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"No if we sell the car we can use that money for it" Jack said into the phone as Hawk walked past with a scowl and he froze, turning to gape as Jack who did not notice as he added "Yeah, someone has to want a black one."
His car?
Ianto entered the room to find Hawk standing in the middle of the room with his shoulders slumped, staring at the new glass door with tears rolling down his cheeks, totally bereft. Ianto sighed and settled in his chair "Hawk. Come here."
The child walked over and Ianto lifted him into his lap, holding him and rubbing his back as the child gratefully accepted the comfort. After a while Ianto said "and what did we learn today?"
"Glass doors cost lots" a little voice said morosely.
"Yes. Luckily the insurance will cover it though… it will be OK. Not a good thing to do, in fact it was an incredibly naughty thing to do. If you were older it could have been considered an offence. You know what that means? The Heddlu would arrest you for destruction of property. Smashing things like that is against the law ya know. People get in such trouble for that. Lucky Daddy is Heddlu and knows you didn't know it would break. The police do take things like that into consideration too."
"I thought it would bounce" the little voice muttered.
"The glass doors at home are made of a different glass, one that a child can run into and bounce off... or something thrown I guess. These doors were not yet fitted with it, why I had all those decals and stuff on them as a warning. Because of your smash, now they DO have safety glass. Shame… too late for poor Ringo's heart right?"
"I could'a killed him" Hawk sniffled "He was scared and cried."
"Loud noises scare him. He thought someone shot at him I think. After all… he would trust you to never do that and so he does not think you did anything. He has to think a big scary thing happened" Ianto explained "But remember today. You lost control. It felt good but also bad at the same time. I've lost control before, I have. IT feels good in the moment but afterwards you feel sort of… sick in your tummy right?"
Hawk nodded.
"Well then… I am still angry with your lack of control but I accept that you had to release it even if you chose the wrong way. I know you are frustrated and your words don't work sometimes. I know you want things a certain way and they aren't… but that's life. I want to live forever but I won't. I want to eat all the ice-cream but I can't. You know what I want the most?"
"What Taddy?"
"For you to be happy but that isn't always possible either right?"
Haw considered as he pulled at his torn top, nodding.
"So… next time you are angry because we made a rule or decisions you don't like, remember today and that sometimes you need to suck it up and accept it because if you don't you end up feeling this. Sometimes… you cannot win. If everyone won all the time what would come of the world? You gave to lose sometimes, if only to appreciate winning. I am not angry with you, disappointed sure but I know you will try harder. I will too."
Hawk sighed as he snuggled in and knew Taddy was right.
It was only a car, right?
He deserved to be punished.
