Chapter 45

CALLIE'S P.O.V:

It's been a 8 days since we lost our baby and 7 days since Arizona went in to have the procedure done.She still hasn't spoken much to me lately. I've been trying to ask her how it went since she refused to have me there. She only shut me out. She decided to have Teddy go with her and had Tim watch Noah. Which honestly, I can't blame her. I'd be upset too if I found my girlfriend drunk hours before I had an important appointment. As I was sitting at work, I couldn't help but think what all that has happened in the past week. We were all happy about our 2nd baby making an arrival, now it's like it's made we can't talk to each other without getting mad or snapped at. She hasn't had much to do with me lately, only one she was wanting was Noah. I wish there was something I really could do to help her.

"Callie," Doug says, trying to get my attention, before waving his hand in front of my face.

"What?" I say, looking at him.

"It's okay. I was just saying, that Ashley's C.D is finally finished." He tells me. Do you want to talk about it?" He asks me.

"Oh. Already?"

"Yeah. Is everything okay? You have been distracted since that day Arizona was here."

"Yeah, I'm fine," I say, standing from my seat at the booth. "Things have been rough at home."

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"Not really," I tell her, walking to the door.

"Callie, wait." He calls out, stopping me from leaving the room. I turn to face him. "Let me talk to her."

"I've already tried Doug. No matter what I try and say, or anyone else, it's not going to help." I tell her, getting a little loud, not meaning to. "I'm sorry."

"No need to apologize. I've been right where you're at before." He tells me. I looked at him in confusion.

"My husband and I, we were set to adopt a baby. It was a couple of years ago before I came here to work for you. Jeff and I found a young mother on the street. She was nearly 4 months along. We took her in, helped her with everything. Appointments and all that." Swallowing a lump in his throat, he continued to speak, "We sat down, had a conversation with her about what her plans were, she told us, she wanted to find the baby a loving home. She wasn't able to keep the baby. So she asked us if we wanted to adopt hers. After talking it over, Jeff and I decided that's what we wanted." I just looked at him, in disbelief as he continued his story. "We completely fell in love. Not with just the fact that we were having a child, but with the girl and the baby. Then one day, we went in for the last ultrasound, everything was fine. The next night, when Jeff and I were laying in bed, Adrian came in, she said that something felt wrong. She couldn't put a finger on it, but she just knew something wasn't right. So, we called the dr the next morning, they had us come in and see what was going on. When we got there, he did another ultrasound, and turned out, the baby was gone just like that."

"Oh my god." I gasp out, covering my hand with my mouth.

Looking down at the floor, he spoke some more. "Jeff and I were devastated. We fell in love with a little girl whom we never met, then it was taken from us, just like that." He says, snapping his fingers. "I know Arizona wasn't that far along, not like Adrian was with ours, but it still hurts. You guys will come back from all this, it may be the hardest thing you have to deal with, it may not. The only way you both will get through this, is by leaning on each other. You both are strong enough to keep this relationship together. Your miscarriage is still fresh, so you're at the beginning stages of grief. Don't let it get any further, otherwise, you won't make it. I know you guys aren't married yet, but don't let this whole thing get too far. What you both have is rare. Like Jeff and I. But the only difference is Jeff and I, we weren't as strong. We let our emotions get the best of us for a while, and it destroyed us. Don't let that happen with you and Arizona."

"Thanks, Doug," I whisper.

"Anytime, look, I know you said that Arizona isn't wanting to talk about what happened, but let me. Let me try."

"Arizona?" I shout as I opened the door to our apartment. Stepping in, I moved to the side so Doug could enter also. "Arizona?" I yell again. I moved my way to the bedroom. Nothing. Leaving the bedroom, I went over to check Noah's room. It was empty. I made my way back out to Doug, who was still standing by the door. "She's not here," I tell him.

"Where is she?" He asks.

"I don't know. She was supposed to be resting. She even said she will be here when I get home."

"Okay, well do you think she went over to her friend's house...that one blonde she always spoke about...I don't know her name,"

"Probably," I tell him. I took my phone out of my pocket to dial Teddy's number.

"Hello." Teddy answers

"Teddy, it's Callie. Is Arizona and Noah over there?"

"Hey Callie, Noah is here, but Arizona isn't. She said she wanted to get some rest before you got home. She isn't there?"

"No, she's not. Her clothes are still here, but she isn't." The line fell silent for a little bit, which made me think we got disconnected. "Teddy?"

"I'm still here." She tells me."Let me think a minute."

"Where could she have gone?" I ask

"I might have an idea."

After getting off the phone with Teddy, we made our way over to the cemetery. We drove around for about five minutes, before spotting my fiance. Pulling up, I threw the car in park, I let out a sigh.

"I'll be right back," Doug says to me. He got out and walked over to where Arizona was standing. I watched as my friend got close to my fiance. I could see that she wasn't happy with him being there, especially when I saw her furrow her brow at him, then vaguely readying 'What are you doing here?' on her lips. Since his back was turned to me, I couldn't figure out what he was saying to her. I watched as she threw her arms in the air, then tried to walk away before he grabbed her arm to stop her. They stood there, talking for a good ten minutes before I saw him wave his head, then grabbing her arm. They started walking in another direction. I couldn't help but wonder where he was taking her, so I put the car in drive and followed them. Stopping at the section that read 'Garden of Angels' I couldn't help but now wonder if his daughter was buried in this section. I continued to watch as he talked to her, pointing down once in a while. A moment later, they both made their way back to the car.

"She wants to talk to you," Doug says, opening the door to the passenger side. I went to get out, but he stopped me. "No, stay in here. I'll take a walk." He says, stepping out of the way so she could get in."

"Hey," was all I could say to her right now.

"Hey, Callie." We sat in silence for a bit before she began to speak, "How did you find me?"

"Teddy," I tell her, "She said that you would always come here whenever you felt down."

"Right, Last time I was here, I was just about to leave for college. It's the only place I felt comfortable. You know, to let everything out." She tells me. She turned her body to where she was now facing me she continued to speak,"With everything that's happened, losing our.."

"I know," I tell her. Fighting back the urge to cry, she once again, continued to speak, "My Mom and Dad are buried over here. That's why I came here. After everything that's happened, I needed their guidance you know."

"I understand that."

"Look, Callie, I know I have been distant, I'm sorry for that. I never expected all this to happen, and when it did, it just took me by surprise. It did a number on me, and I didn't know how to handle it. I'm 19, I never expected to have a miscarriage this early in my life. So instead of talking to you, I just took it out on you...again. I pushed you away and when I get angry or hurt..that's all I do. I push people away when I get angry even though it's not their fault."

"Arizona.." She put her hand up to stop me.

"You have been so good to me lately, trying everything to help me get past this, and I have done nothing but hurt you, instead of actually leaning on you. I was selfish and didn't think about how this affected you. I mean, after all, it was your baby too."

"Arizona, it's ok. Honestly, that's what I'm here for." I tell her.

"But you shouldn't have to take it. Especially since that's all I had done to you. Trying to shut you out when I was pregnant with Noah, then now losing this baby, it's not fair to you. You deserve to have someone else. Not me. Not someone who bottles everything up." She's right, I did deserve someone better, but there isn't anyone out there who's better than her.

"I want you, Arizona Robbins. Only you. I don't care what has happened in the past, you can be broken, we all are from time to time. It only makes me love you more and want to be with you more." I say, placing my hand on her cheek. "You're the only one I want. Like I have told you in the past, I want to be here with you through everything. Even if it's something like this. I'm not going anywhere, not now, not ever. Do you hear me? We are in this together, for better or for worse. As Doug told me, which I'm sure he's told you too, but this may not be the worse thing we go through. But either way, I'm always going to be here. No matter what. We will get through this, as we have with other stuff that's happened to us lately."

"I know," She says, fidgeting a little bit, "just please, don't leave me."

"I'm not going anywhere." I pulled her into a tight hug, snuggling my nose into the crook of her neck. After pulling away, I could tell something was on her mind. "What's going through that beautiful head of yours?"

"After Doug talked to me, I got to thinking about something as we were walking over here."

"What's that?" I ask. I was a little curious about what she had in mind. But nothing prepared me for what she was about to say.

"I was thinking, maybe we could get married sooner?" She says, shrugging her shoulders. My eyes went wide as soon as she mentioned us getting married.

"How soon?"

"Tomorrow?" she suggests.

*So Doug was the only one who was able to get through to her. Yes, it's only been a week since the miscarriage, but he did make a few good pointers when he talked to Callie. Think they will actually get married? let me know what you think.*