LoveInTheBattleField: thank you.

kera69love: yeah me to and yeah he will, but it was humorous.

Guest (1): she might just refer to it as paying attention. Lol or research lol

masterray5: thanks, I had a feeling that would wok well for it and give a little jealous reaction to. Lol and yes I do remember those now, maybe since it wasn't in an actual date setting is why I didn't remember them but there were very select few times when they dated. Or that it was seen. Though in the abandon cat house one, that was mostly just to cheer her up and she thought it would be them making out, but it was for the kittens. To that even I was both charmed and disappointed, cause he was trying and it was disappointing but the kittens were cutie. You can't go wrong with that. Agreed that the manga was way better in terms of their romance, it didn't help that the anime made mamoru several years older than her for some reason. He's really in his last year of high school not already in college when they first meet. 14 to 17-18 maybe still be a gap but not as bad as 14 to 21-22.

mryann: thank you very much, I do what I can. Thank you all for inspiring me.

Oreo596: glad you enjoyed the most recent updates, I try to put a little humor into them as I figure its needed in the right areas. Along with the small speeches and the intense sex. lol

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A gift from a sacrifice

Drabble 315

Usagi POV

I still felt a near hollowness feeling within me. I pulled something very important and precious to me to help stabilize the cauldron. It was de-stabilizing from the most recent battle we had had and I needed to save it so our world could keep going. I just couldn't figure out what I had given it to make it work yet I knew it was important to me personally. I saw Pluto come out of the fog of time as I stood there in a simple white dress.

My feet were bare as I was in a loop of uncertainty. The rest of my body stuck in the real world as I was visiting this part of time and space as only part of me. The battle had taken a great deal of power and enemy that no other before it ever had before. I was certain that I would have been killed for sure this time had I not given the cauldron something for aid. It was the only way and I'd do it again in a heartbeat if it meant the world kept spinning and those that were innocent got to live on in peace.

When Pluto pulls up an image, I can't see hardly anything in it, but she seems distressed. I imagine it must be due to either her powers or the fact that only part of me is here. "What did you do as Sailor Cosmos? I can't see the future of Crystal Tokyo." Her words make me realize what I gave up as I sense her unease and worry yet she does what she can to remain stoic about it, not letting me see how she truly feels.

"I reached inside myself and used something to stabilize the cauldron." I answer without dancing around the subject. What good would it do? Pluto looks to me as if asking if what I've done was worth it even though I can see deep down she knows it was the right thing to do. "Those were the threads of destiny, you and Mamoru are no longer soulmates. Chibi Usa is gone from all pictures." I can hear the slight pain in her voice knowing that the pink haired child Mamoru and I were to one day have is gone.

I do feel a tremendous lose from it. Maybe not as much as I would have had I given birth to her in this time but I still do feel it clear as anything yet I know deep in my heart and gut that it was the right thing to do and I would do it again as it was the only thing that matter to me more than my own life. I would give my life for Chibi Usa, Mamoru, or the girls a thousand times over if it meant they got to live.

They know this, yet I had to give up the one thing that would bring a child born of both the moon and earth into this world. It feels like I've done something selfish now even though everything and everyone is at peace. I still feel a burden of guilt that I gave her life away in a sense to save the lives of billions of people by giving the cauldron something pure. Yet I know it was what was right to do in the end so I would carry this burden with me for all time. It would be my cross to bear in the end.

The pain of losing a child and the anger of those I love the most for what I've done even if it was to save everyone by stabilizing the cauldron. The sacrifice of one. A lone tear fell from my eye as I imagined that sometimes annoying child as she faded from the future. I would give anything for the sacrifice to have been myself, to have given my own soul, my own life in exchange, yet the cauldron had its wish and I gave it.

"The lives of everyone to be reborn and saved hung in the balance." I answered her, the sadness in my voice and in my heart felt to much to bear yet I withstood it so I could face the senshi of time and space. "I had to give it something pure…it wanted something pure." I told her as Pluto looked at me with sadness and alarm etched into her face. I saw the shift then. She saw that my sacrifice of the soulmate bond stabilized the cauldron.

She saw that the sacrifice of one's true love, the link that bound Mamoru and I together through two and now going into three lifetimes, was the purest thing and because of what it leads to. It was a heart wrenching decision to make but what sacrifice isn't. I watched Pluto walk away as she left me to my own thoughts. I stood there for seemingly an endless amount of time. Maybe I was waiting for death to take me so I could be at peace.

Yet I knew that would mean that I'd be skirting my burden and responsibility to deal with the sacrifice I'd made. So when I felt a presence behind me I settled my shoulders. I could already tell who it was. "Mamoru…" I greeted as he stood up towards me. I felt him about ready to touch me and I didn't want to feel him remove them with what I had to say next so I spun around to face him and told him what I did.

I can tell that he's not thrilled with what I've done. Neither am I but I also see the understanding of WHY I did it and why I HAD to do it. It's a burden he's made before himself. When he broke things off with me years back, he took on that pain alone. Yes, I was in tremendous pain but his was on another level to do it and stick with it for as long as he did. This, however, was a whole other level of sacrifice to bear.

"'I guess without destiny, there is nothing to keep us together." I mutter wishing and believing on some level that I was wrong. Despite having given up the soul bond I still feel a tremendous love for him that I can't let go of. Yet I feel that if I tell him I will hear that despite my love he doesn't feel it without the soul bond. "That's what some people say about us." He says though he sounds more like he's trying to convince himself than anything.

"I guess were free to be with who we want." I say as I bleakly wonder if he'll seek out Saori et I hold a hope in me that without the destiny thing he would still choose me over anyone else. I know I always would. I see his head turn as he looks towards me with a small grimace, "Will you go to Seiya?" he asks as I choke on my words, "I…I don't…" I can't get the rest out as I know in my heart that Seiya and I will only ever be friends.

My heart will always belong to Mamoru. I don't need a soul link to prove it yet I still hold fears that maybe Chibi Usa's words that were once spoken a few years back had some validity. That Mamoru would be better off without me, and would be better with someone more mature, less childish, smarter…I know I've grown since then but her words did affect me more than I let on so I choke on the rest of what I was going to say. 'I don't love him like I love you. I'm in love with you not him.'

Yet I can't get the rest of my words out as I choke on them through my own emotions, "I guess we should just say goodbye." Mamoru's words sound a bit defeated and near cutting. As if its now becoming painful to be here with me and maybe for him without the soul link it is. From the start this relationship we've had has always seemed a little more one sided than anything, that was something I've had to deal with.

I thought it was due to his anti-social, stoic nature from how he grew up but perhaps I had been mistaken…I held hope that I hadn't been, that I was wrong and that he did love me as I loved him. That I shared myself with him down to my soul not because of a soul link but because our love more than that. It was in our hearts not just our souls trying to reconnect but because we felt a call to each other that we felt in our most primitive of being.

I held out a feverish hope that I was wrong that he didn't love me as I loved him. That he did love me as I did him. I couldn't say anything after his last words. It was all I could do to hold my composure and NOT break down. If I did not only would I make a fool of myself but even worse, I wouldn't be able to get my words out. I knew I'd be to overcome with emotion to get out anything that sounded like words.

As we turned around to walk away, as I prepared to leave my heart behind so that I couldn't feel the pain of heartbreak ever again and prepared to put a wall of ice around it I realized our hand shad joined together at some point. He saw this to and while we both knew after our parting words that we should let go I couldn't bring myself to do it. This was the last shred of him that I had and I couldn't let go.

"I…I can't let go…" I tell him then as I see his face I add on, "Of your hand…" not wanting to give anything away and have further heartbreak happen. That's when I see it. The expression in his face that tells me that he feels as I do. The hope that I love him as he loves me. I can feel my heart renewing itself, "I can't let go of yours…" he begins as he pulls me in closer towards him, "No…not just can't, I won't let go." his voice is both protective, fierce with passion building up and fear of losing me.

Its one of the few times I've ever seen him this emotional and it brings it out of myself to, "I don't want you to let me go…ever." I tell him, desperation in my own voice to keep what we have as I hold him close to me as well. "Usa…my Usagi…I can only imagine my life if you're in it, if you're not then it's not worth living." He tells me as he slowly spreads butterfly kisses over my face as I weep at the beauty of his words.

"But…" he stops, making my heart wrench in pain, fear coming in and beginning to shroud things, "If you don't want that…if you don't want a life with me and want to 'explore your options' tell me now cause otherwise I won't ever be able to let you go again." I could see the utter seriousness in him as he released his hold on me. I pulled back to and told him, "Mamoru I will give you the same words as I to couldn't ever let you go if you stay. This is your only chance to 'explore your options'." I tell him.

It was as if the passion between us, the love we have exploded as we quiet literally jumped each other and became a frenzy of limbs as we landed on the ground. The mist that surrounded us shrouded us as if to give us privacy. Mamoru tore the dress from my form without a word of warning, his hands caressing every inch of me he could find. His tongue flicking out and tasting me at every interval he could as I pulled at him and moaned for more.

I used my toes to push off the drawstring pants he had on as my hands tugged till I ripped at his own t shirt he had on revealing his taunt smooth muscles as I caressed them. I couldn't help but lick and nibble on the skin I found myself as I suckled lightly on his nipples before he moved further down and sucked heavily on my own. I felt them begging for his attention as he lavished them with it.

I could fee my own wetness seeping out from his attentions on my body as I bucked up towards him, he dragged a hand down and slipped a few fingers in, enjoying the feel my walls compressing on them. He brought his hand up to his mouth and tasted me off his fingers. It was an erotic sight to watch as he savored them before slipping himself further between my legs and pushing in with all that he had.

I felt him fill me up like it was the first time. He felt so big inside of me as I felt him stretching out all of my crevices. That's when I felt something warm spreading through me. I trusted the feeling and pulled at him further as he pushed in and out, slowly now as he wanted to savor this as much as I did. I pulled at him as I felt him moaning deep inside. He was trying to hold himself back as he usually did during our love making.

Yet I wanted more, "Mamoru…" I got his attention as he kissed my face and hands as I tried to gain his attention, it was a tad hard though considering, "Mmmhm?" he muttered as he licked and suckled at my neck. His teeth gently grazing the skin there as I wrapped my legs more tightly around his hips, wanting to feel him in me as deeply as possible. "Give us both all of you." I told him as he left my neck alone and looked into my eyes. There was a small bit of fear in there at what he could do to me if he did in fact let go.

"Let us have this." I kissed him as I contracted and squeezed my muscles around him. He grunted and let his head fall towards my chest, "Please…" I begged him and did it again as he groaned from the pleasure of it. He pulled himself back and before I could ask or protest thinking he was going to reserve himself from me once more, he hauled me up with him into his lap and pulled down onto my shoulders at the same time.

The combined force of the new position along with his pressing down as he thrust upwards forced him into me at a deeper angle that had me forming a large O with my mouth as I called out to him to keep going. He bounced upwards as I rode him hard myself. The pressure and speed made the rhythm feel more intense as I clasped onto him for support. I could feel him so deeply within me at this angle that I felt like he was I my womb.

So when he grinned and lifted me off him just a little bit, I wondered what was I store for us next. I got pushed forward just a bit then twisted around as one leg got pulled under one of his that he pulled up over mine. We were now essentially 'scissoring' as he pulled on my legs to push me further and harder onto his length than before. The new position allowed for me to grip onto his leg as I pulled on his as well.

There was an intensity to it that was new to us as it engaged other senses as well. The pace began to quicken up as he yanked me harder onto his shaft. The pleasure was mounting up so fast that I couldn't stop bouncing against him. I felt so wonton in my actions that my shy reserved state melted away and let me be one with Mamoru as we had never been before. Yes, we had sex many times before, but this was different.

This was a connection that gave our hearts the knowledge that we want each other regardless of a link, this was just us. Just our hearts. No link necessary and that in and of itself was so beautiful that I wanted to cry. So when I felt my orgasm coming on strong I chased after it with the friction of my clit against his own skin. His jarring thrusts forcing me down and against his own hard length over and over again.

His grunts of need equated my own cries of passion as we wanted this between the other more than the air we were breathing. I felt my walls jerk and begin to spasm around him and saw his face as he felt it to. The beginnings of his own orgasm as it was crashing down upon him to, "Mamo!" it was all I managed to get out as I jerked against him. Crying out my sweet release as he held onto me.

"Usa!" he roared as he yanked me hard back onto his length, smashing me against him time and time again till all that could be felt was his cock deeply embedded in my tightness. It took several long minutes before we could finally disconnect and cool down. Though we didn't disconnect, we reveled in our connection as we felt the strings reattach themselves through our own love…one that was born of us once more. Our choice, beyond that of fate, beyond that of the past, just us.

Pluto POV

I was deeply saddened by Usagi's choice but also knew the burden we must all bear at one point or another. She did what was right and while I don't like it nor did she it was the right call to make. So as I watch the future unfold I begin to see Chibi Usa make her way back inside the fold and see it changing ever so much. In the different futures, not just Crystal Tokyo, Chibi Usa is born again and is living a loving life and learning so much.

I can't help but smile and let a tear fall from my eyes in happiness. I don't bother to peak in on Usagi nor Mamoru. they need their tie together as the strings have reformed and become stronger than ever before. I then look on at the cauldron and sense what it needed it got and in return gave a gift as well. Something it rarely does unless a great sacrifice is made. "Now all is right in the world and with the cauldron. A great gift for a great sacrifice."