A/N: I don't know if this makes you guys happy or sad, but this is the second last chapter of the story.


Chapter 40: Arizona

Present Day

I know I'm smart. I always knew that I was a bright kid, not in a bragy way but in a 'I know my self worth way'. I was always the person who scored the highest in my class and not just in science. I was good in literature, history, geography, you name it.

Sure, I sucked at gym and preferred to read books in my spare time, but I got enough teasing from Tim to make up for a lifetime. He sucked at Math so I helped him out there, in exchange for him teaching me how to play softball. It's safe to say that I was a better teacher than he was because he scored a B+ and I barely got into the school's softball team. Honestly, I wouldn't have even tried so hard, but it looked good on college applications so I had to.

Being an army brat and travelling from place to place. I met people from all over the world who were fascinated by me and my wits and of course my 'golden hair'. Even though it was great to have such a worldly education, it also meant that I saw a lot of hardship and struggles of other people.

I saw people wounded, I saw people in pain. My mother always told me that the best quality a person could have was humility. So, we had our doors open for anyone who needed help. That's when I decided that I wanted to be a doctor. When we went back to the United States, I applied to the top schools for studying Medicine and got into Hopkins. Johns freaking Hopkins!

Only talented people get there and only the truly gifted people graduate from there.

In my years as a general surgery resident, I had made up my mind to pursue Cardio-Thoracics as my specialty. It was one of the most challenging fields and it was one of the toughest programs to get into at Hopkins and it was awesome, just like me.

But then I had a case which completely changed my perspective.

I had a ten year old who came in with just a mild stomach, showing no signs of anything remotely severe, but then that boy just kept on getting worse and worse. It took me two weeks to solve that. Two weeks! The boy almost died, went through countless surgeries only to realize it was something so simple. Peds was the truly the real badass specialty. And guess what? Peds had even fewer openings than Cardio!

So, I got into the Peds program at Hopkins, I know it wasn't too much of a surprise but I loved setting high expectations for myself and I loved when I achieved them. Sure, I was a surgery hungry shark who was ready to cut off anyone in a path, but I guess I mellowed down and became a more friendly person, a more approachable person throughout the years. Because I went soft, I let my guard down and.. and I got hurt.

"You have been really quiet for sometime, are you okay?" Teddy asked me as my attention snapped back into reality.

She and I are working on this mom who I was supposed to operate this morning, but I had to push it for this afternoon. It was a simple procedure and Teddy was assisting the surgery mainly because the mom had a heart defect and if the mom were to go into sudden arrest. I needed her.

I needed her but she didn't need me. She didn't even tell me about going back. Of course, I knew that she had to, but I just assumed that she'd stay. She'd stay for me.

"Arizona?"

"Hmm… yeah?"

"What's wrong?" Teddy asked.

I… this was not the place to talk to her about my personal life. She doesn't even know that I had given Callie another chance. Although gossip travels really fast around here so I'm sure she already knew.

"I'm fine, why?"

"If you say so…" Teddy said as she looked at me, giving me the stink eye. Even though she had her mask on and I couldn't really see her face. I knew that she did not believe me.

"It's about... um Bagels," I said.

"Bagels?"

"You know Bagels? You get decent Bagels here in Seattle, but then you realize that the Bagel that's in New York was much better, but then now that you have had it, that you have had feelings for it. You just want that Bagel from New York but then the bagel is in New York and you can't have it. Even though you thought that the bagel would be here for you" I hope she understood that I wasn't talking about bagels but was actually talking about my love life.

"Oh wow, I thought donuts were your go to food, but I guess bagels sound lovely too and clearly you are very passionate about it" Teddy replied. Oh god!

So, I leaned over and asked her to do the same. "This isn't about Bagels" I whispered.

"It's about…" Teddy trailed off but I could tell that she finally understood what I meant by bagels.

"Yup" I replied and continued to work on the fetus.

"Do you know for sure? That you like bagels from New York?" Teddy asked.

Was she kidding, she saw how heart broken I was after the divorce, I was thoroughly devastated. I wanted things to work out between us, I wanted it desperately. So I gave her a look.

"Yup, sorry, stupid question. Have you talked to bagels, umm about the whole thing"

I felt a few eyes on Teddy and I. People were starting to figure out that we weren't really talking about pastry items.

"I.. I couldn't, I couldn't just stand there as… " I looked down at my work. I was finished and the mom hadn't even gone into cardiac arrest. "Dr. Smith, would you close?" I said as I made my way to the scrub room.

"Arizona! Just talk to her" Teddy said as she followed me.

"And say what? Callie, please don't go to New York! Please give up everything for me. Move to Seattle and take up a job instead of running your practice in New York. Come back as an attending and not the head of your own freaking department because that position isn't available anymore because we found a great Orthopedic surgeon, not like the incompetent one that you replaced! We got him when you decided to leave to chase your girlfriend, when you couldn't even do the same for me!" I took a deep breath as I gathered myself "I can't, I can't put myself out there for her to crush my heart again. Not after she's already made the choice that she didn't want to stay"

Teddy looked shocked by my sudden outburst. I waited for her to continue, but she didn't say a word. Instead she leaned in and gave me a hug.

"If you ever want to get drunk and not think about it"

"Yeah, that sounds like a plan"

Just then I felt my phone buzz in my pocket. So I picked it up to see that I have a text from Callie.

'I need to leave for New York urgently. Can I see Sofia before I leave?'

I scoffed. According to my knowledge, she wasn't going to leave for New York for another week at least and now she just couldn't stay here anymore? This was ridiculous!

I showed the text to Teddy who shook her head in disbelief.

"So you guys are going to go back from being part time lovers to part time co parents?"

"I guess so…"

"Are you going to let her see Sofia?"

That was a great question. Was I going to treat Callie the same way she treated me? By being petty and not let her see her daughter, or should I be the big person, like always and give her what she wants like her actions were not killing me or her words didn't hurt me.

"I'm not sure, I mean she's our daughter and I can't really use her against Callie for my own benefit, can I?"

"Knowing you, I don't think you'll do that to anyone, no matter how much they have hurt you"

"I hate being so perky sometimes"

"Sure you do" Teddy smirked as I swatted her on her arm. She truly was the best friend anyone could wish for.

"I just, I don't want to see her, you know" I replied as we made our way out of the scrub room towards the nurses station.

Teddy briefly looked over my shoulder before she handed the chart back to the nurse and patted my shoulder. "Well, looks like you don't have a choice" Teddy said before she left. "Dr. Torres" she said as I looked behind me. Behold there she was, dressed in scrubs.

"Dr. Altman" Callie nods as Teddy walks by her.

"Hey" Callie says as she comes to halt beside me. "So, I'm not sure if you saw my text or not, but I have to leave for New York urgently, something's come up and I was wondering if I could see-"

"Yeah, I got your text"

"So you-"

"Sofia's in school right now and then she has soccer practice later and she has to work on her French homework-"

"I thought she was taking Spanish?"

"Yeah she was but then she decided to take French because her best friend switched classes and it was a whole thing with her"

Callie nodded. "Right, so can I see her?"

"She's going to her friend's house after school to work on French, what time is your flight?"

Well done Arizona, keep it nice and simple. Don't talk about your feelings when she clearly didn't even have the audacity to break up with you, Bailey had to announce it and you just happened to be there.

"I leave in" Callie removes her phone from her pocket "four hours actually" she replied.

"Okay, I guess you can pick her after school, just drop her off at her friend's house. Sofia knows the way" I said as I grabbed another chart from the station and started writing down my notes. Honestly, this could wait, but I didn't want to show her how heartbroken I was so pretending to be busy worked well in my favor.

"Arizona?"

"What!" I snapped.

"I… I didn't mean for it to happen this way, I don't want to break up with you, not over this"

"You see Callie, I was under the impression that we were already broken up"

"What? No Arizona, we just had a fight, actually we didn't even fight, you just walked away before I could-"

"What? Yell at me some more, humiliate me in front of everyone?"

"Would you just listen-"

"NO! That's all I have been doing, I've been listening to you, to your wishes so this time I'm going to say it. If you want to go to New York just go. You don't have to tell me about your travel plans. About Sofia, I would like it if you don't disturb her schedule, but obviously you're not going to respect my wishes"

"Arizona…"

"Let me finish…" I took a deep breath "I… let me know when you want to meet Sofia next and maybe we can arrange something"

Callie dropped her head as she unfolded her arms. "I understand… I'll go, unless you want me to stay?" Callie said as she looked up at me.

I was not giving in, not yet. So, I focused my eyes on the chart in front of me. I don't want to see her, I don't want to see the hurt look in her eyes. I wasn't falling for that, not again. Out of the corner of the eyes I saw her hands coming out to rest on the station as one of them made their way towards mine. She couldn't move to Africa to be with me but she could move to New York to be with Penny? Someone who she had been dating for a minute? But then when it came to me and Sofia, she couldn't move back to Seattle?

I immediately put away the chart and folded my arms before she could touch me. "I have a surgery. I need to get going" I replied as I started walking away from her. I could feel her eyes staring at me at the back of my head. It took every ounce of control I had, not to turn around and go back running into her arms. To tell her, please stay, stay I want you to stay. But that's not my decision to make. It was hers.

And clearly she had already made it.


A/N: So? Comments? Thoughts? Angry rants? Just trust me you guys this is a Calzona story. It doesn't end with them pissed off with each other okay? Plus I really liked the fact that Arizona called Callie selfish and so did most of you.

Honestly, I was expecting a little backlash from you guys and the way I wrote about Callie needing a minute to think things through, but I'm glad you guys get her point of view. Anyway thanks for all the love!