It wasn't long until I heard the outer door open and then the closet door. Eric knelt in front of me.
"it would be easier if I just get you a key" he said motioning to the door, I smiled sadly
"I'm actually quicker with a hair pin" I laughed but it wasn't very joyful
"You planning on hiding in here all night?" he asked looking around the closet and how I had huddled myself into the corner
"No but ones died yet, I figured I'd get out while I was ahead" I joked humourlessly, I was only half joking
"It is going better than one would think" he replied looking back towards the door
"Yeah but the only reason it is, is because everyone either fears me or you or a very select few love me and are willing to lie for me" I answered bitterly, I felt like a monster making them do that but I didn't see much of an alternative
"Can I offer some advice?" he asked moving in to sit beside me, pulling my legs over his and looking me in the eyes
"Why not everyone else has" I mumbled thinking of Godric, Sam and Calvin
"You are unhappy" I nodded fiddling with the edge of my skirt "If you know what you have to do to feel good about this then do it. Trust your instincts, I do" he leant in and gently kissed me on the lips "if I am gone too long, the vampires might get restless so I must return" he said standing and offering me his hand but I shook my head
"I want to stay a bit longer" I said and he leant down kissing my hair
"That's fine lover, hide as long as you need" there was a slight jab in the word hide but I took it
"Can you send Jason in here?" I asked as he reached the door, he smiled gently back at me before disappearing though the door. A few moments later Jason walked in confused, taking in his surroundings till he saw me huddled in the cupboard.
"You okay sook?" he asked, kneeling in the doorway. I sighed
"No I don't think I am" I answered honestly
"you know you can always talk to me" he said, climbing in to sit beside me, I smiled at his friendly gesture
"That's the problem, I haven't been talking to you. I have been spending so much time trying to shelter you that I fear I am putting you in more danger then before" I explained, watching his face and brain carefully, he was just confused
"What do you mean sook, I'm not in danger" he laughed like it was ridiculous but stopped when he took in my face
"That's because I have been protecting you" I explained, now he was even more confused "Jase I have some stuff to tell you, actually I have a lot of stuff and I don't want you to freak out or be upset with me. I just want to try to explain things because as much as I don't like it. You aren't human anymore, you are in this world with me and with that comes a responsibility to know what you are up against, the rules and knowledge needed to survive in this society" I explained nervously
"Okay" he said slowly "Well I'm all ears, I could handle the other stuff you told me so I'm sure I can handle anything you tell me" he smiled, so naive
"Just don't hate me" I begged and his eyes went sad
"Sook, I could never hate you. Your my baby sister, nothing you could ever do or say to me could ever make me hate you" He put his hand on mine and I hoped his words could be true. So I started at the beginning, the car accident, the fact it wasn't an accident. Everything Jason went to speak I stopped him, needing to get through it. I told him about Godric and my life under the master, about Claudine and Amelia and everything I could think of. I told him about Eric and as much vamp stuff as I could ever tell a were. I told him about my lifespan, my abilities besides the telepathy he knew about, I told him about Rhodes and the bloodbond. I told him everything. And then I sat and waited.
He was silent for a long time. Just staring at the wall in front of us. I had clearly terrified and confused him. I felt my stomach knot but again like I wanted to be sick but couldn't. he was pale and uneasy. His brain was so overwhelmed that I couldn't get a coherent thought out of it. So I just sat there watching the array of emotions run across his face in droves. Nothing I could do but wait. I had let the cat out of the bag and that bastard couldn't be put back in so there was nothing to do but wait.
After awhile the door opened the Eric walked in looking annoyed with crystal behind him, keeping her distance.
"I wondered where you had gone" she said, moving towards Jason, creating some space from Eric, who just leant on the desk, ignoring her. Staring at me concerned.
"We should go" was all Jason said before standing and moving out the door not looking back. I quickly got to my feet and followed him. The panthers followed him out. I noticed him keep a wide birth from Claudine and they all quickly disappeared out the door. Sam, Tara and Lafayette followed too saying how late it was but feeling the tension in the room. I just stood in the door way. Concerned eyes moved from the door to me watching carefully, while the other vamps just sat around continuing to talk, unconcerned with the going on around them. I just stared at the door, I could feel tears behind my eyes and sadness building up in my throat. Eric put his arms around me, pulling me back against him but he said nothing, he could feel how inconsolable I was from the bond.
"I think I just lost my brother" I said simply, my voice cracking slightly before pulling from Eric's arms. I looked around the bar, suddenly it was all too much. I couldn't be here, seeing all these confused faces full of pity for me. I felt panic build in my stomach and a pressure build around my body but before Eric could reach me I popped away. I had no clue where I was going, no clear place in mind but my panic had taken over and I needed to get away.
I opened my eyes to find myself in a park, it was dark so I knew I probably wasn't in a different time zone at least. I sighed walking over to the swings and sitting. I seemed to be alone out here, no one around for quite some time my mind net told me. I stared down at the ground. I couldn't believe I had been stupid enough to tell Jason all that stuff. I should have known better that he couldn't handle it. He may be a were now but his human brain was too overwhelmed. I doubt he'd ever speak to me again.
Suddenly there was a popping sound and Claudine was standing in front of me where I had popped into the park. Her face awash in sympathy.
"How did you find me?" I asked looking back down at my hands
"There are a few moments after teleportation that a fae who can also teleport is able to go through the same vaccume, essentially following the other to wherever they are going. So where are we?" she asked taking the swing beside me
"Beats me. I guess I must have been here at some point to be able to teleport here but I don't really remember" I looked around, there was a vague familiarity with it but who knows, it could be a park I walked through as a teenager "I guess I will find out when Eric inevitably shows up" I wasn't really looking forward to that, he didn't like the running thing I did.
"We have time" she said simply and I looked at her confused, I knew Eric was pretty fast "Godric is making sure he gives me a little bit of time to talk to you. I said it's a family thing" she smiled gently "What happened with Jason?" I sighed
"He hates me I'm pretty sure" I said kicking at the chip wood beneath my feet
"I saw how he was with you tonight. I don't think he could ever hate you" Claudine said trying to reassure me but I shook my head
"I told him everything. And there was a lot of bad stuff in there but when I told him about our car crash not being an accident and our parents murder…" I stopped feeling a tear go down my cheek "You should have seen his face, it was like I had killed them myself. Like it was all my fault" I sobbed
"Sookie its not your fault. You were not even the target. Your lineage was the target not you specifically. Your parents were the ones they intended to remove from this world" Claudine tried to explain but I just shook my head
"You didn't see his face. He was fine never knowing of all this until I brought it into his life. I forced this upon him in my selfish need to find my family" I continued to cry, the hot tears felt almost pleasant on my face against the cool air outside.
"Maybe he is just in shock. It is a lot to take in. but I doubt he would rather not have you in his life just to not know the truth of the past. You were a child when these things occurred, you are not to be blamed" She took my hands in hers, I could feel the gentle sparks of magic that naturally oozed from her skin "He just need time to set everything in, to accept things. Just give him time" I stared down at our joined hands before gripping hers tightly meeting her eyes with determination
"I want you to do something for me" I said looking her dead in the eyes, she took hesitant but nodded "I want you to remove any fae magic or blood that resides inside Jason's child. I want all fae removed from its essence" her eyes widened like saucers. What I was asking her to do was very risky, not to mention highly illegal in the fae world.
"Sookie…" she began but I cut her off
"Don't put this kid through what I went through. It will already be a were, it doesn't need to have some reoccurring dominant fae gene popping up and ruining its life. Look what happened to me because of the blood I share, look at what Neave and Lochlan did to me for no other reason then the blood that runs through my veins. Please Claudine I am begging you" I was now on my knees in front of her, literally begging. I couldn't hurt Jason anymore then I already had. His child ending up like me, I could not think of anything worse.
Claudine stared down at me but reluctantly nodded her head.
"I will try but I will need some time, there is a lot of problems that come with attempting this kind of thing and once it is done, we must never speak of it. To anyone" her eyes were now begging me. It was practically a death sentence to do this if she was caught. The magic required was old and very elusive, but Claudine could do it, she had access to resources I couldn't dream of and with the child fae gene likely being so diluted it would be easier. The magic did not work on those with higher amounts of fae blood in their system and anyone with already established fae powers such as myself. It had to be done while the child was still in the womb.
I pulled Claudine into a big hug and I felt her soften against me.
"This counts as your birthday present you know" she joked, lightening the mood "and you're not getting another for 50 years at least" I laughed back but my eyes were conveying to her how grateful I was that she would do this for me.
