DEER
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Disclaimer: Boku no Hero Academia belongs to Horikoshi Kohei
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Genre(s): Adventure/Hurt/Comfort
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Warning(s): Typo is my most loyal fan, spelling mistakes because English is not my mother language, Possibly OOC.
Beta'd by Eternal King. Thank you so much~
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Summary: Shota thought discovering their 'Nightwalker' to be a kid was bad enough. Not to mention how the said kid is literally Quirkless, meaning the law cannot touch him.
"I don't wanna be a Hero. It's too troublesome"
And then this?
Maybe it's not too late to ask Nezu for a raise this year…
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Since the day he got his quirk, Hisashi knew that he's not a good person.
He isn't a Villain, nor he intended to be one. But after that fourth birthday of his that was full of confetti and cheers, he always had this need. To watch over a crackling fire. See it burn brightly in the middle of a sunny day or a chilly wind of a dreary night. Keep it alive, make it stronger. Don't let anybody extinguished it and claim the fire as your own property.
It must be a side-effect of his Quirk; in which he could breathe fire from a mere puff of air. A very annoying, very worrying side effect because then, small Hisashi will find any random excuses just so he can fire-gaze a little while longer. His parents were afraid (for him or of him, he wasn't sure). They were scared that their precious child will take a turn for the worse and left them to rot. Hisashi realized this as well—he's a smart kid. He recognized the possible jeopardy he posed from the very beginning—so he brought a lighter along with him whenever possible, even though he didn't smoke. When the school prohibited him, he opened a video of a blazing flame on his phone as a (poor) compensation.
As long as he won't hurt others. As long as he won't succumb to the devil's whisper.
It was a hard thing to resist, however. When he grew older and wiser, that voice didn't disappear. In fact, it became stronger. It caused him to be temperamental, easily angered. He fought with his parents a lot and one time, he even burned half of the kitchen in a pit of rage. Then when he thought he'll fall to the dark abyss anyway, after enduring it for twenty-five years, Hisashi met Inko.
She's precious, that was the only word he could describe for this literal angel. Her smile was revitalizing, her eyes glittered like jewels, and her skin was as white as a beautiful pearl. They met each other when one of his colleagues was accused of household abuse, saying that he is such a foul man and had been forcing his disgusting view on the beautiful, shy wife (in truth, it was the other way around. No wonder he was so meek these past few months. And after a grand wedding that was full of hopefulness for the bright future too). He saw her, standing on a defense bench and mercilessly strike the prosecutor's claim down.
Majestic. Mesmerizing. Hisashi knew he was hooked almost immediately.
That colleague of his teased him a ton after knowing that. What a cliche personification of 'falling in love at first sight'. But Hisashi ignored him. He didn't care if he sounded like those cheesy males from a cheesy romance story. He knew that that green-haired woman was the only one for him.
Because when he landed his orb on that gorgeous existence God had graciously made, the voice inside his head was silent. No whisper, no persuasion. The very presence of Inko had driven his impulse away somehow and gave him a peace he never experienced in this arduous life.
He felt bad if he married this woman based on his own needs, though. So, before he could deepen their relationship any further, he told her. That he is far from kind. That he always yearned to burn everything; or at least, see things alight on fire. That he is not an excellent being and if she wanted to find a better partner than him, Hisashi will leave her side at any moment notice. No compensation attach.
Inko cupped his face at that time, lips quirked and cheek flushed, while she said, "The current you is enough."
For years to come, Hisashi felt like the happiest man on the earth. He was blessed with a smart, lovely wife. His job was going well. The malicious hiss hissing in his head was nowhere to be heard (Inko suggested to go see the psychologist anyway, as it appeared he has (had) an Auditory Visual Hallucination; often happen when an internal mental event is misattributed to an external or non-self source). He knew what it felt like to be a normal person and wished that this happiness will never fade out.
…but he should've known that he'll jinx himself.
As this is a cruel, cruel world. Accompanied by a cruel, cruel fate.
When he saw Izuku's condition—his depression and his Quirklessness (and now the blood that had stained his hands after the death of those atrocious villains)—Hisashi knew. Too late, too slow.
That he had accidentally bestowed his innocent child with a curse that was previously put upon him.
(No wonder The Voice had been so silent since the day he met Inko. Because it finally found a new body to live in. A new soul to torture.)
I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so, so sorry—
"Hey, dad," Izuku hummed, green orbs flitted to the darkened figure sitting at his left bedside, illuminated by a low shine of a laptop, "you shouldn't blame yourself for something you never did. Everything that happened—"
(He pretended not to see when Hisashi's handsome complexion was stained with tears and snot.)
"—is because I am broken way before I was even born."
Midoriya Hisashi acknowledged that he was not a good person. The noise inside his mind had been urging him to wreak havoc throughout the world just to see his beloved fire live eternally. Then he met Inko, a beautiful woman enveloped by a beautiful heart. On that fateful day that was filled with gladness, he promised to be the better version of himself; as a man, as a husband, and as a father.
So, no matter how hard you try not to involve us in your one-man crusade and you weren't ready to receive any help whatsoever—
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File: Hero Associate's 'True Face' (compiled by Takami Keigo)
File: Corrupt Heroes and Innocent Villains (compiled by Midoriya Hisashi)
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Then let us just be broken together.
(A/N): Why the freak am I tearing up? :'D
By the way, will we ever see Hisashi? Someone said that Hori said he will reveal him at the end of the story and I thiiiiinnnkkk we're almost at the end of the story (for BnHA manga itself) but there's no sign of him appearing soon.
And who's the traitor, now that I think about it? I know Hawk is the double agent, but Mic said that there might be a traitor IN UA because of how the fact that they knew the schedule of 1-A class, even after they changed their destination. Not OUTSIDE of UA. Will Hori ever explain that, or he did already and I'm just a dumb dumb? :/
Anyway, I like to think Hisashi is a calm, not-emotional man. So, when he finally cry, it was a sign that the situation is so out of hand, he doesn't know if his help will ever be enough.
