After the park we headed back to Eric's resting place as dawn approached. Since he had cancelled my work shift there was no reason for me to head back to the farmhouse. And the more I could avoid my new 'family' members the better. I didn't even like calling them that.
"Jason wants me to be one of Crystal's bridesmaids" I stated as we laid in bed, there was a movie playing but I wasn't really paying attention. Eric stopped it and look at me. I was sitting with my back against the headboard, not really tired enough to lay down.
"And you do not want to be a bridesmaid?" he asked but also kind of stated
"Of course I don't. I don't even want her in my family. I should have punished Calvin for even letting them infest my bloodline" I spat, I realised my words were harsh and so did Eric who lifted an eyebrow at me and I huffed "Am I the only one who remembers what these people did to him?! They changed the whole outcome of his life, they tortured him and now they want to be 'family'" I cringed as I said the word, sipping my water. It really bothered me that Jason had been so forgiving. If he had given me so much as a hint I'd have panther skin as my carpeting but no he just forgave them
"I know it upsets you lover but you need to remember that Jason is no longer just your brother. He is a member of their pack. You know just as well as I do what pack mentality can be like" Eric explained, watching my face carefully, he knew despite my raised and angry tone that I wasn't mad at him, just the situation with Jason had me so heated I needed to vent
"He only has pack mentality because they chained him up and bit him" I argued, glaring at the bookcase in front of me
"To my understanding lover, only one of them actually harmed your brother" Eric said, I could feel him nervously teetering between wanting to have a discussion with me about it and not wanting to make me think he was taking their side
"That's true, one did act alone. But you said it yourself, pack mentality. I don't want Jason becoming like them" I sneered
"Its too late for that now love, he is one of them" Eric said simply a true but infuriating truth
"Doesn't mean I have to be happy about what they have taken away from him. A chance at a normal life, a chance at a human life. Away from the violence and death that follows all of us around" when I said 'us' I indicated between the two of us
"That is unfortunate but will you not being a bridesmaid rectify this situation" he knew the answer and I shook my head pouting
"I know your right and I'm going to do it, for Jase but I'm going to keep a close eye on those cats. I don't trust any of them and I want them to know I'm watching" I said narrowing my eyes as I thought about their deceptive behaviour
"I would expect nothing less" Eric stated, kissing the side of my head, I softened slightly and cuddled in next to him
"I swear to god if she has me in some sort of cupcake dress, I'll kill them" I mumbled bitterly. I wasn't one for weddings to begin with even without all the drama surrounding this one. I'm not the wedding type of girl and I'm definitely not a bridesmaid type of girl. For most of my life I avoided keeping friends all together so this was not in my comfort zone but more then that it wasn't in my 'want to try it' zone either.
"You will look lovely in anything" Eric chuckled at my comment
"Oh god, I just thought of something" I tensed, my eyes wide, Eric looked at me questioningly
"What if they want me to be the child's godparent" I looked up at him, he seemed thoughtful "What the hell would you and I do with a child if something happened to them" suddenly his face was not as calm, he looked for lack of a better term frightened and speechless. We sat there for a second both deep in thought before I gave a short laugh despite not really finding anything funny "I'm sure they know better then to ask me to be a god parent, Crystal is surrounded by family so I'm sure I'm just overreacting" I said laughing trying to hide to doubt I had that Jason may still want me involved that deeply. Eric could feel my worry and no doubt my need to believe differently so he just tightened his arms around me
"You are right, Your brother has only really known you a few short years as an adult and he knows you are not involved in a world suited for a child. I am sure that you are correct in your assumption and they will choose someone else" Eric stated but I felt it, it was small but it was there, a lack of confidence in his own words. Despite this I choose the road of denial and nodded
"Yeah, I'm just being silly" I gave a short laugh and Eric continued with the movie, I guess hoping to distract me until I fell asleep unfortunately, that was not happening.
I awoke the next day with Eric dead for the day beside me, wrapped around me protectively. I looked up into his face and gently ran my finger over his cheek and along his lips, my movements making them part slightly. I smiled to myself before untangling myself and heading to the bathroom, as I looked at myself in the mirror I examined my face. No real signs of aging, but I did have quite a few extra years then the ordinary human. I crinkled my nose and squinted my eyes, morphing my face in different shapes assessing where I thought I might start aging first. Aging never bothered me before but given it was my birthday and my vampire boyfriend who still looked very young and beautiful was just in the other room it made me curious. Not to be too vain but I'd probably want to be turned before I got winkles properly. I didn't want crows feet and winkles on my face for eternity, especially for an eternity next to Eric. I put off those thoughts and looked towards the shower, my new nemesis. I stared at it as if I was trying to make it back down or something before I sighed and turned away, spinning the nobs and started filling the bath. As the water filled, I glared at the shower. It was so stupid that I couldn't shower and yet I knew if I stepped in there and the water touched my head, I would panic. And that fear was so intense, the idea of that level of panic was so frightening that it was like I feared the fear it would invoke just as much as the memories themselves.
I turned off the faucet, grabbed some of the silky bath milk that Eric had bought and slid into the nice hot water, feeling my muscles relax down. I was a little sore after last night with Eric. I mean it was totally worth it and I enjoyed every bit of it but I still had to deal with the ramifications of Eric being so much stronger then I was. After cleaning myself, I laid my head back and closed my eyes, breathing in the sweet scent of the bath milk and just enjoying a moment of relaxation.
After awhile the water started to get cool and I go out, emptying the tub and drying off. I got one of Eric's comfy shirts from the close and some boy short panties before walking back into the bedroom. Eric was still out so I looked around. The walls were covered in books, I thought it best not to touch the ones on his desk in case they were there for a reason and scanned the books along the shelves, at least the ones I could reach, Eric didn't have a ladder for the higher ones as he could just levitate. I grabbed one I thought might be interesting and took a seat in his big comfy chair, tucking my legs under me and began to read. I was really starting to get into the book when I phone rang, despite the fact there was no way it could wake Eric I ran to get it.
"Hello" I answered
"Hey sook" Jase's voice rang through the receiver and I smiled
"What's going on Jase?" I asked in a friendly voice, I did enjoy talking to Jason, hearing his voice was very comforting.
"Nothing much, what are you doing for your birthday?" he asked excitedly and I suppressed a sigh. I had hoped he forgot
"Nothing big or anything, just spending it with Eric hanging at Fangtasia" I said lamely, actually I had no idea what Pam has planned but it wasn't really a lie because I was sure Eric would be there… I hoped.
"Oh well, I wish I could spend it with you" I felt warmth at his sweetness but not enough to want to celebrate "But anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" he yelled excitedly into the receiver and I had to pull it away from my face smiling brightly
"Thank you Jason" He was being so sweet so I couldn't help myself "Hey when I get home this weekend, how about you and I go for a drink to celebrate" it was the least I could do, he was so excited and I couldn't be mad at him for wanting to celebrate my birth, he had no idea why I despised it so much
"Sounds good sook, have a good night"
"I will, later Jase" I said hanging up, I smiled down at my phone. I didn't know what most sibling relationships were like but mine was pretty great. I walked back over to the chair and tucked myself comfortably back in the spot I had started in and continued to read.
I don't know how much time had lapsed but I was roused from my reading by Eric rising
"Good evening lover" he grinned, sitting up in bed
"Hey" I smiled sweetly at him "I hope you don't mind" I said indicating to the book he just shook his head smiling
"You are welcome to anything in this room" he walked towards me "Feel free to look or touch" he smirked wickedly at me "Anything that catches your eye" I gave a small giggle as he was naked and there was definitely something catching my eye. As I went to reach out for him his phone buzzed. Eric groaned and walked back around the bed to look "It seems Pam has set an automated email for me" he irritation was clear in his voice "I apparently need to have you at Fangtasia as soon as I can to and I quote 'start the festivities'" My smile dropped
"Eric" I said slowly standing "If she has planned a party…" I didn't finish, letting my annoyance through the bond speak. He walked around the bed to stand in front of me
"If she has you have to take it up with her lover" Eric said kissing my head and heading into the bathroom. I dropped back down into the chair, glaring towards the bed. Maybe I have come to regret making Eric remove himself from my relationship with Pam, she can be very eccentric and often intrusive. I looked at the floor worryingly and said a little pray; 'please don't let it be a party'.
