12 days of Christmas!
NALA
Once I came back from hunting, Simba and I laid low for the remainder of the day. the African hare didn't fill us up that much, but it was still something. I'd rather have a stomach that half full, than bare emptied. while waiting, we thought about scouting out a different area, the valley pride had one main entrance into their territory but it was rather wide. We could easily see them if we weren't paying attention. and just sitting and waiting for something to happen when nothing was happening was becoming unbearable, especially for me.
I tried to think of what Nuka could have told them before leaving...there has to be something. I doubt they're going to come into their territory making a loud commotion...unless that is what they want. They would clearly get caught and taken away. but Nuka moves with more diplomacy, diplomacy with hidden intentions. He's going to make them think they need him...or that he'll bring something extra to their pride.
The thought of adding 12 plus lionesses and gluttoning years, doesn't seem like much of an offer. If anything, anyone in their right mind would send these guests going back the way they came. Nuka doing this just seems like a sudden mission to me...I can't understand it...How in the world he thinks he's going to take over a whole another pride, let alone the whole of Africa is madness.
All this time just laying low gave my mind too much time to think.
Overthinking has always been my problem and now I can't help but add a worrying factor of shit going wrong. I mean, everything we've done has failed. Between Sarabi trying to free us from Scar, and then Nuka double-crossing Vitani with a lioness from her own pride. A part of me believes we are bound to fail at this...and it kills me. it's like good things are not allowed to happen to us...
Besides, it's not like Simba is helping us for a selfless reason, if I hadn't told him about his mother he wouldn't be going this. and I know that's the last thing I should be thinking, but it's the truth!- isn't it. He wouldn't have come back any other way. Not even if I begged.
Fuck...I just feel so worked up.
Like I need to vomit to get every little anxious anxiety I have out of my body. and now I can't stop thinking about the nightmare I had yesterday. It came out of nowhere. Does it mean anything? I guess yes...no...hell I don't know. I thought I was good, over it, over him...but now it's like I can't stop thinking about him...and going back. what if I'm walking right back into a trap.
" Hey, you okay?"
"Huh?" I felt myself snap back to reality. "What?"
"Are you okay, you seem agitated?" I noticed he was looking down at my paws. My claws were sheathing and unsheathing themselves on their own. Yikes, I had no idea I was even going this. The poor grass was ripped to shreds under them. "you good?"
"Yeah, I will be. I was just thinking." I turned back to face the direction I was supposed to be scouting in. Night would soon be approaching and still nothing. what was taking them so long, I knew we'd have a day's advantage over them but damn. I can't help but feel like something has happened to them. with this suicide plan, Nuka calls himself doing...maybe they all finally napped. Maybe they waited until the left and fought the hyenas back or off and they aren't heading this way after all.
What if they won and they're now free. running as far away as I did, to just start the hell over. what if my mothers looking for me? I know she would be- she has too, but...but she wouldn't leave Vitani. I know she wouldn't.
But then what if they did fight the hyenas back or off of whatever...and they lost, and their. what if they were nothing more than skin and bone now...hell they wouldn't even be skin, because those damn hyenas would make sure they finished off every eatable part of them before returning back to Nuka. Shit... what if my mothers dead... I'll never get to see her again...hear her voice, tell her I love her and I'm sorry... "Nal-"
"Can we move now- I mean...don't you think we've been here long enough." ugh I could feel my voice catching in my throat. " Maybe they're not coming this way...we could have already missed them and-" ugh just calm down... breathe " Sorry I'm rambling."
"Let's give it another 20 minutes. you never know." right, you never know. but still, that gives my mind time to wander, I need to distract myself.
"So, when you defeat Nuka, what will you do next?" I don't know where in the hell that question came from. it caught both of us off guard. " I guess I'm asking what are the next steps. The hyenas are going to defend him tooth and nails."
"I know...I was thinking about that too." I could tell he was honestly thinking about it. how else could we get rid of a king, when he'll have a wall of minions to protect him. "we can kill off some, but I doubt all. They'll run away if they see they're losing and there's no way out."
" But he has more, Nuka didn't bring all the hyenas from pride rock. I know they're just sitting and waiting to hear from him."
"And then the pack will come... and you don't think they'll be enough of us?"
"Not likely, and if they are. I doubt most would be in fighting condition. Most of the mountain pride is made up of older lionesses."
" I could get him alone."
"No, he wouldn't fall for that. Not unless we..." ugh I couldn't even finish the thought. but he said it in my dream, that I'd come back to him. if I could draw him out-no I CAN draw him out. He wouldn't be able to resist his favorite fuck buddy... because that's what I was...am right.
"When we have the valley pride on our side, we won't have to worry about numbers." kings, I hope he's right.
"You're going to go back to Kenya right, once this is all over?" I needed a change of subject. why I picked this topic, again I don't know, my mouth was moving before I could think. "You should go back to her I mean."
"... if she'll take me back."
"I'm sure she will. We both kinda... threw a lot at her so. I get it she was completely taken off guard." a lot seemed like an understatement, we threw a whole mountain load at her.
"...yeah, we'll see..." I could see a flash of pain run across Simba's face. damn, why did I bring this up? " but don't worry about that."
"I know but I will, you guys are nice together. besides, once everything is officially over I'd like to be friends with you again...if that's okay of course. i... know we got off on the wrong paw and-" what was I trying to say, ugh I know what I'm trying to say I just don't know how to say it... "...it would be nice to have you in my life again- and not like that but...you know." I feel like I sound like a fool.
I heard him laugh, and I guess he was finding my awkwardness amusing. Whatever... but what I wasn't expecting was for him to nuzzle me. I stood frozen for a second while I felt his chin rub against the top of me.
"I've missed you too." yeah, that was what I was trying to say...why did it seem so hard. When he said it too easy. " and I'd like that lot." our embrace didn't last long, and when it was over I could feel myself wanting more. it was a friendly nuzzle, a needed one. " and you don't have to worry, once this is all over I'll make sure the pride has everything they need so you all can move back to pride rock."
"...really...but how?"
"I haven't gotten that far yet, but I'll figure something out. You all deserve it and it's the least I can do."
"Simba...thank you." as I looked at him, I drew lost in his eyes. wait, what was happening...why did I suddenly feel different- "um...i-" then there was an undeniable cackle that was far too familiar to me. And as soon as Simba heard the low whooping he stood to alert too. we left our hiding spot, quickly following the sounds that up us seemed so loud and apparent- but was like nothing to the animals that lived here.
We stayed hidden in the tall grasses, watching as the lionesses and hyenas entered the valley pride territory.
*today's and tomorrow's post will be late, I have the teach the kiddos during my normal writing hour.
+RyanSquad, I know...
+Iz (Guest), right the old nostalgia hurts!
