"The sky is red tonight," I said walking to Mello. There were so many police cars showing their red lights with no sirens going off. He looked at me with his unguarded blue eyes. The wind blew his golden hair in such a way that his scar was lightly exposed in the moonlight.
"you are fighting fate. You and I know I'm not going to live." He softly stroked my cheek with his gloved thumb. I came up to his chest without the boots that I was wearing now. My boots at least brought me to his shoulder "Your virginity was taken by me it should be enough to remember me by" he said and my eyes were starting to tear.
"No, it's not enough I love you don't you get it? " I said trying to get him to change his mind. I only had an hour to stop him. We both knew it before he took my virginity yesterday.
"You will be fine once you are back home" But I knew it would never be home. Mello's arms were home.
"No I won't I love you I'll die without you," I said with my tears the words looked like a child. He brought me closer and wiped my tears with a gloved thumb. He was so very gentle I thought that perhaps I was convincing him.
"you'll learn to love again. Someone from your own world" he said softly to reassure me. I wasn't going to disagree with what might be the logical truth. However, there was the case of what if he was wrong? snaked through my head. Not to forget I loved Mello before meeting him face to face. How could I hope to equal out that love or not die from the heartache?
"Why?" I whispered afraid to burst into tears again. "Why can't I live here with you? Or take you home? Why do I have to watch my heart get ripped from my chest?" The tears fell and fell hard. He pulled me and hugged me his vest and neck getting hit by my tears.
"You know why," he said softly. "This isn't about me or the rivalry anymore it's bigger than that. It's about Kira and stopping don't use your notebook to write your name, her name, Light's name or Near's name. Please it's my last order and my dying wish for you to live and be happy in your own home where you won't have guilt from what happened here" I swallowed hard it would be impossible to not have guilt. He kissed me softly but with his feeling of regret, his love and his longing to stay with me, and his sorrow.
Matt opened the door to go outside. I turned around in fear but Matt only pulled the last check-up excuse. He knew I couldn't bring myself to say goodbye. He went to the garage and checked his car. I couldn't help but think this was how Yuri in Red River felt but unlike me, she could stay and did. "Fifteen minutes Mell" he said as he went back in as if Mello or me needed reminding.
"Remember the good times we had," He said cupping my cheek with a soft smile. The same smile that I fell for back when we were teens. Now it hurt more I wasn't just losing the man but the sweet, bad-mouthed, bad-tempered, genius orphan too. I looked away trying to bring strength cause what he asked of me was crushing me. It was hard enough to lose the man but to lose the boy too was so bad. I wasn't sure I was going to have the will to live.
Matt came out saying it's time. Mello hugged me from behind one last time and I clung to his arm wanting the hug to be longer. "Be strong" he whispered and left. I watched him get on his bike that we made out on and had escaped so much on. I watched him look back, wave and then he put on his helmet, gunned it, and left. My cellphone rang and it was James telling me it was all set.
I sighed pocketing the stupid thing. I then headed to the house that by logic was supposed to take me home. I had already sent my stuff there. It felt more final now. I walked on the street. I wanted to give him an excuse, a push, a delay, but we knew he was already on the verge of breaking and trusted me to stay strong so he could do it.
I then went there. We did the same as before but I couldn't enjoy my cheese sandwich. As we had redone what got us there, I could feel us heading back. Then we ended up falling on a street again but it was my street. I saw a missing poster it had the three of us. I noticed the date according to that we only been gone five days not five and so years. I went back to that house feeling nothing but pain. The others called their guardians. I went to my bed, pulled out my Mello figurine, and cried.