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JACOB'S POV

The drive back to the garage is quiet.

"River, please go upstairs. I need to talk to your mom," I say when we get out of the pick-up truck. Nessie looks at me curiously. "Please," I say to River when I notice he hasn't moved. He sighs, and walks up the steps slowly.

"What is it?" Nessie asks once we hear the door shut.

"Last night was a mistake," I admit. I hate that I have to say this but it feels true.

"Oh?" Nessie crosses her arms, "alright… I mean... you initiated it. It was all you, up there, Jake."

"I know," I reply, "and I am sorry that I mislead you."

"The only one you are misleading, here... is yourself," Nessie says with a defeated tone.

"What?" I am confused.

"You are so full of it, Jacob Black," Nessie narrows her eyes, "you act like I somehow need to be worthy of you or something. Do you have any idea how humiliating it is for me? How I have to put my feelings aside every time I come here so that I can try to be a mom for our son and not feel just absolute rage?" Nessie says in a confronting tone.

"You made a choice when you left with it," I can't bring myself to call her other child by its actual name so I say 'it'. "We have two separate lives, parallel but divided. They need to stay divided."

"I never made a choice, Jake. You gave me no choice," Nessie retorts.

"Look, you can come here when you want to be a part of this life but otherwise, outside of these moments, you don't exist," I reply and watch as hurt washes over her face like a harsh wave. It hits me hard. I wish I could take it back immediately.

"Goodbye, Jacob," Nessie says sadly and walks over to her car, getting inside. Regret fills me as I stand there with my hands behind my head, gripping my hair as I watch her buckle her seatbelt, put the keys into the ignition. I shouldn't have said that. God knows it isn't true. Nessie exists every second of every day for me.

"Come on, Nessie...You can't leave," I walk towards her car as she backs out. She stops backing up and briefly, makes eye contact with me but then shakes her head and then backs out fully, turning her car and driving off. Fuck. I watch after her until her car disappears around the bend of the road. I turn back towards the stairs and head up to the apartment. I am stunned to see River standing at the top of the steps.

"How could you just let her leave like that?" his voice is in a state of disbelief.

"How long have you been standing there?" I mumble and walk by him, into the apartment hoping that he hadn't heard too much. A wall of heat hits me. So much for fixing the AC. It is sweltering.

"Long enough to know what a huge fucking mistake you're making," River says, following me inside and closing the door.

"You don't know what you're talking about," I retort, "and watch your mouth," River hardly ever swears so this is unexpected.

"Enlighten me," he pushes.

"I don't have to. It's none of your business. Don't you have school work to do or something?" I try to change the topic but he's stubborn like his mom.

"I don't get you two. You obviously care about each other. Everyone can see it!" River won't let it go.

"Oh really? You can see that?" I feel instantly remorseful the moment the words come out of my mouth. I've never used his blindness as a weapon in our arguments before. Arguing about Nessie brings out the worst in me.

"Was that supposed to hurt my feelings?" River smirks, letting the punishing comment roll off of his back. "I don't know what happened between you. I have pushed enough many times before to know that the topic is not up for discussion but … I mean… After last night I thought that maybe…"

My stomach sinks and I cringe, "you heard that?" I'm horrified as I realise that my son heard me and Nessie making love.

"Neither of you are as stealthy as you think you are," he mutters. "I just don't understand how two poeple who clearly want to be together just won't."

"Look, you're a good kid and I appreciate what you're trying to do but this isn't your place. I'll be downstairs. I have work to do," I sigh and pat him on the back before heading down the stairs and into the garage.

I pace the floor, trying to regain some composure. I stop and lean my palms against a rusty car I had been fixing up. A burning feeling of injustice bubbles up inside me and I grab a nearby rench, throwing it at the wall in anger. The metal clanks against the wall and then several times on the concrete floor. It's hopeless. I feel sick knowing that she is driving away right now after that exchange. I should have told her to stay. That is what I really wanted. I wanted her to stay with me. I wanted her to choose this life here with me. Instead I chased her away with my unspoken ultimatums.

My phone vibrates in my pocket. I pull the device from my jeans to see a message from Nessie on the screen.

River's mom: I hate how we left things.

I sigh in relief. I stare at it for a long time contemplating my response. I have to see her. I am about to type a reply asking her if we can meet somewhere to talk when another message appears.

River's mom: I just wanted you to know that last night meant everything to me but I can't do this anymore. This is the last you will hear from me. Tell River that I'm sorry.

I don't know what this means. In a panic I hit dial. I need to hear her voice.

"You have reached a number that has been disconnected or is no longer in service. Please-"

"Fuck," I mutter, hanging up and call Bella.

"You have reached a number-"

"No… no, no, no," I panic. The Cullen's have a phone tree pact. If any of them believe there is an imminent danger to their existence they activate a strategy where they disconnect their phones, dispose of all traces of their existence and disappear. Forever. I might never see her again…

That thought hits me hard. My instincts override my conviction.

Out of desperation I scroll through my phone. My thumb hovers over Edward. I clench my jaw and then hit the call icon. I feel a moment of hope when it begins to ring but those hopes are instantly dashed when the message repeats "You have reached a-".

"God dammit!" I run up the stairs to the apartment, skipping 3 or 4 steps at a time in my rush. "River! I have to leave for a bit. Call Seth and Kat. Tell them to come over and stay here with you until I get back."

"What's going on?" River asks, following my voice.

"Don't worry about it, okay," I give him a hug, "I'll tell you later. I don't have time," I reply, "do what I said, call Seth, Okay?"

"I don't need a babysitter," he retorts.

"Don't argue with me right now," I scold him.

"Fine," River sighs.

"Thank you."

I am about to leave when I feel like I am missing something. For some reason I am compelled to grab Nessie's moonstone ring from the drawer in my bedroom. I push the velvet box into my pocket.

I jump down the full set of stairs and run over to the pick-up truck. I turn the ignition but it only rumbles. Nothing. I frown, trying the key harder. It rumbles and dies again. "Fuck!" I curse, hitting the wheel with my fists. I glance over to my motorbike that I had just fixed but have yet to work out some of the kinks. "Screw it," I jump out of the pick-up. "Come on, come on, come on… Please work," I beg, mounting the bike, holding onto the handles in a tight grip. I slam my heal down on the finicky kickstart. It takes me three tries pushing down on the kickstart violently with my foot to finally get the kickstart to work and the bike roars to life, "good girl," I mumble and leave a cloud of dust behind me as I rip out of there at a less than legal speed. I have to catch up to Nessie. I turn onto a winding dirt road that I hope to use a shortcut and catch up to Nessie at the highway. However, when I exit the dirt road I have to swerve to avoid rushing water.

"What the fuck!" I stop and look at the water that has overtaken the road. Men with sand bags are actively working to try to stop it.

"Sir, you will have to go back the way you came. This whole area is flooded," an officer says.

I clench my jaw and dive back. How can I catch up to her now? I glance over at some fields. The terrain is bumpy and uneven but if i don't make it to her in time she will be gone forever. I gun it when I find an opening in a barbed wire fence and speed across an open field, making my way to the highway. I hold my teeth tightly together as I feel the bike shake and bounce. The mechanisms crank inside, resisting the jolting. I fear that the bike will fall apart before I can make it.

I finally make it to the highway. I swerve onto the road, a car honks at me and hits the breaks to avoid me. I give an apologetic wave and speed on. I feel a burst of excitement when I can see Nessie's car up ahead. I brace myself and accelerate, pushing the bike to it's limit.

"Nessie!" I shout but I know that she can't hear me over the bike. I can hardly hear me. I am able to gain on her, closing the distance. Nessie moves her car to the right as to let me pass, not realising that it is me and I want her to pull over. I speed up and pound on her window, "Nessie!"

She is startled to see me and slams on the breaks, swerving a little bit until she comes to a stop at the side of the road. I pull on my breaks, jump off the bike, letting it fall over and run back to her car.

"Are you crazy?!" she screams at me, getting out of the car. Before she can give me any more scolding words I pull her into me and I kiss her deeply. I feel her body go from rigid and angry to soft and surrendering. She is stunned at first but then kisses me back. The car I had cut off earlier speeds by, laying on the horn causing us both to part from the kiss.

Nessie's eyes are full of tears. I move in to kiss her again but she pushes away.

"What?" I whisper.

"No. We can't do this," she says. "Before when you said that we have two separate lives, parallel but divided and that they need to stay divided. You were right. It's too late. We can't go back to the way things were."

"How do I make this right?" I plead with her, "I want us back. The way things were."

"We can't go back, Jacob. We're aren't those people anymore," Nessie turns away from me and then opens her car door. She is about to get back in but stops to look at me for a moment. "You know...You are so great with River. I did the best I could… but... Emma could have really used a father like you," she said sadly. Nessie gets back into the car and closes the door. I watch as she pulls back onto the road.

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