"hey guys,
well this is something different. it is currently 5 am, I am wide awake, have been at this time since November. and i just thought fuck it, write something here where it can reach many people
How are you guys NOT GOING CRAZY?
seriously, I need tips. anything.
I don't feel at home since we moved on new years eve. i haven't seen my boyfriend since. i am not on the mountain teaching kids how to ski for the first time in 4 years. i am not dancing on stage 3 times a week for the first time since 7 years...

i don't know how to stay healthy anymore. i don't know how to stay positive anymore. i can't find strengh to just go for a simple walk everyday anymore. i don't see any point /br /span/p
So if anyone has any advice, tips, whatever ... it would be highly appreciated.

and for those who got excited for a new chapter, sorry but here is a teaser... thought you might like it. chose an extra intressting scene

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My lips soon found her neck and the gasp coming from her almost drove me into insanity.
"Jax, we shouldn't be doing this here…"
"But I've dreamed of taking you on top of this very table for months."
"Everyone is just behind this door." Her voice got weak as I grabbed her ass. It was true. I really just wanted to lay her on top of this table so her beautiful blonde hair would cover the reaper. I dreamed of sitting down on the throne and eating her out like she was my last meal.

"You shouldn't talk about riding something if you are worried about that." I bit down on her ear which made her grab my forearms.

My lips met hers again and she started to grab my cut again just like last night. I turned us around and I could hear her taking in a sharp breath as I lifted her up and placed her on the table. And I knew I was about to loose my mind when her legs wrapped themselves around me. I would be getting killed for corrupting the sergeants daughter in the chapel room. I chose my death. I am happy with it.