AMY POV
For the first time in our relationship, Sonic was more excited than me to leave the house.
As I locked the door, I slowly turn around and I start walking towards the car that Sonic was putting our bags in the trunks. He closes and the sound of it slamming scares me and he looks over at me.
"Why are you going so slow? We have to drive an hour across Japan to get to the Hasuda, Saitama. I haven't even been there before so it might be longer because I am probably going to be lost." He says and I nod my head and walk faster to the car.
Sonic opens it and then he closes it and leans on the door and folds his arm.
"Amy." He says and I blush since I knew I was acting nervous.
"I know… I'm not trying to be nervous." I say and Sonic chuckles and brings me in for a hug.
"I wasn't going to say that. I know you are nervous. I am nervous too but I'm very excited for you to meet your mom… and some family of hers. Plus, it's a tiny vacation for three days so its going to be nice to get away from the city with you." He says and I smile.
"You won't have a problem with being there for three days? You don't have too-"
"I don't have a problem at all. I want to meet your mom and whoever else." He says. "Plus I have to meet her to ask her a certain question."
"What question?" I ask and Sonic kisses my forehead.
"The question that all boyfriends have to ask." He says and I still feel confused.
"What question is that?"
"Usually, when couples date and they fall so deep in love with each other. The boyfriend has to ask a question for something pertaining to that." Sonic says and I still feel confused.
"A question… deep in love-" I gasp and Sonic starts to laugh.
"Y-Y-Y-YOU ARE GOING TO ASK FOR MY HAND IN MARRIGE?!" I yell and Sonic laughs.
"No, I wanted to ask why you act so crazy. Like maybe she gave you too much breast milk and that's why you are so clingy and crazy half of the time-"
I punch Sonic in his chest, and he laughs loudly making me laugh at his stupid joke.
"That was mean. I thought you was actually going to ask to marry me…" I say.
"Aww, you want me to marry you, baby?" he says and I open my own door and push him out the way.
"No." I say and Sonic catches the door before I can close it.
"No? Why is that?" he asks leaning down close to my face and I turn my head.
"Because you are a bully and keep on joking about not marrying me."
"Heh, I didn't mean that joke, princess." He says and kisses my neck since I turned it from him, and I giggle and look at him.
"Yes, you did. Stop trying to make me not wanting to kill you since you keep on playing like that."
"Eh, I do what I want." He says and he closes the door before I can call him anything.
As Sonic walks around, I notice he has his phone on a mount and it has the address for the location we were meeting up meet my mom. I fold my arms and slightly squeeze myself since I was feeling nervous again until Sonic came into the car with that same cocky smile.
"I was just kidding by the way. Come here. Come here." He says and grabs my face, and he was about to kiss me until he stops.
"What?" he says, and I try to find the words to reply. "Still really nervous?"
"Yes."
Sonic pulls me in close making me sigh and I hug him back gently.
"Sonic always knows what I need."
Sonic kisses my cheek and then he kisses my lips. I kiss him back my heart stirs from the super sweet gestures from him. Sonic leans back and his eyes look so full of care and love and he kisses my forehead and then touches my hair as he looks at it.
"I'll be with you. Through everything." He says softly.
"Okay… then let's go." The words leave my mouth and I feel a lot more confident since I had Sonic to rely on.
"He is right. I feel like I keep on forgetting that I am not going to be alone so I'll still be nervous and whatever emotions are to come with it but I won't be alone." I think as Sonic leans back from me and starts to drive.
"I won't be alone. Not like how she left me-" I stop thinking because I didn't even know what I was thinking. "I… I didn't even mean wha tI just thought. Where did that even come from."
My nervousness come back but I get distracted with Sonic placing his hand on my thigh and rubbing it as he drove.I gently touched his hand as well and he looks over at me and smiles and grabs my hand instead.
"I'll hold your hand too while we drive." He says happily and follows the instructions to the GPS. "Oh and let her know we are on the way."
I go in my phone and I was about to text her until I look at other messages me and her sent each other. Me and my mom had been talking normally. Getting to know each other a little and she told me where she lived since she was just as positive as me that we were related. She even sent me pictures of her home and more baby pictures of me that Sonic wanted to have, and I just wanted to see. But what I was also thinking was how it took her to find me.
"Hopefully she found me because she wanted to have her daughter back and nothing else."
An hour later.
Sonic stepped out the car first once we parked at the parking lot in front of a train station and then I get out. My legs were shaking from being anxious and maybe excited, but I just wanted to see how she looked. If she really looked like me in person. The sky was blue with a couple of grey clouds and the area was surround by trees, but the parking lot was clear so people getting off to get on the train station can see where they are going. Big oak trees shook as a cold wind would pass by us and through them.
Sonic grabs my hand, and he tries to spot out the car she said she was going to be in.
"A black car… black car…"
We walk around some more around the parking lot and we come across a public bench area with a water fountain. Sonic and I both look around until he squeezes my hand.
"I think that's her. With the pink hair and the brown sweater." He says and I don't say anything as I see her from a distance.
Sonic leads the way and I start dragging behind him and scooting closer behind him too. I was starting to become afraid, so I remove hand from his and I grab his arm.
Sonic stops and turns to me as I am sure he is wondering why I was behind him.
"Amelia, it's okay. I'm right here with you." Sonic tries to pull me back beside him, but I shake my head.
"Can I just stay behind you…" I say and Sonic nods his head.
"Yeah." He says and we start walking again.
We kept on moving closer and closer and all I wanted to do was to go the other way but having Sonic with was the only reason I was doing this in the first place.
"Hey!" I hear a female voice say making me almost stop until Sonic responds back.
"Hello!" he yells, and he looks behind him to me. "Hey… you meet them first and I'll be right with you. I think it's really her and she seems nice. Just be yourself."
"Alright…" I say softly and Sonic keeps on leading the way.
I start to hear footsteps and I keep my head down to my feet until we stop. Sonic moves his arm making me look at him and he nods his head over in front of us and I slowly look forward.
She was… just as tall as me. Slightly. She was a bit taller but her face. Her face looked just like mine. She looks like me if I was older... My eyes move over her facial features and my eyes stop on her hair.
"Her hair… so shiny and curly."
Her hair was short compared to my curly hair that went past my bra strap. She also had on some light blue earrings that went nicely with her brown sweater and light blue jeans and boots. As my eyes traveled her body it made me think about how the curves of her body was slightly similar to mine, but I was definitely smaller but her waist and mine had some similarities. She was in shape too. I could tell she worked out somehow based on her legs.
I notice where my eyes were, and I blush quickly and look back to her eyes. Her eyes were filled with tears and her hands were moving slightly. Like she wanted to touch me. Her mouth opened and then she closed it.
"Maybe I should speak first…" I think as I look at her and then I look behind her slightly to see two other people behind her.
A girl that was my height with the darker pink colored hair looked familiar from the pictures she showed me and also the man behind her that had the same color hair as the girl.
"Is that her family-"
She takes a step towards me and I feel fear and I clench Sonic's arm. Sonic looks down to me and chuckles.
"It's okay. I really think that's your mom. Just say hi" he says and I look at him and then back to her.
I blush from my shy actions and I bow my head.
"Hi." I say softly and she bows back.
"Hello, wow. You really grew to be my twin." She says and I don't know how to feel.
"Can I feel your hair?" she asks, and I stare at her as her question floats in my mind.
"My hair…she wants to touch it."
"Mom, that's a weird question to ask." Says the girl behind her and my "mom"(I think) laughs big.
"It is but… my baby had the best hair. I just need to touch it if that's okay. I don't want to scare you." She says.
I gently let go of Sonic's hoodie he had on and I walk on my own, getting closer to her. She comes closer to me as well and she walks up to me slowly. I grab my arm as I come closer and we both get close enough for us to look at each other for the first time. My eyes just couldn't stop looking at her face until her hands come up and I look at them. It gently comes closer to my face and I feel my hair move.
She gasps as she rubs it between her fingers, and she places her hand over her mouth that had a fat ring on her ring finger with some faded scars.
"Oh my god… it really is you Amelia." She says and a tear falls from her face.
I don't know how to respond as she lets go of my hair and looks over me.
"Can I hug you?" she asks, and I blush again.
I nod my head and she pulls me in almost instantly. Her hug feels so different that it makes me look up at her. She even smelled… like home. Like I should have been in her arms way sooner.
"Is this parent love? Is this how families feel?" I think as she hugs me tighter with a big smile.
"It feels so safe…"
I bring my arms up around her and I hug her back. I still feel confused and lost as I hug her but something my head was telling me this was right. She pulls out of the hug and looks all around me.
"You look healthy! I'm glad- I mean you just look so beautiful." She says and I nod my head.
I noticed I haven't really spoke to her once we got close to each other, so I blush again and try to build some courage.
"I-I-I-… thanks. Your hair is very shiny." I say nervously and my voice was slightly higher than usually, but I am sure it's because I was so nervous.
"Is it? Your hair looks great too! Your curls were so tight as a baby and now they got looser slightly." She says as she touches my hair again.
"Haha, it got a frizzy from me sleeping on it incorrectly. But…" I stop talking because I keep on just looking at her face.
"Maybe you can teach me how to take care of it correctly." I say and her eyes lighten up quick and she grabs my wrist.
"Of course! We have so much to go over! We can talk about it while you catch me up on everything." She says and then she turns around. "Oh, and maybe I should get you caught up on some family members.
"Family members…"
"Rosy! Karkous! Come meet your step-sister and step daughter." She says and they walk up quick.
First my eyes look up to the man with the dark pink hair the same as the girl, but his eyes were blue. He was very tall and was sslimmer but he looked friendly. His hair was curly too, but he kept it in a pony tail. A small one and he walks up to me hugs me.
"Another daughter. I heard so much about you for all these years. So glad to finally meet my daughter. I'm Karkous or dad. Whatever feels good for you." He says.
"N-Nice to meet you. I'm Amy- or Amelia!" I say and I blush form my shy outburst.
"I'm not sure if I should go by that here. I don't want her to think that I changed my name or something… well she really wasn't here for me to do something like that anyway- wait. I don't need to think like that."
"Amy? That's your nickname? That so cute! When you were a baby, I called you Lia sometimes, but Amy fits you better too!" she says and I stare at her for a moment as she brings up me being a baby.
"And I'm Rosy. Your new little stepsister." Says the girl behind Mr. Karkous.
" A sister."
She had her hands in her red Nike hoodie pocket and black nike sweatpants with matching red Nike shoes waved in the wind. She kept her hands in her pockets and it seemed like she didn't want to hug me or even shake my hand, so I smile awkwardly.
"hi, nice to meet you." I say and her looser curly hair moves past her as she looks at me too.
"We are the same height." She says.
"We are. So, we are definitely related." I say and she nods her head and then she looks behind me.
"Is that your boyfriend. The singer guy." She asks and I turn around to see Sonic with a smile and enjoying himself watching me meet my family.
"Y-Yeah."I say and I walk up to Sonic who was looking at me and I grab his hand and bring them to them.
"This is Sonic. My boyfriend." I say shyly and they walk up and greet him.
"Sonic! It's so good to meet you and you are a tall young man! Handsome too! Amelia said you were very smart! That's great to know!" she says and Sonic chuckles.
"Heh, she said I was smart? I didn't even know that." He says and winks at me making me blush and look off." But it's nice to meet you to Mrs. Suzuki. You two Mr. Suzuki and Rosy."
Rosy stares at Sonic as my stepdad and mom talks to him about Sonic and her eyes come back to mine. I look off to the conversation going on and the awkwardness I felt when I was looking Rosy fled once my mom clapped her hands.
"We have such a journey ahead of us. Let's head home and get you all settled in. We can catch up over dinner and then some." She says looking at me.
"Sweet. We will follow you guys." Sonic says placing his hand on my head and pulls me back slightly.
We all separate and get in our cars and I finally release a big breath.
"That was so cool. She looks just like you so much." Sonic says as he puts the car in drive and starts to follow their car. "Even her smile. Looked like I was looking right at you but just older. You were so cute meeting her too. I was glad I could see that. You did good. Rosy slightly looks like you too but her hair is curly and darker, like her dads… woah you slightly have a dad. That's cool right?"
Everything Sonic said makes me realize what just happened and I don't know what to say.
"Haha, and you told them I'm smart. Babe, you are always telling people that. I don't hate it but it's so funny to hear from others-"
"I don't know if I like calling her mom." I say randomly and Sonic looks at me.
"Okay… why not besides her missing 22 years of your life." He asks.
"… It's so cool meeting her but… every new thing I learn or do with her reminds me of how my life could have been different-"I stop talking because I didn't know how to feel anymore. "Should I even be saying that? It feels… bad coming from my mouth but I constantly get these… pent up feelings coming to my head."
"I'm sure she has pent up feelings too." Sonic says. "Don't stop thinking how you are. That;s how you feel and if you don't want to call her mom then call her Ribbon"He says.
"I couldn't do that!" I say and Sonic laughs.
"Hey, I'm just going off on how you said you felt. She would understand. I'm sure she thought about how you probably don't see her as a mom. You don't know her, and she doesn't know you. I'd feel weird calling someone mom so soon." He says.
"It is weird… ugh this entire experience is weird and Rosy didn't even want to hug me…" I say since I felt slightly happy about having a sibling. "What if she doesn't like me. I… I was really excited to meet her, but she seemed like she wanted nothing to do with me."
"Yeah, me too. She didn't say much, Maybe she was just testing the waters. You have to remember that we all are strangers." He says and I nod my head. "But you guys are family. Just be you and let the rest of these three days mix in it. You will be fine and if anyone gets disrespectful with you or hurts your feelings then I'll handle it. It's been a while since I was violent with someone- "
"No, Sonic." I say and Sonic starts laughing again.
"Haha, okay. Okay." He says and he places his hand back on my leg as we turn into a neighborhood. "But everything will be fine. I promise. They seem cool."
"I hope so. I just don't know what to expect after these three days."
We pull up into their driveway and since we were in the country part of Japan then the trees returned and scoured over the land of their home. Their home wasn't that big but the land they had was huge.
The grey roof of the house stretched in the orange sun with white clouds sky, letting people who was approaching it like we were know that it had two stories. Also, with the lovely trees and pretty bushes it, also let me know that the house had to be as nice as it was outside from the inside. The walls on the outside of the house was a lighter grey with black borders around the windows and the doors which were clear and boarded with a black wood as well.
My eyes look at the house and I look all the way to the chimney, and I watch steam or smoke float out of it and go into the sky and disappear right after.
"Her home is nice as well… seems like she had a lot of time on her hands to fix her life from what I heard from my foster parents and agents. She doesn't even look like a former drug addict." I ponder as I look away from the sky, hovering the house I possibly could have lived in.
We drive up I trying to imagine myself living here normally as we pass a swinging bench, covered by a tree and it moves back and forth as the cold wind pushes against it. I notice that the tree has a sign on it that says apple tree but of course there weas no apples because of the freezing weather but my mind still imagines myself sitting on the bench.
"I'd probably sit there all the time. Reading or playing my guitar." I place my hand on the side of the door and I start to feel different. The feeling coming from my chest and into my head makes me look away to the front and I notice we are parking behind my stepdad's car. Sonic turns off his car and he pats my thigh and I look over to him.
"I'll get the bags." He says and gets out the car.
I watch him and as he closes his door, that makes me feel slightly nervous again, so I get out as well not to look to cause any attention of me not moving like he is. I step out and the first breath of air is cool, and their home looked way better out of the car.
The way the short grass dances and the few trees swaying in the sunset… all my mind does is wonder of how my life could be.
"How did I dodge such a perfect life when I was born… why didn't I get to experience this and Rosy looks so comfortable and happy here… with my mom and her dad… not that I am jealous of Rosy but what happened in the universe for me to go through what I through for 18 years."
I sigh tiredly after thinking so much and I turn my head towards the front part of the house and my stepdad is standing right next to me. I jump and it makes him laugh and back up.
"Sorry! I said your name, but I think you were zoning out looking at the yard." He says and I blush because I didn't realize how long he had been there.
"It's nice right? I worked on the front yard to get it the best for Rosy when she was about twelve. Your stepsister loves trees… and apples too. Nature all together so I try my best to keep my front yard looking amazing." He says and I nod my head and look back at it.
"… I see. That's why the front yard looks so peaceful and unreal."
"Well- maybe I can make you something too here!" he says and I look back over to him. "Since my other daughter is in my life, then I should make sure she has something she likes as well."
"Make me something?" I ask and he smiles at me finally talking to him.
"Yeah! You can tell me anything you like, and I can make it for you! Maybe a treehouse? If you don't think that's too kiddie. We have room in the back for it or I can make you a wooden guitar since you play it." Mr. Karkous says.
"A-a treehouse?... I've always wanted a treehouse and you can make guitars?" I ask stepping up.
"I sure can! The treehouse might have to be made during the spring but if you come around for spring break maybe then you can come climb in it once its finished. But you have to promise to visit." He says.
"…Visiting. Right." I say softly and I look off.
"Visiting because I have a family… also another reminder that I still don't have a family… or I do have a family now. Everything feels confusing."
Sonic walks up behind with the bags he immediately looks at my face and I look him. Sonic notices that I probably seem sad, but he smiles and pushes it over because he didn't want to make a scene for me.
"I got the bags. Also, Mr. Karkous your home is beautiful." He says and seems to lighten up when it comes to his home.
"Isn't it! I constructed this house as well!" he says, and he turns around and starts to walk towards the entrance and we follow him.
"You did? That's crazy." Sonic says and they start to talk about the house, and I look at the car.
Rosy walks out of it and she looks at me. I raise my hand to wave at her but she looks away quickly before I can do that, so I gently drop my hand to my side.
"We are strangers… I have to remember that." I say and I bring my attention back to Sonic and my stepdads' conversation.
My stepdad was blushing slightly from all the compliments Sonic was giving and I smile at them getting along.
"Wow, I can see how you say you are an architect… I might have to have you make a house for me too in the future." He says and looks at me.
"A house? Sonic, you are so young what do you need a house for?" he questions and Sonic shrugs his shoulders.
"Future plans." He says and I blush as I catch on to Sonic hinting.
"Well good futures plans require you to good paying job too. Amelia said you are a very bright student so I'm sure we can plan a house for you in the future." He says and Sonic laughs again.
"Yes sir, it does require, and a good job and Amelia said I was a very bright student? Your step-daughter becomes more golden and golden every second." Sonic says making me blush even more and my stepdad laughs and opens the door for us.
"Can't wait to get to see more of that as much as you." Mr. Karkous says, and my red face stays on my face as I enter the home.
The house smells just like my mom. It reminds me of that home feeling I felt once when my Mom brought me in her embrace. The heat from the vents brought me in a embrace as my feet step on the marble flooring.
My eyes roam around the quickly as I take my shoes off and me trying to imagine myself living her continues to occur in my mind.
Every morning and afternoon, I would run through these doors into the foyer that had a dining room to the right of it and to the left a study room, and I would skip both of those rooms and slide right into the living room to watch flatscreen TV after school. The living room was yellow and burnt orange with pretty pillows and blankets sitting on the couches and a loveseat.
I step up on the carpet and I look down at my feet. My socks sunk into the light brown carpet and I look back to look around the foyer.
"So warm." I think and my mom appears from around the corner and she walks up to rubbing her hands on her jeans.
The scent coming with her is a glorious smell of food and I look at where she came from and it makes me think that she just came from the kitchen.
"Welcome home!" she says and that throws me off as she approaches us.
"Home?... What does she mean "home." I never even knew this place existed."
"Thanks. Your home is definitely homey and warm." Sonic says walking beside me.
My mom's comment about this being my home makes me look away from her and the rotunda we are in goes silent since I didn't speak.
"How about I show you guys your room- No, wait! I'll get Rosy to show you! Rosy!" she yells and Rosy comes out from the other side of the hallway with a t-shirt on and the same pants and shoes we met her in." Show your sister and her boyfriend their room, please! Then you all can come eat for dinner and rest after. I know the ride was long so we should just eat and then start getting to know each other tomorrow."
"Why is she acting so happy and cheerful." I think as I look at my feet.
"Sure. Follow me, guests." Rosy says bowing and Sonic chuckles and takes the first steps and I follow him to our room we were going to be staying at for the next three days. I fold my arms around myself as I walk up the steps and we stop at the first door. Rosy opens it and walks in and we follow her.
The room had the same warm bright colors around the house we saw and still the same warm, fuzzy feeling. We also had a balcony that showed the right side of the house. More trees and bigger bushes were on the side of it as well from what I could see through the curtain covering the windows and the balcony door.
"Thanks for showing us." Sonic says and I turn around quick to look at Rosy.
"No, prob. Dinner will be ready soon, so I'll back to get you in a few." Rosy says and I open my mouth to thank her, but she turned away quickly again before I could speak.
The door closes and Sonic turns around to me.
"Amelia Rose. The quietest she has ever been in her life, stands before me as she looks so beautiful in that yellow hoodie, I bought her. Let's see if she has any words to say about the experience so far." Sonic talks like a announcer watching a football game and motions his hand out like he was holding a microphone.
Sonic bringing up that I haven't spoken, makes me think of why I haven't been talking. Sonic drops his hand since I didn't go with his joke and he chuckles and grabs my hands that was around my body.
"Okay, you are super quiet. Are you mad?" he asks, and I blush.
"N-No. I just… this is weird, and I don't know how to react to anything." I say softly and Sonic places his hand on my head and brings me close to his chest.
He then wraps his arms around me too and laughs.
"Babe… just be however you want to be. There isn't a certain way to act."
"Then what do I do." I ask looking at Sonic this time. "Do I just tell her at the table about how I feel about her losing me to foster homes? Or do I ask her why she decided to find me once our band gets a little famous while I interrupt your conversation with her, talking about how beautiful her kitchen is." I say and Sonic facial expression changes and I gasp as I realized I said something rude.
"I-I-I didn't mean that. Sorry. I'm…" I stop talking and I look off and unwrap my arms around Sonic."…Sorry… I think I am just stressed."
Sonic smiles slightly and he walks away from me making me feel guilty of what I said.
"Do you not want me to talk about their home?" he asks as he takes his hoodie off and places it his bag.
"I-I-I… I didn't mean what I said. I just…" Sonic places his bag in the closet and I sigh heavily. "Just ignore anything coming out of my mouth. I didn't mean it. That was rude of me"
Sonic laughs and turns around to me in a grey t-shirt hugging his chest nicely.
"Well, my feelings aren't hurt." He says as he comes back to me." If that's how you feel, then it is. Seems like you don't want me to talk about their home because you think its distracting everything from the reason why we are here. I won't talk about the house anymore."
"No… Sonic I want you to say how you feel too. Please just ignore what I said. I didn't mean it and I also didn't mean to say it like that." I say touching Sonic arms.
"But you did mean it. " he says and I pout.
"Not exactly… I didn't mean to say it like that to you. You can talk about whatever you want-"
"I can but… this is about you. Not me enjoying their gorgeous home." He says and pecks my forehead. " I told you I am here for you so I'll focus more on you. Okay?"
Sonic words still make me regret what I said to him and how I said it since he was just trying to have a nice time, but I agree with him since he was right most of the time.
"Alright. I-I am sorry for saying that to you. I didn't mean it." I say and Sonic laughs.
"Haha, its fine. I took no offense." He says and a knock comes at the door.
"We are coming!" Sonic says and he takes my beanie from my head and throws it on the bed.
"Undress a little." He says and I grab my hoodie to take it off but getting comfortable at her home makes me stop.
"… I think, I'll keep my hoodie on." I say.
I take my shoes off though and I walk up to the door with Sonic in my socks and he opens it. Rosy was right in front of it and she looks up from her phone to look at us and she looks at me first and then back to Sonic.
"Mom made miso soup, salmon teriyaki, rice, daikon and cucumber pickles." Rosy says as we walk down the stairs.
"Miso soup sounds great right now based on how cold it is." Sonic says and I look at him talk with a happy expression his face and I start to feel bad about how I talked to him.
"It's pretty good. She made a lot so feel free to eat as much as you can." She says and Sonic seems more elated about the news of a lot of food.
I tap his arm and Sonic looks over to me.
"Hm?" he asks and I blush.
"Um… whenever we get back, I'm making you cookies." I say and Sonic is more excited.
"Really? Why?" he asks.
"B-Because of what I said to you." I say and Sonic laughs quietly.
"It's okay, baby. I know you never meant to say it like that. I'm not mad but I will accept the cookies still if you are offering them." He says and I frown at Sonic.
"It's not okay. I was mean."
"You weren't Amy."
"I was."
"No, you were not. I knew what you meant."
"It was still mean!" I say slightly louder and Rosy turns back to us.
"What was mean?" Rosy asks and I look away from to Sonic to her.
Rosy stands by a door, that had the smells of food floating out of it. I also look over her face to see that she looks a lot like my mom and me and her had some characterlike similarities. The way her shoulder length hung past her shoulder slightly made me blush because I noticed how pretty she was.
"Hm? Does your girlfriend always just stop talking and start blushing." Rosy asks and Sonic laughs.
"Most of time, yeah-"
"Rosy." I say and Rosy looks at me and she even starts to blush after me saying her name.
"You… You are very pretty." I say and Rosy blushes even more and turns away from me.
"What? Where did that even come from?" Rosy asks walking into the kitchen and I follow her quickly.
"I… I don't know. I just thought that when you looked at me." I say and Rosy turns around to me with still blushing as much as I probably was.
"Well, you are pretty too. You resemble mom a lot." Rosy says and I stop blushing as she brings up that I look like someone I knew nothing about.
"Right. I look just like a woman that lost me before you were even born." I think and then the woman that was the reason why I was on the earth in the first place, appears from the kitchen and hangs her apron up.
"Dinner is in the dining room! Another way!" she says cheerfully and Rosy starts walking out of the kitchen.
My mom smiles at me and I turn my shoulder and start walking out with Sonic following. We enter the dining room, and a light blue table is in the back of the room that was near windows. There were two chairs on both sides of the table and then single ones on the end. Music was being played from a record player they had playing on a table and my stepdad was already sitting down but he was on his phone and he gets off of it as Rosy sits down at the edge.
"Finally, all this food looks amazing and I was sitting here almost about to eat it all myself." Mr. Karkous says and Rosy laughs.
"No, dad. You can't do that, or mom is going to start talking chopsticks away like she did last time." Rosy says and Sonic laughs at the conversation on going.
"Mom, knows her food is amazing, and I can barely wait." Mr. Karkous says as Sonic pulls out a chair for me and I thank him before sitting.
My stepdad sees that action and so does Rosy.
"Sonic, you were definitely raised correctly. Treating a lady with respect" Mr. Karkous says.
"Thank you." He says as he sits down himself in front of the food like the rest of us.
"Where did you learn to be such a gentleman." Rosy asks and Sonic shrugs his shoulders.
"No one exactly. Amelia is just the type of woman who deserves that kind of respect." He says and rubs my back.
"I know she is." A voice says behind me and comes in front of me and sits down next to her husband. "Amelia was the sweetest baby. A smile carried with happiness everywhere she goes."
"Really? I feel like Amy would have cried a lot as a baby." Sonic says and Ribbon looks at me and responds.
"She didn't. She was very calm and happy. Most mothers say it's hard to take care of a baby but Amelia broke the odds and just was happy all of the time." She says.
…
"What… what makes her think she knows anything about me. Happiness? What happiness did I feel when all I remember is being a foster home? That's my closest memory of anything when I could remember anything."
My hand clenches up under the table and I look ahead of us and I grab the chopsticks. I start eating immediately without looking up at the conversation that slowed down to a stop.
"I don't want to hear this conversation- "
"Okay, well everyone dig in." Ribbon says and everyone starts to eat.
Besides the music being played behind us, the sounds of munching and drinking of water occurs and I start to slow down with my eating as I start to lose my appetite. The feeling in my body made me feel even more weird than when how I felt when she hugged me for the first time.
So, I start to pick at some of the salmon and I take small bites.
"So, Amelia!" Her voice makes me stop moving my chopsticks so I could hear the words coming out of her mouth. "H-hows the food?"
The nervousness from her voice made me almost look at her but I push it over and answer her question that made her think she was fixing 18 years of her not knowing if I was alive.
"It's great."
The room floats in silence after my dry response and she comes back again.
"I'm glad. I wanted the food to be perfect for you since it's your first meal of mine. Unless you can remember what I cooked for you when you were younger- "
"Nope. I don't remember a thing. I don't even remember what your face looked like." I say softly and take another bite. "I wish I could remember so I could have been left with something when I was on my own. This food is amazing."
The room goes in silence and the song ends as well making me look up to see Ribbon to see her looking at me.
"As you are here… I'll cook for you as many times as I can to fill the hole of you not being here." She says and my eyes widen slightly because she looked sad.
Everyone was looking at me sad, matter of fact so I try to think of something quick to push the awkward pressure from out of the room.
"B-but I also get feed all the time by Sonic." I say looking at him with his mouth full of food. "Sonic is a pro at it."
"Oh really?" Mr. Karkous says and Sonic swallows his food quickly to respond.
"Haha, its nothing too serious. I just learned how to cook from my mom growing up." Sonic brings up and then they start asking him all the types of things he can cook.
I zone out of the conversation and pick at my vegetables. Being here at this table slightly draining me because of the sentences coming out of my mouth that I didn't understand.
"I'm starting hate everything coming at out of my mouth at the moment. I really would like to just go back home so I wouldn't have to feel like this… a feeling I don't even understand."
I slightly look up from eating and I try to get into the conversation instead of looking like I would rather be anywhere else.
"Haha, I don't think I would major in culinary. I think just cooking for me and Amy is good enough for me." Sonic says smiling at me.
"What are you majoring in, Amelia." Ribbon asks
…
"Music."
"I'm glad because your concert at Tokyo was so good! That how I saw you because Rosy was watching it on the TV." She says and I look over to Rosy. "Rosy, tell Amelia how you are a fan of her music-"
"Mom… stop." Rosy says blushing and looking off.
"It's the truth! We all were just watching until I saw your pink hair and I instantly knew from your smile and hair that it was you." She says and I bite my inner lip.
"I kept on replaying it and replaying it as you sang and jumped off of the speaker and then when you accepted the award. I-I-I was shocked. I looked over to Karkous and I screamed and told him to come look at the TV to see if it looked like you and he said it did so… so I searched everywhere to try to contact you and that post on facebook worked." She says.
"That's right. We even tried to contact the festival but of course they wouldn't just give out information like that." Mr. Karkous says. "But when you saw it… we all were so happy." He says and I place my chopsticks on my plate and then I rest my hand on the table
"And still are…" she says and suddenly a hand touches mine.
It wasn't Sonic's so I look up to see that it was hers and she had tears in her eyes as she touched my hand. Her soft palm made me stare at her hand and then I look back at her face.
"I'm just really glad to have you back, Amelia. You just don't understand how long I wanted to sit with you and eat with you."
"I think I'm going to bed." I say moving hand away from her and I standing up. "Thanks for the meal."
I start walking off on my own, leaving the quiet room awkward and probably concerned but I didn't care. I hear chairs scoot on the wooden floor and some conversation from far away and I open the door to the room we would be staying in and I close the door.
I start taking off my hoodie this time and I place it in my bag. Soon, the door opens behind me and I don't bother to look back. Footsteps come up behind me and then I hear a recognizable chuckle.
"That was some exit." Sonic says and I shrug my shoulders and grab my pajamas which was just a bigger t-shirt and some underwear.
I stand and I start walking to the shower until Sonic grabs my arm.
"Wait, wait. Can you look at me first?" he asks and I turn to look at him.
Sonic looks over my face and pulls me away from the shower.
"You want to tell me what's on your mind? You don't look upset or angry which is weird so let me know something." He says and I shrug my shoulders again.
"Another shoulder shrug." He says and I look off this time and to the shower.
"Can I just go take a shower?" I ask since Sonic was holding my arm.
"I don't know. You just got up and left. I want to make sure you are okay."
"I am. I'm just tired." I say and Sonic nods his head but still pulls me from the shower.
"Not without me." He says and I just stand near him as he gets his stuff.
I simply watch him grab his clothes and a knock goes on at the door. I walk over to the door to answer it and I see my mom standing there with a smile.
"Sorry, I know you are tired, but I just wanted to let you know some plans for tomorrow. Some daughter and mother plans if you are interested!" she says.
"That's cool." I say and she nods her head slowly.
She looks over my face with the same nice smile and I clench my hand slightly from the unknown feeling in my body again.
"That's great! We can start in the morning. Everything will be a surprise but a good one so make sure you rest up. Oh! And no boyfriends allowed!" She says loudly so Sonic could hear and Sonic appears behind me and chuckles.
"Aww. I'm not invited to the cute mother and daughter hang out?" he jokes and my mom laughs.
"Nope sorry!" she says and they both laugh as I just stand there.
Her laugh stops slowly, and she clears her throat.
"Well, have a great night." She says and walks away.
"You too." Sonic says and he closes the door.
Before Sonic can say anything, I walk to my bag to get my toothbrush and body wash and I head to the bathroom. The bathroom was cold, so I turned on the hot water and I place my stuff on the counter.
"Excited for tomorrow?" he asks, and I sigh heavily.
"Sure. I don't really have a choice but to be." I say shortly and I knew in the back of my head, because of my short answers, that Sonic was going to be picking at me until I said how I really felt but I didn't know.
"I don't know how to feel about anything anymore."
I take my shirt off and my bra all at once and my other clothes and I walk in the shower without looking at Sonic who was watching me closely.
The water runs over my entire body and I sigh heavily. Soon Sonic comes in and I start showering a quicker to avoid being asked questions about my feelings. So, I reach for my bodywash and I see that it isn't where I put it so I turn around to see Sonic shirtless making me blush.
He also had my body wash in his hand, and I look at it and then to his face.
"Princess. Princess. Princess." He says and he places the body wash behind him.
I don't respond making Sonic pull me closer to him and he pulls me in one of his amazing hugs. I let my head rest on his chest as he kisses my wet hair, and he leans up to look at my face. His hand brings my chin up to his eyes.
"Breathe." He says and that makes my eyes feel warm, but I try to hold anything back from coming out of my face.
"Why do I feel like crying?" I wonder and I try to open my mouth to speak but nothing comes out.
"You haven't been yourself since yesterday. I know you are stressed. I can feel it. Also I can see some tears in your eyes and if you want to cry then you can-"
"I don't want too." I say back and Sonic nods his head.
"Why not?" he asks.
"…can we just not talk about this." I say softly and Sonic still holds me.
"But if we don't then you are going to be thinking about whatever you have been thinking about for the next two days and then I can't get my screaming, excited girlfriend back. Not that you need to act a certain way but its concerning when you have been like this for longer than 12 hours." Sonic says and I sigh even more.
"I'm fine Sonic. I'm not really fine but I'm okay…" I say tiredly and I look over to my bodywash." Can I shower now?"
Sonic releases me slowly and then he reaches down and grabs it. He squirts some in a face towel he grabbed and places it down.
"Let me wash you." He says and I blush slightly.
"… you don't have too-"
"I want too." He says and he turns around and starts to wash my back gently.
My blush rises even more as he grabs my wrist and raises my arm and washes the side my body and steps even closer to me. He leans over my shoulder to wash my torso and around my breasts. I watch him as he washes my body my ear tingles as I feel his breath graze against my ear.
He then turns me around and bends down to wash my ankles and legs. Sonic stops around my thigh that got scratched by the counter from my bathroom yesterday and he presses his lips on it.
Sonic lips on my wet skin makes me watch him closely as he kisses my thigh and then his eyes meet mine. He raises up quickly and I blush as he towers over me.
"Does it still hurt?" he asks and I shake my head "no" and he smiles. "I'm glad. I don't like to see you in pain… well certain types of pain." He says with a smirk and I blush even more and giggle.
"Yes, I made you laugh!" Sonic says and the smile he created after his dirty joke makes me laugh.
"Whatever haha, am I clean? I still want to go to sleep." I say and Sonic looks over me making me laugh even more.
"Um… oh wait. I missed a spot." Sonic says and he moves his hands to my ribs and washes me there.
Suddenly Sonic starts to tickle me and I laugh loudly and push him away.
"Sonic! You can't tickle me in the shower! I told you this! Hahaha!" I say and Sonic kittenish grin lets me know that he wasn't about to stop anytime soon.
"I'm just trying to wash you? Stop moving like that." He says and I laugh even louder at him trying to play dumb.
He still tickles me and then he stops and looks at the smile on my face.
"Clean." He says and I roll my eyes and get out the shower.
"Woah! You aren't going to wait for me?" he asks peaking his head out and I start dying off.
"No."
Sonic laughs loudly and goes back into the shower to take one himself and I roll my eyes again and laugh as I put my underwear and t-shirt on.
"No? Okay… I'll remember that then, Ms. Amelia." He says and I start brushing my teeth.
I finish and then I head out into the bedroom. I turn the lights off and I crash into the bed that was so soft. My body melts in it as I lay my head on the cloud.
I open my eyes gently and I look out the window to see the moon watching me experience something for the first time.
A home with my real family.
People who accepted me for who I am.
Though this was not my own bed, it still felt nice to be under a roof with people who wanted me to be in their family.
I snuggle more into the pillow and I watch clouds surf in the sky as I let the same thoughts run through my head again and again until I hear the bathroom door open and I listen to the footsteps move closer behind me. I close my eyes to trick him into thinking I was asleep, and I hear him chuckle
"Heh, I know you did not go to sleep without me." Sonic says softly just in case if I was asleep and that made me smile slightly.
Sonic gets the bed behind me and then wraps his arm around my waist and brings himself closer to my back. I feel Sonic look over my face and he laugh himself and I try to hold back from laughing since I could tell he was getting annoyed.
"She said "no" to me and she went to sleep without me." Sonic sighs and I squeeze my toes to hold in my laugh.
"I guess I am just going to have to kill her then." He says and I feel him move his body and he is over me and that makes me open my eyes.
"Oh! So, you weren't asleep!" he whispers loudly, and he starts to tickle me again.
"AHAHAHAH SONIC! WAIT!" I scream yell and Sonic stops fast since I was being so loud.
"Shh! Haha Amy. We can't let them think I am killing you or something." He says and bends over and laughs at my outburst.
"Sonic! You tickled my most ticklish spot! I couldn't not just scream. And you are killing me!" I say and Sonic laughs at me.
"Not yet. Why did you say "no" to me earlier?" He says and I giggle.
"Because you are a bully. How many times do I have to remind you-"
Sonic grabs my wrists and holds me down on the bed.
"Bully? I thought I was a beast?" Sonic says bending to my neck and kissing it. "I like the other name better."
Sonic kisses my neck and I close my eyes but then I open them as he moves down to my chest.
"S-Sonic no. We aren't doing this at my parents' home." I say and Sonic looks at me confused.
"You climbed on top of me the same exact way at my house when my parents spent the night for the first time while you were here so what's the problem the other way around?" he asks and I start laughing.
"WE know your parents! WE don't know mine! You can't hold me down and do this." I say and Sonic leans back to my neck just to suck on it making me forget about my parents being here.
"Says who?" he asks deeply, getting dominant with me and I start to blush.
"S-Sonic… mmm" Sonic kiss and licks the sweet spot on my neck and I raise my legs up.
"Look. Whatever we do. I'll make sure you keep it at a low volume. Just let me work my magic. Plus, you have been thinking all day so let me take some of that stress off." Sonic lets go of my wrist and starts to kiss lower and lower down my throat and collarbone.
He keeps on going and he moves are quick too, making my brain thoughts and hormones fight against each other since Sonic touch was magic. The way he grasps my back and kiss my stomach made me close my eyes gently.
"Oh my chaos." I whisper as he kisses my underwear on my body.
His hand goes under my knees and he spreads and lift them, and kisses lower on my underwear. I twitch as he kisses it harder and I let out another moan that wasn't so quiet.
"Sonic… I can't stay quiet. We can't do this." I say and Sonic rises up from in between my legs and he gets off of me.
I watch him and I lean up slightly since I am curious about what he is going to do.
"You brought extra socks, right?" he says as he starts to dig in my bag.
"Yeah… but why?" I ask and Sonic doesn't respond as he leans up from my bag and turns back around.
Sonic muscular thighs that moved in the moonlight makes me blush he comes back over to me and he climbs back on with a flirtatious smile. He moves over to me and he gets back in between my legs and I place my hand on his chest getting him stop.
"Sonic, I can't be quiet if you-"
Sonic grabs my legs and pulls them roughly making me lay on my back. He spreads my legs wide open making me open my mouth but then he leans down close to my face with my folded pair of socks.
"Open your mouth."
"What?" I ask and I look at my clean pair of socks and then back to his face.
"Open it. Come on. You smell so good and I can barely wait to have you in my mouth." He says looking at me in the eye.
Sonic words make me speechless and he moves his hand to my chin and brings it down, opening my mouth. He pushes the socks in my mouth and makes sure its full in there.
"There you go. Now then…" Sonic moves back to my legs and I shut them, but Sonic opens them back up.
"Mmmfgh-" I stop talking as I remember Sonic gagged my mouth and I start to lean up until Sonic wraps his mouth on the outside of my underwear near my clit.
"Oh… feels so good." I think to myself as I close my eyes and my breath, I was taking starts to come heavier.
Sonic grabs my underwear and takes it off my body and licks his lips as he stares at my lower body. He takes them off and goes right back to my pussy.
"Mm...mmm…mm…" is all I can muster as he twirls his tounge around my pussy.
I lean down on my back slowly and I arch my back when he would come back to suck on my clit.
"MMMMfgh.." I moan louder but it wasn't loud because of the socks stuffed in my mouth.
Sonic licks me to my hole to my clit and my hips raise up and plop down as he does it again.
"I'm going to cum so quick… I can't take this."
Sonic then moves to my clit once more and he sucks on it and flicks his tongue back and forth on it and I moan louder and let myself cum quick. My hips move up and down from it and clench the bed as Sonic watches me cum.
As it ends my body drops and my mouth is watering slightly as I breath heavily.
"Baby… you came so quick. I barely even did anything." He says with a smile and climbs back over me.
"Mmm…" I say as I blush, and I close my legs gently.
"Mmm" hold on." He says as he takes the socks out my mouth and some of my spit is connected to it.
"Ugh…. Fuck." I whisper out and Sonic laughs.
"Heh, maybe I was too excited then." Sonic says and looks down at my lower area again.
Sonic hand touches my thigh and I move it away.
"No. We… we can't have sex here Sonic. I… I can't last." I say and Sonic smiles at me and rubs my thigh.
"I wasn't planning too. I just wanted you to have some relief." He says and plops on the bed next to me." Plus, you tasted great, so I am satisfied. Let's sleep."
Sonic lays down and pulls me in close and I still feel very flustered after him eating me out but then I do feel sleepy as his warm arms hold me.
I kiss Sonic chin before I cave into him and sigh softly.
"I love you." I mumble in his chest and Sonic kisses my head.
"I'd love me too." He says and I giggle and fall asleep.
NEXT MORNING
A knocking goes on at our door and I open my eyes to hear it. Sonic became the little spoon as we slept, and he was hugging my torso tightly. The knocking continues and I yawn and try to move out from his grip, but I was tightly in it.
"Sonic… baby, the door. Please let go." I say and Sonic grumbles and starts to frown.
"…Sonic." I say and I shake him trying to get him to wake up and he sighs heavily.
Sonic moves his arms away from me and sighs heavily once again and turns away from me.
"You never want to sleep with me anymore." Sonic complains as I walk to the door.
"Sonic someone is at the door. I'm just answering it." I say and Sonic continues to be grumpy but falls to sleep back to sleep slowly as I open the door.
"Hi, good morning!" Says my mom who was in an olive-green sweater, light jeans and some brown boots with a block heel at the bottom.
She also had her purse in hand with her phone in her pocket and it reminded me that she planned a whole day for us.
"Morning." I say and then she looks at my clothes.
"Um. Did you forget about our daughter and mother day? Sorry, if it's really early but we have a long day ahead of us so you should get ready." She says and I nod my head.
"Okay… just me give a moment and I'll be out." I say and smiles nicely and walks back.
"I'll be in the foyer!" she says and I close the door slowly.
I turn around back to the bed to see Sonic completely knocked out still, so I pull out an outfit I packed and go into the bathroom to change into it.
I brush my teeth quickly and I change into a simple white and brown and sweater and I tuck into my high waisted dark blue jeans. My hair was slightly out of control once again, so I wet it and the fizziness calms down as I comb through it.
My comb gets stuck in my hair making me wince because of the unexpected knot.
"Ow…" I say and I move it out and try to unknot it myself.
I look in the mirror to fix it and then I slowly drop my arms as I look at hair.
"Hopefully she still remembers to help me with my hair… this is ridiculous." I think as I place my comb down angrily.
I walk out of the room and I walk to the nightstand and I grab my phone.
"Are you never coming back to bed…" Sonic asks, and I giggle.
I lean down on I rub his head making him open his eyes.
"Wait, where are you going looking so cute." He says as he looks over my outfit and then back to my face.
"With my mom. You know. The mother and daughter day."
"Right… Right…" Sonic says and he groans.
"Then what am I going to do without you. I'm going to get lonely." Sonic complains and I laugh.
"It's only going to be for an entire day. I'm sure you are going to survive." I say and Sonic groans even more.
"No… I probably can't even go back to sleep now." He says and then I roll my eyes.
"I am also sure you will go back to sleep. But I have to go, so give a kiss and some advice, please." I ask and Sonic yawns loudly and leans up.
Sonic wraps his arm around my back and kisses me lazily making me laugh against his lips and he laughs too. He moves back from me and he looks over my face with so much love in his eyes.
"I know this shit sucks right, just a little bit because this could have been your entire life." He says and I nod my head. "But, however today goes. Just make sure you are going off on how you feel. If you are happy, angry, or whatever make sure you show that and not hold back. You don't have to act a certain way because she is being nice to you or that you found her again. Just be you." He says.
"Okay. I will."
"Good. But also, it wouldn't hurt to enjoy yourself. I want this to be a great outcome with you and your mom's relationship so even if you are angry or sad, let's remember that you want to build a relationship with her because you wouldn't be here if you weren't."
"Yes… I guess I do want a relationship with her." I say and Sonic rubs my shoulder.
"See? Do however you feel in the moment. I'm sure you will be fine. You can always text me if you need more advice or you just want to tell me how it is going."
"Okay. I'll do that if needed." I say and I kiss Sonic on his forehead." Thank you, babyyy." I drag out making Sonic blush and he looks off shyly.
"Yeah, whatever. I'm going to become best friends with the rest of the family while you are gone since you are leaving me" Sonic says, showing me that he is spoiled with the company of me being around him.
"You will survive." I say standing up and Sonic watches me get up from him and groans again making me laugh.
Sonic rolls over and places his head in white soft pillow and groans into loudly.
"Hehe, okay bye." I say ignoring his complains and he whips his head up.
"Wait!" he says and I turn around after grabbing my phone and my wallet." One more kiss."
"Okay. Okay." I skip over to Sonic and I lean down and kiss him once more and he smacks my butt making me squeal and laugh."S-Sonic!"
"What? You look sexy as fuck in those jeans. Damn…" he says checking me out and I walk off towards the door.
"Perv." I say and Sonic yawns heavily and turns back to the other side of the bed.
"I do what I want." He says as I close the door and I laugh softly to myself while I entire the empty hallway.
The sun was shining through the one of the windows in the early morning and I make my way over to the foyer to see my mom on her phone, typing away but once I appear in her peripheral, she looks at me like she has since I got here.
Like seeing her child walk for the first time.
"Ready?" she asks, and I nod my head and follow her outside as she opens the door.
The air was cold and chilly as we got in the car, but I knew more later on in the day that the sun would warm us up once it got more into the sky. I sit in the white hummer and put my seat belt on as she puts on her's on and turn the car on.
"It's a bit chilly this morning but the weather should get to 60, I think. I watched the news on my phone before we left so hopefully it stay accurate." She says and I nod my head again.
She looks over at me and I raise my head up and look at her as well.
"…what?" I ask and she smiles sweetly at me.
"Nothing! I was just thinking. Sometimes I think and then I just look at the person I am thinking about." She says.
"What are you thinking about?"
She looks over my face and laughs to herself softly and her expression looks sad as she puts the car in drive and places her hands on the wheel.
"Everything." Mom responds.
My eyes go back to my lap as we drive out of the driveway in silence and I feel an awkward tension build up as ride with a related stranger.
My phone vibrates and I look at it and I see that Sonic sent me a sad face with a rose beside it. I smile softly and I send him three hearts back.
"Is that Sonic messaging you?" My mom asks out of the blue.
"Yes. He misses me already." I say and my mom laughs.
"Oh men. I promise you men fall more in love than women. I can tell Sonic follows you and guards you like a security guard." She says and that makes me laugh.
"He does… Sonic is everything to me and its vice versa. Oh, we live together if I haven't told you." I say and her eyes raises as we drive down a road with many trees and the sun shining through the skinny trees.
"I didn't know that… You two haven't been dating for long have you?"
"Yes and no… mostly no. It's been 9 months." I reply back and she smiles.
"Nine months isn't very long, no offense but usually couples who have been dating for a moment move in together around some years or so. Unless the dating game has completely changed."
"Well… I moved in with him because of my anxiety and my old guy friend was stalking me… I was afraid to live at in apartment by myself so Sonic asked me to move in with him and I did that." I say and she looks at me as we come to a stop sign.
"Stalked?"
"My friend Axel really liked me and betrayed me, so I stopped talking to him and he got crazy and followed me into a store. He was being aggressive, my wrist was bruised for a moment and then the police got called and but… Sonic was with me so it wasn't as bad but it was scary." I say as I think about what happened.
"Sonic, is a good man. I can tell you love him. You look at him like you are watching your life move in front of you." She says.
"He is… I'm not sure how I got so lucky sometimes, most of my life, luck wasn't on my side-" I stop talking as I realize I am not just talking to one of my friends or Sonic anymore.
I was talking to someone was the prime start of all my bad luck occurring in my life.
I turn my attention away and I thumb my fingers on my lap nervously.
"It's okay if you want to talk about your life to me." My mom says as we enter the city. "You are right, I didn't really help out with the luck part of your life so if you did want to say that than you should. Besides I want to know everything about you. You are my first born so I want to get to know you the most I can for these two days before you go back."
The smile on her face after she finished her sentence made me feel happy. I honestly loved that she wanted to know everything about me, and I let that feeling surf in me as I tell her more about my life as we drive somewhere she didn't tell me.
We finally arrive after me telling her about my friends I made in college and how they were my little family.I notice that we appear at a cosmetic store making me cock my eyebrow.
"Why are we here?" I ask.
"You said you wanted help with your hair, so I brought you here to buy you the right products I use on mine and Rosy's." she says getting out the car and I follow her quickly.
"Really!" I ask as I walk beside her, and she looks at me shocked.
"Yes… I'm glad to see you are excited." She says and I notice how I reacted as we walk into the store and I slowly pull my normal happy self-back in.
"I should calm it down. She doesn't even deserve to see me happy."
My thought roam around my head this time instead of thinking about how bad it was to feel like that, but Sonic told me that anything I was thinking that I shouldn't hold back so I am just going to let it stay around instead of trying to be nice all the time.
We enter the store and are greeted by associates working and she heads to the back of the store to head to the hair section. I usually don't search really hard to find the best hair product for my hair, so I made sure to watch her carefully as she picks up items.
"Once we get home, I can show you how to use all of these and then you can learn how to maintain your hair." She says and I nod my head.
"Also, you hair doesn't look bad! It's slightly dry looking sometimes but that's because you are probably using the wrong stuff for your hair so just imagine how your hair is going to be once you add this gel in it." My mom brings up and I go back to just nodding my head.
She smiles once again anyway to me not responding with something for a conversation and she pushes it over and buys the products for me and then we head back to the car to go to another location.
"Are you hungry?" she asks.
"I can eat."
"Great! I can take you to this place that has the best breakfast food. They are only open in the morning so good thing you woke up at a good time- Oh! And there is also a plant nursery there since you brought up that you like plants so maybe we can go look there too!"
"Yeah, sounds cool." I say and my mom seems excited as she drives us there.
We pull into a parking lot that surrounded a big light blue building with happy people walking in and out of it with to-go boxes and their friends/families. I follow my mom into the unknown location with my phone in my hand. My mom was talking about her career as a dentist and as she talked about a normal day at her job was, I always wondered how she even got that job to begin with but I don't ask since hanging out with her was draining me a lot faster than last time.
We walk into the sun lit restaurant and the hostess sits us in a booth by a window. I sit down and nod my head occasionally to my mom's stories and I secretly get on my phone.
"Just found out that my mom is a dentist. She is telling me stories about removing wisdom teeth and putting needles in kids mouth. Really everything she has been saying just makes me zone out because where was she when she did all of this… was she actually trying to find me for these past 18 years? I'm starting not to believe it now." I send to Sonic, hoping that he would be awake to respond back but I am sure he is asleep.
"Amelia?"
My mom saying my name makes me look at her and then I see a nice waitress beside us making blush because it seems like she is waiting on me.
"Um-" I fumble to grab the menu on the table that was on the table when we sat down to read what I would want.
"Just get her an iced caramel macchiato and a apple juice." My mom says for making me stop freaking out to look through the menu.
The waiter takes our drink order and leaves us in silence.
"It's alright. I saw you were possibly busy with your phone, so I just ordered for you." She says and I blush and look down to my phone that was in my lap and then back to her. "Who were you messagining?"
"N-No one. I was just checking my messages. If I had any." I say and she looks at me like I am lying but since she was being nice, she just looked off and the waiter appears back with our drinks.
"Thank you." My mom says as she places the drinks around us.
"Yeah, thanks." I say too.
"Would you two likes to order now?" the waiter asks and I look at my mom and she looks at me.
"We both would like to get the French toast craving. Extra syrup and powered sugar. With a side of sausage and eggs." She says and the waiter takes our order and tells us that it will be right out.
She walks off and all the food she named made my stomach growl and my phone vibrates making me look down to it, but I don't look this time since she was watching me.
"It's fine if you want to check it." She says and I shake my head.
"No, we can talk. We have to catch up, right?" I say and my mom perks up.
"Yes, we do! So, ask me anything!" she says and my mom wonders to all the question I have been wanting to know my entire life without her.
"Ask you anything?"
The way my mom shook her head "yes" made try to think of a question, but nothing came to mind. She wanted me to ask her any question but there were a million questions in my head.
"I... I wanted to know… um." My thoughts kept getting pushed away from the same eye color we shared and then the curly hair that stopped right below her ears, and then to the pearly white teeth.
"She wants me to ask anything. Anything but there is nothing my mind when she asks that because I could ask her a million things and the answer would lead to more and more. Any question?"
My mouth quivers to ask about her something and I feel my eyes go warm.
"Why… why are my eyes warming up… she wants me to ask anything… anything…"
"I just want to know… um h-h-how is Rosy at school?" I blurt out. Not asking a single thing what I wanted to ask but she responds anyway, telling me everything about Rosy being in high school and how she is a very smart student.
Not that I didn't want to know about my stepsister it brought a smile to my face when she brought up her learning how to play guitar herself and then she showed me videos of her as a kid and even baby pictures too.
"Wow! She took gymnastics too?" I ask as I watch the video of her doing tumbles and flips.
"She did! I did even introduce her too it. She just once day asked me to learn how to do ballet and we got her signed up for it. I think she is going to join the team at school soon." She says and I watch her closely as she flips off a wood and lands on her feet perfectly and the judges clap for her.
"So cool. Her legs have so much muscle in them. I couldn't tell from her baggy pants."
"Haha, yeah she wears a lot of oversized clothes, but you should ask her about now that you know. You can get closer to her by asking more about her." She says and I agree with her idea.
I was about to ask another question until the waiter comes back with our food and places it in front of us. She tells us to enjoy and I stare at all the food in front of me.
"Dig in! The French toast is amazing- Ooh! Try it with a strawberry." She says and she places a couple of strawberries on my plate.
I pick up my fork and knife and I cut into the juicy, maple sryped covered slice of toast and I stare at it.
"Have you ever had French toast before?" she asks.
"No. I've only had waffles and pancakes." I say and she gasps.
"Amelia! You need to try some! Hurry. Hurry." She says and I look at fork and then she stops me. "Wait! I want to record your first moment with French toast!"
She takes her phone out and I blush slightly since I was being filmed trying French toast.
"Okay! Everyone this is my daughters first time having French toast and I am recording her reaction! Go on, Amelia." She encourages and I blush even more.
"O-okay." I take a big bite of the French toast and I freeze as the sweet taste spreads in my mouth.
The strawberry made everything sweeter and I chew slowly enjoying the full taste of the French toast.
"Well?" she asks, and I swallow.
"It's amazing. I've never had something so simple and delicious." I as take another bite and another one.
"I'm glad you are enjoying! I should eat too!" she says and puts her phone away and starts to devour the food like I was.
I watch her eat and then I look back to my food and I continue to eat.
"This isn't so bad." I think as I have my first breakfast with my mother.
Hours later
For the rest of the day was filled with fun, surprisingly, since I thought that it would be sad and awkward but after breakfast she made hanging out with her so easy for me.
We did everything I liked to do, we went to buy plant and thrift store shopping, she showed me around the city which was beautiful, and we took pictures at a park that had a beautiful bridge that went over the water. She also showed me where she worked at and where Rosy went to school. Also Mr. Karkous had his own business for his building that I got to see, and it made me so much more interested in the life of a family I didn't know that existed.
Lastly after this long day, we went to the grocery store so my mom could make another big grand dinner for me since I missed about a million dinners that I was supposed to have with her, and we drive home with all the groceries. After the grocery store, we got in the car and drove back home, and my mom let me show her songs that I liked, and she knew most of the songs I listened too which shocked me, so we sang a lot of songs together on the way home.
"Come. Come. Let's take the groceries inside! Also go find Sonic and Rosy to get them to help! The more the merrier!" she says taking in the groceries quicker than I was and I grab some bags and run after her to catch up.
She puts the bags on the floor and winks at me as she passes me in the kitchen, and I follow her footsteps by putting them with the rest of the pile. I turn around and I take out my phone until I hear a loud yell from upstairs.
I follow the excited voices up the stairs, and I pass her the guest room we were staying in and then I hear laughter and more yelling. I walk up to the door and I peak in curiously and the voices start to become clearer.
"YOU ARE ALMOST THERE! JUST 5 MORE HITS!" Rosy yells and I look at her in confusion as I enter her big bedroom that was lit with LED lights that made her room pink.
Rosy was standing up and watching the TV with amazement and then I watch Sonic stand up from the couch, holding something in his hand as he stares at the screen too.
"OH NO! HEAL! HEAL!" Rosy yells and Sonic eyes move around the screen quickly and I walk up to them slowly.
"YOU BEAT IT!" Rosy yells and Sonic places the controller down and gives her a multiple high fives.
"Haha yeah!" Sonic yells and I laugh at Sonic excited face and then my laugh gives away that I was here and I blush.
I noticed that I walked in Rosy's room without asking to walk in and I take some steps back as they look at me.
"S-Sorry. I should have knocked."
"Amelia!" Rosy yells and she runs over to me and hugs me.
Her arms around my body makes me look down at her and she squeezes me even more making me gasp.
"Amelia! Sonic beat this game for me that was so hard! It took me weeks and weeks to get past the level, but he did it with ease! You should have saw him! He beat almost all the hard levels on all of my games! Also, you have to show me your guitar solo! Sonic showed me some videos of you planning at your apartment and he said that you would teach me if I would ask so I am asking you!" she rambles and I blush.
"I-I-I can teach you." I say softly and she looks up at me and laughs.
"Haha, Sonic she is blushing again! I missed you, Amelia. I hope tomorrow at least we can hang out instead of you hanging out with my mom all day. Maybe we can play the guitar tomorrow?" she suggests.
"She missed me? My little sister?"
I open my mouth to speak and I nod my head quickly.
"Yeah, we can do whatever you want. A-And I missed you too." I say and Rosy lets me go and smiles at me.
"Sweet." She says and I soon remember why I walked up here.
"O-Oh and mom said to help with the groceries." I say and Rosy groans.
"Great. More big meals. Okay, I'll see you guys down there." She says and takes off.
I watch her walk off and I remember I haven't really seen Sonic all day either, so I turn around back to him to see him smiling.
"Amy!" he says and he hugs me.
"Hi… it's been so long since I have heard you talk. I missed you."
Sonic kisses my head repeatedly and him doing that puts some ease on my mind from my long day because I was back in the arms with the love of my life.
"I missed you too." He says and he leans back and looks over my face. "How are you? Are you okay? Have you ate? She didn't say anything mean to you, did she? It doesn't seem like since your face really isn't red at all and you don't look as tired as you were last night." He asks.
"Sonic that's a lot of questions." I say laughing at his concerns about me." I am fine though. And no… she was actually very nice and homey. She showed me and told me a lot of things so… today was fun. She also bought me a plant, but she said it's going to stay here and I have to come visit to watch it grow."
"That's great. I knew it would work out." Sonic says and he says that and I still feel… lost.
I look off and Sonic grabs my head as soon as my eyes start to wander off from his but then they come back to his green ones.
"Your eyes moved from mine…" he says and I start feeling weird again.
"They did."
"But why? I thought everything went well?" he ask.
"It did. I just… always feel confused once you ask me stuff like this. I don't know how to feel but I feel like it went okay because I had a good time." I say
"Hm… That means there are more stuff to be pulled from your feelings." Sonic says and he grabs my hand and starts to pull me out of Rosy's room.
"More of my feelings? I feel like I have done everything and… asked everything."
I think as Sonic warm hand holds mine and rubs his finger my palm making me look at him.
"Are you going to ask me how my day went with your family?" he asks.
"Oh! Right. I saw you playing the game with Rosy. You guys looked like you were having fun, so I am guessing it went well." I say and Sonic wraps his arm around my shoulder as we walk down the stairs.
"We were playing the game. We played the game since… 3p.m. today and now its 7. It was fun honestly, haha. We got on the subject after I asked her to get breakfast with me while she watched me leave the guest room. I guess she didn't want me to be alone since you were gone, and I think her dad told her to keep me company while he worked on something and we went and drove down to get some get some. She was slightly nervous, but I think I made her open up after we talked about somethings we liked, and she liked video games." He says and I smile at Sonic who seemed like he was having a great time.
"Rosy is super cool though. Did you know she did gymnastics? She showed me the muscles in her arms. Girl is ripped. Also, she made me sing a little of "escape the city" but besides all of that we had a great time. I missed you a lot of the time though." He says and I kiss his cheek.
"I missed you too. Sorry for leaving so long." I respond back and Sonic kisses my head again.
"Better be sorry." He says as he tickles my side and I try to tickle him back he runs away from me and goes outside to get the bags.
Sonic grabs most of the bags on his strong arms and hands and I still try to tickle him making him laugh and back away from me.
"Stop. I have the groceries." He says and I walk up to him faster still trying to tickle him. "AHH! MS. RIBBON STOP HER! I'M ABOUT TO DROP THE GROCERIES!" Sonic fake panics and it makes me stop chasing him and I turn around to see my mom looking at us as she grabs more bags.
"Amelia, you can fight Sonic after you put the bags down." She says and I giggle and then I turn around to Sonic who had his jaw dropped.
"So, you are going to let the little demon attack me?" Sonic says walking around me carefully and into the house and I follow him with the last bags in my hand.
"Seems personal. I'm sure you can fend on your own." My mom responds and as she walks in, I smile evilly at Sonic who was watching since he was walking backwards to the kitchen.
"Amelia, stop damn. I haven't done nothing too you." Sonic fake complains and places the bag down but then continues to walk backwards and starts to head to other rooms.
"You tickled me. So now you die."
"Rosy! Rosy! Help!" Sonic says while he watches me place the bag down.
"Don't help him! He started this!" I yell back and Sonic chuckles and turns around quickly and starts to run off to the back of the house and I chase him.
"Hey! Don't forget about dinner!" My mom yells as I chase Sonic through a room that was a library, and he runs out of a door that leads to the outside.
"WE WON'T!" I yell back and Sonic runs outside in the dim lit sky and I chase him around the backyard we had never been at before.
Sonic and I both laugh as we run around the backyard and Sonic keeps on going full speed making me run full speed until he athletically jumps over the tall brown fence and lands on the other side of their land, that was cut off from the fence.
"S-Sonic!" I say and I get no response but laughter.
"Ha, you can't do what I just did." Sonic says.
"Yes I can!"
I jump at the fence and I miss the top a couple of times and then I see Sonic head he pulls himself up to look at me.
"Aww, cutiepie is too short." He coos at me and I roll my eyes.
"I CAN STILL MAKE IT!"
I take some steps back and I exhale as I prep my feet to run quickly. I take off and Sonic laughs loudly as I charge at the fence. My foot hits the wooden board and I run up it and I lift myself over the fence but instead of landing on the ground, I jump on the person who made fun of me and he catches me and stumbles until my feet get placed on the ground.
"Haha, oh my chaos, you did it." Sonic says rubbing tears out of his eyes and then I tackle him and tickle him.
Sonic laughs quickly and grabs my hands so I could stop.
"Let me tickle you for once!"
"No." Sonic says with a smile and I laugh even more and I move arms around his stomach and I try to pull him to the ground.
I grunt and Sonic still laughs at me trying to bully him like he does me.
"So, both of you just jump over fences for each other, right?" Asks a random voice scaring me and Sonic and I jump into Sonic arms and then I look back at the voice laughing at us with a flashlight in his hand.
"O-Oh. Hey, Mr. Karkous." Sonic says nervously and I blush fast.
"Oh, Hey, Sonic. Do you like the fence?" he asks and Sonic chuckles awkwardly.
"Yeah, super cool fence. The wood feels great…" Sonic says and chuckles awkwardly as well and moves to the side of the fence.
He touches the fence, and he opens it making us stare at the door we didn't even see because we were too busy being insane and we follow him quietly back inside the fence.
"There was a door too. But hey, if you guys roll like that then its just something getting used to." He says and Sonic and I both laugh awkwardly.
"Amy, was just chasing me so I thought it would be cool to jump over the fence- Sorry, that was rude of me- Us." Sonic says putting me in too.
"Haha, its totally fine. It just scared me a little since I just came from my private work building office in the back." He says and we both turn our head to see a light and a path leading too a smaller building in some trees.
"You have a private building from the house?"
"I do! Sometimes it's best to work at home and then away from home. Usually Rosy and your mom likes to be very loud and play music, so I just made an office outside the house." Mr. Karkous says. "And today while Sonic and Rosy were screaming this time. I was busy working on this."
Mr. Karkous hands me a small piece of paper and I could barely see it until he shined a light on it as we walked back from the doors we ran out of.
On the paper is a perfectly drawn-out building in the trees. It was built to have two different stairs that swirled around a big tree. There was also bought flowers around the trees house around the windows and it stood tall in the big tree. There were also fairy lights leading up to the entrance of it and I look away from the paper to ask more questions.
"T-Treehouse…" I say and I look around to the backyard to figure were the area is supposed to be.
"Yep. I was thinking right there." He points to a huge tree straight from the to the back of the backyard.
The moon is right above the tree so I could see the gigantic oak tree shadow cascading on the ground.
"That tree? For me?"
"Yep! It's big enough for you to sleep and practically stay there all day if you wanted. I have to probably start next week or so to get it done but It should a simple project. Nothing I haven't done before." He says and I slowly turn back to him.
"For me…"
I run up to my stepdad and I hug him tightly. My body moved on its own to hug my stepdad that felt more like a father to me at this moment.
"Thank you so much. I'll come visit and help out if needed." I say and he brings his arms around me as well.
"That's great to here! We would all love you here and you can stay here as much as you like and whenever you want. This is your home, Amelia." He says.
"My home…" I lean up from him and I look around the big backyard and the house.
"I had never had a home before… This is my first home. Home."
I look back down at the paper and I clench it slightly as I look into the home lit home.
"I should have always had a home. It even sucks that I am experience this so late. Why… why did I have to be the one to not have a family for so long. It's all… It's all her fault-" I think and my eyes start to water slightly from the fast thoughts coming into my mind quickly
"Dinner is done!" My mom appears from the door smiling happily and I look at her from my paper.
"She is the reason why I am even holding this paper in my hand. Feeling as sad as I feel right now. That's how I have been feeling since I have been here. Just… angry and sad. The reason my step dad is making a treehouse for me because I haven't existed until now. I was supposed to already have experienced this but because she started my life off by being a terrible mother- -"
"Yes, food. Amelia let's go." Sonic says wrapping his arm around me and we all start walking in.
"Amy?" Sonic says and my attention goes to his eyes and he almost stops walking but I keep on walking forward. "Hey… babe-"
"Sonic. Can you not ask me anything?" I say quickly and quietly because I knew if Sonic asked me what was wrong then I would burst into tears and right now I was not in a mood to be upset.
Who knows what would come out of my mouth.
"Okay…" Sonic says and he removes his arm from my shoulder and watches me carefully from my sudden mood change.
The walk to the table felt like I was heading somewhere I didn't want to be. All the happy faces walking around, talking about the food, and me being there.
So, once I sat down I started to zone out, just so I wouldn't pop off but the way I was holding the chopsticks in my was angering me even more. I hated that everything today, was a first time for me to experience. I hated that everyone was treating me so nice because I was the one who was abandoned for my 22 years of life.
I was starting to hate everything.
I look down at the Korean pork bulgogi and the Japchae my mom made for us and I start eating. The sounds of the other voices at the table felt like vibrations and sometimes when I would reach for my water, I would catch Sonic eyes looking at me carefully, but he didn't say a word to me.
I take another bite and I feel frustration rise up after every crunch and bite of the juicy flavors coming my mouth. My eyes would fill up from every piece I put in my mouth and I would have to slow down sometimes from crying, but I kept on eating. A tear stream downs my face and I wipe it quickly before anyone could see. I take more and more bites trying to use the flavor for distraction instead, but it wasn't working. Another tear falls out and I wipe it away and another one that escapes my eye.
"I'm crying… it won't stop either and I don't want to pick my head up to see if anyone is looking." I start shaking my leg up and down since I was becoming so tense and I feel my leg rub against Sonic's sweatpants, so I scoot my leg over not to bother him.
"Shit. I have to calm down… Calm down, Amy. Don't blow up. Please-
"Amelia? How's the food? I decided to make Korean today because… well you are part Korean. Your grandfather was and this is something they made all the time. I'm sure you didn't know but surprise!" she says and I stare at the food.
The table goes quiet and I clench my teeth and my toes under the table as I keep finding out stuff I never knew about myself.
"I also made a Korean dessert-"
I stand up and I slam my hands on the table. The tears that I had been holding back finally come out my eyes and clench the chop sticks in my hand. I cough slightly since I was practically bawling in front of everyone and I feel rage push in head making me look the woman that created the bullshit life for me to begin with.
"I didn't know I was part Korean." I say out shakily and her eyes look at me concerned.
"I… I don't know nothing about me or you. Or anyone. Or anything. Okay?" I say a tear crosses my lip and salt comes in my mouth.
"You keep on… reminding me that I was abandoned for so long and you think that is making me feel happier or something?" I ask wanting her to answer my questions just like how she answered all the other cute and nice questions about her daughter I knew nothing about.
"I just… I just… I thought you would want to learn about yourself and your family."
Her question makes me lean over the table and I release the chopsticks in my hand that was close to cracking.
"Of course, I would want to learn and know but mom, I should have already experienced this!" I say looking at the beautiful dinning room. "You prevented me for having a life I should have had growing up. Not once have you even asked about what I been through. I was supposed to be here. Way long before him" I point at my stepdad and then I point at Rosy who was looking sad for me. "And way, way before Rosy was born."
I start to shake my head because I started to think everything that has happened today had been a scam. I start taking steps back and my mom stands up.
"Amelia, wait. Let's just go somewhere and talk about everything-"
"I… I don't want to talk. I'm leaving. Sonic I want to go home-"
"Amelia! You can't, you just came back into my life- our lives." She says walking around the table to look at me closer and I move away from her some more.
"Amelia… We can talk about it. You don't have to leave again-"
I leave anyway. Turning my back on her trying to persuade me not leave again but it was her fault I was feeling like this anyway. All my actions I have made since I saw that blueprint was because of her so I continue my way to the guest room as I hear footsteps close behind me.
"Amelia. Please wait. Just a moment. Today was going so well and now you are blowing up and not giving me a chance to explain or talk about anything-"
I pause quickly and I turn around to get in her face so she could hear the words coming out my mouth perfectly.
"A moment. You want a moment?" I ask and she nods her head with worry in her eyes.
"You are the reason why I am like this. You left me all alone in this world as soon as I was born, mom. Do you not understand that? And you want a moment with me? The moment you should have taken advantage of me was when you held me in your arms when I was first born. But you didn't." I say and she stares at me painfully and I feel my lip quiver.
"You don't give a damn about me-"
She hugs me tightly and I don't move again because the feeling of when she holds makes me feel so lost and confused in her arms.
"Amelia… I love you with my whole being." She says and my eyes water up quickly. "When I lost you…my life was so shit. I… I had to give you up or you would have been hurt or killed even, Amelia. If I didn't then you wouldn't have had a decent life-
"You don't know my life… You don't and you still don't and you trying to say you do and you understand isn't working so please just let me go-"
"No. I won't ever do that again-"
"Anyone can say that!" I yell and I push from me. "Anyone can say anything! You said you changed but why did it take you so long to change! You changed because you wanted to! Not because you wanted me back."
"Amelia, I changed so you c-could have a better life but then I lost you-
"Yeah, you lost me!" I yell out and all the times of me moving around Japan and changing homes so many times gas lights me even more.
"How long did it take you to change to give a shit about me? You do know that for me to get lost in the foster care means that you were still doing the bullshit you were doing for the longest time!" I say and I start crying even more.
"I didn't even know what a family was as a kid…" I say ask I think about more things. "I didn't have friends because I kept on changing schools, proper siblings or a guardian. No one to give me life lessons or truly care about me."
…
"I didn't even understand love was until college. Probably just a couple months ago once I found Sonic." I say softly and I take more steps backwards.
"I… I have anxiety problems and I am even terrified of the dark because of my life at one of the foster homes."
I wipe my tears off my face as I stare off at the wall, not looking at her anymore.
"My life… was so shit without you. For the longest time." I say and sniff my nose. "And you wanted to come back into my life once I get a little popular. Once things are actually going good for me."
The hallway we are in goes quiet and I slowly stop crying too. My head was hurting slightly from crying and talking about stressful things and I move backwards more to head to the room to get away from all of this.
"Everything hurts right now… my head and my heart. To think that I thought something would change by me being here and nothing did. I was upset about my mother not caring about me and now I am crying in front of her, telling her how much she ruined everything… this is exhausting."
The silence continues and I look behind me to the door and I start to move towards it.
"I'll just go in the morning-"
I hear something hit the ground and I turn around to see my mom on her knees with tears in her eyes.
"What?"
"Amelia. Please don't leave." She says and she moves her arms out to me. "I just got you back and I can't lose you. I know. I know… I've been no good. I even started an entire family without, but Amelia I never stopped looking for you." She says and she moves closer to me on her knees.
"You want to know? What I did after they took you away from me?" She asks and she stands up and walks over to turn on a brighter light for the hallway.
She steps closer to me quickly and raises her sleeve up and my eyes move along scars all on her skin. She pulls the other one up too and more scars are shown.
"And these aren't even all of them." She says and she grabs my hand and lets me feel one of them.
Her skin felt rough and the scars felt permanent. Like it had been opened and closed a lot of times.
"I was addicted to Heroin." She says to me and I look into her eyes in shock.
"Your foster parents probably told you that I was addicted to drugs while you grew up, but they didn't tell you what. I was addicted to it way before I had you and then when I was pregnant with you, I stopped. I wanted you to be healthy." She says and she pets my hair.
"And you still are. I got back on it heavy after you were born, and I couldn't take care of you. So, I called child services myself and they took you from me completely." She says and she wipes her tears too.
"It was my fault you were alone. Mine, Amelia and I did Heroin for a couple months after they took you but then I tried to get clean and I went back and forth with doing that so it did take me a while. Until I actually went to rehab and got clean." She says and looks off.
"Getting clean took me two years of rehab and then I left rehab and tried to get you back but I realized I needed a job to support you and they were taking care of you better than I was, so I went to school to become a dentist and about time I was done with that… I tried to get you back." She says and she shakes her head.
"I tried so hard, Amelia. I did but they… they said they couldn't find you and they had switched you into a different program and you were hidden. They marked you as someone who parents would not come back to find them, so you were deep into the system of the foster homes. I still searched every home, but you were nowhere to be found." She describes and touches my arms.
"More years past and during those long years. I got a job to be a dentist and then I met your step dad. During me being a dentist and getting married, I spend all of my extra time trying to find you. We called places, hung up pictures, and even called schools and then it wasn't working in our favor. It wasn't-"
My mom starts crying in front of me and I just watch her cry and I start to feel angry again.
"And then what? You couldn't find me so you replaced me with Rosy-"
"Honey, no!" she says and my eyes start to water this time. "Even while I was pregnant. I… I still looked for you!"
"Lies!" I say back and she grabs my arm before I could pull away.
"I'm not lying to you, Amelia! I can show you numbers, homes, schools, I used to call the time in my room!" she says and I start crying again.
"And that's your fault I couldn't be found because you didn't care about me! You still don't and I can't believe this story while you tell about the how you practically made a family to cover up the lost of your child-"
She brings me into another crushing hug and this time it felt powerful. I stop speaking and I let her pull me in closely.
"Amelia, I lost everything when I lost you. You were all I had. You were the peace that I needed in my life when you were born. You say you don't know what love is, but your entire existence is love." She says and tears leak from my eyes.
"But how… I didn't even know what it was."
"Even if you didn't, love is you. It was you this entire time." She says and she starts to rub my back.
"That's how you have so many fans, friends, your own family at Shibuya and Sonic. You knew what it was, you just probably haven't thought about it or realized but that's what you are when I look at you ,Amelia." She says and she leans back from the hug and holds my wet face in her hands.
"I'm sorry for ruining your life, you are such a sweet soul and deserved a normal life." She says and her words hurt.
"I… I was so lost. For years. I thought I was just unwanted for the longest time. Like if there was something wrong with me and then I was always told I was getting moved to a new house to a newer house because my parents didn't want me and the foster home didn't want me for long either. I was so angry that my parents didn't want me." I say and she nods her head.
"You have every right to be but Amelia. I am not lying when I say that I love you and I want to be the mother you should have had. We can't go to the past and I wish I could but I can't so I hope that… we can start something new and positive, while I am in your life for the rest of it. I'm sorry and I'll let you know everything about you and I want you to know everything about me." She says.
"I love you too but… I'm still- It's still going to take time for me to process all of this."
"Of course. Take your time. I just want to support you. I even ordered you a debit card so I can give you money whenever you go back. I really want to be there for you this time." She says and I sigh softly and move arms away from her body.
"Okay." I say and she smiles lightly from me not being how I was before.
The hallway goes quiet and she tries to find something to say and I hear laughter going on from the dining room we left. She doesn't look back to see and keeps on looking forward at my red stained face. I start to hear music and I think about how I completely blew up at the table and returning would probably ruin everyone else's mood.
"I was even mean to Sonic again… shit. I-"
"Want to go join them?" My mom ask wrapping her arm around my shoulder and I blush even more.
"I'm not sure. I kind of threw a fit at the table…I don't want to bring the fun time down-"
"Amelia, its fine. Everyone down there wants the best for you. I promise so if you want to come back to the table then it would make us all very happy that you returned." My mom says and I start to not feel nervous and I make my way over with my mom back to the table.
We enter and the warm presences of smiles and music is shown to me and I almost forget about me being so upset at the table. Sonic, Rosy and Mr. Karkous were gathered around the music stereo and they turn it down since Sonic had the guitar in his hand.
"Starting without us already?" My mom says bringing the attention to us and everyone looks back quickly and they look at me. I blush quickly and look off as they look at me and I try to decide if I should apologize.
"No, we were waiting for our lead guitarist." Sonic says and I look at him since he was talking about me. "Come show them how to play, beautiful."
"Aww, is that your pet name for her." Rosy says and Sonic smiles big.
"Of course." He says and then he fans me over to him.
I look take some steps towards them and I seat on the floor next to Sonic who was looking at me carefully and once I sat down, he handed me the guitar and kissed my cheek. While the rest of them chatted since mom had came back and they were talking about the type of music that they should play.
I look at Sonic who was waiting for me to speak and I start to frown, and I pull him into a hug.
"I'm-"
"It's okay. I know you snapped at me but it's fine I knew you didn't mean it." Sonic says before me and pulls me back so he could look at my face. "It's fine and you don't owe anyone a apology. Everyone wants you to say your feelings so relax. It's cool."
Sonic words make me feel better and he kisses my cheek once more before getting the attention from the rest of my family.
"Okay, me and Amy are going to sing this annoying love duet song she always wants me to sing with her at home." Sonic says and I gasp and look at him.
"We are?!"
"Yeah, we have to play something for them so I thought that would be the easiest." Sonic says and I start to smile, and I turn to him.
"Okay!"
"Haha, annoying? Why are you singing a song like that?" Mr Karkous asks and Sonic shrugs his shoulders and turns to me since I was facing him.
"I do it for her." Sonic complains making me laugh and rest laugh too.
Everyone scoots in closer with happy faces, waiting for us to start and I notice that we were actually having a family moment right now.
"This… this feels nice."
"Ready?" I ask Sonic and Sonic blushes and groans.
"Yes."
I laugh before we start and I take one more look at my mom before we start playing and then I start with the first note, showing my mom and my family what they had missed out on so we could build a the best family relationship I wanted all my life
Im changing my upload schedule to once a week now because of college but please continuing reading and thanks for reviewing!
