p class="MsoNormal"Everything was set up and ready. The Maker was starting Natasha Romanoff's torture, her cries echoing down the corridor. She was being burnt from what I understood of the itinerary. They wanted to start on water suffocation but I decided false sense of security would make cracking her easier. The maker jumped at that and changed the routine. I don't know why I lessoned the punishment. But it helped me bide my time. Only I couldn't recall why. Why I needed time./p
p class="MsoNormal"I would start at five hundred hours. It wasn't long before I started. I moved into the door opposite Natasha Romanoff's and saw Thor and Loki stood facing each other, chained tightly. Loki was in plain black pants. His top had been removed, so had his boots and socks. Thor had no boots or socks or cape. His shirt was off too. Loki was the first to be tortured. He was to feel the pain that would be rained upon Thor after he weakened./p
p class="MsoNormal"Another man followed me with a whip. I did not take it from him, and he held it up waiting for five hundred. I was supposed to start it, but I didn't. I couldn't. I knew I couldn't. The guy who was starting it didn't know I was supposed to start it either./p
p class="MsoNormal""Enya, Enya, please." Thor and Loki pleaded with me. "Enya, this isn't you. Enya, they are controlling you. Enya." I stared blankly and felt my skin prickle. My chest hurt and I was starting to sweat. I didn't say anything and Loki looked at me still; pleading. I glanced at him. He was tall, lean but I knew he had superhuman strength. He was toned and incredible fit for a pale specimen. Then I saw something that had my shrieking voice burst. I saw scars along his ribs and back. I saw them track down to his hip. I had seen them before. He had explained before. He had told me where he got them, and why he had them. The pain. The enforcement. It had upset me. But why would I have seen these before?/p
p class="MsoNormal""Loki, don't give in. Don't give in. Not for me."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Thor…" He was stuck what to say. Something in me twisted but five hundred started and the first lash struck down. He jerked as the leather cut into him. Something in me hurt, and when Loki cried out I couldn't handle it. I left the room on the pretence of overseeing other matters. But when I left the room I heard Natasha scream. I heard more screaming in my ears and I couldn't breathe. Something was wrong. And this pain was not right./p
p class="MsoNormal"I opened the door to Natasha's room and the Maker was lighting a match. I glanced at her, her top folded up on the chair; burns covering her shoulders and arms. He was advancing over the same area with real flame, rather than electricity burns. Her shoulder was already raw, blistering. I had burns. I had burns. He placed the match near her arm and something inside me snapped. I strode forwards, grabbed his head and smashed it on the table. His head cracked open and he died as he hit the floor. The match went out immediately. Natasha looked at me relieved but then my head burst. I staggered back and sunk to the floor. I cradled my head screaming. It hurt. Something wasn't right, it hurt. I tore at my strands of hair pulling chunk of my red ruby hair onto the floor. I tore at my skin feeling chunks of my skin under my nails and my blood well immediately. Anything to get the pain out. It hurt./p
p class="MsoNormal"I heard running footsteps and two men ran into the room. I kept screaming. Screaming so loud, so raw I felt the tear in my throat. I felt the pain from such nakedness. The pain my head felt I released from my throat. I didn't take a breath, I didn't pause. I just screamed until it hurt my own head and I was feeling dizzy and sick./p
p class="MsoNormal""She's remembering." They bent over me examining my agony. Remembering what? "We need to get her back to her cell so that they can continue the treatment. They were so close to cracking her forever." Cracking me forever? I was being controlled. By these people?/p
p class="MsoNormal""We should get some help. We shouldn't move her by ourselves." Cracking her forever? All the pain inflicted upon me. My screams. My burns. My lashes. My scars. I knew this was wrong because they weren't the enemy. I knew Loki had scars because I had been close enough to him for him to explain them to me. I was heaving in air but I still couldn't breathe./p
p class="MsoNormal""I'll run and get somebody. Make sure she doesn't move."/p
p class="MsoNormal"I grabbed the guy who straightened and on instinct slammed my fist into his face. The other guy tried to make a run for it but I grabbed him with some luck and tackled him to the ground. He hit me hard on the chin to bruise and I jerked my knee between his legs. He went down collapsing on top of me. I rolled him off and saw them both out./p
p class="MsoNormal""Enya, hurry!" I moved to Natasha and with shaky hands managed to unbelt her hands and legs. I grabbed her top and passed it to her, and then moved back into the room Loki was in./p
p class="MsoNormal""What was that noise? The woman? Is he killing her?" I moved towards him but didn't answer. "She better be alive. Soldier, I was just told you were supposed to start them. I've given him five. You should continue."/p
p class="MsoNormal""I think not." I grabbed the whip of him and lashed out at him with my fist. He wasn't expecting it and I knocked him straight unconscious./p
p class="MsoNormal""Enya?" I heard Loki's desperation but I couldn't look at him as I saw the lashes across his pale skin. Natasha ran in and looked at me./p
p class="MsoNormal""Help them." I had to leave the room. I moved to Tony's room. He was tied to a chair. The guy was sat on a table looking at his hands./p
p class="MsoNormal""What is all that commotion out there? One of them putting up a fight?" I picked up the bucket and emptied the water on the floor. "What are you doing Soldier?" Then I smacked him around the face with it. He cried out so I smacked him again. Hard enough he collapsed. He tried to get back up but with a final blow he stayed down. I unbelted Tony's arms and legs and left him to do his gag. Next was Clint's room. He was strapped to a metal bed. The guy was taunting him with a knife./p
p class="MsoNormal""I can't wait to start on him. He might take a while and I love it when they put up a fight. That woman is putting up a fight making that racket. Hurt my ears!" He smiled at me, but it sickened me. I held my hand out for the blade and something gleamed in his eye. "I won't tell." He grinned as he looked at Clint. I flipped the knife and grabbed the head of my enemy. I twisted him and brought he knife across his throat. He dropped./p
p class="MsoNormal"I then unbelted Clint as he watched me suspiciously. I left him to focus on his gag and the last one was Steve. I jammed the blade in the lock, twisting hard enough that the door groaned and the lock broke free. I opened it up and something hit me so hard it made my whole body fly backwards into the wall. I crumpled into the floor and felt pain radiate across me. I couldn't breathe enough to bring my body into order. So I just laid on the floor hurting. Flashes of images appeared before my eyelids. And some part of me realised that these people shouldn't be hurting, and I had no right to go with them./p
p class="MsoNormal""Steve!" Natasha cried. I felt hands on me but I couldn't move./p
p class="MsoNormal""Let's go!"/p
p class="MsoNormal""You shouldn't have tried to kill her."/p
p class="MsoNormal""She is the enemy." He said. I was. I was the enemy. I couldn't be forgiven for what I had done. I had broken, and let them be broken too./p
p class="MsoNormal""She just saved us." I started feeling air enter my body and tried to focus. I was leaning against the wall and my whole head hurt. I still clutched the blade. I saw a hand reach towards me and I jumped away. I staggered, fell over but clambered back up a few meters away. I saw Thor's hand extended but I kept back up; away. "Enya, we need to go." Nat looked at me. I saw them and realised what I had done./p
p class="MsoNormal""Go. Straight down. Take second left, first right, second left and follow down to the stairs."/p
p class="MsoNormal""We can't leave without you."/p
p class="MsoNormal""No." I shrunk back as she advanced. "I'm bad. I'm bad. I hurt you. I can't go. I'm broken. I'll always be broken."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Enya, we are going. And you shall come with us. That is an order." I flinched but stayed where I was. I took a step towards them but the shrieking voice was in the back of my head again. Images flashed and I took two steps back instead./p
p class="MsoNormal""Enya,"/p
p class="MsoNormal""Go." I hissed. "Or I shall tell them you escaped." They all looked at one another and I begged for them to go. Then sirens started. Loki pushed past Thor and moved towards me. I shrunk further back but he kept on coming. I backed against the wall as he approached./p
p class="MsoNormal""You hurt me once. You'll not do it again." He hissed violently at me. I nodded at him meekly. "Then get moving. And protect Natasha." I looked at the others. "Enya. You understand me. This is how you make it up to us. You get us out of here. And protect Natasha." I saw how she was stiff, hurting. I saw how he was still shirtless hurting. They were all waiting for me. They wouldn't leave without me; but if they stayed it meant worse for us all. So with great reluctance I nodded. "Hurry up." He demanded. His tone spoke of violence and rage. It was something I never heard in him. I was sure of it./p
p class="MsoNormal"I shrunk past him and moved between them, trying to stay away from them. Then I led the way./p
p class="MsoNormal"We encountered people on the way, but I dispatched them quickly. It was effortless. We moved quickly, until we were at the corridor leading to the stairs. I heard footsteps and pointed. They moved past me and I watched the back taking out people as they raced towards us./p
p class="MsoNormal"The latch was opened and out they ran. I followed quickly, but the cold air and snow soon made escaping look impossible./p
p class="MsoNormal""Where is my jet?" Tony shouted. I looked around and felt the presence of metal. I breathed in and pushed for the jet. It roared to life and it was twenty meters to the right. Snow started to slide off the covered mound as lights blared./p
p class="MsoNormal"Someone lunged for Natasha as she bent down to pack ice against her wound. I threw my knife and he went down before realising it was embedded in his chest. She looked at me grateful. But I saw someone creep out of the stair well and move towards Thor. I dived for Thor, pushing him. It was almost like diving head first into a wall. His strength and weight behind my dazed addled brain. He sprawled forwards by some miracle and I twisted to attack the guy as he jammed his knife into my leg instead of Thor's back. The pain didn't register too much as I elbowed the man and he toppled backwards down the stair well. He grabbed me and pulled me down with him. We both toppled down the stairs into the darkness. We took out a few people with us and I heard my name being screamed. I didn't feel the metal steps as I hurtled down on them. I didn't feel the knife as it dug further into my leg slashing horizontal. I didn't feel the blood pool out as my leg slowly became dismembered. I only felt the screams in my head as the darkness came round me. Not the cold. Not the torn skin. The bald patches of hair. The burns. The bruises. Just the constant screaming tearing open my brain./p
p class="MsoNormal"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanI clambered out the mess of people, knives scratching my skin as I tried to leave. I tore the one out my leg as I darted up the stairs into the snow. I collapsed into the snow, my leg no longer supporting me when arms grabbed me. I looked at Steve alarmed as he ran to the jet and up the stairs. The door shut instantly and it started moving./p
p class="MsoNormal"Then I felt the agonising pain crush my brain and my body. And I was struggling to breathe again. I felt the floor beneath me as I curled up, trying to stop the agony. But something hit me hard enough across the back of my head to create darkness./p
p class="MsoNormal""Thor!"/p
p class="MsoNormal""For her peace." I heard him murmur as it blacked out and the pain was gone./p
p class="MsoNormal"I would start at five hundred hours. It wasn't long before I started. I moved into the door opposite Natasha Romanoff's and saw Thor and Loki stood facing each other, chained tightly. Loki was in plain black pants. His top had been removed, so had his boots and socks. Thor had no boots or socks or cape. His shirt was off too. Loki was the first to be tortured. He was to feel the pain that would be rained upon Thor after he weakened./p
p class="MsoNormal"Another man followed me with a whip. I did not take it from him, and he held it up waiting for five hundred. I was supposed to start it, but I didn't. I couldn't. I knew I couldn't. The guy who was starting it didn't know I was supposed to start it either./p
p class="MsoNormal""Enya, Enya, please." Thor and Loki pleaded with me. "Enya, this isn't you. Enya, they are controlling you. Enya." I stared blankly and felt my skin prickle. My chest hurt and I was starting to sweat. I didn't say anything and Loki looked at me still; pleading. I glanced at him. He was tall, lean but I knew he had superhuman strength. He was toned and incredible fit for a pale specimen. Then I saw something that had my shrieking voice burst. I saw scars along his ribs and back. I saw them track down to his hip. I had seen them before. He had explained before. He had told me where he got them, and why he had them. The pain. The enforcement. It had upset me. But why would I have seen these before?/p
p class="MsoNormal""Loki, don't give in. Don't give in. Not for me."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Thor…" He was stuck what to say. Something in me twisted but five hundred started and the first lash struck down. He jerked as the leather cut into him. Something in me hurt, and when Loki cried out I couldn't handle it. I left the room on the pretence of overseeing other matters. But when I left the room I heard Natasha scream. I heard more screaming in my ears and I couldn't breathe. Something was wrong. And this pain was not right./p
p class="MsoNormal"I opened the door to Natasha's room and the Maker was lighting a match. I glanced at her, her top folded up on the chair; burns covering her shoulders and arms. He was advancing over the same area with real flame, rather than electricity burns. Her shoulder was already raw, blistering. I had burns. I had burns. He placed the match near her arm and something inside me snapped. I strode forwards, grabbed his head and smashed it on the table. His head cracked open and he died as he hit the floor. The match went out immediately. Natasha looked at me relieved but then my head burst. I staggered back and sunk to the floor. I cradled my head screaming. It hurt. Something wasn't right, it hurt. I tore at my strands of hair pulling chunk of my red ruby hair onto the floor. I tore at my skin feeling chunks of my skin under my nails and my blood well immediately. Anything to get the pain out. It hurt./p
p class="MsoNormal"I heard running footsteps and two men ran into the room. I kept screaming. Screaming so loud, so raw I felt the tear in my throat. I felt the pain from such nakedness. The pain my head felt I released from my throat. I didn't take a breath, I didn't pause. I just screamed until it hurt my own head and I was feeling dizzy and sick./p
p class="MsoNormal""She's remembering." They bent over me examining my agony. Remembering what? "We need to get her back to her cell so that they can continue the treatment. They were so close to cracking her forever." Cracking me forever? I was being controlled. By these people?/p
p class="MsoNormal""We should get some help. We shouldn't move her by ourselves." Cracking her forever? All the pain inflicted upon me. My screams. My burns. My lashes. My scars. I knew this was wrong because they weren't the enemy. I knew Loki had scars because I had been close enough to him for him to explain them to me. I was heaving in air but I still couldn't breathe./p
p class="MsoNormal""I'll run and get somebody. Make sure she doesn't move."/p
p class="MsoNormal"I grabbed the guy who straightened and on instinct slammed my fist into his face. The other guy tried to make a run for it but I grabbed him with some luck and tackled him to the ground. He hit me hard on the chin to bruise and I jerked my knee between his legs. He went down collapsing on top of me. I rolled him off and saw them both out./p
p class="MsoNormal""Enya, hurry!" I moved to Natasha and with shaky hands managed to unbelt her hands and legs. I grabbed her top and passed it to her, and then moved back into the room Loki was in./p
p class="MsoNormal""What was that noise? The woman? Is he killing her?" I moved towards him but didn't answer. "She better be alive. Soldier, I was just told you were supposed to start them. I've given him five. You should continue."/p
p class="MsoNormal""I think not." I grabbed the whip of him and lashed out at him with my fist. He wasn't expecting it and I knocked him straight unconscious./p
p class="MsoNormal""Enya?" I heard Loki's desperation but I couldn't look at him as I saw the lashes across his pale skin. Natasha ran in and looked at me./p
p class="MsoNormal""Help them." I had to leave the room. I moved to Tony's room. He was tied to a chair. The guy was sat on a table looking at his hands./p
p class="MsoNormal""What is all that commotion out there? One of them putting up a fight?" I picked up the bucket and emptied the water on the floor. "What are you doing Soldier?" Then I smacked him around the face with it. He cried out so I smacked him again. Hard enough he collapsed. He tried to get back up but with a final blow he stayed down. I unbelted Tony's arms and legs and left him to do his gag. Next was Clint's room. He was strapped to a metal bed. The guy was taunting him with a knife./p
p class="MsoNormal""I can't wait to start on him. He might take a while and I love it when they put up a fight. That woman is putting up a fight making that racket. Hurt my ears!" He smiled at me, but it sickened me. I held my hand out for the blade and something gleamed in his eye. "I won't tell." He grinned as he looked at Clint. I flipped the knife and grabbed the head of my enemy. I twisted him and brought he knife across his throat. He dropped./p
p class="MsoNormal"I then unbelted Clint as he watched me suspiciously. I left him to focus on his gag and the last one was Steve. I jammed the blade in the lock, twisting hard enough that the door groaned and the lock broke free. I opened it up and something hit me so hard it made my whole body fly backwards into the wall. I crumpled into the floor and felt pain radiate across me. I couldn't breathe enough to bring my body into order. So I just laid on the floor hurting. Flashes of images appeared before my eyelids. And some part of me realised that these people shouldn't be hurting, and I had no right to go with them./p
p class="MsoNormal""Steve!" Natasha cried. I felt hands on me but I couldn't move./p
p class="MsoNormal""Let's go!"/p
p class="MsoNormal""You shouldn't have tried to kill her."/p
p class="MsoNormal""She is the enemy." He said. I was. I was the enemy. I couldn't be forgiven for what I had done. I had broken, and let them be broken too./p
p class="MsoNormal""She just saved us." I started feeling air enter my body and tried to focus. I was leaning against the wall and my whole head hurt. I still clutched the blade. I saw a hand reach towards me and I jumped away. I staggered, fell over but clambered back up a few meters away. I saw Thor's hand extended but I kept back up; away. "Enya, we need to go." Nat looked at me. I saw them and realised what I had done./p
p class="MsoNormal""Go. Straight down. Take second left, first right, second left and follow down to the stairs."/p
p class="MsoNormal""We can't leave without you."/p
p class="MsoNormal""No." I shrunk back as she advanced. "I'm bad. I'm bad. I hurt you. I can't go. I'm broken. I'll always be broken."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Enya, we are going. And you shall come with us. That is an order." I flinched but stayed where I was. I took a step towards them but the shrieking voice was in the back of my head again. Images flashed and I took two steps back instead./p
p class="MsoNormal""Enya,"/p
p class="MsoNormal""Go." I hissed. "Or I shall tell them you escaped." They all looked at one another and I begged for them to go. Then sirens started. Loki pushed past Thor and moved towards me. I shrunk further back but he kept on coming. I backed against the wall as he approached./p
p class="MsoNormal""You hurt me once. You'll not do it again." He hissed violently at me. I nodded at him meekly. "Then get moving. And protect Natasha." I looked at the others. "Enya. You understand me. This is how you make it up to us. You get us out of here. And protect Natasha." I saw how she was stiff, hurting. I saw how he was still shirtless hurting. They were all waiting for me. They wouldn't leave without me; but if they stayed it meant worse for us all. So with great reluctance I nodded. "Hurry up." He demanded. His tone spoke of violence and rage. It was something I never heard in him. I was sure of it./p
p class="MsoNormal"I shrunk past him and moved between them, trying to stay away from them. Then I led the way./p
p class="MsoNormal"We encountered people on the way, but I dispatched them quickly. It was effortless. We moved quickly, until we were at the corridor leading to the stairs. I heard footsteps and pointed. They moved past me and I watched the back taking out people as they raced towards us./p
p class="MsoNormal"The latch was opened and out they ran. I followed quickly, but the cold air and snow soon made escaping look impossible./p
p class="MsoNormal""Where is my jet?" Tony shouted. I looked around and felt the presence of metal. I breathed in and pushed for the jet. It roared to life and it was twenty meters to the right. Snow started to slide off the covered mound as lights blared./p
p class="MsoNormal"Someone lunged for Natasha as she bent down to pack ice against her wound. I threw my knife and he went down before realising it was embedded in his chest. She looked at me grateful. But I saw someone creep out of the stair well and move towards Thor. I dived for Thor, pushing him. It was almost like diving head first into a wall. His strength and weight behind my dazed addled brain. He sprawled forwards by some miracle and I twisted to attack the guy as he jammed his knife into my leg instead of Thor's back. The pain didn't register too much as I elbowed the man and he toppled backwards down the stair well. He grabbed me and pulled me down with him. We both toppled down the stairs into the darkness. We took out a few people with us and I heard my name being screamed. I didn't feel the metal steps as I hurtled down on them. I didn't feel the knife as it dug further into my leg slashing horizontal. I didn't feel the blood pool out as my leg slowly became dismembered. I only felt the screams in my head as the darkness came round me. Not the cold. Not the torn skin. The bald patches of hair. The burns. The bruises. Just the constant screaming tearing open my brain./p
p class="MsoNormal"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanI clambered out the mess of people, knives scratching my skin as I tried to leave. I tore the one out my leg as I darted up the stairs into the snow. I collapsed into the snow, my leg no longer supporting me when arms grabbed me. I looked at Steve alarmed as he ran to the jet and up the stairs. The door shut instantly and it started moving./p
p class="MsoNormal"Then I felt the agonising pain crush my brain and my body. And I was struggling to breathe again. I felt the floor beneath me as I curled up, trying to stop the agony. But something hit me hard enough across the back of my head to create darkness./p
p class="MsoNormal""Thor!"/p
p class="MsoNormal""For her peace." I heard him murmur as it blacked out and the pain was gone./p
