Chapter 28- Trust
Jazmine's POV
It's been nearly a week since I have revealed my true feelings and still no all from Huey. Like what is he doing? This is not how it should be. I've been going insane waiting for a text, call or something but no nothing! I know anything hasn't changed from the last time I checked my phone. Yet, I still look down to check if I have any new notifications 'Nope.'
"UGH!" I throw my phone onto the bed. I pace back and forth in my room for the thousandth time today.
'*Ringing*' Omg it's him! I flop on my bed and immediately answer the phone.
"Hey, I've been waiting on your call."
"Aw that is so sweet sis. That means a lot." Pause that isn't Huey that is a girl voice. I glance at the caller ID, Cindy.
"Oh." I grumble in realization, "It's just you."
"Well damn you were just excited a second ago. What happened?" She fakes hurt in her voice.
"I thought you were Huey." I admit.
"You still waiting on his call?" Cindy questions.
"Yes and it's been basically a week. What do you think that means?" I voice worried. Maybe Cindy knows the answer, I mean she's been in a relationship for a few years.
"I think it means you need to calm down. I can hear you stressing through the phone. Look you knew the risk when you told him, girl. Now you just have to wait." She tries to assure me.
"That's what I've been doing. I can't take it anymore, it's just driving me nuts." I say honestly.
"Well shid, if it was me I'd pull up there and demand an answer from his bitch ass. Or I'd start texting other guys to show him what he's missing. That's my advice...We are two different people though, Jaz." Cindy's telling the truth we are way different from each other. I can't just go talk to another guy because I feel like it.
"Entertaining other men would only make things worse, then things would really be over." And I don't want that at all.
"You're right. But listen, you got two options: take my advice or keep doing you. We'll see where that will take you…" Cindy trails off. She is correct, waiting here doing nothing hasn't done anything but cause me stress. I'm going to do what Cindy said, um not the cheating part but the confronting Huey thing. He can't just leave me hanging like this, I'm not just going to stand by for when he's ready. I've done enough of that.
"Yeah I hear you. Look I'm going to talk to you later, ok?"
"Alright and stop stressing."
I take a deep breath, "I will. Bye."
"Later." We hang up the phone.
I throw on my blue velour matching sweatsuit and a pair of regular black nikes. I fix my hair into a puff on top of my head. I grab my keys and leave my apartment.
On the drive to Huey's home, it gives me time to think if this is one of the craziest things I'm going to do? Pop up somewhere unannounced, well it's not like I haven't done it before. Out of all times each visit feels different. He's the only person that can make me act up this way. I arrive 15 minutes later. I get out of my car and slowly but surely make my way into his apartment building. Up the elevator to his front door.
My hands shake when I lift my hand to knock on the door. Someone takes my nervousness away, the door opens displaying a gorgeous woman. She looks about my age, maybe a bit older. Also, the woman is tall, she's giving off model energy. Why is she here though, with Huey?.. Huey, he is behind her looking stupid. They both look surprised to see me 'Hmmm, I wonder why?'
"Huey." He avoids eye contact with me.
"Who's this?" The woman asks Huey.
"Jazmine, she's um my girlfriend." His eyes meet mine, finally.
"You didn't tell me you have a girlfriend." She looks at Huey, "She's adorable." She smiles at me. 'Adorable? What am I a child?' I refrain from arching an eyebrow. 'What does she mean he didn't tell her? ' Not that I expect him to shout it from the rooftop, he's clearly not the type. Still, this is suspicious. Huey is just silent like always...
"Well since I'm not going to get a proper introduction my name is Danielle but I prefer Danny." I don't really care what you prefer. Nonetheless...
I feign a friendly smile,"Nice to meet you, Danny. I just came here to talk to talk to Huey but if you two are busy, I'll come back." I say the last part even though I don't really mean it. If anything we really need to talk, now.
"No, no. I was just leaving, it's fine." Danielle smiles. 'Good.'
She hugs Huey and he returns it. I'm sensing history between the two because the only other person he hugs is me. And that's how I like it, that's how it should be. Only me. Homegirl here, needs to leave a bit faster.
"Don't be a stranger, again." She smirks. 'Unh unh what is this they have going on?'
"I won't." He responds.'Huh?!'
"Bye Jazmine, it was nice meeting you."
"You too." I wave smiling with no teeth. I'm being fake as hell but she gives off a fake vibe to me for some reason. Danielle walks ways and I turn my head to make sure that she is out of hearing distance.
"Seriously Huey?!" I shout.
"What?" He becomes defensive already.
"I've been sitting by the phone for days while you've been here cheating on me! " I huff.
"Jazmine calm down, it's now like that. Would you just come inside and let me explain? I don't want my neighbors hearing this." I honestly want to say screw his neighbors but he's right. This is our business.
"Fine." I reluctantly walk into his loft. He closes his door and I focus on him more, 'You've got to be kidding me!'
"It's not like that, huh? Then what's that on your shirt." I refer to the smudged make up on his top. He rubs the back of his neck. 'Yeah caught you.'
I click my tongue, "No, it's something. I tell you that I love you," He tenses at the word. "Then I found you with another woman. Only god knows what you two did." I place a hand over my face shaking my head.
"I already told you that's not what happened." Huey sighs.
"And what, am I supposed to believe you?" I scoff. He's not looking too good right now.
"Yes, you're supposed to trust me." Huey looks at me bewildered.
"How can I?" I counter. Huey chuckles shortly 'Is this man crazy, this is no laughing matter.'
"You know, it's funny that you can hug other males and just call it friendly." He puts quotations around the word friendly.
I roll my eyes, "Not this again." I don't understand how this is relevant. He's bringing it up for no reason.
Huey continues, "You talk about jealousy yet when I'm around another girl. You lose it. Or automatically come to the conclusion that I'm cheating." What?! He's trying to turn this around on me.
"That's not true, I have the right to be suspicious. Given your history with multiple women." I throw that in his face.
Huey shakes his head, "The two of us were just "friends" and now look at what we are. Can you really blame me for also having suspicions?" He raises a brow. Nope it's not the same
"What are you implying?" I inquire.
He shrugs, "Just saying you are not as innocent in the situation as you try to portray." Oh so he wants to go there.
"Well you obviously have other things to get off your chest… let's hear it." I shrug as well.
"No way. You're sensitive, I'm not doing that." Huey tells me.
"Trust me I can handle it. Don't hold back on my account. We're both adults here." I put my hand under my chin, waiting for him to spill it.
Huey scowls a bit, "Why do you do this shit Jazmine?"
"Huh? What shit? What's this shit you speak of?" I remark pettily. I want to provoke him, I want to hear what he's refraining from saying.
His scowl deepens, "Cut the smart shit. Fine. Since you asked for it… it's really exhausting, all the interrogations, questions that invade my privacy, the arguments." I bite my tongue as he continues, "You're still such a naive girl thinking that life is peaches and cream. You believe the world revolves around you. It's like do you even realize your privilege? Getting everything you want when you want it." He pauses. It hurts but I did ask for it.
"Oh no, don't stop there, keep going." There's a hint of taunting in my voice. I want to hear it all, his true problems with me. It was only a matter of time I knew he was keeping this in.
His jaw tightens a bit, "You know you are still the same way when I first met you. Why do you have to act like such a stuck up, prissy bit-"
SMACK! My hand hits Huey's cheek cutting his sentence short. I almost gasp at the impact of what I've done. But my hostility overpowers compassion. I can't even fathom that he would fix his mouth to call me out my name. Judging by Huey's expression he's still recovering from shock, he touches his palm to his face.
"How dare you?! How can you even say that?!" I start to walk away, to the door. I didn't think it could go that far, coming here was wrong. But before I can't get far Huey grabs my arms, stopping me."
"Jaz, I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean it." I shrug out his grasp and turn around to face him. His expression displays remorse.
I suck in air, "You're right the interrogations are exhausting to both me and you. But it's only because you tell me nothing about you."
"That's not true."
"Really Huey? Are we really going to keep doing this? Stop acting like you're open with me because you're not. I keep nothing from you about myself, I basically tell you everything. Why can't you just do the same?" I rub my temples. This is all truly stressing me out, it's unnecessary.
Huey sighs, "Jazmine, I told you from the jump when we started dating, I never had a real relationship before. So if you want the whole romance, fairytale and rainbows. You'd be better off finding someone else." Can't he see? All that means nothing with no trust but I wasn't explaining it anymore. I'm coming to my wits end...
"Maybe I will!"
"What?" Huey becomes confused.
"I can't be with a man I don't trust. Never again." That was one of my values but it seems like I forgot.
"So what are you saying?" He examines my face.
"I'm saying… maybe we need to take a break." I look down. I didn't want it to come to this but what other choice do I have. Huey's not going to let up on his secrets so I'm going to let up on him.
He scrunches his face up, "There is no break, Jazmine. We're either not together or we are." Damn, an ultimatum. When he says those words, my heart starts to thump furiously. My throat is becoming dry. 'Do I say this next thing or not?'
"Well then I guess… we're broken up then." My voice cracks slightly. 'Why did it have to come to this? Why did I have to say that?' It hurts so much that I can't describe.
"So that's it?" Huey's eyes search mine.
"We're done." I announce, miserably. This is so painful, but it had to happen. 'Right?'
"Just like that?" Huey questions rhetorically, "Ok," He comes closer and snatches the necklace he gifted me of my neck.
"Give me my necklace back!" I demand. It's mine. It means something to me, how could he be so passionless.
"Nah you don't need it anymore." Huey speaks coldly.
"You know I thought you were different." I shake my head at him shamefully. He'd go as far to take something that means a lot from me. Instead of admitting his wrongs.
"Me too. Apparently we were both wrong." Huey and I stand there for a second. Tears prickle my eyes 'Hold it together.' I can't even look at his face anymore, I need to get out of here.
Without a word, I stalk over to the door, ready to leave out. And in comes Riley I push past, my shoulder brush into him.
"Hello to you too Mariah." He stumbles back.
"Fuck off Riley." I am totally 100% not in the mood for his bs or jokes right now.
"What the fuck I do?" He calls out from the doorway.
I carry myself all the way to my car, slamming the door. Once I'm in the passenger seat I can't restrain myself anymore. I break down, straight ugly crying. Sobbing so much that I can hardly breathe and tears fill my vision. It wasn't supposed to go like that, that's not how it's supposed to end. I didn't want it to end. I told him I fucking love him. I thought it would be forever. Now it's the opposite. I'm never going to get over this… It's just feels impossible.
I love Huey Freeman but now I will never know if he returns the same emotion. Now he's out of my life for good. What have I done?