NALA
We found shelter before it started raining, that was good. The last thing we needed to do was drag ourselves in a storm. I can tell we're getting closer to the valley pride, all the trees and forest that used to surround us are now far and few in between. Which made finding this acacia tree that seemed to be standing out in the middle of nowhere easy. But it could be bigger... we both want out of the rain because it's coming down now, but this tree is barely wide enough to cover us fully.
So we have to be close...
We tried our best to sit on opposite sides of each other. there was no doubt still some tension we had for each other, that I don't think will go away, especially not any time soon. so we just sat quietly, waiting for the storm to pass. it was weird had I felt it come so suddenly. I feel like this is the great kings of the past trying to tell me something.
the stillness gave me all the time I didn't want to think about my mother. kings, I wonder what she's doing right now. What are all are doing right now? I've only been gone a few weeks but it's been feeling like eons. I had half the mind to think I should have stayed and seen where things played out. I know thinking that it ridiculous, especially with the ways things were ending. but I miss my family. A lot and this doesn't help that now this is my first time being away from Roho.
it doesn't help that I didn't even tell him I was leaving...I feel terrible about that. all I said was I'd be coming back. when he went out to be with Shia. I know he's in good paws, but still... I can't help but think of every possible thing happening- or that could happen to him right now. I was the closest thing to his mother he had and now I'm not there for him. Fuck. and what if more hyena comes back, what if he went looking for me?
Dammit, I should have thought this through more! I wiped away the tears of frustration. "...get ahold of yourself Nala."
"huh, you say something?" wow that quickly I had forgotten Simba was even there. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing.
"um no." damn, I shouldn't be this distracted. am I salty about Simba completely shooting down what I said earlier about him, yes, yes I am, and I'll probably be for a while, but now in hindsight, I could see he had a point. I'm not going to admit that of course.
but how can I not have the feeling, that after he comes a saves us that the same thing won't just happen again? who's to say another rival male or males comes along and takes us over again. we couldn't survive that. and we pride land lions do not belong in the mountains no matter how hard we want to adapt. the mountain pride is not our home, and we can't stay there. we don't belong. we need to get rid of those hyenas, and we need to take back pride rock.
But that's going to be a whole different story within its self. Kings. How are we going to do this? we're we walking into our own deaths? Of all the things that could go wrong, will it? this decision would be a lot easier if I only had to think of myself, but I can't right now. I'd promise Vitani I'd take care of her son and bring him back to her, I'd be damned if I fail. but it seems like there's way more at stake now...damn how did she manage?
She was probably stressing about every little thing knowing her.
"You okay?"
"Me?" duh, who else could he be talking I do think I heard Simba talking to himself earlier. about what I don't know, but he seemed to be in his head a lot. "fine, why?"
"Nothing, you seem quiet."
"Not much to say really."
"Right." I hated feeling weird with him, he was my best friend before. ideally, we should be happy to see one another, and bonding over lost time.
"You really think what we're about to do will work?"
"Why wouldn't it?" reflection was a pain in the ass at it's worst. But there's nothing much you can do when you're just walking for hours at a time. It gives your brain too much liberty to think about every decision you're about to make. "Having second thoughts? because if you are, you can head back. I won't be mad." why did it feel like he was giving me a pass to leave? I was the one that told him I was coming with him, regardless, shouldn't he be holding me to it?
"No, it's not like that. I'm just thinking that...what if this is all for nothing. what if your plan doesn't work? and they don't believe us."
"why wouldn't they, plus we'd have your mother there and the other to vouch for us. Not to mention we'd already have the hyenas. Which is proof enough right there."
"So. I mean Simba you don't think that something could do wrong. and when-not if- do you have a counter for it?"
"Counter? no, nothing's going to go wrong." I could hear a hint of agitation in his voice. I couldn't tell if that was from me, or from him thinking the same thing as me.
"Im not trying to be a downer but, I just trying to prepare. Let's just say they don't believe you, they don't help us. Then we go back and face Nuka with what...6 strong at max?"
"Then we'd do a surprise attack. He wouldn't see coming."
"But you said he knows you're coming. so that whole surprise option has to be off of the table. it's a matter of when you come Simba not how. He'll be ready for you either way."
"I know that Nala. So then there no preparation for that. This plan will work because it has to. if my cousin would be a lion, we wouldn't have to do this. I'd just face him off, as we'd done before." I could feel he had stories behind those words, but I wasn't in the mind to asks. "Killed or be killed we wouldn't involve anyone else.
"I'm glad you know he's not going to fight fair, at all Simba. He'll do anything when he feels he's losing. He's done it to me, Vitani and he'll do it to you."
"You've fought him, right." he voiced this more like a statement than a question. I don't think I had to have answered. but I did it anyway.
"Yea."
"which is why this has to be complicated for you." complicated, what did that mean?
"What do you mean by that?" when I looked at him I could tell he was trying to figure out what he was trying to say himself. "Say it, what are you implying?"
"I don't know what you and my cousin had, but I think you're going to get in the way." was he serious?
"...re-really...how the hell do you suppose that?"
" Fuck what I'm trying to say is-I know you've been thought a lot, hell even. And is really taking you back there the best thing?"
"um yes. I have every right to be there as you do!"
"and I'm not taking that away from you I just...be serious Nala. if shit going to hit the fan like you think it will, are you prepared for that? I mean you'd be safer with Shia and Roho- yes you can help take me there, but you don't have to stay."
"And why would to think I would want to leave? I want him dead!" what the Fuck was he getting at? was he trying to be helpful...looking out for me? I don't think what he was saying was what he actually wanted to say, to at least I was taking it all wrong.
"...it's not coming out the way I'm thinking it would be in my head. I'm just trying to look out for you."
"I don't need that Simba, I've been fine without you 'looking out for me'
"you're... right fine. I don't know what I was thinking."
"yea I don't know either." I got up to scoot away from him, I was ready to leave. "I'm getting some sleep, if we leave early tomorrow we'll be there by evening and hopefully we'd beat my mother and the others there."
"fine. but where are you going?" I gotten up and ventured to a smaller brush connected to the acacia tree. it wasn't much for shelter, but I could only sleep with my back against something. and I wasn't going to sleep against this small tree, too close to a male. and I don't put myself in any situation that could have me compromised.
"I told you I'm sleeping."
"There? you'll get wet."
"It's fine."
"Still don't trust me?"
"It's not you Simba, it's me."
+RyanSquad, I know right, lions going crazy, and nice to be back. December will be it! the countdown to Christmas lol
+KawaiiCutie12, Me too, would be the longest ongoing LK movie LOL
