KAI HAD WRITTEN DOWN HIS LETTER AND BURNED IT. But he didn't feel any better. He wanted to give me another letter, which I helped him write to Josette but we couldn't find her even with cloaking spells. So we went to the Salvatore boarding house to find someone who could give the letter to Josette.

"Hello?" Kai is calling from the front door when we arrive.

Elena pulls away from Damon "No. That's impossible because why would he...". Damon closes his eyes hoping "He didn't. He's all merged, he's packed, and he's on his way to Portland with his psycho sister!"

Kai and I walk inside "Ooh! Forgot how massive this house was. " He smiles "Yum! Cupcakes! Sorry. Am I interrupting something?"

Damon asks annoyed "What are you doing here?"

"Not need to be so rude" I pouted annoyed. This guy could be very irritating sometimes. He has that overconfidence that was ridiculous considering he was just a hundred years old vampire, one that was not that smart I might add.

Kai chuckles "Funniest thing. I need your help." he takes out a letter, with Josette written on it.

"Why would we give a letter to Jo?" asks Elena smugly her arms crossed.

"That's family drama and the last time I heard your surname is not Parker," I said stubbornly crossing my arms on my chest. If we wanted to give Josette a letter this wasn't any of her business and it's not like a letter is dangerous. Why did she always have to be so damn nosy?

"I haven't been able to find her using a locator spell, and, you know, good on her because under normal circumstances, I'd super jazzed to gouge out her belly button," says Kai as he eats the frosting on the cupcake with his finger.

"Why would we help you?" asks Elena making me irritated. All she ever did was ask questions, did she had some sort of intelligence in her? Why was everybody so obsessed with her except for her looks? I mean expect her thing about fixing people, I didn't understand why were people drawn to her.

"Oh my God" I complain "we are asking you to give a letter not donate one of your lungs or help us hide a body"

"Well, in case you haven't figured it out by now, I'm a sociopath." says Kai, and Elena pretends to be shocked rolling her eyes "I know. Shocker. I like being a sociopath. You know, I'm not burdened by things like guilt or love. So then this merge happened with my brother Luke, and I won, which was great because I absorbed his ability to do magic, but now I can't stop thinking about how Luke died, how Liv's life is ruined. For some horrible reason, I can't shake how badly I feel about it." he finishes by chuckling sadly.

Elena looks at him surprised "You feel bad?"

I roll my eyes at her and say sarcastically "He just told you that dumbass, are you deaf or dumb? This is not the first time you said something stupid like that"

"Sorry but I thought sociopath didn't have feelings," answers Elena in a sarcastic tone irritating me.

"Of course they do, they just feel differently. They feel anger and stress just like us. Besides Kai was never diagnosed, I think he has more sociopathic tendencies than he is actually a full sociopath."

"Because your an expert on the matter?" asked Damon sarcastically.

"Actually I was a psychology student before dad decided he would not pay for my tuition anymore, Josette's was too expensive," I added bitterly "Guess he shouldn't have that many kids if he couldn't afford it...So yeah I think I know more than you. Besides you didn't let Kai finish..."

Kai nods "Yes. So when I absorbed Luke's magic, I must have gotten some of his qualities or something like empathy. So I googled how to process emotional pain, and they said if you write everything down in a letter and burn it, you'll be healed. So I started writing, and this water literally started pooling in my eyes. Has that ever happened to you, like--like water just--just oozing out of my eyeballs like I'm some alien creature excreting fluids."

"You mean you cried," said Elena disturbed frowning her eyebrows.

"Yes! And after that was done, I burned the letter, and the feelings--oop-- were still there." he smiled but it was clear he wasn't happy "Lizzie told me it couldn't be that easy. So I really feel strongly that Jo needs to know how sorry I am for destroying our family, but let's face it, guys, all right? I mean, Elena, you of all people should be willing to look past the questionable things that I've done to see that there's--there's good somewhere in me. You did it with Damon."

Damon is even more annoyed "Ok. I think we're done here. Come on."

"No" Elena protested then she looked at me and asked, "What about you don't you want to apologize?"

"No, I only came here to support Kai and protect him from you. He is vulnerable right now and I won't let you abuse his kindness" Damon snorted at my response while Kai raised an eyebrow not used to my smothering. He was the one always trying to protect me from dad or stupid jocks that called me a slut at school, not that it bothered me that much, I never had real self-esteem. Sure I was confident and perfect but I didn't respect my body and slept with whoever wanted me.

Anyway lately, I was the one protecting Kai, I think since I became a mother I was more protective of him. And it was true he was now in a vulnerable state, and they won't abuse this, over my dead body.

"But you don't feel...guilty?" Elena asks again and then clarifies her thoughts "Unlike Kai you always had normal emotions"

"Damn girl you should do some psychology instead of trying to be a useless doctor...You all I want to fix people" I chuckle, then after I pause I tell her "You know maybe I feel guilty maybe I don't but in the end it doesn't matter but I still did it. And yes sociopaths do feel guilt" I point a finger to Damon and say "Your boyfriend killed a pregnant lady and whether he feels guilty or not she is still dead" Damon clenches his jaw.

"No it matters and you know it!" protested Elena. I rolled my eyes when she ignores her boyfriend killing a pregnant girl, but not the part where I don't feel guilty. I guess she was used to his shitty behavior and put on with it despite her high morals because it was when they weren't together so it's okay. Because now he has her he won't do shirt like that, what a joke. He's still a shitty person she's just blind and delusional as hell.

I chuckle darkly "Of course, perfect Elena wouldn't understand this...your parents died before they could hate you for being a vampire, an abomination." I shout making her step back, her eyes widen "You know sociopath aren't born, they are made. So no matter how much daddy dearest depicts us as evil abominations, in the end, he made us like this." I chuckled "My parents didn't die before hating me do something I had no control over just like vampirism. Instead they fucked me up, big time. Do you know how it feels for a five year old to have her father suddenly call her an abomination for something she doesn't even understand? To stop hugging her, talk to her only to insult her, or to only touch her with the purpose to beat her? We couldn't touch anyone...Of course, you don't understand" I smirk bitterly and look at Damon " but your boyfriend does, he screams daddy issues..."

"Shut up," said Damon irritated clenching his jaw with anger.

"What was it, Damon? I'm sure you were some kind of a disappointment to your daddy, did he prefer Stefan?... I mean everybody prefers him, he is the golden boy. The better brother" I taunt him and grab Damon by the arm and enters his mind getting flashbacks about his childhood confirming my presumptions. Damon jerks my arm away quickly "Oh he did, you were worthless to him" I said with a sadistic smile"he burned you with his cigar once, for the money you didn't even steal..."

"STOP" he yelled at me.

"Why didn't you tell me about this?" asked Elena her hand on his cheek trying to calm him down.

I laughed "You are really self-centered, it's not about you Elena. People like, my brother, your boyfriend, and me we weren't loved by our parents so we're narcissistic because someone has to love us even if it's ourselves...but we can't do that if we feel guilt or remorse so we bury it away..." I clap my hand happily, my mood changing instantly "Now that I have responded to your question let's not make this any longer than it already has been. What do you want in exchange for giving the letter?"

Elena takes the broken ascendant and gives it to us. Kai examines the ascendant, a piece falls as he takes it and he says frowning "Sad attempt at iron welding."

"I tried to fix it."

Kai shakes his head "I can't bring Bonnie back with this."

"I thought you were the all-powerful leader of the Gemini coven now," said Elena making me roll my eyes. Flattery won't get her anywhere.

Kai shows her the broken ascendant "I destroyed this so that it couldn't be used again."

"Well, can we use that hunk of junk to send a message at least? It is her birthday," asks Damon.

Kai looks surprised at him and says sadly "It is?" I frown at him. I hoped he hadn't developed feeling for bonnie now because it would be a disaster, she was way too judgy to fall for my brother and it would only result in his heartbreak. And I definitely didn't want to see that happen.

Damon nods sadly "Yeah. It's really sad. I mean, old Bon-bon-- she's gonna be getting all dressed up for a party no one's even gonna show up to. I mean, I wonder if she even knows that it is her birthday, or do all the days just blend into one vast sea of misery? I wonder." he finished making Kai even more sad or remorseful than before.

Kai looks at the ascendant "One of the crown wheels survived. That's a positive. Plus I am mega powerful."

"And he has an equality powerful sister to help," I say smugly " Parker power"

"What do you want to say?" Kai asks Damon

"Well, I mean, if Bonnie needs magic to get out, we just need to tell her where to find some." responds Damon.

Damon and Elena try to figure out where Bonnie can get magic from, while Kai tries to fix the ascendant with my help. I decided to listen carefully to their conversation knowing it may be useful in the future.

"Ok. So we know that Jo stored her magic in a hunting knife. Bonnie sent hers over with Miss Cuddles. What receptacle of magic am I not thinking of?" asks Elena as usual she was the one asking questions because she was not capable of thinking on her own apparently.

"Let me give you a hint. Scorned lover." grinned Damon.

"Katherine?"

"Older." Damon hints.

"Silas."

"Hotter."

"I don't know. Silas was definitely hot."

"Ugh," Damon replies disgusted.

"Qetsiyah." Elena realizes. He winks at her "Her blood is on Silas' headstone. It's filled with magic."

"Yep! So in Bonnieland, that means that an island off Nova Scotia is a big magical battery waiting to be tapped. We just need to remind Bonnie of that."

Elena asks curiously "And what reminded you?"

"I was gonna plan a trip there, change of scenery, you know. There's only so much you can take of Mystic Falls on repeat."

Or maybe he realized how I got the cure for Rebekah. You know what, whatever if he knows about the cure or not. In the end, we will leave this awful city with Kai and never come back.

Kai sighs relieved "Oh, thank God. You two together are still totally revolting to me. Finally, a familiar feeling. Luke didn't take me over completely."

I put a hand on my heart and exclaims equality relieved "Thank God, you are still here. I thought you were broken forever"

Jeremy, the teenager that could see ghosts suddenly appears and asks bewildered "What the hell are they doing here?"

Kai smiles up at him "Hi."

"My favorite former vamp-hunter seing Ghosts" I spoke fakely enthusiastic, waving at the younger Gilbert.

"People don't just change like that," said Jeremy not convinced. He was sitting on a couch in the Salvatore boarding house a frown on his face.

"People usually don't merge with their siblings either," remarks Damon backing up Kai. In the end, he wanted Bonnie back and didn't care how. If he had to kill Kai and his whole coven to get her back he would.

"Uh, for the record, I would have been fine with any of Luke's qualities, you know, the hair, the whole gay thing... you know, maybe not the height actually," informs us, Kai, holding while he was trying to mend the broken ascendant.

"Do you feel gay now?" I ask him. I hadn't really thought about that part before but maybe he could be even more confused before.

Kai looks confused "I don't know"

I smile reassuringly "Don't worry when we will be back in New Orleans, well go to a gay club to explore this possibility...You won't know for sure before you try it, that what I said to Josh's girlfriend and she turned full on the ladies after a wonderful night with me" I said mentioning my younger brother girlfriends whom I slept with. It gave him even more reasons to hate me. At least he didn't hate me only because I was a filthy abomination. I preferred to give people a real reason to hate me than being a siphon.

"You seriously buy this?" asked Jeremy looking at the siblings oddly, they were sociopaths for him but acted so normally together which he found weird.

Elena sighs "Look. I'm not saying that we have to like him, but if there's a way for us to tell Bonnie how she can get out"

"We should trust a guy that changed personalities overnight?" presses Jeremy.

"Why do you care? In the end, you will get what while we get what we want. Honestly, we are paying you too much just to give a letter...It almost looks like you don't even want little judgy back. Isn't she your girlfriend or something?"

"Of course I want Bonnie back " denies Jeremy "I just don't trust you"

Kai rolls his eyes "Think of it like Elena in reverse. " he pours himself some alcohol. I sent him a glare and he rolls his eyes pouring another drink and giving it to me "You know, she was human, pure, dating the good Salvatore. Then she became an undead blood vacuum, stopped caring about right and wrong, and started dating the bad one."

Elena denies irritated "It's not how it happened."

"It is, bex told me everything. After she killed you. You switched brother overnight... and slept Damon like just after breaking Stefano's heart...he even wanted her to erase his memories of you...Poor lad"

Kai chuckles "Ouch" he takes a sip of his drink "Hmm. I'm sure I missed a detail or two, but I'm just paraphrasing what Damon told me in the prison world."

"Speaking of, there's a witch over there we'd like to save, so why don't you get your Gemini jumper cables and fix that thing?" remarked Damon trying to get back on the subject that mattered to him: Bonnie.

"Okey-dokey"

"So I can't send us back physically, but I can probably send a part of us back," announces Kai.

"Probably?" asked Elena another question, frowning not reassured by my brother's words.

"You remember that movie "Ghost"? Ok. Well, Bonnie's gonna be Demi Moore because she's the alive one obviously, and, uh, we'll all be a collective Patrick Swayze, the ghost. By the way, how much does that suck about Patrick Swayze?"

"A ton, but they're too young they don't understand the reference"

"Will she be able to see us or not Kai?" asks Elena irritated.

"I don't know. I've never done this before." told Kai smiling excited like a kid on Christmas " So let's all just take a deep breath, right, close our eyes, " I take Kai hand while Elena, Jeremy, Damon, Kai, and myself close our eyes, I mutter the spell with Kai " ... Phesmatos tribum invocio caveum, miscero mundio. Phesmatos tribum invocio caveum, miscero mundio."

When we open our eyes we found ourselves in the house, but it is different, older. More 1994-ish which was a good sign. It meant our spell worked.

"What happened to the pool table?" asks Damon and I roll my eyes. We are going to a prison world, what do you think Damon? The pool table isn't in the boarding house yet. I was annoyed being around those stupid people. I missed Klaus's evil masterminds' plans or Elijah's smarty remarks (even if I was mad at him at the moment).

"Oh, my God," exclaims Elena as we all see Bonnie sit at the table.

"Bonnie? Bonnie!" exclaims the other Gilbert, he turns to us realizing something "She can't hear me"

Damon tries to touch something, but like a ghost, he can't. His hand passes through everything he touches "And we can't touch anything either. Nice spell, Kai."

"I'd like to see you try... Oh, wait you can't because you're a useless bloodsucker..." I retort sarcastically crossing my arms.

Damon narrowed his eyes "The useless bloodsucker can still tear your head off "

"Oh and who else is a bloodsucker." I say questionably and I point a finger to myself "Ah yes me...and I'm a witch on top of that... So stop being cocky because it's going to get you killed one day..."

Damon looks like he wants to say something but he stops when the video on the videotape starts "This place is my own personal hell." we can hear Damon say on the video.

Bonnie smiles fondly "Drama queen."

"Hey. Bonnie" Damon says on videotape "Reporting to you live from the retro world, I'm Bonnie Bennett. Joining us today in the studio is special guest Damon Salvatore!" The tape stops and Bonnie pours herself a glass of bourbon.

Damon blurts shocked "No."

Elena is confused "What?"

"The bottle of bourbon is the oldest one in the house. We made a pact if we couldn't take being trapped here alone for one more day we'd... We'd kill that entire bottle. Then we'd kill ourselves."

"Well this is interesting" I mutter but suddenly we all wake up back in the real world.

Elena gasps awake "Wait. Wait. What happened? Why are we back here?"

"I don't know. The spell must require too much magic. I lost my connection." mutters Kai and I notice blood falling from his nose.

"Then reconnect," demands Damon irritated.

"It's not that easy." denies Kai, he points to his nose with blood "You see this blood? I'm guessing that's not a good sign."

Elena sigh frustrated "Bonnie is going to kill herself."

"And we should care...why ?" I ask not bothered by the Bennet witch's unfortunate fate. She wasn't my friend so why would I care? Besides after what she did to my brother in the prison world, because yes their self-sacrificing friend did kill him without knowing he would come back, well since I knew that I didn't like her one bit.

"You should care because it's your fault she's stuck there!" shouted Damon frustrated.

"Hey, I wasn't even there... And if we're planting the blame on someone it should be her grams who put her there in the first place"

"Can she do that? Can she die in the prison world?" asks Jeremy more worried about Bonnie than some spat about who is to blame.

Kai shakes his head "I couldn't. Of course, it was my own personal solitary confinement. Didn't want me to end my sentence early by killing myself. Ooh! I tried every method in the book" he chuckles "Heh. I drove down to D.C. Because there was this museum that has an actual guillotine."

"Oh man, you did the guillotine in DC too? Total Siblings goals... Wait what was your favorite death?"

"Hum... Definitely the-" Kai starts but Jeremy cuts him off "We get it. For whoever's not lucky enough to be you, dead means dead."

"We have to stop her. We have to give her hope, send her a message somehow" mumbles Elena.

"How?" asks Jeremy "She couldn't hear us."

Damon offers up a solution "The message is already there in the atlas. I scribbled some notes on Nova Scotia. We just have to get her to see it."

Elena nods and asks "All right, but how do we open an atlas if we can't touch anything?"

Damon looks at my brother "We need to get Kai to crank up his witchy-woo, don't we, so we can make physical contact."

Kai utters sarcastically on the couch tired out by the spell "All while sending the 3 of you back over there? Sure. Yeah. Hey. Why don't I reanimate your dead parents for a tea party while I'm at it?" he says making me chuckle but he changes his attitude "Sorry. Insensitive."

"Well you have to do something" protest Elena "We can't let Bonnie die"

"Shut up!" I shout at her and turn to my brother "Kai, you don't have to do anything... We can find another solution to give JoJo the letter...Okay. It's too dangerous and you don't have to change... I like you just the way you are." I said softly at my brother.

"But I want to be better... I want to be good. I feel so bad about what I did to Bonnie" he tells me remorsefully. At least he wanted to change for himself and not some girl, which was a good thing I guess.

I nod and mutter a spell I found in Esther's grimoire. Damon pushes me away from my brother, fearing I was doing something to prevent him from helping bonnie. "Motus" I sending Damon across the room. He falls in pain. "Didn't you mommy teach you some manners Dams? Don't grab ladies like that."

"What did you do? " asks Elena.

"I send your boyfriend across the room, didn't you see?"

Elena shakes her head "No the spell? What was it?"

"Oh, you can thank Mama Mikealson. Yeah, I have her grimoire. I put an enhancement spell, it will make Kai spells stronger"

"So you can send us back?" asks Jeremy.

"No" denies Kai and I clarify for him " It's still too many people, we can't send back all of you"

"What if you just send me back?" demands Jeremy.

"What? No." protest Elena worried fit her little brother.

"That might work. With the enhancement spell and Lizzie's help, I can focus all of my magic on one person. It might be enough of a boost that you could physically interact if I can hold the spell." offers Kai.

"And if you cannot?" asks Damon.

"The magic overwhelms me, " says Kai normally it would kill him being overwhelmed by magic but I also put a protection spell on him, as I did to myself and Rebekah every day. I may be confident but I know that I'm not invincible. So our whole coven would die if this didn't work but I would still have my brother. "and I can't pull Jeremy out. He'll be stuck over there for eternity." finishes Kai.

"Jer." pleads Elena.

Jeremy stops her "Don't. Don't say anything. If I can get through to her, we save Bonnie's life. If not... At least I'll be with her when she dies."

" The girl killed herself to bring him back from the dead, let him save her life for once," I say irritated at Elena.

One minute she was ready to take risks for Bonnie the other second she was not. I know she was overprotective of her brother, but her best friend would die if we didn't do anything. And even if I didn't like the witch, from what I heard she did sacrifice a lot ( like her life ) for Elena.

She lost her grams trying to save Damon and Stefan at Elena's request. She almost died trying to go up against Klaus for Elena. She brought Jeremy back from the dead the first time and almost died. Then her mother (who had left because of something related to Elena) was transformed into a vampire to save Elena a life. Then she helped get the cure for Elena and it resulted in rising Silas who killed her father. Then she died saving Jeremy... Well after that I don't know since my information came from bex and we were in New Orleans.

Caroline told me some stuff but not much on bonnie, mostly on Damon and Elena's drama. And let me tell you those two were toxic as fuck, it was so pathetic honestly.

But yeah if it was Hayley at Bonnie's place, well before she stole my daughter trying to protect her, but being useless in the end...Well if it was Hayley pre-betrayal I would try to do anything to save her.

Kai was chanting with me, he was sweating since it was still a hard spell even with my help. Elena and Damon both watch him.

"Phesmatos tribum...Phesmatos tribum...Invocio caveum...Phesmatos tribum invocio caveum, miscero mundio."

Kai and I finally manage sent Jeremy ourselves back into the prison world. "Ok. 1994. Let's do this," mumbles Jeremy.

"Where's the stupid map?" asks Kai.

Jeremy finds the map and can finally touch it "It's working." he exclaimed happily.

"Hurry up and find Nova Scotia." presses Kai. It was raking a lot of energy and we didn't have the time to do this.

Jeremy flips through the atlas "Nova Scotia. Got it. But then he then drops the atlas, since he can't touch it anymore. "No! Kai, do something!"

We both discovers that Kai's blouse starts having blood on it, making me mad with worry. This shouldn't happen. "Kai? What going on?" I ask my voice filled with worry.

We are suddenly sent back to the real world. Liv drives a fire iron through Kai's stomach.

"No! What are you doing?" exclaims Jeremy.

Liv uses her magic to throw Jeremy, Kai, and me across the room. Kai laughs "Dang, sis. That was harsh."

Liv shouts angrily "Shut up!" she starts using a pain infliction spell on him. I try to intervene but she inflicts an aneurysm spell on me as well.

"Aah! Agh!"

"Phasmatos." Before Liv can do anything, Kai quickly uses his magic to throw a fork into her throat "aah!" making the infliction spell on us stop.

Kai stands up and grabs a bottle "Haha. Ha. Ahh. It's all coming back to me, Livvie poo." she pulls out the fork "You know, the charge... " he casts the liquid in the bottle out of her making me smirk. The old kai was definitely still in here.

"Stop it, Kai!" begged Liv holding on to her injury caused by a fork.

Kai continues to spread the liquid of the bottle on her and I finish I sentence next standing next to him "That races through your bones..."

Liv shouts "Stop it!"

But Kai doesn't stop "At the prospect of watching someone burn to death? " he throws the glass bottle away and smiles "I really missed that feeling" and takes a burning candle and walks toward her.

"Just kill me, Kai." cries Liv "You already killed my best friend. So just do it. Get it over with."

But Kai struggles to kill her "Why can't I do this? I don't care about you. Why can't I kill you? Come on. Kai, do it. Do it." he slaps himself on the head repeatedly and shouts "Come onnnnn! Kill her!"

"Motus!" Liv uses magic to throw a fork into Kai's chest.

"Ugh!" Kai falls to the ground.

I calmly grab a butter knife and throws it into Liv's shoulder. Jeremy quickly takes the ascendant and the fork out of Kai's chest.

Jeremy helps Kai inside the kitchen and I follow them there. Kai drops down on the floor injured.

"Send me back." demands Jeremy as Kai wheezes wounded "Please"

Kai who was bloodied struggles and tells "Jeremy, look at me. I'm half-dead."

"I need to stop Bonnie."

I harshly take the ascendant from Jeremy "No, I don't care about Bonnie... My brother won't die for that stupid witch. We are going home NOW unless you want the Gemini coven to extinct?" I say narrowing my eyes at Jeremy.

"But bonnie will die if we don't do anything" protest Jeremy.

"Ok. Ok," says Kai looking at me pleadingly. I narrow my eyes at him but still give him the ascendant back. "I hate nice Kai" I mumble annoyed.

I hold kai hand and we both start chanting "Phesmatos tribum invocio caveum, miscero mundio"

We are sent back to the prison world. Bonnie still sits at the table drinking the old bourbon.

"Cheers to making it this far." bonnie starts crying "Ok. Think it's time I cut myself off. Agh! " she angrily throws the bottle to the floor and takes the video recorder and leaves the room"

"Stay here," Jeremy orders us and walks after Bonnie.

Elena and Damon rush into the kitchen and finds Jeremy and Kai and Elizabeth.

Damon slaps Kai cheeks, trying to wake him up "Kai, hey! Damn it!" he gives Kai his blood and he wakes up"

"This is the last time we're helping you" I warn, and take my feeble brother with me.

"How do you feel?" I ask my brother when we are alone "Does being good makes you happy?"

He shrugged his shoulders "Being good is harder than being bad. But oddly I feel happy, but I don't know if this is Luke or me"

"It doesn't matter, if your happy in the end that all that matters. I'm proud of you"

He furrows his eyebrows "I thought you said it was annoying that I joined the good side of the force"

"Oh it is...but you're trying to change because you want to feel better about yourself. You want to do that for yourself not because people expect it of you. This self-work on yourself is admirable"