Chapter 46

ARIZONA'S P.O.V:

After telling Callie that I'd like for us to get married tomorrow, shejust looked at me like I had two heads. She hasn't said a single word since I mentioned it.. She just sat there, silent for what seemed like forever. I couldn't take the silence much longer. I had to know what she was thinking.

"Callie?" I say, waving my hand in front of her face. "Did you hear me?"

"I think so. It sounded like you said you wanted to get married tomorrow?"

"I did. I want to do it tomorrow instead."

"Okay, I..uh..I honestly don't know what to say." She stutters.

"You don't like the idea? Do you?"

"I'd be more than happy to, Babe, but to be honest, I really think you should really think about this. It's a big step."

"So it wasn't a big step to wait until next month?" I ask her. "I'd rather marry you now. I don't want to wait."

"Why? Why now? What made you change your mind all of a sudden?"

"Because I love you that's why." I snap. I didn't mean to get upset with her, but I just don't understand why she's fighting this. I figured she would be all for it. Considering she was willing to marry me when I got pregnant the 2nd time before we lost the baby. I just don't understand the hesitation. "You know what, Callie. Let's just forget it. It's a bad idea. It was stupid I brought it up."

"Arizona, if you want to get married tomorrow, that's fine. I'm all for it. I just think you really need to think about this before we do it."

"NO. It's okay. We will wait. We can go back to the original plans of waiting until next year or something. I'm not pregnant anymore, we don't need to rush now." I was just about to get out of the car, but she grabbed my arm to stop me.

"Arizona, look at me." I couldn't. I couldn't look at her without crying. Here I was, wanting to marry her the next day, but she doesn't seem to really want to. If she did, she wouldn't be this hesitant.

"No. I can't, Callie. You obviously don't feel the same way as I do. You don't want to get married right away, I understand. What's more to say now." This time, she let me get out of the car.

"Doug, you can get back in," I tell him. "Callie's waiting for you. Tell her I'll meet her at the apartment." I made my way back to my car. The walk was a little longer this time, but I didn't care. I needed fresh air. I really need to think about things. Maybe she was right, I wasn't really thinking about all this. But what was there really to think about? I love her, I want to be with her. I don't understand what the big deal was.

As I made my way out of the cemetery, I decided not to go back to the apartment. I decided to go to Teddy's instead. I needed to grab Noah anyway. I might as well just stay and talk with her a bit.

As I pulled into the drive, I saw Callie's car. She must be picking Noah up. I tried Wiping away the tears that had fallen. I really didn't want Callie to see how upset I was about this whole thing. After finally composing myself, I made my way to the door. Just as I was about to open it, the door swung open and there was Callie, about to head out with Noah.

"Arizona." She says, her eyes widening. "I thought you said you would meet back at the apartment?"

"I did. I was just here to pick up Noah." I tell her. "But since you already got him, I want to talk to Teddy for a little bit. or maybe Tim."

"Oh...okay, well I will see you back at the apartment later then." She tried to lean in for a kiss, but I turned my face away to where she was only able to kiss my cheek. "I really want to talk about this when you get home."

"Fine." I answer shortly. "I'll see you at the apartment." She just nodded her head, and moved past me to head to the car. Before she couldn't get any further, I grabbed her arm to stop her.
"Hang on." I tell her. I leaned down to kiss my son's forehead. "I love you buddy, I'll see you tonight, be good for Mama." Looking back up at Callie, I gave her a slight nod letting her know she could go.

It was after 10 p.m when I finally made my way into the apartment. I walked into Noah's room to check on him, but he wasn't in his crib. Making my way across the apartment and into mine and Callie's room, I noticed Callie propped up against the head board, with Noah on her chest. I tip toed quietly as possible to the bathroom to change into my pajamas and brushed my teeth.

"Why you home so late?" Callie asks, as I climbed into bed. I nearly jumped out of my skin.

"I thought you were asleep." I tell her.

"No, I heard you come in. Then went to the bathroom. We need to talk about this." She tells me.

"Look, we have done enough talking," I tell her. "I just want to go to sleep."

Getting out of bed, with Noah in her arms, she left the bedroom. A moment later, she returned, this time, without Noah.

"We really need to talk about this, Arizona."

"I don't want to talk about this anymore, Callie. You said it earlier, you don't want to get married tomorrow, so what's there more to talk about." I scooted myself down and tried to turn away from her, but she stopped me. "Just go to sleep, Callie."

"No. I will not. I want to know why the sudden change of plans. Why do you want to do this now all of a sudden? Why not just wait until next month like we had planned?" Letting out a groan, I sat up and leaned against the headboard.

"Fine, I will tell you. We had something good happen to us, you know. With the new baby arriving, I was really happy about it. But then, we lost the baby." I tried to fight back the tears, but the tears won. "I'm tired of feeling sad. I just want to be happy again, Callie. It's been a week since everything happened, and I just haven't been myself since. I've shut you out, and I don't want to do that anymore. I want to be happy again, and if that meant marrying you tomorrow, then so be it." Callie just sat there, silent. I could tell she was trying to find the right thing to say to me, but apparently, she could seem to find the right words. "I love you, Callie. I know I haven't shown it this past week, but I really do. and I wanted to prove that to you."

"Arizona, you don't have to prove anything to me, I know you love me and I know you're taking this harder than both of us, considering you were the one who was pregnant, but I just don't think you were thinking clearly about it all." We both sat there in silence. I didn't know what else to say to her. How could I? Yeah, she made a great point. I wasn't thinking about all this. I let the thought of losing our baby cloud my judgement. Not being able to take the silence anymore, I finally spoke,

"I'm going to bed." I tell her, laying back down. I could feel her staring at me, but I didn't care. I was tired, emotionally and physically. "Good night."

"Good night." She says, letting out a sigh.

*Sorry for the late update. Been busy with my own classes, semester will be ending soon. So that means more updates will happen more. Hope this chapter wasn't too boring for you. Kind of hard to think when busy with school and work. Let me know what you think.*