Paternity.

Olivia sobbed out loud, starting to hyperventilate as she watched Trevor drop the phone and rush out of her sight. She knew exactly what he was going to do and she knew nothing would stop him from beating the absolute shit out of Aiden.

Thomas came downstairs with both little ones, still confused by what was happening. He handed Noah over to Eva and tried his best to calm Maddy down while Alex and Casey delt with Olivia.

Alex sighed "Liv you need to calm down, this stress isn't good for the baby"

"He raped me" she repeated, unable to believe what she had just remembered.

Casey sighed "I know, just breathe for me" she whispered in a calm tone.

Olivia groaned "my stomach, the baby, there's something wrong"

...

Three Hours Later:

Olivia woke up in a hospital room and let out a groan "Trev?"

Alex took hold of her hand "hey beautiful, Trevor isn't here yet"

She swallowed loudly, her throat felt dry and scratchy "where is he?"

"He is on the first flight to New York" she said with a small smile "how are you feeling?"

"Like I need water" she groaned again.

Casey handed her a bottle of water and helped her drink at it "you gave us quite the scare back there"

She laid her hand on her bump "is the baby okay?"

Eva and Mary walked in with the twins who were extremely moody because they missed their mother.

"momma" Noah squealed.

Her face lit up at the sight of him "Hey baby boy, come here"

Mary placed him down beside his mother and smiled when he cuddled into her arms "they missed you, they woke up to see you pass out and they've been crying ever since."

Eva did the same with Madison and cooed when her cries instantly stopped "aww they just wanted their mother."

Olivia held both toddlers close and pressed a kiss to each of their foreheads "I love you two"

"The baby had a bit of a touch and go situation when we brought you in, but they managed to get it sorted. However you're not allowed to do anything strenuous, like heavy lifting or carrying both twins from now. No pressure should be placed on your bump, and no stress" Mary explained running her hand over Olivia's bump.

Olivia sighed "how sure are they that the baby is okay?"

"100% sure" Thomas said, coming into the room with a box of her favourite chocolates "Trevor told me to get you these, they are your favourites"

"Thank you Tommy" Her face lit up "they are my favourites, did he say anything else?"

He nodded "yeah he said to tell you that he loves you and he'll be here in a few hours"

"He beat Aiden up and some of the people in the street stopped him. He then contacted the firm, reporting a family emergency and got Thomas to sort out his flight." Eva said.

Olivia watched Madison dose off in her arms and smiled "my princess is tired."

Noah looked up at his mother, lifting his head from her chest and pressed a kiss to her cheek "momma sick?"

"I'm going to be okay kiddo" she smiled down at him, averting her gaze to Eva "so this is why you and Thomas broke up, isn't it?"

Thomas sat down on one of the vacant seats and sighed "I overhead Alex and Eva speaking, and then Eva let it slip that you were... Yeah"

"You didn't tell anybody because I made you two swear to keep it quiet until I got the nerve to talk to Trevor myself." Olivia finished, remembering her conversation with the two women.

Casey nodded "we didn't want to tell you because we were afraid that it would trigger you"

She nodded, kissing the top of Noah's head "I understand. On the plus side I got my memory back"

Mary drapped a blanket over Madison "it's good to have you back Olivia."

"It's good to be back... Even under the circumstances" she smiled, holding the twins closer to her "it feels amazing to remember every little detail about my babies"

...

"Hey" Trevor said when he walked into the hospital room, seeing his wife laying awake in bed.

She looked up at him and allowed a smile to tug at her lips "hey baby"

Trevor walked over to her, sitting next to the bed "how are you feeling beautiful?"

"Much better now that you're here." she smiled "I missed you"

He leaned down and pressed his lips to hers, his hand caressing her cheek "I missed you too. Baby I am so sorry for all of this"

"You have nothing to be sorry for, you have been so patient with me throughout this whole thing. Trevor you have been a godsend" she whispered after breaking their kiss.

He placed his free hand on her bump "so I take it the abortion talks was because of what he did to you?"

She nodded, placing her hand over his "yeah... I don't want to have his baby, but I love this kid so much already. I don't know what I'm going to do if it is actually his, what if I look at the baby and hate it as much as my mother hated me." she sniffled.

He wiped her tears away and gently caressed her bump "we will figure it out together honey, but one thing is for sure. I'm going to be right by your side through all of this"

She looked over at the the ultrasound machine "it's a boy" she whispered "I really want it to be yours Trevor"

A massive smile spread on his lips "I can't wait to meet him... We could always do a paternity test"

Olivia pursed her lips "I'm scared, I've asked the doctors about it and there are many risks of having amniocentesis done. I could miscarry, and with the history of the ectopic pregnancy, the risk becomes even bigger."

He sighed "what are the risks?"

"there's the risk of miscarriage, premature labour, my water breaking or infection. There's also a few side effects like vaginal bleeding, cramping, and leaking of amniotic fluids. I don't think it's worth the risk" she whispered, her eyes filling with tears "this baby already owns my heart, I can't take the risk of losing it now."

"I understand. I don't want you to lose this little guy either" he pressed a kiss to her forehead "I swear my heart stopped when they told me the news"

"I'm sorry for freaking out like that, everything just hit me all at once, seeing him brought back all the memories." she wiped the tear that escaped her eye and shook her head "as soon as I saw him, every image of him violating me came back."

He wiped the rest of her tears and reached for her hand "Liv you have nothing to apologise for. That asshole deserves the whole beating he got and so much more, I know that if I didn't get stopped by the neighbours, I would have killed him with my bare hands."

"Will you lay with me?" she asked, shifting over in the bed "I just want you to hold me."

"I would be honoured to hold you babe" he pressed a kiss to her shoulder and moved onto the bed beside, holding her close to him.

She laid her head on his chest and placed her hand over his on her bump "I am so sorry for keeping this from you, I thought I could run from it. I thought I could ignore it and act like nothing happened, that I could forget it. It worked, and I was moving on, so I booked a holiday in Paris for us, and I was so nervous that you would hate it when we arrived. Then Noah got sick, I got sick and we found out about the pregnancy, and it immediately realised that there is a possibility I could be carrying that assholes baby, and then all rationality left me."

He let out a breath "so you figured if you could get me to agree to the abortion we could move forward, but I made it difficult because I couldn't understand why you wanted to abort our baby."

"I was convinced that you would leave me but I just had this voice telling me that I was following in my mother's footsteps and that I would resent this baby if it was born and looked anything like him." she let out a sob "so I had Alex cancel our trip and I was pretty much prepared to lose everything, you and the kids because I always had the thought that we were too good to be true."

Trevor pressed soft kisses to her shoulder "I promise you, we will get through this honey. You have been so strong, carrying all of this on your own, but now it's time for you to let us in, let me in to help you. We can't do the paternity test right now, because of the risks, but what we can do is treat this little guy like he is mine. There's still the possibility that we're both wrong and I'm the dad, so let's treat it like that until the baby is born."

She sniffed softly "are you sure that's a good idea?"

He shrugged "its the best option we have right now, the test is not an option. Your pregnancy has been filled with sadness and problems since the night we found out about this little guy. I just want these last three months to be happy and healthy, can we do that?"

She nodded, looking up at him "yeah I'd like that"

He pressed a kiss to her lips "I've missed you so much baby"

She cupped his cheek "shh, just kiss me."

...

Two Months Later:

Olivia left the hospital a week after going in and was informed to take it easy, the stress was not good for the baby. With everything that happened through the first and second trimester of her pregnancy, the doctors were amazed that both Olivia and the baby were still okay.

She went home and as promised, they did everything to prepare for the baby, treating it as Trevor's until they were able to get the test done safely. Olivia was extremely happy, she was in therapy and was speaking about what happened, wanting to heal from it.

Her and Trevor were on a great track, they had gone shopping to prepare for the baby and decided to stay in New York until after the baby was born. Olivia was on maternity leave with immediate effect and Munch flew down to Oregon to keep an eye on the precinct there. Trevor did most of his meetings via skype and emails, refusing to leave Olivia's side.

Eva and Casey stayed for an extra two weeks before returning to Oregon, with Thomas in tow. They promised to return before Olivia hit the nine month mark, not wanting to miss the birth of their nephew. Mary came by whenever she could and was a massive help for Olivia, especially with keeping the twins entertained while Trevor worked.

Noah and Madison were both excited for their new brother, they spent every night just rubbing their mother's bump before going to bed. They were inquisitive as ever and very advanced for their age. Their speech was brilliant for year old children and often shocked their parents. They had grown to the point where they didn't want much cuddles and wanted nothing more than to play with their toys.

Olivia was currently stood in the kitchen, and kept glancing at the ultrasound picture that hung on the refrigerator. She had a smile on her face as she prepared some tea for herself and some coffee for Alex. She moved around with her eight month bump and smiled when she felt a gentle kick from her baby, something he was doing more and more everyday.

"Noah Langan if you don't stop pushing that table around right now!" Olivia hollered from the kitchen, snapping out of her thoughts when she heard Noah push the little coffee table around.

Noah looked up at the sound of his mother's serious voice "otay momma" he said with a laugh, moving away from the table.

Alex watched Madison run into the living room from the downstairs bathroom and let out a laugh "she is fast, how do you keep up with her?"

Olivia carried the two cups to the livingroom and let out a groan as she sat down "I can't keep up with either of them at this point. This baby is kicking my ass"

She chuckled "yeah, no offense but your bump is huge"

She took a sip of her tea and nodded "that it is, we've just got three more weeks to go and then this little one is going to be here."

"Are you ready for that?" she asked.

Olivia pursed her lips, she didn't know how to answer that question because she wasn't sure if was truly ready. She wanted nothing more than to see her little guy, and to hold him for the first time. On the other hand she was terrified that he would look like Aiden, or that the test results after his birth would confirm what has now become her biggest fear.

She had spoken to Trevor recently about how Aiden may try to get custody of the baby if it is his, as a means to keep Olivia in his life. She would be trapped for 18 years with her rapist and she wanted nothing of the sort. He was currently on trail but due to the fragile state of Olivia's pregnancy, she wasn't expected to fly in to testify.

"Liv!" Alex hollered, waving a hand in front of Olivia's face "are you okay?"

She blinked a few times, snapping out of her thoughts "yeah... I just dazed out a bit."

She nodded "are you sure you're okay?"

She forced a smile "yes, I'm sure. Where did Trevor say he was going to?"

"Dadda!" Madison cut in at the mention of her father's name.

Alex chuckled "he went to pick up a few groceries that you guys need. He also went to buy some things for the baby, stuff that would be necessary"

She ran a hand over her bump "this guy just needs a crib and then we'll be sorted"

"I can't believe you're having another baby, he's almost here and it still seems surreal." Alex said with a squeal.

Olivia sighed "I'm scared..."

"What? Why?" she asked, her eyebrows furrowed.

"I still have this nagging feeling that the baby is Aiden's, and I don't want that. I love this baby but I'm going insane just thinking of the possibilities, hell I don't know how I'll handle it if he isn't Trevor's." she sniffed softly, her tears making their decent "that man loves this baby as much as he loves the twins, I don't want to hurt him."

Alex reached over and wiped Olivia's tears "you'll be okay Liv. We don't know who the father is but none of that will matter, because Trevor already loves this baby. So even if it's not his, he will still be a father to him, he'll still love him."

She shook her head "that's not the problem, I know he'll love the baby regardless. The problem is what if he looks like Aiden, would I be able to handle that? What if Aiden applies for custody? I'll have to grant him visitation, even if he's in prison. I'll have to take my baby to a prison because it's his father's right to see him, regardless of the conception."

Alex noticed Olivia getting worked up and sent Trevor a text, before moving to sit beside her "Liv breathe, it's okay. You've got one more month left and then you'll know for sure, but you have to stop stressing, it's not good for the baby."

Olivia pressed her hand to her bump and sighed "I can't do this, I need to know, because I'm losing my mind with all these questions."

Noah and Madison walked over to their mother when they noticed her crying and freaking out. Both little ones laid their heads against her bump and stretched their arms around her.

She took a deep breath, knowing that the twins wanted to calm her down "Mommy is okay babies"

Noah looked up at her and smiled "is litto bwother otay?"

She chuckled softly, nodding while wiping her tears "yes baby, your little brother is okay too"

Madison gasped "mommy, bwother kicked me"

Olivia placed her hand where the baby was kicking and laughed when Noah and Maddy followed her movements "Your brother is just letting you both know that he is awake and okay."

Madison giggled, she moved her hand and pressed a kiss to the spot where the kicks had been "I love you bwother"

"and me?" Noah asked with a pout.

Madison hugged him "love you Noah"

Olivia cooed at them and turned to Alex "these two know exactly how to cheer me up."

...

Olivia tossed and turned for hours, she had woken up from a terrible dream and couldn't get back to sleep. Her back was throbing and she was exhausted, she just wanted a minute without pain. But her mind was plaguing her too, she just wanted answers and laying here and wondering was driving her insane.

After another two hours of pain she finally decided to wake Trevor "Trev... Honey wake up"

He stirred and looked up at her as she sat on the edge of their bed "what's wrong, is it the baby?"

She shook her head, tears rolling down her cheeks "I can't do this... I need to know. I'm going insane, I can't wait until he's born"

He moved close to her and wrapped his arms around her "Liv, there's too many risks"

"Trevor I'm eight months pregnant, it's too late for me to get a miscarriage." she shot back with a scowl.

"Yeah but what about all the other complications." he pressed a kiss to her forehead and placed his hand on her bump "I know this is difficult, but it's just two more weeks and then we'll know for sure. You had an ectopic pregnancy with our first baby, that could lead to complications for this little guy."

She sniffed "you think I'm crazy?"

He shook his head "no baby I don't think you're crazy. I also want to know, I think about it too, but I also think about how devastated we'll both be if anything happens to this little guy that we could have avoided."


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