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We're standing in the parking lot at the end of the school day when she arrives in a sleek black car.
I don't even realise who she is, until she calls his name loudly.
He turns to her, from where he's standing with Jackson and Liam, his eyes widening in surprise before he walks up to her.
Every single eye is watching, the hum of voices disappearing entirely.
You can taste the curiosity on the air.
No whispers for once.
Nothing.
Just silence.
Her words ring out across the parking lot. 'We're leaving. Come on.'
Leaving? What does she mean leaving?
Edward stops in front of her, frowning.
He's only a few meters away from me and I can see the anxious energy pouring off him, his fingers twitching at his sides, jaw jumping.
'Why are you…what do you mean leaving?'
'I mean, we're leaving, come on.' She says. 'Get in the car.'
Edward peers into the car and widens his eyes, stepping back, 'What the fuck is going on?'
'Edward, we have to go right now.' His mom snaps.
'No.' Edward says, stepping back from her. 'I'm not going anywhere.'
'Yes. You. Are.'
'No! I'm not…what are you trying to do? He'll…you can't do this, why are you doing this?'
'Edward just get in the goddamn car!' His mom cries, 'This is all your fault.'
'That's not fair.' He bellows. 'He did this, not me.'
'Regardless.' She snaps, 'you're coming with us to Mexico now. We have to be quick, we're running out of time, they'll be here soon and there's a plane waiting. Now Edward!'
'No.' Edward says resolutely. 'I'm staying here.'
I'm finding it hard to hear him, her words are clanging around in my head.
Mexico.
He can't leave.
'Where will you stay?' She asks him angrily. 'You have no one Edward. You are alone.'
Edward's mouth opens and closes, and panic filled green eyes meet mine across the parking lot.
He stares at me and I know, now more than ever he needs me to say it, to say that he has me, that he truly has me, because if that car leaves, he's going to have nothing left except me.
But I can't move.
I'm paralyzed, my thoughts metal bindings that are pinning me in place.
All I can hear is that word.
Mexico.
He can't go to Mexico.
He can't go anywhere, he can't because…
Because I need him…
Because I…
Because I love him.
Every single part of me comes screeching to a halt, and I stare at him, wide eyed, panic gripping my chest in a vice, claws sinking deep, those iron bindings around me getting tighter, cutting off my air supply.
Edward frowns as he reads my expression, and I find myself taking a step back, just to try and process this, to try and deal with this. I'm discombobulated, untethered.
I love him.
I can't deal with this yet, I need time.
Edward takes a slight step towards me and I take another back, shaking my head.
Give me a second.
Just wait a second.
My eyes close as I try to breathe in and out, try to ground myself, because I'm going to run across the car park and tell him I love him and it's fucking crazy.
I take another deep breath and open my eyes, but Edward's body is slumped all of a sudden. His green eyes shatter with a pain that I feel so viscerally in my chest that I'm not sure there's anything left inside it.
His eyes leave mine and I know instantly that I've fucked up. That I've totally fucked up, maybe beyond all reprehension, maybe beyond all forgiveness.
I step forwards but he doesn't see me, opening the car door and getting inside.
I gasp out loud.
What is he doing?
A rush of adrenaline goes through me and I run towards him, faster than I've ever run in my life, needing to tell him that I'm sorry for hesitating, that I'm here, that he has me, but I've barely made it a meter when the black car peels out, taking him away from me.
Taking him away from me forever.
I come to a stop and stare after the car, unable to breathe.
He's gone.
He's gone.
He's gone.
He's gone.
I break.
A/N I know...I know, come to the fb group creaatingmadness, we can talk about it there ❤️