September 7

I haven't written in a while because I've been so miserable. I just don't have the motivation to do much of anything. I've spent five days in my era without Inuyasha and it's been absolute hell.

I know my family has been deeply concerned about me. I just feel like my life has been ripped away from me, and my heart has been torn in half. Everything here just feels wrong. I've found so much acceptance and meaning in the Feudal Era and as much as I love my family and appreciate that I've gotten to spend time with them after so long, I feel so lost.

Yesterday evening I separated myself from them and sat outside in our yard at one of the benches sobbing. I had tried to go down the well several times today alone and it didn't work. All of this was my fault. I was such a fool for doing this. I couldn't imagine how much Inuyasha was hurting, and all because I wanted to spite him. I started to think that maybe I don't deserve him after all...

"Kagome."

That was his voice. I almost didn't believe it but when I saw him standing a few feet away, my heart filled with overwhelming love and happiness. I had been so incredibly miserable the last few days but now I was beyond relieved to see him.

I ran over to him and jumped into his arms. "Yasha!" I exclaimed as I buried my face into his chest and cried.

He didn't say anything. Instead, he lifted my chin and kissed me. Hard. Deep, desperate kisses followed. His tongue entered my mouth urgently tasting me. His hands wandered from my face, my hair, my back, my hips, as if he was trying to assure himself that I was real.

After our lips parted he put his forehead to mine, both of us gasping for breath as we gazed into each other's eyes, tears still pouring from mine.

"Don't you ever go into the well without me again. Do you understand?" His voice was firm but instead of sounding angry, he sounded choked up with emotion as tears threatened to fall from his eyes.

I just nodded, still too stunned to speak. I looked into his gold eyes, taking him in as if he would disappear at any moment. "I'm sorry," I said softly after a moment. "I'm sorry for everything."

He threw his arms around me and hugged me tightly, his face buried in my hair as he freely let himself cry. These five days had been just as hard for him as they were for me. I felt awful for hurting him so badly.

"I thought I was never going to see you again…I'm sorry for everything too."

Our moment of peace was broken when Sota saw us.

"Hey, Inuyasha! You're back!"

I noticed the surprised look on Sota's face. "Are you crying?" he said to Inuyasha. He'd never seen Inuyasha cry before, he probably thought Inuyasha was incapable of crying.

Of course, Inuyasha became defensive. He'd cry in front of me but he couldn't let anyone else see him crying. "No! I'm not crying!" he exclaimed as he wiped his face on his sleeve.

I couldn't help but giggle. "It's okay," I said gently as I held his hand.

Yasha's face softened as he hugged me again.

"I'm glad you're back Inuyasha," Sota said. "Kagome was really sad the past few days. I tried to tell her you'd come back."

"You missed me that much?" he said to me in a teasing way.

I elbowed him. "Of course I did."

"You should come inside," Sota said. "Mom is making dinner. I'm sure she'll be happy to see you."

So we followed him to the house with our hands laced together. Both of us were afraid to let go of each other as though the other would disappear if we did.

Then we found mom in the kitchen.

"Hey mom, look who's here," Sota said.

"Oh Inuyasha!" mom exclaimed as she looked up from her cooking. "I'm so glad you're here." She went over and gave him a hug. "I just knew you two would be together again."

"We're not going into the well without each other anymore, that's for sure," I said. Inuyasha kissed the top of my head in response.

"Good, I'm glad you're together again," mom said. "When are you going to go back?"

"Can you even go back?" Sota asked. "Maybe the well has closed off again."

Inuyasha and I exchanged a concerned look. Neither of us knew whether the well had sealed again and that worried us.

"Well, never mind that right now," mom said. She led us over to the kitchen table. "You two have been through a lot today. Have some dinner and then you can stay here and rest tonight. You can worry about going back tomorrow."

"Thanks, mom," I replied.

Later, Inuyasha and I were sitting next to each other on the living room couch still holding each other close and watching as Sota turned on the TV.

"Let's play Smash Bros," Sota said.

"...What?" Inuyasha said, having no idea what that meant.

Sota handed him an XBox controller. "It'll be fun."

I laughed a bit as Inuyasha held the controller upside down staring at it in confusion. I reached over and turned it the other way.

"You know what this is?" Inuyasha asked me.

"Alright, have Kagome play the first round so we can show you," Sota said.

I took the controller out of his hands. "Watch and learn, honey."

Sota got the game started and Inuyasha watched with fascination as we played with a million questions running through his mind.

"I don't get it. How do they fit all of that into this box? And how do these things make the characters move?"

"You're asking too many questions," I said before kissing his cheek. I then handed him the controller. "Your turn."

Sota gave him a quick crash course on what all the buttons did. They picked characters - Sota being Mewtwo and Inuyasha chose Link - and got started. Inuyasha quickly lost to Sota.

"It's much easier to fight with a real sword," Inuyasha grumbled.

"Rematch!" Sota said.

We played a few more rounds and Inuyasha started to get the hang of it. A few games later he managed to win a three-player round. We played Smash Bros for a bit longer and then switched over to Mario Kart which Inuyasha was equally fascinated by.

We played video games for a while then settled on a board game which mom and grandpa played with us. By the time we finished, it was getting late and everyone decided to go to bed for the night.

Inuyasha was waiting for me in my room while I was in the bathroom. When I came into the room, I found him sitting on my bed shirtless looking impatient.

"It took you long enough…" his voice trailed off as he saw what I was wearing.

My nightgown was lavender and satin. It stopped about mid-thigh and had lace trim. The v-neckline gave him a very good look at my cleavage.

"I don't take that long," I said casually. In truth, I had taken a bit longer than usual on purpose. This nightgown was one of the few "sexy" things I owned here but it showed a lot more skin than the ones at home did. Plus all of my lotions and perfumes were here too. I had hoped this would be something he'd like and judging by his reaction I wasn't wrong.

In seconds he was next to me with his arms around my waist. "I like this," he said as he gently caressed from my back to my hips. He then leaned down to kiss my neck and moaned as he caught the scent of my perfume. "You smell good."

"Let's go to bed," I said. I turned off the lights then we got under the blankets and immediately cuddled close to each other. The few days we had been apart seemed far too long.

Inuyasha's hands continued to wander across my body as he kissed me. "You've got to bring this back with you," he said between his kisses.

Clearly, the nightgown was a good idea. I could feel how aroused he was and with the way he was touching me and kissing me, I wasn't far behind him.

His mouth found mine for a deep, passionate kiss. The heat was starting to rise between us. Soft moans escaped us. Inuyasha rolled over so that he was halfway on top of me and continued to kiss me hard. Only this morning we thought we would never be able to make love again. Being together like this was special.

I hesitated though. My family wasn't far away and the walls weren't that thick. The last thing I wanted was for any of them to hear me crying out his name as he made me cum. "Yasha…"

"Oh, Kagome," Inuyasha breathed, not picking up that I was trying to stop him.

"Yasha," I said again, pulling away from his kiss.

He gave me a confused look as he wondered why she was stopping.

"They're going to hear us," I pointed out.

Inuyasha just smirked. "I guess you'll just have to be quiet then, baby."

He gave me another kiss, this one soft and lingering. I tried to be strong, but I quickly gave in to him and whimpered when he pulled away. That smirk was still on his face and I knew I'd never be able to resist him. "Fine, I'll be quiet."

He wasted no time moving on top of me, removing my clothing and pleasuring me throughout the night. It was hard to suppress making a lot of noise as we made love but we managed not to wake up anyone in the house.

We were supposed to be going back home today, at least we were if the well would let us go back. As anxious as we were to find out, I wanted to stay here at least a little bit longer. I don't know if the well will ever open back up again if we go back. I want to spend time with my family while I can.

I woke up in a panic this morning thinking everything was a dream but it subsided when I heard him laugh. "I'm still here, love."

Sure enough, there he was. His strong arms were around me and his sleepy eyes looked amused.

"Good, I don't know what I'd do if yesterday had been a dream." I leaned into his bare chest and took in the feeling of his warm body as everything started to rush back to me. He was here by my side where he was supposed to be.

"Last night was nice. I'm surprised you were able to be quiet," he said as he ran his fingers up and down my leg. "Now I finally know what it's like to do it in your bed."

I looked at him curiously. "Finally? You mean you've thought about this before?"

Inuyasha realized what he said and blushed. "Um, well, not exactly...I mean, it's not like when we were chasing down Naraku I had ever thought about having sex with you or anything…"

"Wait, what?!"

"That's not what I meant! I definitely was not thinking about it back then…"

Now we were both blushing furiously.

"Inuyasha...I thought about it too," I admitted.

Inuyasha looked at me in shock. "Really?"

I nodded. I was embarrassed to say it but it was true. Sometimes I did wonder what it would be like to kiss him and touch him and take things one step farther. "I really loved you and...and sometimes I wondered when you were here about if we ever did go that far…"

At that, he leaned in and kissed me; a deep, passionate kiss that conveyed all of the love he felt for me.

"Smells like your mom is making breakfast," he said afterward. "Should we head down? I guess after that we can go back home."

"Well actually Inuyasha, I've been thinking…"

"About what?"

"I haven't seen my family in such a long time and when we go back home, I don't know if the well will ever open up again. Would it be okay if we stay here for a few more days?"

"Sure," he replied.

"Really?" I wasn't expecting him to be easy about it but I was extremely grateful. I gave him a hug. "Thank you, Yasha!"

"You're welcome, love," he said. "I know it's been hard for you to be away from your family, Kagome."

"Yeah, it has been…"

He ran his fingers across my cheek. "I feel bad. I know you miss it here. You've given up so much to live with me. I wish I could make it so that you can see your family more often."

I placed a gentle kiss on his lips. "You're very sweet, Yasha. It's okay. I chose this life, I want to be with you. I don't mind making the sacrifice. Maybe if we stay until the end of the week, would that be okay?"

"That's fine with me," he said before kissing me again.

"I hope everyone else won't miss us too much."

"They'll understand. And we'll tell them all about it when we get back." He sat up and stretched. "Now, that breakfast smells really damn good and I'm so fucking hungry."

I laughed. "Let's go."

And so we'll be staying here until the end of the week. I really hope the well lets us get through. Above all else though, I'm just relieved that I'm with Inuyasha again. I don't know what I would have done without him...