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Recollection of the mall
Drabble 304
Usagi POV
It had been easily two week since I had been to the mall, more specifically to the lingerie store that Minako and Naru had taken me to. I avoided going in there now as even it was 'tainted' by memories of Mamoru. remembering how he was with me in the fitting room as we had amazing sex was enough to make my insides clench at the mere thought of him. He always did have that effect on me.
Hell even now as I walked with Minako and Makoto towards the arcaded I was only half paying attention to what the conversation was about. Not that I needed to, we had been debating the exact topic I was thinking about only from another perspective. Apparently the 'love goddess' felt that things weren't done between Mamoru and I whereas while Makoto wanted to be supportive of me she also wanted to kick Mamoru's ass for ducking out after the incredible sex that left me so weak in the knees I couldn't follow.
I was conflicted and stuck in the middle as I agreed with both of my friends knowing that Mamoru wouldn't have acted that way unless there was some feelings behind it, it just wasn't his style, not really, but at the same time I didn't want to get my hopes up either and get hurt again so this fifteen minute long debate began as Minako asked if I was going to try to win him back and Makoto protested.
I closed my mouth and watched as we walked, the two of them ping pong the discussion back and forth. To be honest I wondered if either of them realized I wasn't even talking about the topic at hand and was merely listening to them talk as we walked along. "Come on he abandoned her AFTER they had wild hot sex in the dressing room of a mall!" Makoto exclaimed a little bit louder than necessary making my eyes dart around making sure we weren't being overheard by anyone around.
Thankfully not but still, "A little louder I don't think they heard you in in the next district over." I muttered as Makoto had the decency to look a little sheepish as she said, "My point still stands." She tries in a lower tone. "Okay you may have a slight point, but I heard them in there it was love." Minako said as I blushed in embarrassment. Having her remind me about that every so often made me both excited that I had someone to talk to about it and really embarrassed that she literally overheard it.
Naru had to but she was still a little green around the edges and didn't want to go into details over what she heard. I couldn't blame her to much so I talked to Minako about it which lead to Makoto overhearing which lead to this discussion. "Yeah but you weren't in there with them." Makoto pointed out, "Thankfully…" I muttered wishing that something would happen to end this conversation going on.
At this point I would take anything to end it as they kept going on, "Maybe not but hearing it and having my 'love goddess' powers told me how much love was going on between them." Minako pointed out as Makoto rolled her eyes, "Love goddess powers my ass. You heard two people having sex, it happens." Her words made me nod in slight agreement as I quirked a smile even though I saw the slight irritation in Minako's eyes.
"I do have them, and I know the difference between love making and just sex. THAT was love making, hard and passionate love making, right Usagi." She said it more as a fact that a question, but I responded still, "Yes I felt it for myself." I looked to them both as Makoto responded with, "That may be, but it doesn't mean that he deserves to have her back after all of that. Love making or not he ducked out and ran off like a damned coward." That was also true, Mamoru took off like hell hounds were nipping at his ankles.
"He was in his own mental anguish; he clearly is staying away from her for a reason and instead of giving into further temptation he took off." Minako looked like she was in a near 'lala land' state of mind, "And where did you pull this theory out of? Your rear?" Makoto asked sarcastically as Minako shot her a glare, "No, It's the residual I felt coming off from him, I just don't know WHY he felt that way, but he did." She explained.
We were a block from the arcade at this point as they kept the debate up, both holding their own strong points and neither backing down as I was feeling like the ping pong ball in the middle or rather the spectator watching the match play out. "I think he was just horny and seeing Usagi dressed up as she was didn't help." Makoto pointed out making me look to her as she amended, "Not saying its on you or anything far from it, its on him for NOT controlling himself." I nodded agreeing with her.
It was on him for not keeping a handle on himself, I hadn't known he would be there so yeah, he started it then before I could end it, he took off. My little internal struggle which started this little debate off was would I let him back in if it happened again? My heart could only handle so much especially from this well from him. "You have to admit though Usagi you did look hot in that little number he…" I glared at her to stop talking.
"What?" she asked, "I don't need a blow by blow description spoken outside as it were." I blushed at how that came out, "Did that happen in there?" she asked as I blushed even harder to my roots, "I'm not going into that detail." I blushed harder as having him in my mouth tended to make me blush a lot. He was quite big and thick…and full. "So you did…" she muttered as if she got the information she wanted.
The gleam in her eyes as she gave me a 'way to go' glance had me becoming more red than before. That is until we rounded the corner to the arcade and I, as I was turning to face ahead of me, ran into a very hard very firm object. Before I could react to the bump though it held onto me so I could regain my support. I looked up and saw Mamoru. The object of my waking desires, the man that infiltrated my dreams…the man that ditched me at the mall after a wild round of sex.
I could still see the desire in his eyes from that day, it looked similar to now as Mamoru held me close and didn't bother to move me away just yet. Being in my summer dress it was a tad low cut due to the heat outside and I could definitely see WHY he was hanging on the extra few moments as his eyes drifted over me. He looked me up and down like he was a starved man looking for water.
"Her eyes are up top." Makoto suggested none to gently as her tone was protective. The spell broken we parted as he backed up a step…or two. The distance felt to much already as my body was calling out to his despite the previous encounters ending. "Way to ruin the moment." Minako lightly berated Makoto as I spoke up before Makoto could say anything further, "So I presume your just leaving the arcade." I assumed towards Mamoru.
He looked back, "Yeah when you hadn't shown up yet, I decided to head out, but now that I have run into you…can we talk." I debated this for a moment knowing I had both the angel and devil next to me. Minako would encourage this as Makoto would discourage it, yet I knew that despite understanding Makoto's need to be protective I did need to talk to him. We needed to talk to each other.
"I'll catch up with you guys later. We need to touch base here." Figure things out…I added to myself as the girls walked off leaving us to stand here on the sidewalk, "There's a small clearing over here, lets talk." He suggested as I saw a park nearby with a little secluded area that we could talk and no one would drop by around. It was perfect to do so without worrying about anyone walking by.
I wasn't one to beat around the bush right now, not with all the questions I had in my head, "So tell me something…" I rounded on him as I sat down on the wooden bench, placing my arms on the top to give myself a more in control appearance when really I was spreading myself out that way if I had to make a quick getaway from his rudeness or cruelness I could get up quickly. "I just need to know what were you thinking?" I ask.
He sighed, "it's a long story that I can't tell you…just trust me that it's for your own good." He said trying to be firm but between my talk with the girls and dealing with his hot and cold behavior I was done, "Not good enough." I stood up, "You've been acting off and odd for a while now and I want the truth and nothing but the truth." I nearly order him. His face shifts as if this talk with me is painful to him.
"I can't what happened last time was a mistaken. Nothing more." The forced words hurt but at the same time I could hear regret in his tone for even saying them, "Liar." I called him out on it, "Not lying." He denied it, "I can hear it in your voice." I tell him so I can see the cogs in his brain working out another angle, "Not my fault you're in denial Usagi. It was a one time thing that shouldn't have even happened. Get over it."
That stung much like the slap I just issued to him without thinking. He looked at me stunned as he caressed his cheek. I resisted the urge to apologize after all he was the one who insulted me twice when all I had asked for was the truth. "You think I don't want to?" I asked him, anger welling up in me at his words, he's denial and how much I sill wanted him despite his treatment of me. Kami – sama I was pathetic at times.
"You think I want to still be in love with you? You think that its easy to watch the man I love with all of my heart treat me like crap and deal with your hot and cold personality?" I saw his face shift as if seeing me in a new light and perhaps he was. "I don't want to feel this way anymore, I just can't help it. I want to be able to let go, to as you put it 'get over it' but I can't because I'm still in love with my dick ex."
Once the words were out, I couldn't stop the rest from flowing. There was no begging in them, just anger and confusion at him for how things went down. "I wish I could, but the fates must have some twisted sense of humor cause I can't get you out of my head or my system." Then I turned angrier, "But neither can you!" he backed up a foot as I rose my voice higher, my anger powering my next words.
"I know you still love me Mamoru, cause that wasn't just sex in the fitting room, that was hard, passionate love making. That was pent up emotions rolling out wanting to be free of this ridiculousness your putting us through and for whatever reason that you 'can't tell me the truth' on…" I put quotations around those words, "Yet you want me to trust you while treating me like I'm either the hottest woman on the planet or someone who has a disease." He looks away from me as I look to him for any response.
He doesn't though. No words nothing. He just looks like he doesn't have a care in the world for my feelings or words. "You know what forget it. It's like talking to a brick wall with you." I was ready to leave. He looked ready to protest but I was at the end of my tether. "No you asked for this! You either tell me the truth now or I walk out of your life for good." I warn him, fully ready to leave out.
No response, "Bye." I was done, I made to leave when he grabbed me, pulled me towards himself and without any reasoning or any indication to what he wanted he kissed me. It was desperate and needy, but I couldn't deny that while part of me wanted to slap the crap out of him for being so hot and cold, so I did. I pushed him far enough away and slapped him hard enough to leave a red welt.
"No you don't get to mess with my emotions again." I had to get out before I gave in. I went to leave again when he grabbed for me once more this time he convince me with his words to say, "Your right, I'm a dick. I can't deny the chemistry that is between us, I want to, I want to let you go and have you let me go, but I keep getting drawn to you. I shouldn't have left last time but if I didn't I was going to take you again…just like I want to right now." He ground the words out at the end as I saw how he was being truthful with me.
I did ask for the truth. I mellowed just a little bit as the chemistry he spoke of felt like it was alive with fire in my gut right now. It was a bad idea to give in, to let us have these next few moments, but thigs were sizzling as they were. "Damn it." I cursed as I kissed him…hard. He reciprocated in kind and pushed me further towards less noticeable area so we could be more intimate together.
Even if this interlude would be short and hard. As it inevitably will be. The kiss is frantic, rushed but it quenches my hunger for him and apparently his hunger for me as he somehow lures me down to the ground, lowering me gently despite the aggressiveness of the kiss. I reach down and fumble with his jeans, snagging the button to pop open before yanking on the zipper. I know I shouldn't do this, should tell him its still not enough, that I should push harder for the truth I'm looking for, but I can't.
As his passions get the better of him, mine do to. My dress is yanked up as his hands find their way between my legs. The passion and fire form the fitting room surges back up again as I feel his hands find purchase beneath my panties. I grip onto his hand and feel myself already responding to his touch. He always manages to know how to stroke me as I pull on him to be closer to me.
Before I can say much else, not that anything had crossed my mind to say, he found purchase with himself as I inhaled a deep gasp. His throbbing length is deep inside of me as I hold onto him. My legs wrapped securely as I want to keep this feeling going for as long as possible, cause lets face it, who knows when he'll be hot again. The seemingly never ending cycle as he pushes himself gently at first inside of me.
He then rips off my panties the rest of the way, tossing the discarded and now ruined fabric off to the side as he presses himself deeply into me on each well aimed thrust. He pushes my leg up against my own chest as he loops the other over his shoulder. His cock pressing into my heated core repeated and insistently as I grasp and encourage his actions. Wanting to have him as close to me as possible for as long as I can get it.
It sounds pathetic I know, after everything that's been done, I'm still incredibly willing beneath him as he plows harshly into my depths. His thrusts are strong yet not to fast, like he doesn't want this to end anytime soon either. I can see the wild carnal expression that passes through his eyes and he can lie all he wants but I see a deep amount of love in those depths as well. It's not just passion its deeper than that.
I can see it so clear that I don't even think that he realizes how he's looking at me. One can hide the truth even from themselves but only for so long. I could see it in him, his movements even they didn't just speak of anger at me for my calling him out on his words, they spoke of love, need and desperation. Yet it was a desperation born of not wanting to lose someone important to them and I could sense that from him as well.
He was desperate not to loose me and had I not given in who knows if I would have spotted that had I not been as close as I am or as in a vulnerable position as I was to see it. "Usa…" he uttered, his voice tender despite the rough yet slow pace he was taking, "Mamo…" I bit at my lip only to have him dart in and capture it between his own teeth and nibble himself as his cock pressed more insistently into my depths.
I could feel the wetness starting to stream down my legs from how wet I already was. His actions always got me incredibly turned on and right now was no exception. So when he pulled out a little bit and turned me completely onto my front I was stunned but only for a little while as he pulled my hips up slightly to rock back against him as he plowed forward. I couldn't stop the delight moan that came out.
The new angle as he rubbed his hand up and down my back, enjoying the arch that he was causing turned me on that much more. I could feel him pressing himself insistently into me as my hands fisted into the ground. My mouth wide open as he started to lose control and ram himself home inside of me. I felt it happening as I heard him say, "I can't hold off." A warning that he was going to cum and soon.
I reached back and pressed him forward, wanting all of him. "Please!" I called to him, not begging but close enough. He spread my legs wider and pressed himself deeper into me and against me as he reach up under, pulling my upper half off the grass to have access to my breasts with his hands. I enjoyed the playfulness of the moment till he landed his head between my shoulder and head.
The action happened before I knew what hit me. He slammed forward once twice, a total of six times, deep grinding strokes that had I not been in the midst of a silent scream would have heard me form down the block the orgasm was so intense. So when I felt his teeth and mouth suck on my neck as he filled me up with what felt like an endless stream of cum as he jacked into me hard, I held on and took it as he took me.
He has given me a huge ass hickie, that much I knew as he lowered us both to the grass. This time there was no getting up and taking off for him, this time as he gently removed himself from me he pulled me in closer and really looked at me, "Remember when you said you wish you didn't love me?" I gulped but nodded yes hoping that he wasn't going to break my heart again, not after what we just shared.
"I don't think we could ever stop loving each other, it's our blessing as well as our curse." I knew there was a deeper meaning to it, there usually was but as he sat back and seemed to be thinking on thing's while I laid on his chest, I knew the truth would be out sooner or later and I just knew deep down he wanted it to be sooner. It was only a matter of when it would be and what it would be.
