November 16
It's been two days since Inuyasha was supposed to return and he's still not home. I'm worried out of my mind!
The day he was supposed to come home, I waited all day in anticipation. By the afternoon when he wasn't back I didn't worry yet. I figured they had gone a long way and would be back in the evening but I had no such luck. I stayed awake until I couldn't anymore and finally passed out late into the night hoping he would be by my side in the morning.
But he didn't come home yesterday either. As I was getting ready to start my day, all of the possibilities running through my mind got worse and worse. What if he had been kidnapped? What if he was injured? What if he was dead…?
I finally couldn't help myself and started crying. Part of me felt that I was being ridiculous. Inuyasha probably had a very good reason for being late and I was overthinking things. However, there was still the very real possibility that something was terribly wrong.
And then I felt a bit of frustration as well. I wished we had phones here. If so I could just call him really quick and all of my worries would be dissolved.
I almost wanted to go after him but I wouldn't know where to begin looking for him. It wasn't like I had the nose of a half-demon and could track him down. Not to mention I still wasn't feeling well. I wouldn't get very far.
Sango doesn't seem very concerned about their absence. She says they've been late before; one time they were a whole week late. She said I shouldn't worry and that Inuyasha and Miroku wouldn't let anything bad happen. I tried to keep her words in mind and not worry but it was so hard. I knew what it was like to be away from Inuyasha and I didn't want to experience it again.
Yesterday I helped Kaede with another birth so I was at least able to be distracted for a little while. My sickness hasn't gotten any better, I feel like I'm starting to get weaker. But Kaede needed the help and we had already been preparing for this together so I decided to push through. Plus I was hoping it would give me something to think about other than Inuyasha being gone.
And it did keep my mind occupied like I had hoped it would. However halfway through, I started to feel like the room was spinning. Everyone's words seemed to blend together and I felt like my ears were ringing. I stood up and rushed outside to get some air before something bad happened.
I stood on the front porch nearly in a panic as I tried to catch my breath. That was so weird, I had no idea where it came from. It felt like a dark cloud had been coming over me trying to overtake me and it was scary.
A minute later Kaede was by my side. "Kagome, what's wrong? Are you okay?"
I nodded. "I'm fine. I just needed to get some air."
"Are you feeling alright? If you need to go home, I can finish up here."
"No, I think I'll be okay. Just give me a couple of minutes and I'll be back in."
She eyed me for a moment but then seemed to accept it. "Okay, dear."
I stayed outside for just a couple more minutes before I figured I'd better go back in and continue helping. That awful feeling has been on my mind ever since and I've been terrified of it happening again.
It's evening now and I'm sitting here writing with more of that herbal tea in front of me. It really does help. What it doesn't do is get rid of my worries about Inuyasha. I just hope he comes home soon. I can't stand this waiting around any longer.
Wait, I just heard the door open. I think he's home!
