The Untouchable Stryker

by Kara2211

Lexa has had a very hard life. She doesn't know who her parents are or where she is really from. All she knows is she is different and wants to get out of Afghanistan. She is forced to fight for Ahmed's group when her school was bombed. That's where she met Ash, the person she thought was the love of her life but then she meets Clarke.

33. Chapter 33

Chapter 33: Lexa

After Clarke and I made it home last night, I tried to talk her into staying home tomorrow instead of going to work, but she said that she was already having to take time off to go to the fights with me so she really couldn't. She also said that work would keep her mind off of everything that had happened.

I didn't want to push her too hard so I let it go with the condition that if she needed to talk, she would let me know. She promised to talk to me and said that she had made an appointment with the rape crisis counselor also. I started getting the couch ready for me to sleep on when she ask, "Do you think…uh…um would you mind sleeping with me tonight?"

"Um…sure if that is what you need. I will do anything; all you have to do is ask." I go over to the bed and pull down the covers and get in laying on my back on the right side of the bed. She crawls in next to me and asks if I will hold her, so I open up my arms and she lays her head on my chest. I'm not sure what to do with my hand so I just begin to rub her back. It doesn't take long for her to fall asleep. Even though she sleeps, I don't think it is a restful sleep. She tosses and turns all night and talks in her sleep. A couple of times even waking up screaming Stop.

The next morning my alarm goes off at five like usual. I start to ease my way out of bed, but Clarke tightens her grip and mumbles, "Please don't go."

I kiss her forehead and say, "Ya Amar, I have training, and don't you have to get ready for work? I know you didn't get much sleep, are you sure you don't want to call in and just stay here and relax?"

"No, I really need to go to work. What time is it?"

"It's five AM. Do you want breakfast?"

"Shit, I have to get ready for work." She starts to sit up but winces in pain.

"Are you okay? Can I do anything?"

"I'll be fine. I'm just sore. I will need to go by the pharmacy on my way to work and pick up a Plan B though. They didn't have any on the ambulance. How about I get a shower and meet you upstairs for breakfast before I head to work."

"That sounds good, but what is a Plan B?"

"Um…it's a pill to make sure I don't get pregnant since Finn didn't bother to use protection. I don't want to…well, I don't want to have his kid. So, just in case I will take the pill."

"Oh, okay. Please remember if you need to talk, I'm here. See you upstairs." I lean in and kiss her on the cheek.

After Clarke left for work, Jose and I worked out for about an hour before Ash got here for the second part of my training. Once we were finished, Ash said she needed to talk to me. Well, Ash finally told me about her, and Callie and it feels surprisingly good to get it out into the open. I mean I basically knew something was up already, but I was giving her time to tell me. Now maybe Clarke will see that Ash is no longer a threat to her and she will give me a chance. I send a group text to the guys about getting together tomorrow after my morning training session to have some fun with the water toys.

Then I send a text to O, Jose and Reed telling them to meet me at the fire pit for drinks in about twenty minutes. I go down to the spa for a cryo session before getting a shower and throwing on some sweats. Even though I am glad to know where I stand with Ash, letting go isn't painless. I know she will always be there for me but what we had in the desert was amazing and I will never forget it.

Lauren and her people have finally finished with all the changes to my room and the rest of the boat and I have to admit, it is pretty awesome. I can't wait to show Asher his room tomorrow. I just hope Callie doesn't get made about it. I had it decked out in UFC gear and posters. I had a loft bed put in that holds a kid sized heavy bag under it, along with a speed bag. It looks like his own little gym. I haven't even shown Ash yet.

When O and the guys get there, I have the shot glasses and tequila ready. Octavia says, "What's wrong? Why are we day drinking?"

I laugh, "Why does something have to be wrong in order to day drink?"

Jose says, "Well, you don't normally day drink, especially since you are training for a fight next week."

"Fine, you got me. Ash finally told me about her and Callie being together and before you say anything, I'm fine and knew it was coming. It just…well, it still hurts some even though I agree that what we had is over."

O says, "I know it sucks, but now maybe Clarke will see she has nothing to worry about."

"Exactly, that's why I invited everyone over tomorrow. Ash is going to bring Asher and Callie so, I thought if we had more people over it wouldn't be as awkward and then Clarke could see that Ash and Callie are together."

Reed shakes his head, "You must really like this girl if you are willing to be around Callie and Ash together. I mean I would think that it would be painful to see her with Callie after what you two once had."

"Well, we are all going to have get used to being around one another at some point. Besides, I realize that what Ash and I had was more than likely a result of what we went through together, and we will always be a part of one another's life, just not like we had thought. We are friends and will always be there for each other no matter what."

Octavia says, "I'll drink to that. Hey, why don't we go to that Mexican place you like so much and then text everyone to meet up at the Dragon's Den tonight?"

"Sure, that sounds good."

I decide that I am going to go out and have fun tonight and not think about anything other than having fun. I want to dance and drink and just let loose for a change. These last couple of weeks have been intense with training and the awkwardness between Ash and me and Clarke and me. Then with everything that happened last night, I just hope that Clarke will feel like coming out. Tonight, I'm just going to see what happens.

The Dragon's Den is packed as usual, which is fine with me. I walk in and grab what has become our table in the corner. I like it because I can see everyone come and go. I go ahead and order a bottle of Patron and have a few shots while I wait on everyone else to arrive. O is already on the dance floor with a hot red head. I don't have to wait long until Jess and Angie arrive. They are usually the first to arrive and are always ready for shots. It's funny how well Jess and I get along considering she is Callie's younger sister, but we do. After a few more shots, I'm feeling rather good and decide to head out and join O.

About an hour later, I'm feeling really good and the crew is all here, well except for Finn but I'm glad he isn't here, and he better have enough sense not to show up especially with the restraining order. Clarke actually showed up and said she was off for the next few days in order to go to the fight and things which made me extremely happy. Hopefully, she would like to spend some of her free time with just me. She must be feeling alright because I coerced her to dance with me a few times. There is a break in the music, and someone comes over the microphone and says that karaoke will be starting soon so everyone should come and sign up.

I let out a groan, just thinking about singing in front of people makes me nervous. I have to admit though it was kind of fun once I was up there. I follow Jessie up to sign up and O comes up behind me and says, "Yep, we are definitely doing it after we were such a hit last time."

I jokingly say, "I don't think so, I'm not that drunk." Even though I have already signed up and also told Jessie that I would sing with her as well.

O laughs, "Well, we can fix that easily enough. Bartender a round of fireball, please."

We take a few shots of fireball and a couple of yager bombs and listen to people murder one song after another. While I'm waiting on my turn to sing, I take a few more shots, I sit there and watch everyone on the dance floor. They all seem so happy with their partners and I realize that's what I want. I don't like the one-night stands, I want something more and I want it with Clarke. I decide I want to let Clarke know how I feel by singing to her. Now that I have finally cleared the air with Ash, I want to let Clarke know that I am all in, whenever she is ready. I want her to know that I chose her, not because Ash went back to Callie but because when I kissed her, she changed everything for me. I ask O to help me pick out a song.

When it is Jess's turn, she grabs me and pulls me up to the stage with her. When we get up there, she tells the DJ Crave by Thomas Rhett. She looks at me and says, "You take lead, and I will sing back up." The song begins and I sing looking at Clarke. Every time we have to say goodbye/I'm counting down until we say hello/Every touch is like the strongest drug/I don't know how much longer I can go/I never had something that I can't walk away from/But, girl, my self-control's so paralyzed/When it comes to you, no, I ain't got no patience/There's something 'bout you girl I just can't fight/Jess comes in, You're like that cigarette/That shot of 100 proof/No matter how much I get/I'm always craving you/That feeling when we kiss/The way your body moves/No matter how much I get/I'm always craving you/Craving you/All the in-between is killing me/You know I come unglued from missing you/Sunset eyes, no, I don't have to try
Because you know exactly what to do. Jess comes in for the chorus, I never had something that I can't walk away from (walk away from)/But, girl, my self-control's so paralyzed/When it comes to you, no, I ain't got no patience (I ain't got no patience)/There's something 'bout you I just can't fight/You're like that cigarette/That shot of 100 proof/No matter how much I get/I'm always craving/That feeling when we kiss/The way your body moves/No matter how much I get
I'm always craving you/Craving you/(I'm always craving you)/Craving you/Craving you/Every time we have to say goodbye/I'm counting down until we say hello/Every touch is like the strongest drug/I don't know how much longer I can go/(Yeah, yeah, yeah)/You're like that cigarette/That shot of 100 proof/No matter how much I get/I'm always craving/That feeling when we kiss/The way your body moves/No matter how much I get/I'm always craving you, yeah
Craving you/Craving you(I'm craving you baby)/Clarke I'm craving you/I'm craving you babe

As soon as that song is over Octavia comes running up on stage with a shot of tequila for me and tells the DJ to play Way to Pretty for Prison by Miranda Lambert. I laugh and down the shot and start to sing. They don't have rhinestone ball and chains/Lunch trays don't come with Chardonnay/The bars there ain't got boys to buy us drinks, I add which is ok, we don't like them anyway/We'd stick out like two bottled blondes/I must admit it don't sound fun/For fifteen girls to have to share one sink. O comes in to help with the chorus, He cheated, he's a villain/And you know I'd help you kill him/But you're way too pretty for prison/Hard time ain't our kind of living
And I don't want to talk about/The way those jumpsuits wash us out/We're way too pretty for prison/ Here it comes back to me and I change the words a little, I can put Antifreeze with his Gatorade/Arsenic in his lemonade/Takes just one snip to bleed his brakes/But we ain't gonna do it/(She ain't gonna do it)/But I might just do it/Yeah, we've been watching too much TV/You ain't Thelma, I ain't Louise/But if we ask 'em they'd both agree/We should put him through it/(Don't put him through it)/I think I will put him through it. O comes in again, He cheated, he's a villain
So let's hire somebody to kill him/'Cause we're way too pretty for prison/Yeah, hard time ain't our kind of living/And I don't want to talk about/The way those jumpsuits wash us out/We're way too pretty for prison/La de da da da/(La de da da da)/La de da da da/(La de da da da)/La de da da/La de da da/La de da da da/Well, the state won't pay for lash extensions/No Sun Tan City, not to mention/That lack of waxing situation/Oh oh. We run the chorus one last time and then we're done.

We walk back to the table laughing and Clarke looks at me and smiles. I grab another shot and then sit down beside her. Octavia says, "Would you really do it, if you could get away with it?"

I laugh and say, "In a heartbeat, even if I didn't get away with it. I've been in one prison or another my whole life so I'm quite sure I would survive, and it would be worth it to know that he couldn't hurt anyone ever again."

Clarke leans in and whispers, "I would never want you to go to prison for me, but it is nice to know that you would." Then she kisses me on the cheek.

Jess speaks up, "I feel like the rest of us are missing out on part of the conversation. What's so funny about that song?"

Clarke turns pink and says, "Really, Jess. Why don't you think about it for a while and see if you can figure it out?" O, Clarke, and I die laughing, while Jess has a look of utter confusion on her face.

When it's my turn I down a shot and then take the microphone and start to sing I can't fight this feeling by REO Speed wagon. I look at Clarke and start to sing, Oh, I can't fight this feeling any longer/And yet, I'm still afraid to let it flow/What started out as friendship, has grown stronger/I only wish I had the strength to let it show/I tell myself that I can hold out forever/I said there is no reason for my fear/'Cause I feel so secure when we're together/You give my life direction/You make everything so clear. I add, "I want you Clarke and no one else."

Octavia joins me for the chorus: And even as I wander, I'm keeping you in sight/You're a candle in the window on a cold, dark winter's night/And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might/And I can't fight this feeling anymore/I've forgotten about Ash and what I thought I wanted what I started fighting for is no more/It's time to bring this ship into the shore and show you how I feel/And throw away the oars, forever/Cause I can't fight my feelings for you anymore/I've forgotten what I started fighting for/And if I have to crawl upon the floor/Come crashing through your door/Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore

I sing the second verse: My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you/I've been running round in circles in my mind since we kissed/And it always seems that I'm following you, girl/'Cause you take me to the places that, alone, I'd never find

Again, O joins me for the chorus, when we get to the part about, I can't fight this feeling anymore, I step off the stage and start to walk towards Clarke. She starts looking around and then I take a few quick steps and slide across the floor as I sing if I have to crawl upon the floor/Come crashing through your door. I come to a stop at her feet and then stand up and take her hand and finish strong with, Baby, I can't fight my feelings anymore.

When I finish the place erupts into cheers. O looks at me with a huge smile, but I can only see Clarke. When I finally find my voice I say, "What can I do to prove to you that I am over Ash and ready to move on?" Everyone is staring at us, but I don't care. I need to know. Her cheeks are red at this point and I think that she is about to run, but to my surprise she pulls me in and kisses me deeply. Everyone starts clapping. When I pull away, I look into her beautiful emerald eyes and ask, "Does this mean…" I don't get to finish my sentence because Finn grabs Clarke from behind, pulling her away from me. I'm stunned for a minute and just stand there, until I snap out of it and realize what is happening. I ball up my fist and head toward Finn, I can't believe the asshole is here.

Clarke pushes him away and says, "Finn how are you even out of jail right now? You know you aren't supposed to be near me. We are done and have been for almost a month. You were cheating on me. Now leave before I call the cops."

He says, "You knew that my dad would get me out of jail, so I don't know why you are so surprised. Now let's go."

He grabs her by the arm and starts to pull on her arm. She pushes him and says, "I'm not going anywhere with you. Leave me alone."

He says, "Bullshit, you will do as you are told like always!" Then he raises his hand like he is about to hit her. I grab him from behind as Clarke kicks him hard in the nuts and I let him go to slump onto the floor holding himself. I dial Officer Allison's number and tell her what just happened, and she tells me to tell the bouncer to hold him until she can get here.

Finn is still laying on the floor when Officer Allison gets here. I think at some point he must have passed out because when she checks he is unconscious. When she rolls him over, I notice that he has pissed himself and has what looks like blood on his pants. She calls for an ambulance and they arrive a few minutes later and take him to the hospital. Officer Allison takes everyone's statement and then heads out.

Once she was gone, I looked at Clarke and ask her if she was okay. She just nods yes. The next person up starts singing and it seems like everyone is going back to what they were doing. I look at O and say, "I think that I am going to call it a night and head home. Clarke, would you like to come stay with me tonight just to make sure he doesn't try anything stupid? That is if he gets out of the hospital tonight. Remind me not to let you kick me."

She looks at me and says, "Ha ha very funny. Yes, I think that would be a good idea. I'm sorry that he ruined your…well, your romantic gesture. It was really amazing, and you have an awesome voice."

I can feel my cheeks heat up and the rest of the guys circle around and everyone starts telling me how great I sing and how romantic me singing to Clarke was. Then they switch to how they can't believe Finn made such a scene after he was the one that was caught cheating. I just shake my head and say, "I can, he never liked me, and he is pissed because it was me that caught him. I guess he thought that out of everyone Clarke wouldn't believe me."

Sami spoke up and said, "I had seen him out with other women before, but I could never catch him doing anything incriminating enough to warrant bringing it up to Clarke. He was pretty careful about going places that none of us ever went. I had my suspicions but nothing concrete. I'm sorry I didn't say anything sooner Clarke, but I wanted to be sure first."

Clarke replies, "It's okay, I had my suspicions too. I just didn't want to believe it. Hell, I almost didn't believe it when Lexa told me even though she had pictures. Anyway, I'm sorry that he ruined our night out. Well, I guess I will see everyone tomorrow at Lexa's for some fun in the sun."

The ride back to the docks was quiet. I could tell Clarke was upset and I wanted to give her time to process everything. As we walked to the Untouchable, she grabbed my hand and said, "Thank you."

I was confused so I ask, "For what?"

"Well, being so patient for one but…also for that amazing song you sang. I can't believe you did that. Why didn't you tell me you could sing?"

"You're welcome. I don't usually sing in front of people, usually only in the shower. I was just sitting there watching all the couples and how happy they were, and I just wanted to do something to let you know how I feel about you and well…it just sorta happened. As far as being patient, I feel like you are worth the wait. Just know that I am here when you are ready. You can trust me, you know, that right?"

She looked at the ground and then up to me and nodded, "But what if…what if I'm never ready? I never thought that I'd want to be with a woman. I just always assumed that I would marry Finn and I would end up, I don't know. When I met you, it was…I was, uh…When I met you, it scared me to death…and then when we kissed it only scared me more. I tried to push you away by being cold and mean but you just seemed to shrug it off and never hold it against me. I mean…well I'm scared and…um…I have never been with anyone but Finn and until you came along had never even thought of being with a woman. What if…what if I don't like it or I don't know what to do? And…well with everything that has happened, why would you even still want to be with me."

I lean in and kiss her on the cheek, "Ya Amar, don't worry about any of those things. I'm not going anywhere, and I don't want you to feel pressured or uncomfortable. You let me know what you want and need, and I will be there and if at some point you realize it's not for you…well we will figure it out. Yes, I still want to be with you. There isn't anything that he can do to make me not want to be with you. Understand?"

"Thank you."

When we get down to my room, I grab her a pair of sweats and t-shirt to sleep in. While she changes, I get the couch set up for me with a blanket and pillow. It is already around one a.m. and I am ready to crash especially since I have an early morning training session. So, I am laying on the couch when she comes out of the bathroom.

She comes out and looks at me laying on the couch and says, "You know you don't have to sleep on the couch."

I say sleepily, "Huh? I want you to have the bed. I am fine here on the couch."

She laughs, "No, silly. I mean we can share the bed…but just for sleeping like last night."

"No, it is okay. I don't mind sleeping here. I don't want you to feel pressured to sleep with me just because I sang you a song."

"You know, you can really be an idiot sometimes. What I am saying is, that I would really like it if you would please sleep with me again tonight. I would really like to wake up beside you."

"What…oooh okay. I can do that for sure. Is it okay to snuggle or…"

She chuckles at me. "Of course, silly. I would love to snuggle with you."

We spent the night in each other's arms, sleeping. It was the best night's sleep since the night I last spent with Ash. Unfortunately, five a.m. came too quickly. I wake up early and I am lying on my side and Clarke is all wrapped up around my body, hugging me from behind softly snoring in my ear. In her sleep, she has molded herself against my back. The crazy thing about it is how comfortable and at ease I feel in Clarke's embrace. It was just so damned perfect. Our two bodies fit as if they had been custom-made for each other. Clarke has a single arm draped around my neck, and I was clutching onto her left hand.

Clarke was sleeping so peacefully that I wished I could just lay here and watch her sleep but if I didn't get upstairs to train, Ash would come looking for me. So, I carefully extracted myself from her embrace and got up. I left her a note letting her know that I would be upstairs training and laid it along with a rose on my pillow.

Clarke

When I wake up, there is once again a sweet note and a rose on the pillow beside me. I could really get used to this, but I would really rather wake up and find her still beside me. It is crazy how well I slept last night in her arms. I have never felt so safe and loved. I still can't believe she sang me that amazing song last night and even changed some of the words for me. I just wish Finn hadn't ruined the moment.

I wish I weren't terrified of starting a relationship with her. She really is an amazing woman. I just can't wrap my head around being attracted to another woman and how does it even work. I mean there are just so many things that I have questions about, but she said that we would work everything out. I wish I could just get out of my head! When I'm with her everything seems so…I don't know perfect…safe. It feels like I'm the only person in the world in her eyes when we are with each other. I really wish mom were here to help me sort everything out. Ugh, I head to the shower and try and relax some before I go upstairs. I really want to watch Lexa train for a little bit before I head home.

When I get upstairs, Ash is there with Jose and Lexa and I feel…I don't know what I feel. We had such a great time last night and I loved being in her arms but here Ash is, and it makes me wonder if she is truly over her. When Lexa sees me, she smiles and waves before coming over. When she gets to me, she leans in like she is going to kiss my cheek but for some stupid reason, I step away.

The hurt in her eyes almost too much for me and I feel tears building. She asks me if I'm okay and to stay for breakfast, but I brush her off and say that I need to get home. I use the excuse that I need to get my swimsuit. I know I hurt her, and I have no idea why except that I'm scared that she still loves Ash even though she says otherwise. Even though she is hurt, she says, "Hold on and let me go with you, just in case Finn…"

I interrupt her and say, "Thanks, but I just need some space. I'll be fine." Then I just walk away. What the hell is wrong with me?