaine even though he's three years older than me. Is there anybody you like you can tell me I won't judge." "Sebastian."

he said quietly "What was that I couldn't hear you?" Kurt joked even though he knew Alex said Sebastian "Sebastian" he said more conefently. "Alex and Sebastian I like it just give me a minute"

Hey Seb it's Kurt do you like anybody at school besides me

Um I'm not sure I think I like Alex

That's good

Why is it good Kurt

Because Alex likes you too little did he know Alex was reading the text over his shoulder

Really I think I'm going to faint because I really really like him and I don't know how to tell him

Leave that to me and you'll be happy

Why besides helping me tell Alex I love him

Because Alex is joining the warblers

I always try to get him to join but he never does

I got to get back to my sister

Ok love you Kurtī¸

Love you too Sebastianī¸

He then turned and bump into Alex. "Alex were you reading my texts over my shoulder?" "I'm sorry Kurt but I wanted to know if Sebastian likes me to." "And as you saw yes but next time don't read over my shoulder." He then went upstairs and saw Cory cuddling Hannah with her blanket over top of them both Hannah was asleep again and Cory was lost in the moment that he didn't even hear Kurt inter only his voice.

"She must really like you to let you cuddle her like that. Only me and Blaine she would let hold her like that even when she was a baby." "I'm just good with kids before my adopted parents died I wanted to be a teacher I only joined the police station to make my parents proud of me." "Wouldn't they be proud of you no matter what?" "No they hated the fact that I'm gay and that me and Anthony were engaged at the time." "Why don't you become a teacher now since they are dead?"

"I might I'll talk to Anthony about it." "I'm just glad I don't have to deal with Kelly anymore and I trust you more than Alex's moms I trust them but then again I don't because Kelly thought I would use Hannahs disability to stay home like I said I wanted to come so Idk about how they will react when Hannah has a meltdown." "Did you make her blanket it's really good?" "Thank you and yes I did I'm making one for my baby it's has music notes on it and when I know the gender I'm going to sow his or her name on it." "What are you going to name the baby?" "Devin Jordan and Honey rose." "Oh Kurt the Honey rose is so pretty." "I'm naming the baby Honey after our mom and I always loved the name Rose for a girl and I'm naming the baby Devin after Blaine and Jordan after Sebastian."

Authors note the songs used in this chapter are cough syrup and rock star