Chapter 84 – Together!

Phoenix P.O.V

Leaning forward I showed him the truth of my words as I once again kissed him deeply and passionately, trying to convey all I felt for him. Soon all thoughts of past misunderstandings, pains and hurts was forgotten.

The sound of Prime groaning softly into our kiss was intoxicating and I brought myself closer to his chassis, my servos once again digging into his helm, my glossa flicking out and stroking along his dermas, coaxing entrance so I could claim what was mine. Optimus willingly obliged and gave into what was now becoming a familiar and heady dance between us.

I felt Prime wrap his strong arms about me and silently drag me up to straddle his lap as he sat on the edge of the berth. Our dermas never breaking contact as we continued to let our desire and our need for each other roam unchecked after having been contained and restrained for so long. The feeling of my thighs against his powerful legs, his arms wrapped tightly about my frame, pulling me into his broad chest as his glossa and dermas alternated tasting me was pure ecstasy.

''Optimusss, yesss,'' I moaned into his mouth as I felt his servos begin to gently caress my back and move down to run along my abdomen, feather light touches against my body that sent waves of pleasure rolling through me. His servos moved towards my thighs and grasped them. I dug my digits into his back struts and without thought, arched forward and rolled my hips into his leaving no mistake as to what he was making me feel.

Optimus briefly released my dermas, his optics aflame with desire and need. ''Phoenixxx! MY Phoenix!'' Optimus growled at the feelings I must have been stirring within him. Without another word he reached a large servo up behind my helm and the other snaked around my waist, his other servo resting on my aft as he pulled me towards him. He surged forward and without warning, I felt his dermas on my neck, his glossa flicking out to lick slowly.

''Fuck Yesss,'' I groaned as I ex-vented deeply. /I had no fucking idea he knew how to do this! That he, my proper and restrained Prime, could act this way/. I was heating up, burning from the inside out as desire, need and love for the mech beneath me swept through me. I felt a sharp sting as his denta bit down possessively onto an exposed neck cable and I gave a small strangled cry; a mixture of shock, pain and desire.

''Mine, my Phoenix. Always,'' Optimus' voice had dropped to an even lower register if that were possible. A kind of feral hunger had seemed to take control of him, and I was powerless to resist. I yearned for it – for him!

I felt my body tremble as he aroused in me sensations I had never felt before. I arched against him again my servos grasping each side of his helm and pulling his face back to expose his neck. I looked down into his optics. ''Yours, always.'' A lascivious grin spread across my dermas and I felt Optimus shudder beneath me as he took in the sight of his Phoenix straddling his lap, looking down at him with such wanton abandon and desire. I removed one of my servos to trace a line of fire up his abdomen, over the bonnet of his truck form, his windscreens and up his neck. Prime's body responded in kind, a shudder rolling over his massive frame and a sharp intake of air through his vents assured me I was having an effect on him.

At the same time, I leant forward and ran my glossa, slowly, teasingly up the length of his neck, sucking and licking, smiling against his neck as I heard another sharp intake and a shocked gasp. I continued my path, licking up his jawline towards his audials. My servo behind his helm pulled him slightly closer towards my dermas as they hovered near his audials, my other servo moved to lay across his chest where his spark was. I felt it pulsing rapidly and erratically. For a brief moment I wondered if this was normal.

My own spark had been pulsing almost painfully in my chest; throbbing, swelling. /The intensity of emotions no doubt/, I reasoned. Prime's servo on my aft grasped tightly and pulled my hips into his as his other servo moved to cover my own spark in mirror to mine. I whispered in a low sultry tone into his audials; ''Mine! Tell me my Optimus, who you belong to? Who does your spark pulse for?'' I flicked my glossa out to run over his audials.

''NNnnggh,'' Optimus made some unintelligible sound. ''YOURS! Phoenix. I am yours. Only yours. Always!'' His ''breaths'' were shallow, his words, short and pointed as he struggled to speak.

Before I could say anything else, Prime's chest components began to move, and a blinding, blue light began to shine through. My own chest felt as though it began to ''open''. My spark was pulsing out of control and I felt as though it was trying to leave my chassis. My optics went wide, and the first faint sliver of fear and uncertainty managed to pierce the desire and need that had overtaken me. /What IS happening?/.

With a loud growl Optimus turned away from me, removing his servos from my body and yelled, ''NO! Not yet!'' His servos flew to his chest as if trying to stop the bizarre process and he flung himself backwards onto the berth away from me. ''My Phoenix, I'm sorry!''

I rolled off his lap onto the berth away from him, laying on my side facing him, my own servos coming to light on my chest, trying to keep my spark safely contained there. I could feel my air vents, rapidly cycling air as I fought to control my systems. I closed my optics to try and centre myself and process what had just happened. ''Op… Optimus?'' My own voice sounded shaky and uncertain where only moments ago it was laced with desire and need.

I felt a large servo reach out to grasp my own in it and I turned my optics to face Prime, his own optics filled with a mixture of sorrow, apology and wonder. ''Oh, my Phoenix I…I am so sorry. I… I did not think this would happen.. not yet.'' He closed his optics and his massive chest rose and fell as his own systems struggled to kick in and restore a sense of calm and control.

I grasped his servo tightly, desperate for contact again. For a moment we both just lay there as we allowed our sparks the opportunity to slow to a normal pulsing rhythm and for each of us to regain control of our emotions.

After a few moments I felt Prime move his body to be closer to me, his strong arm reached out and invited me to curl up next to him. I raised an optical ridge at him, silently asking if it was safe to do that. There was a faint rumble of laughter as Prime answered my unspoken question, ''It's okay Phoenix, nothing will happen. But please, take things at your own pace. I would never force you to do anything you don't want to do.''

Upon his words I immediately moved to lay against him. I trusted him implicitly. I ''sighed'' out loud against his chest as he wrapped an arm about me holding me close to him. ''Optimus? What, what was that? Wh… what did you not think would happen yet?'' I fixed confused optics on him.

He too sighed and kissed the side of my helm. ''That my Phoenix was the beginning of something truly wonderful though something that should be entered into with mutual consent and willing sparks and something that usually takes a lot longer to happen between two Transformers.'' At the look on my face Prime continued. ''That Phoenix, was both of our sparks seeking to join each other.''

I gasped out loud in shock, ''You mean….'' I fought to put into words my understanding of Transformer physiology and customs.

Prime nodded. ''Yes Phoenix. A spark bond. Your spark and my spark were seeking to join.'' A look of wonder descended upon Optimus' face as he gazed at me, and he gently caressed my face with his digits.

The same sense of wonder must have been reflected in my optics and face as Prime gently kissed my helm, ''Oh, my Phoenix.''

As I reveled in his touch I asked, ''Is… is that normal? Does it happen like that all the time when two Transformers….'' I could not put into words what I was trying to say. I was so overwhelmed by what had just happened not to mention the range of emotions I had just gone through from joy, happiness, desire, lust, shock and fear.

Prime nodded his helm, ''Yes Phoenix it is a normal process and that is usually how it happens. However, as I said before, it does not normally happen that quickly between two Transformers who have just formed a - relationship or romantic bond and during moments of ''intimacy''. It may take many months or years to reach that moment and sometimes, though very rarely, it may never even happen.'' Prime smiled warmly at me as he once again caressed my face. I leant into his touch.

''Will… will it happen again next time we… you know,'' I fumbled with my words. ''Next time we are..''

Prime chuckled against my helm as he kissed me yet again, ''Yes Phoenix, there is every chance it will happen again when we are being intimate and expressing a deep physical and emotional connection. It will likely keep happening until our sparks bond.'' Prime gave a slight shrug of his broad shoulders. ''The spark wants what the spark wants and in this case, our sparks most definitely want each other!''

I ''sighed'' out loud. ''Well that is the understatement of the year Prime!'' and I moved in to place a chaste kiss on his helm before capturing his dermas once again for a long, languid kiss.

As we broke apart, Prime sighed out loud again, but this time it was a weary sigh. ''Phoenix I am more than happy to talk about this with you, and answer all of your questions as, to be honest I had hoped that one day you might be willing and able to spark bond with me, but we have had a massive day.'' Prime kissed my helm again. ''Despite what took place earlier between us, as amazing and exhilarating as it was, perhaps it is best if we retire for the evening and seek recharge?''

I sighed out loud. ''Perhaps you are right Optimus, as difficult as it will be for me to switch off after that performance from you, perhaps it is best we get some rest.''

Prime chuckled and I felt his laugh reverberate through my frame, a pleasant feeling. ''My Phoenix, that performance,'' his dermas nibbled gently against my cheek, ''was just a warmup. I assure you there is so much more I am capable of and want to do to and with you….''

My helm snapped back in shock and anticipation, ''SERIOUSLY you are going to say THAT and then expect me to fall asleep? Prime, you have got to be joking!''

Once again Prime laughed and squeezed me tight, ''I'm sorry my Phoenix, I did not mean to do that to you..''

''Yeah, sure you didn't,'' I mocked him.

''Truly I did not, but there will be time for that later, I promise you. For now – rest.'' Prime gently kissed my helm yet again.

We both moved to lay down on the large berth together. Prime sighed out loud as I once again nestled into him, ''You know Phoenix, I am not ashamed to admit I have often thought how lovely it would be to fall into recharge with you by my side and now, finally, I no longer need to imagine.'' He drew me closer into his arms and kissed the top of my helm again. /I could get used to this/.

I sighed out loud, ''Well be thankful I am a Transformer because back when I was a human, I did have a habit of snoring, so, it may not have been so appealing for you after a while,'' I gave a nervous laugh.

While it seemed the most natural thing to lay down beside Prime right now to recharge, for a moment I also felt a myriad of emotions swirl around inside me. I was nervous, anxious and slightly on edge as I had not slept in the same bed as someone since Chase. Falling asleep with someone is an act of intimacy and requires a certain level of trust as you are at your most vulnerable. I felt a smile forming on my dermas as I cuddled into his side and we lay still for a few moments. /I trust Optimus with my soul/.

I felt myself relax as I listened to the sound of his systems powering down slowly, felt the warmth of his metallic plating against me and the gentle thrumming of his now steady spark beneath my helm as I lay on his chest. A smile began to spread across my face. /For two beings who took so many years to admit their feelings towards each other, we seem to be diving headfirst into a lot of things now/.

I felt a sudden frown furrow my brow as I realised, we hadn't really admitted our love for each other. We had danced about the issue quite nicely all evening, and, while I knew Prime loved me and he must have known I loved him, we had not said the words out loud. As we lay there in the dark of our room, in each other's arms, alone at last, I felt the words tumble out of my dermas before I could stop them, ''I love you Optimus Prime, with all of my spark.'' I felt myself tense slightly as I awaited what he might say in response.

Nothing.

I carefully raised my helm, with a slightly indignant expression plastered on my faceplates, to look at him. His optics were dark and his dermas slightly parted. Prime was deep in recharge; he had not heard a word I said! I gave a small snort and gently shook my helm /bloody typical!/. I continued to gaze at him for a moment before a soft smile broke out on my dermas. There would be plenty more opportunities to say that to each other over the coming days, weeks, months, years and forever. /What's one more day?/.

Lowering my helm to rest on his chest, I whispered to the darkness, ''Good night Optimus, sweet dreams.'' I closed my own optics and followed the other half of my spark into welcome recharge.