February 4

After I stopped writing last night, to my surprise Inuyasha came into the room.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

"I want to go to bed," he replied.

There wasn't much emotion in his voice. I couldn't tell if he was still mad or not. Either way, I was tired of this. It was time for us to make up.

I got out of my chair and went over to him. "Inuyasha…"

All of a sudden he grabbed my hand and pulled me into a tight embrace. Tears stung my eyes but a relieved smile touched my face. "I'm so sorry, Yasha."

"It's okay," he said gently. "I'm sorry too."

"I was so insensitive to you."

"No, I was. I feel terrible about it. I was sick of being away from you though. I'm glad you're not mad anymore."

"Same here. I didn't want you to leave tomorrow thinking I was still mad at you."

He leaned in and kissed me and I gladly put my arms around his neck, holding him close and taking in his delicious taste.

"Thank you for cleaning the floor," I said.

"Thank you for making me dinner." He placed another gentle kiss on my lips then put his forehead to mine. "I'm going to miss you so much, Kagome."

"I'm going to miss you too," I said as I ran my fingers through his hair. "These next few days aren't going to go by fast enough."

"How should we spend our last night together?"

I knew exactly where he was going with this and I very much wanted it. I was going to need something to think about while he was gone. "I can think of a few things."

I led him over to the bed and we lay next to each other. As soon as we lay down, his arms were around me and his lips were on mine. I moaned into his mouth as my desire for him started to overcome me. Sure enough, as we went on the sex we had was so incredible. Even as I sit here writing this a day later I can't stop thinking about it.

We said goodbye this morning. It was just as hard as it was last time. Letting go of him was so hard, I felt like my soul was being ripped away from me. I've been reminding myself that it's only for a few days. Inuyasha will be home safely soon and everything will be okay.

I went to Kaede's house soon after and we spent some time getting ready for the shrine ritual tomorrow.

"So Inuyasha and Miroku left this morning, right?" Kaede said.

"Yup. They'll be traveling for most of the day. I don't remember the name of the village they're going to but it's kind of far."

"I know you must miss him a lot already."

"I do, Kaede. It's so hard to be away from him. Maybe it's because we're still not over that three year separation. I know it was over six months ago, but it makes my heart ache to be away from him."

"Don't feel bad about it, dear. You and Inuyasha went through a lot. It would make sense that you're still not over that."

"I'm not sure if I'll ever be."

"And no one would blame you," she said. "Well, I think you're ready for tomorrow. How do you feel about it?"

"I'm definitely ready for it," I said confidently.

"Good. Get some rest, Kagome. You'll need a clear mind for tomorrow."

I've been trying to clear my mind as Kaede said. I'm sitting at my desk writing. Nico is on my lap again. I miss Inuyasha so much and I know it will be hard to fall asleep without him next to me. But I'll just try to focus on what I have to do tomorrow and remember that Inuyasha will be okay.