Shinso
At last my punishment was over, and things with my tutor were in order. Although I still uphold the good of civilians over formalities, I understand his position. I guess being a hero isn't only knowing how to act, but also when.
It was shortly after we settled the disagreement that I learned it was summoned by the commission of heroes, which never meant anything good. As was always the case in these types of situations, there was always a degree of extreme confidentiality that only confirmed the seriousness of the matter. Not even Yamada knew the details of the mission, so we only had to wait for it to conclude with the expected results.
It was once the news was published in the media that we learned of the operation. A yakuza clan had been experimenting with a drug that somehow involved a girl. Heroes like Rock Lock and FatGum, as well as his subordinates of the latter, two third– and first–year students who ended up with considerable injuries. However, it was the death of one of the leaders that most caught my attention. The late professional hero Nighteye died in combat in circumstances of which I don't have enough information, because in addition to the effects of the drug that left one of the Big Three without his quirk, the rest of the data was guarded with suspicion and a high level of mysticism. Considering the side effects of the mission, it is no wonder. A drug with such power would be highly damaging, and something told me that this little girl would have something to do with all that.
I could only think that each mission was a request from which there were no guarantees of return. I always find the workouts really strenuous, but now I understand. An error in the calculations and that could result in a point of no return. The idea that it could have been him who… Being a professional hero is a demanding job.
Since the incident and after attending the funeral, Shota showed a solemn countenance and despite the support Yamada offered him, he still looked distant. Spending most of his time in the hospital, and it was then that soon after I learned that she cannot control her quirk and he was present in case it was necessary to stop her. Thinking about it brought back some memories.
I was leaning on one of the stairs overlooking the bleachers. In the time that my tutor had been with his recurring visits to the hospital, he interspersed the days of practice with the capture weapon, and the theoretical readings of motivation, or rather, manipulation. I was reading the second volume of a collection of sixteen when I decided to relax my eyes for a moment. I tilted my head up to the top of one of the trees on the side of the stairs. I was at least a month away from taking the test that would validate whether I could qualify for the heroes' course; that made me anxious not only because of the uncertainty of the results, but also because we would be in the same class… Midoriya and the rest of the class.
I felt so overwhelmed that I just thought about closing my eyes and thinking about nothing. I arranged the open book against my face so that the shining wouldn't bother me. I was so concentrated in that state of passivity that I only perceived the noise of the breeze and the chirping of the occasional bird.
– Are you asleep? – It was impossible for me not to recognize that voice. As I slid the book away, I found his yellow eyes looking perpendicular to mine as I felt the blood pressure speed up my heartbeat. He showed me that warm smile that made me lose track of time. The wind was slowly blowing his hair and I couldn't get over the fact that I was just inches from his face. – Shinso?
– As you can see, I am quite awake. You just caught me off guard – we held the same posture. I had a hard time concentrating. – What are you doing here?
– I was just wandering around campus and I saw you laying down. I found it weird that you chose this place to sleep and I walked over, but you were just meditating. – If he smiled like that again at such a short distance, I wouldn't be responsible for what I'd do.
– Would you have woken me up with a kiss like in fairy tales otherwise? – His face changed color quickly. I must admit, it was fun to see him this conflicted.
– I… I just hope I haven't interrupted you! – I couldn't contain the urge to laugh, causing me to imitate the gesture shortly after. – By the way, I felt like a month passed since we last saw each other, did something happen?
– Did you miss me?
– I'm serious! – I couldn't tell him that I was punished after the incident at the fair
– Let's say I had an exhaustive training that ultimately aimed to bring out the best in me – along with my spirit and my desire to die.
– I know we must train, but why are you trying so hard? I mean, I've seen you train for quite some time and you seem to demand a lot more than average from you.
– Have you been spying on me? – his face turned reddish again
– No ... Well, I ... It seems incredible to me how much you have improved in these months ...! So much so that you have motivated me to be better too – I wonder if you would repeat that expression knowing how you make me feel.
– I'm glad to hear that. For next time, I can give you an autograph.
– You'll be the one who asks me for one. – He started laughing, and I would do anything to listen to it over and over again; to be the reason.
– Whoops! You seem to be very busy – Monoma, as always, so inconvenient. – Being from course 1 – A, I don't understand why you don't rub shoulders with your grade.
– I'm not an idiot and I keep talking to you – sitting up – Although I am considering it to stop doing it.
– Shinso, the academy made a serious mistake by leaving you in class 1 – C and me in 1 –B, I mean, even this one qualified for the heroes' course. – Casting a contemptuous look at Kaminari
– You're a ... – I got up, but the blond's hands behind me, stopped me
– Don't bother, Shinso. The words of a resentful person aren't worth listening to. – I enjoyed Monoma's annoyed look more than I imagined
– You're right – without taking your eyes off the referral
– See you later, Shinso. – As soon as he released me, I seriously questioned why I kept talking to this idiot.
– What's happening to you? Why are you so obsessed with his class? – Approaching him.
– Because many of them are overrated. – He was even more upset. – The one who throws rays from the navel, the one that gives off sticky spheres, the invisible one and especially that walking ray.
– Leave him alone! He hasn't done anything to you. Why does it bother you so much?
– Because if you remain in his company, you will be as useless as him. He's just an idiot. – at that moment I was so tempted to use my quirk on him
– The only idiot I see here is you – walking away from him.
– Shinso – blocking my way – If I decided to intervene it is because I recognize your potential and I don't want it to be belittled by someone who doesn't value it. – His voice softened, but he was too upset to hear it.
– Kaminari isn't what you think
– Someone who spends so much time with the walking bomb and the other group of rioters I don't think is a good influence.
– Yes, right now I'm wondering who is influencing me – moving away from him. What started out as a harmless joke was turning into harmful behavior.
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For at least the week that Shota managed to talk to Hizashi, there was always a name and a constant situation: "Eri" the name of the girl he supervised at the hospital, and "take care of". I was already beginning to have an idea of where these talks were headed… I wonder if it had been like this seven years ago.
It was a night when I was walking around campus with my other tutor who received a call from his husband. After a "We will arrive in a few minutes" and my affirmative answer to go to the dormitory of the Heroes' Course, was that I could see the little girl.
She was being surrounded by the big three of U.A. while Shota was standing next to her. All of the Heroes' Course were facing the girl at a considerable distance. Her hair was being arranged by Nejire while the little red–eyed girl smiled at Midoriya, one of the closest to her. A small horn protruded from the left side of her forehead, but it did not dissipate the tenderness that emanated from her countenance.
Upon arrival, the sight of the professor began to give his statement.
– We will take care of her at the U.A. and will remain in the dorms – he was just as equanimous, until he leaned down to the level of the girl who was looking at him expectantly. – They are unruly, but they are good people. – Bringing his hand to her hair to rub it gently. Seeing the scene, gave me a deja vu. – You'll be okay here. – Getting back up, wearing a more relaxed face. Something told me that I wouldn't be an only child for long, and that idea didn't bother me.
– Hi Eri! – the round–faced one was the first to approach
– You remind me of my little sister – I think she was Tsuyu
– Welcome, Eri – the one with red hair was at the height of the girl.
– We're happy she's here, but why? – Midoriya inquired
– She couldn't stay in the hospital forever. – And with a gesture he invited him out, along with those who were on the mission.
It was then that Hizashi approached her.
– Hi Eri! You want something to eat? – She just shook her head – If you are hungry, or need something, you just have to say it. – Just nodded. She hadn't whispered a word since I arrived, but she didn't seem self–conscious around those who approached her. Maybe she was just very quiet.
– Hi Shinso! – Kaminari hung on my shoulder – Did you come to see the new member of our dorm?
– I couldn't miss the scoop
– Of course, not – leading me to the front, right in front of her. Up close her eyes glowed a deep red and she was even prettier in person. She just stared at me silently.
– Something's wrong? – She was surprised by the question, as if she had not realized her abstraction. I crouched at her eye level.
– You just ... You look like Aizawa
– Even she noticed – the bicolor boy let himself be heard
– Don't start! – and the explosive next to him almost made us deaf, so I distracted her back to me
– So? Do you think that's a good thing? – The girl looked at me confused before answering
– Yes – showing a shy smile
– Me too – stroking her hair
The rest of the afternoon, we spent time with the girl in the dorms. Both teachers and Mirio would be in charge of caring for her to teach her to master her quirk. Then I would try to convince Shota to get more information about it, after all she would be under his care instead of going to an orphanage, not to say that he seems to have become very attached to her.
I was starting to feel tired, not taking into account the harassing look of the grape boy, so after saying goodbye to Kaminari, I headed to the exit without realizing that in the backward movement I ran into Oijiro. After what had happened at the Sports Festival and after all the consequent events, I had contemplated speaking with him. Despite the fact that it was a competition, I didn't feel comfortable with what I did.
– Can we talk?
– Sure – accompanying me to the exit, surprised. We settled on the side of the stairs.
– I'm sorry about what happened at the Sports Festival. I shouldn't have manipulated you.
– We were in a competition, it was understandable that you used your quirk to win – hearing him be so kind, only made me feel worse.
– It's not justifiable and I shouldn't have. I'm really sorry.
– No problem – putting his hand on my shoulder. – I'm fine. Also, I couldn't be mad at someone so considerate. – Showing me a smile.
I said goodbye to him on the way to my bedroom. Now that I think about it, I've seen Kaminari hold his tail several times. I know he's very friendly, but I wonder if that's the only reason ...
– What the hell happens to you? – I dodged one of its spheres without difficulty. After the arduous training, my reflexes and perception of the environment had improved considerably.
– You're just a nuisance – the anthropomorphic grape was holding another of his projectiles.
– Yes, insult those who can dominate you at will – he was ready to make him retreat, but he had to find out what his intentions were
– It's worth the risk. – He had a challenging posture. – First you cajole Midoriya, Kaminari and now you want to wrap Oijiro, you even put your dirty hands on Eri – his eyes shone with an intense green color that caused me some discomfort
– Says a recognized pervert like you
– At least my preferences are normal. – Even his tone of voice was unnatural – Do you want them to become someone like you?
– What do you mean?
– Don't even try to deny it. I've seen how you look at Kaminari… – Discomfort rose up my throat. – I won't stop until you get away from him.
– I want to see you try – He was fed up and ready to break his face. I got into offensive position for a physical fight, I wanted him to be conscious.
– What's happening here? – My tutor appeared from the shadows, and the boy's eyes returned to their usual state.
– Nothing, Professor Aizawa. I just offered my partner good night.
– That's right? – addressing me
– Yes – it wasn't worth denying.
– In that case, return to your respective dorms. – I turned around without making eye contact, but I could feel the older man's eyes on the back of my neck.
It was an uncomfortable night. That idiot's words had managed to affect me. I didn't even remember how my feelings for Kaminari arose, I only know that one day I started looking for him in the crowd and when he spoke to me, it was the only thing I thought about in the following days. By the time I realized it all, it was too late, and I wasn't really sorry.
Aware that I would never be reciprocated, I just resigned myself to being content to share time with him, helping him in everything in my power while inhibiting my feelings every time, unaware of his influence on me, he made me hesitate with his voice, his smile or his touch.
The fear of being rejected by him if he ever gave me away stunned the muscles of my body. I wouldn't tolerate his revulsion, the very idea of his contempt terrified me. I guess my only option would be to keep my distance.
The next morning my body felt sore. My muscles contracted with involuntary force from my own thoughts.
In the lockers, his figure as dark as a silhouette was waiting for me, and something told me that he wanted to continue the conversation that we didn't even start.
– I need you to accompany me – knowing him, that wasn't a simple request, it was an obligation. – What happened last night?
– It's nothing to worry about – I couldn't tell him
– Your tone of voice and dark circles more pronounced than other days tell me otherwise
– I'm looking more and more like you, I guess. Even Eri noticed. – bringing my hand behind my neck – By the way, how is she? – without looking him in the eye
– She's fine. – In an instant, he wrapped me in his capture weapon – But don't try to change the subject – his eyes glowed a deep red, and his hair no longer fell on his shoulders.
– It was just a minor disagreement. – sighed
– I'll be patient until you want to tell me, for now you can go. – freeing me from his bondage. – I just I just hope you don't cause me trouble, I have enough with the other twenty.
– Got it – walking away from him.
The rest of the day I was distracted, not even Prof. Present Mic's screaming managed to make me concentrate.
Several weeks had passed and, in a few days, I would take the test to qualify for the heroes' course. Trying to dispel my thoughts, I set out to train. Although I ran into Kaminari several times, including one of them with the idiot Mineta, I always evaded him with the excuse that I had to train, becoming my escape route to not think about him. I learned that he was assisting operations with his provisional license at the same time that I was assisting members of the police in minor operations with Gun Head and even an occasional one with Eraser Head, which were more of an extension and evaluation of my training.
Although my performance and effort had been rewarded with successful operations, I still didn't realize that it only delayed the inevitable. Getting away from Kaminari was affecting me much more than I thought; I wanted to see him and the fear of his rejection ironically led me to push him away from me.
For the next several days, I had been secluded in the library. While my intentions were to distract my mind, I always ended up thinking of Kaminari. It was on one occasion, shortly before the break was over, that, on my way out, I ran into him and his sharp–toothed companion.
– Shinso – His gaze was as awake as ever
– I have to go – I hurried, but was stopped by his grip
– I would like to talk to you, please – the time away from him only made me confirm that I could not deny him, much less with that expression of pleading on his face
– See you in the dorms, Kaminari – communicated the redhead, leaving us alone
– Shinso, is something wrong? Did I do something to make you uncomfortable? I feel like you're avoiding me – I didn't need to speak to feel like my voice was cracking
– I've been busy ... The day of a very important test is approaching and I'm anxious – although it was true, my arguments did nothing but sound like excuses. I didn't dare to look him in the eyes, because I was only thinking about the words of that dwarf. – In addition to the rehearsals for the Cultural Festival, he hasn't left me time for anything else ...
– Let's meet after class – getting closer to me
– Kaminari, I ...
– It only will be a moment! – Taking me by the shoulders, even closer. I felt like I was on the verge of collapse; I really missed being around him.
– Okay – I was weak in those eyes
– Good – He smiled relieved. – See you later – said energetically. I instead leaned against the wall as I watched him walk away, my heartbeat pounding in my chest and my face considerably hot.
By this time, my mind was absent. Now I couldn't concentrate during the classes because I only thought about what I would see with him after they finished. And such was my anxiety that as soon as I heard the bell that announced the conclusion of the last period, my heart almost left my chest. I felt stunned.
We agreed to meet at the entrance to the training area, while my chest was thumping like a drum as I saw him with his usual enthusiasm, smiling at me from the other end.
– I want to show you a new technique with which I knocked out a villain in the last mission I attended – and I couldn't answer because he had already taken me by the arm into the structure.
He left his backpack at my side, to stand at the end of the low ceiling. Immediately, his expression changed to a more serious one. The electric waves enveloped his body in waves that increased in intensity as he placed his right hand forward and the other served as support. Now that I think about it, I don't remember seeing him as a hero. He looked intimidating, determined and… really handsome. It seemed to be someone else. I just stared at him haunted by the aura that emanated from him, threatening and without the slightest trace of doubt in his posture. Imagining him in full combat action must have caused me a slight robotization as my face felt considerably hot.
His body radiated a powerful yellow glow and a formidable concentration of energy was forming in his hand that, as he secured his feet to the ground, he released in a movement that made it appear as if a flare had been fired at full speed from his hand. The traction caused it to recoil only slightly, and the powerful energy strike crossed to the other end, colliding with a target that barely absorbed the blow, as it was charred at its center.
– Yes! Every time I do it better – he jumped with a fist in the air – What did you think? – running towards me. I ended up so stunned that I lost track of my surroundings, and even more so when I was so close to me.
– It was incredible, Kaminari – I said trying not to be in evidence
– As you see, it takes me some time to concentrate all the energy in the palm of my hand, but it is only a matter of practice to fully master it. – I missed having him by my side, not counting the happy tone of his voice. – However, when I throw it into the air, it loses power.
– If you are from above then, by the force of gravity, you will make it have more power – my words came out without thinking about them.
– That's why I like to talk to you, you're a genius Shinso! – Every time you talk about me like that, you make it harder for me to hide my feelings. – In fact, it was thanks to you that I thought of this special technique.
– Me?
– Yes, I've always seen how you strive to improve. Either reading in the top of a tree or practicing with Prof. Aizawa ... And I thought I wanted to improve. Become the hero I've always wanted to be. – His eyes were shining; he looked very happy. I couldn't help but look away, otherwise, I would have passed out from so much nervousness. – By the way, – he continued – what relationship do you have with him? I mean; besides that, you are quite similar.
– He's my tutor. Since we both have ranged quirks, he helps me improve combat techniques and other kind of maneuvers.
– You've got nerves of steel. – He exhaled – Prof. Aizawa is very intimidating, but he is the best teacher in all of U.A. – Yes, definitely. And as if he had heard me, he began to laugh lifting his feet like a child.
– What's wrong?
– I'm just very happy to be with you, Shinso! – showing me a wide smile – I missed spending time together. – My body was stiff, and my breathing began to falter as I kept my composure as best I could. – I want to inform you of my progress, and I want to know about yours. You can even come and complain to me about your tutor, I won't tell anyone – it was this last sentence in a whisper that made my tachycardia evident. I only noticed to avert my seething face, placing the back of one of my hands over my mouth – It was a joke! You don't have to if you don't want to – he sounded upset. And it's like imagining him in that state of panic that made me laugh like I hadn't in a long time. I felt that joy did not fit in my chest.
– Thank you Kaminari – I managed to say once my laughter stopped. – Let's go eat something, I invite you. – Way to the exit.
Back in the dorms, after catching up on various topics, we returned from the center. He was very entertaining downing a taiyaki and I was almost finished with my shake. As his dorm was a few from mine that was further away, I decided to accompany him to the entrance, where there were three of the four with whom he used to be. I think they called themselves "Bakusquad" in honor of the explosive that seemed to act as a kind of leader.
– Hello guys! – greeted them lively
– Did they have another date? – The black–haired guy was quite insightful. While it hadn't been my intention, it probably ended like this.
– We just went to eat taiyaki! – showing him the wrapper while was swallowing with difficulty
– You can come next time, if you want – I suggested
– As a third wheel? Don't worry, it's not my thing to bother... – he said showing a mischievous smile
– I didn't know you were so close – pointed the boy with the spike teeth.
– Are you kidding me? Shinso is excellent company! – Kaminari expressed as he hung on my shoulder
– You should join us sometime! – The one with pink skin shouted animatedly. Considering the members, being outgoing and somewhat unruly was a requirement to belong to their squad.
– Groups are not my thing ... Besides, I don't think I am to the liking of the other missing person here. – Bakugou and I couldn't share a place for more than five minutes. Either he caused a nuclear disaster or I made him my slave.
– Or rather, you aren't to anyone's liking – And from the door into the bedroom, the walking grape appeared. – Isn't it time you went to your bedroom?
– What's wrong, Mineta? – the girl snapped
– That's not manly at all, Mineta – now the redhead
– I just want to help, curfew is almost beginning – He had a sinister face.
– You're very attentive, but I don't need your kindness.
– Don't listen to him, he's just upset because he got beaten up by Bakugou for bothering him while he was eating – suddenly the explosive blond began to sympathize with me
– That's another idiot! – he said in a low voice – Are you not thinking of leaving?
– Mineta! – the girl was now standing and now the black–haired guy seemed to want to use his quirk on the dwarf
– Don't worry. – I said. I was fed up with this mollusk and would not allow it to intimidate me again; to get away from who I care. – If you want me to leave so much, make me. – And after saying this, he remained silent. He was unbearable but quite cunning, as he seemed to decipher my intentions. – What happen? Why so quiet all of a sudden? – without taking my eyes off him
– Kaminari's right, you are very useful Shinso. Few had managed to shut him up – the aforementioned was beginning to turn red. He concluded by turning to his feet, slamming the door behind him. And when we thought he had walked away, he peeked out one of the windows
– I only warn you, at the least expected moment you will have them under your control. Kaminari can bear witness to that. – repeating on the window what he did with the door
– I don't understand what's wrong with him – said the blond next to me
– It's true, I've seen him become more aggressive for some time. – The redhead was conflicted – It's as if it wasn't him ...
– He's only resentful because no girl pays attention to him. And that attitude does nothing but repel them – the girl leaned back from who until now I had not noticed was wearing crocs.
– If you have another problem with Mineta, don't hesitate to tell us – the black–haired boy began to like me better
– Any friend of Kami, is our friend – the girl affirmed to be condescended by whoever hugged
– I'll keep it in mind – I smiled at them
– See you tomorrow, Shinso, – he said goodbye to me, waving his hand. I nodded with a smile, on my way to my bedroom.
I must admit that it felt good to show that dwarf that I would not allow his assumptions to keep me out of the way of those I care about; by Kaminari. I didn't want to tell Shota what happened with one of his students, so as not to be like the child who goes to the arms of his protector, but considering the comments of the boys about the change in attitude of the boy, I can conclude that the change in expression and his blazing green eyes weren't an isolated matter. Something was wrong with that boy. Considering his offer this morning, I suppose it would be wise to tell you what happened the night before as soon as possible.
He was a few meters from the entrance, when I saw them, not only him but also Professor Yamada, they were leaning against one of the columns. From where I was, out of their sight, I pretended to call them until I heard a key word: "adopt her." My eyes widened and my first reflex was to hide. I knew that if I asked, they would censor the conversation, and I wanted to know as much as I could.
– I knew it would happen again. – By the tone of voice, the blond sounded funny – The moment you started spending so much time with her, I knew you were going to love her.
– The girl has no one in her charge, and she is already in the academy ... – he rambled. I didn't have to see him to know he was exposed.
– Those are just excuses. You saw Hitoshi in it, right? – I heard the black–haired boy chirping
– Do you want to start the process yes or no? – put him on the ropes.
– Of course! – He hugged him taking his neck while the other made a face of "disgust." He was quite proud at times. He would no longer be an only child, and nothing better than having a tenderness like Eri as a sister.
– We will go to social service after school. Don't be late. – In response he just hugged him tighter. After the talk, I decided to make an appearance.
– I'm sorry... No, you know what? I don't regret anything. I don't care if I interrupt you. – Approaching them. They both parted ways.
– Good night to you too – Shota was still leaning on the column
– We have news for you, Hitoshi! – Now I was the prey of the blond. – You'll have a little sister! – I seemed to feel how his hug adjusted.
– Seriously? How many weeks pregnant are you?
– I'm talking about Eri! – releasing me immediately – What do you think?
– I think you took too long to decide. The girl looks comfortable with both. – Only I remained in this dynamic. I guess I would have to get closer to her little by little.
– Okay then. – Now it was the black–haired man who approached us. – That was all we had to tell you, unless you have something to tell us. – Somehow, I knew he was referring to the conflict with the grape.
– It can wait. For now, it's resolved. – I decided to put the Mineta issue aside for a moment. I didn't want to sour the atmosphere by bringing up an unpleasant subject like that.
– Good. – He answered unconvinced. Without elaborating, they left and I stayed outside until I lost sight of them. For the last seven years it had been just the three of us, but thinking of Eri as another member was by far one of the best news I had received in a long time.
That night I marked on my calendar that there was just one week left before the test that would decide if I would be part of the heroes' course. It would be right after the Cultural Festival. I was anxious, excited, but mostly nervous. Thinking about possible outcomes made me wish for things that were intangible for the moment. But thinking about Kaminari, somehow managed to calm me down. I don't know how long I could hide my feelings. If he continued to act like this with me, I would end up showing him how really are my feelings. Although, maybe that was just what I'd have to do.
– I will confess my feelings after the test – Saying it out loud only freaked my nerves. It was as if by doing so, made it sound definitive.
Regardless of the outcome, I would tell him how important he's for me.
As you may have noticed, the story is very long and although I have tried to at least have a decent wording, with all the corresponding spelling, I am also prey to one or another writing error. If you see any, feel free to comment.
Fact # 43
I like to think of Sero as that friend who knows everything but says nothing. I love how I wrote the personality of this amazing friend.
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