Bella PoV
My heart beat ten times its normal speed and my throat felt dry like a desert despite the tea I just drank. Jake's dark eyes seemed to draw me in until I almost drowned in them and his words came through a thick cloud. I could see his lips moving and making sounds and my mind understood them but, in this moment, I was so drawn in I couldn't react.
At first it had felt so awkward; when he said this my purity was safe with him. We hardly were over our first kiss; I never had had time to think about things like this with him. But obviously he had.
I wondered if he had some experience. I really couldn't say because although he looked like a man, he was still a sixteen-year-old boy and I didn't know if he had had any girlfriends before. Because I hadn't. Boyfriends. Edward had been the first serious "relationship", and we hadn't done anything than some light kissing.
I had wanted to touch him, do more with him but for obvious reasons that had never been possible. I had touched Jake a lot already due to his constant lack of a shirt, but it had always felt like something friends would do. Not like a girl touching a boy.
It had felt good the few times we had kissed, and his hands had explored my body but even then I hadn't thought of anything sexual happening between us.
But he obviously had.
Like any sixteen-year-old teenager.
Except from me.
I wanted to hide, wanted to change into a small mouse and run away but then he took my face in his hand and my hand in his hand and said all these sweet things and now I was at a loss for words.
Somehow, he seemed to guess what my thoughts were because a soft smile appeared on his lips.
"Come here," he said, lying down on his bed. I cuddled beside him, very close because the bed was small, and he was huge. I placed my head on his shoulder and my hand on his chest, as I had countless times before. But now, everything had a new meaning and instead of circling his muscles as usual I didn't move my hand at all, afraid of giving signals I didn't understand.
But Jake wouldn't be Jake if he hadn't also caught me this time. He linked his hand with mine on his chest, looking at them, my white skin against his brown one and smiled. "It's alright Bella," he continued after some time. "You set the pace. Just do what your body tells you to do. Don't think too much about it." He placed a small kiss on my head. "We can stay like this the whole night if you want to. I am perfectly fine."
"Yeah, except that your arm will eventually fall off." I meant the one that was curled around my body.
"Don't worry, werewolves are nearly indestructible." He chuckled and gave my shoulder a small squeeze. "I love you Bells."
"I know." I sighed. "You are pretty awesome too." I teased him to overlook the fact that I couldn't return his "I love you". Not yet at least.
"Awesome? Only awesome?" He seemed offended. "I have other qualities too you know?"
"You do?" I said in all earnest but couldn't contain my laughter. "Yeah, of course you do." I patted his chest like he was a dog.
"Bells, I warn you..." He turned his head, his eyes sparkling. "I told you it's a dangerous thing to threaten a werewolf."
I propped up on my elbows as good as I could and looked down at him, smiling a wicked smile. "Because...?"
Before I knew, I was turned until I was once again laying flat on my back on his bed, Jacob hovering over me. His lips crushed hard on mine as he started another kiss. My body was on fire within seconds, and I sighed when he travelled down with his lips, kissing my cheeks, my neck, my collarbone only to come up again.
"You are so beautiful Bella," he murmured against my lips and I smiled. "You're not bad yourself." The growl that followed must have come from his wolf side and I was strangely proud of my achievement. It seemed the more Jacob was giving in to his desires the closer his human and his wolf side became. But unlike Edward, I didn't have to be afraid of him. Even his wolf wouldn't hurt me. I wasn't sure where I got this certainty, it was simply there. My hands were travelling down his spine, feeling his muscles moving underneath his soft skin. I stopped when I came to the hem of his shorts and quickly went up again.
All of a sudden, I was turned again. Now Jake was underneath me and I was on top. At first, I was confused but soon realized the advantages this new position gave him. He had now both hands free to explore my body as I half sat, half laid on him. My cheeks were flushed, and my lips felt swollen, almost raw but none of us broke the kiss. We were completely drawn in into this circle of passion, touching and stroking like the teenagers we actually were. I wasn't the girl with the ex-vampire boyfriend, and he wasn't the kid-turned-werewolf. In this moment it was only us, Bella and Jacob, girl and boy and it was good. So, so good.