February 3
I'm sitting by myself at my desk writing while Inuyasha is in the other room ignoring me.
I had been cleaning all afternoon. Everything was spick and span and nice and shiny. I took a deep breath, proud of my work. "That took forever but I'm finally done. Looks good, doesn't it Nico?" I said to our cat who was sitting on the couch watching. He meowed in response.
Then the door opened and Inuyasha was home. "Hey Kagome, hey Nico."
I watched in horror as he left muddy footprints all over the floor.
"Inuyasha!" I exclaimed in frustration.
"What?" he said in confusion. It seemed to make me angrier. How could he possibly not get it?!
"I've spent all afternoon cleaning this floor! You just got mud everywhere!"
He narrowed his eyes at me. "So what?"
"What do you mean so what?! Now I have to go back and clean up after your dirty feet! What were you even doing anyway?!"
"The snow is melting so there's mud everywhere. Would you chill out and stop looking at me like that?!"
"How can I?!"
"Just stop being a bitch about it!"
I exasperatedly and crossed my arms. "You are the absolute worst!"
"And you're annoying as hell, stupid!"
"Whatever, just leave me alone!"
I stomped off and went into our room, slamming the door behind me. For a while, I simmered with anger and frustration but once that wore off I felt bad. I knew I had overreacted, I always do. Months ago I had promised myself that I wasn't going to fight with him anymore but look how quickly that was forgotten. I couldn't believe how much of an idiot I was.
When I finally decided to go make up with him, I found that he wasn't in the house anymore but the floor was as clean as it had been before he came home. I gasped when I saw it but it also made me feel even worse. I had yelled at him so much over it but he was still nice enough to clean it up.
I sat on the couch and started to cry.
Nico came over and sat next to me looking concerned.
"Oh Nico, I'm sorry you had to see mommy and daddy fight like that," I said through my tears. "I feel so terrible. I hope he comes home soon so I can apologize."
I was starting to get hungry so after I finished crying I started to make dinner. I made enough for both of us but Inuyasha still wasn't home by the time I was done so I left it out for him and then went back into our room to sulk.
Now I'm sitting here at my desk still feeling terrible about the whole thing. It's getting late. I'm pretty sure Inuyasha is home even though he hasn't come in here.
I want to talk to him but I'm so afraid that he's still mad at me. The worst part is that he leaves tomorrow. I would hate for this stupid fight to have been the last interaction we had before he goes away for a few days. I would never be able to live with myself if that happened.
