May 3

My first-trimester sickness has continued and I hate it so much. It's even worse not knowing how bad it's going to be from day to day. Some days I'm throwing up all morning and sleeping for most of the day and other days I'm only slightly nauseous and can get through the day without a nap. Not to mention I had to deal with the cramps, the headaches, and the mood swings on top of that.

A few days ago I was supposed to be at the shrine for a ritual in the morning but I couldn't stop throwing up.

"Aren't you supposed to be going to the shrine right now?" Inuyasha asked when he found me.

"Yes but...I don't know if I'll be...able to make it today..." I said as I threw up my guts and then some.

My poor husband looked like he wanted to help but was at a loss for what to do. After a moment he said, "Do you want me to go tell Kaede you can't make it?"

I managed to hold it down long enough to say "Yes."

"Okay, I'll be right back."

I felt terrible for not going to the shrine. I knew that Kaede would understand but people were counting on me to be there. But when the worst of the nausea was gone, I went back to bed and slept until the afternoon.

I just keep thinking about how worth it everything will be when I'm finally holding our baby though. I know the baby is very tiny right now but throughout the day I still put my hand on my stomach to comfort it to let it know that mommy is here and that I love it so much already.

Inuyasha has been very attentive in taking care of me. He's constantly asking me if I'm okay and if I need anything and making sure I have to do as little as possible around the house.

Sango brought me some ginger yesterday. She said it really helped with her morning sickness. Inuyasha has made me ginger tea a few times since then and to my relief it has helped a lot.

It hasn't been all bad though. When I'm not sick and sleeping, I've been able to spend some quality time with my husband. Last night I felt so good that as I was watching him clean the kitchen after dinner, I couldn't help but think of how sexy he was and it made me want to have some fun with him.

I went over to him and put my arms around him from behind him. "Yasha?"

"Hmm?"

"I love you," I said in a sensual tone.

"I love you too, Kagome."

He turned to face me and I immediately gripped the front of his shirt and kissed him.

"I want you, baby." I started to pull open my robe but then I got an idea and stopped. "We should go to the hot spring."

"Are you sure you feel well enough?" His face was flushed and by the way he held me, I could tell he also wanted me. But of course, being as sweet and caring as Inuyasha is, he wanted to make sure I was okay first.

"I feel fine right now." I ran my fingers down his chest. "I just have a certain ache that I need you to take care of."

He kissed me again, this time deep and full of desire for me. "Let's go to the hot spring," he said afterward in a lust-filled voice.

As soon as we stepped out the door, he put me on his back and ran very fast towards the hot spring. We were there in minutes and once there, his lips found mine again in deep, desperate kisses. It was all I could do to take a step back from him so I could take my clothes off. But once I did, a playful thought crossed my mind and I ran off.

"You gotta catch me if you want me, honey!"

I got a head start and ran off into the water.

"I'm gonna get you, baby!" he said as he finished taking his clothes off. Then he ran into the water too.

I continued to float away from him and hid behind a rock. Of course, he found me but I managed to slip away before he could grab me. I laughed as I continued to swim away from him but when he finally caught me, he picked me up and twirled me around. From there he put his forehead on mine.

"You can't escape me that easy."

"Good, I wouldn't want to." Then he hugged me and I put my face on his chest for a moment listening to his heartbeat. It's always been such a comforting sound, even years ago before I ever told him I loved him.

The kiss we shared next was so deliciously passionate and it quickly escalated from there. That ache I had mentioned before was soon burning for him. I wrapped my legs around his waist and he adjusted me on him until he was in me. I grinded my hips on him all the while moaning with him and kissing him while he guided me up and down on him until I had my first orgasm.

Then I was suddenly empty as he pulled me off him and moved us to the nearest rock. He bent me over it and went into me from behind, pounding me hard. As if that weren't hot enough, he grabbed a handful of my hair and pulled my head back just a bit so that he had even more control over me. After a while, he flipped me over so that I was on my back, still on the edge of that rock, and he continued to make love to me from there until we both reached our climax for the night.

Last night was so wonderful. The more I think about it, the more I'm in the mood to have another romantic night with him. After all, even though I'm pregnant I still have needs.

He's in the other room right now which gives me some time to prepare. I think I'll wear the see-through nightgown I got back in my era last year. That's one of his favorites.