November 14

Inuyasha and Miroku left this morning.

Yasha and I were up early and I made sure to pack him everything he would need for the trip. He thought I was over-worrying but I wanted him to be safe.

Miroku arrived at our house early. "Hey, you two. Ready to go?"

"Kagome hasn't been feeling well so she's going to stay home this time," Inuyasha said.

"I'm sorry to hear that, Kagome. I hope you feel better soon."

"Thank you, Miroku. I'm sure I just need to get some rest and I'll be fine."

"Good. Well, I'm ready to go whenever you are, Inuyasha." He noticed us looking at each other longingly. "I can give you a few minutes to say goodbye if you want."

"We'd appreciate that," I said.

Miroku went out the door and Inuyasha immediately pulled me into his arms and kissed me.

"I'm going to miss you, Yasha," I said. I was suddenly overcome with sadness. I wasn't used to being away from him. He hadn't even left yet and I already missed him.

He placed his forehead on mine. "I'm going to miss you too. I'll be home tomorrow. You just rest and focus on getting better."

"Okay." We kissed again, hard and lingering. "I love you."

"I love you too, baby."

We reluctantly parted and I was alone in our house. I sighed and wiped away a few tears that had slipped from my eyes. I tried to tell myself that time would go by fast and Inuyasha would return home safely.

My dizziness had been pretty bad since I woke up and I had tried not to let on to Inuyasha because I knew he would change his mind about leaving. I went to our room to go lay down again but I noticed a piece of paper on my desk that I hadn't seen earlier. I picked it up and this is what it said:

"My sweet Kagome,

I'm going to miss you every second of the day while I'm gone. As soon as I get home I'm going to hold you in my arms and not let you go. Please get plenty of rest, don't do anything reckless while I'm gone. I love you with all my heart and soul.

Love,

Your husband."

I felt tears spring into my eyes as I read the note over and over. My husband is so sweet. It made me miss him even more. I tucked the note away into the drawer of the desk so I could cherish it forever.

So I spent the rest of the morning and part of the afternoon in bed. Sure enough by the time I woke up I felt better. This was the weirdest illness ever. One moment I was sick and it seemed to get worse each time. But when it went away, I felt completely fine.

In fact, I felt so good that I went to Sango's house to see how she was holding up with the kids in Miroku's absence.

"Hi Kagome, I thought you went with Miroku and Inuyasha," Sango said when I got to her house.

"I've been feeling kind of weird on and off for the last few days so I thought it would be best to stay home. I figured I'd come by to see if you needed any help with the kids but I'm guessing everything is okay." It was surprisingly quiet in here.

"Well things were a little hectic this morning but I've just put them down for a nap. I can make us some tea."

Sango made the tea and we sat by the fire with it.

"How are you holding up with Inuyasha being gone? You haven't really been away from each other since you returned here."

"It's not easy. I miss him so much. How do you and Miroku deal with it?"

"We've gotten used to it I guess. I used to go with them but when the twins were born I started staying home. It's just kind of a fact of life I guess: my husband goes off for work and I stay home with the children. But that just makes the reunion nights even better," she said with a wink.

I giggled. Hopefully, by the time Inuyasha returns I'll be feeling better so we can have a romantic reunion night.

"So you've been sick? What's going on?"

"It's an on and off thing really. I've been going through some dizziness and tired spells. It's pretty odd."

Sango eyed me for a moment. "Is that all?"

I tried to think if anything else has been happening. "That's the main thing. I don't have a fever or anything. Just a bit of a headache."

"Kagome, have you considered that you might be pregnant?"

I was stunned. It hadn't occurred to me that I could be pregnant but it was entirely possible. Inuyasha and I had been having a lot of sex so it would make sense.

I put my hand to my stomach as I thought about it. I imagined Inuyasha's baby growing in there and I was suddenly filled with a mix of fear and happiness. "Wow, I...I never thought of it."

"Ooh, this is so wonderful, Kagome!" Sango said excitedly. "Have you had any other symptoms? Morning sickness or heavy breasts? Those are usually some of the first signs."

I hadn't experienced either of those things. In fact, there was another major thing that hadn't, or more like had happened recently, which proved I wasn't pregnant.

"I can't be pregnant," I said with a sigh. "I've had my period recently."

Sango's face fell. "Oh. Well, I'm sure whatever you have it'll pass soon."

"Yeah, I guess so." I had to admit I was a little disappointed at not being pregnant. Maybe it was for the best so that we can have a little more time to ourselves before bringing a child into the world. But that fleeting moment of thinking I was had made me very happy.

I tried to push it out of my mind as Sango and I continued to talk about other things. I stayed for a bit longer after the children woke up from their nap to help out a little bit before going home.

It's so strange being in the house without Inuyasha. We always have dinner together and we spend the night relaxing by the fire playing a game, talking, or just being comfortable in each other's presence. While I'm writing, he usually goes to take a bath and then sits on the bed watching me or just laying with his eyes closed patiently waiting for me to finish.

Now it's so quiet here. I miss the sound of his voice and his laughs and the soft sound of his feet on the floor as he walks across the room. The house will be especially quiet tonight without the sounds of our kisses and moans as we make love.

Tomorrow won't come fast enough so I can be with him again.